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2004 17 March :: 6.21pm
:: Mood: better
:: Music: Dancin' Days
Paul
I miss you
I don't care what anyone thinks
You had the right to feel the way you did
and you could be touchy and clingy, but you loved and you loved the people around, it's just how you worked
I didn;t know you to well
and I drew away and sometimes I blame myself for that and for you going
I think everyone balmes themselves a little
But I miss you
You were the only one who cared, or joked around, or really treated me like I needed to be treated
And I don't think I was able to help you the few times when you came, but I wish I could have
You were good, you helped me and I couldn't help you
I was callous and I drew away
I was scared of someone taking interest even if it was just
"We gotta get you a girl, Twitch" or "Be funny if a goth got up with a 12 guage and blew him away" or just the "why, why does it happen"
I miss you and I try to be more open now
I really do
thanks for the help, and when I think of what you have dine for me, even if you don't think you did anything, it is the closest I have been to crying as far back as I can remember
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2004 17 March :: 6.17pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: The Crunge, same
Concerning Tori
you're great
I don't know what it is, but you've got it in you to love and be loved, and you are loved by many
You seem to have something that I like in you, only as a friend mind you, but you just seem great
I know I can annoy you, and I'm sorry, but I warned you I could be a jackass
But you're just great, a person ... who .... what can I say ........ "Where's the confounded bridge?"
There is no word to sum you up, you're so much and ... wow
I can't describe it
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2004 17 March :: 6.10pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: Rain Song, Zeppelin
Day 32, been a while
I don't know why I let this sit so long
I just had so much to go through in my head
And know I think I've got it worked out, at least some of it
I don't know if you call it love, but that's the closest thing I have for them, about 10 people, I love you all
I don't think I'm afraid of the pain of suicide, I mean it's just a little cut, momentary, I just don't want to leave you all
I face damnation in any direction, and i'd rather face it with you all, at least you can all help, ... well you can help more than Judus while I rot in the ninth level of hell
I'm gonna write a long one on all the people I care about, not just the ones I love, but the ones I don't hate
And I'll write some stuff about what I've figured out
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2004 7 March :: 3.55pm
this is a cool quiz. Results very accurate, for me.
You are the chinese element of Water. People who
are under the element of Water are creative,
independent and intelligent. Water you are a
dreamer, but are quite vulnerable, and have
hidden agendas. The color of water is black,
and your symbol is the tortoise. Winter is the
season in which Water shines and it's months
are October/November. Your weather condition
is cold. Water is the direction of north, and
your day is Wednesday, while your planet is
Mercury. Animals under your element are
usually shelled. People under you are Turks.
Your sense is hearing, your taste is salty,
your sound is moaning and your virtue is
knowledge. Your organs are the kidneys. You
were created by Metal and control Fire.
Which of the 5 Chinese Elements Are You?
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2004 7 March :: 3.42pm
Whatever you're looking for is being roasted on a stick over a florescent lightbulb by pixies in a cave in the swiss alps.
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2004 2 March :: 8.21pm
:: Mood: distressed
:: Music: Wake Up, Rage Against The Machine
Day 17
So I'm sittin here
and decide to listen to Wake Up
and update the journal
they're all so sad
so am I, but, I don't know
I settle well
I just don;t even care enough anymore
not even enough to end it all
I mean, I'm gonna burn in hell anyway, about a 1 in 6,000,000 chance that I wont, not to mention couintless cults, sub-religions, native religions, unfound religions, forgotten religions, and even Buddhism
I'm a bad man, so why end it, on this side is torment and on that side is torment, though there's maybe a lesser chance of torment on the other side ... hum
I don't even believe in any of that
so why bring it up
oh well, outta enery
just keep a logical view and you'll never do anything I guess
logic sucks
so does life I guess
... shit here comes the logic
I go now
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2004 29 February :: 12.02am
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: Cabron, RHCP
Day 15
which it almost is
and now the annoyance is over
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2004 29 February :: 12.01am
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: Cabron, RHCP
Day 15
until this song is over
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2004 29 February :: 12.01am
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: Cabron, RHCP
Day 15
I will make several entries
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2004 29 February :: 12.01am
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: Cabron, RHCP
Day 15
in celebration of a new day
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2004 28 February :: 11.21pm
:: Mood: hopeful
:: Music: none
Day 14
we made a deal
to help eachother
and we'll do it
I think we understand eachother
maybe just a little
and we can help eachother
life might get better
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2004 27 February :: 8.00pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: none
Day 13
wow ... that didn't work well
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2004 27 February :: 7.52pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: none
Day 13
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2004 26 February :: 9.43pm
:: Mood: hopeful
:: Music: Zypher Song, Red Hot Chilli Peppers
Day 12
Missed Day 11 ... oh well
yeah I know the RHCP aren't that good, but just bought the CD "By The Way", mainly for Can't Stop and By The Way. RHCP are a little more .... how you say .... uplifting and .... I wanna say .... no, let's be confusing ... quixotic, than what I usually listen to, but sometimes I need a little softer ... easier and lighter stuff, to maintain sanity ...
so, where this was goin in the first place, checked out the new Hastings, finally. Paid off my debt and found some cash, got new headphones and ... the CD mentioned before. .... Not that I don't have money, I just don't like takin it out ... it's there if I ever really need it ... if anyone else really needs it. It's a help fund I put almost everythin I get into, which isn't much usually, so I live off the scraps ... the little things I keep around. Why did I just say all that ...
Well, so, making note .... need CD's: Kill 'em All, Metallica Wishkah, Nirvana Lithium Single, Nirvana Wheezer, Wheezer Tommy, The Who Odalay, Beck Maybe some Misfits, Ramones, Rancid????
need cash first .... now that my monatary situation is over in my head
side by side
but estranged by feet
both similar
and endlessly different
silent
and hopefully understanding
and I care
hope that got the message across
she's readin it right now I bet, hope it doesn't offend her ... mighta've screwed it all up with that
oh well, there's food
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2004 24 February :: 8.10pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Unforgiven II, Metallica
Day 10
I feel like I've done something wrong
Something to make them all do this
.... something bad is going to happen
something very bad .... very very bad, for me or for them, but something bad ... and it's gonna hurt
................................ I fell like shit
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