aaaaaaah tonight was so fucking awesome!!!!! hehe.. we ( me sam rach n jessie ) were driving on over to office depot center.. and we saw adam and andrea in their caR! we were like frantically waving it was funny.. adam thought i was a boy :o( lol.. then we got there.. and we all met up.. and we got shirts and stuff (very cute) ...and we went in.. and surprisingly the show started on time.. rod hot circuit was the first opening act.. they were really good.. and mxpx played after them...awesome..and then......dun dun dun..... GOOD CHARLOTTE CAME OUT!!!! AHHHHHHHHH lol.. that was me the whole time.. ahhhing in my little girl voice as they say lol.. by the time they were done, and we were done screaming/singing/jumping.. we needed some drinks.. so we went potty.. and got on line for drinks.. i still heard people sinigng in my ears lol it was kinda funny... and then new found glory started to play so sammy went out... and we stayed on line.. and omg i got so dizzy and i couldnt see and i kinda just plopped onto the floor lol... and i was feeling strong again so i got up and i was wrong so i kept goin down a few times lol... then we got our drinks.. and i chugged it down cuz i was so damn thirsty...then kinda fell over again..jessie went back in but rachie stayed out with me till i recovered a little on the ground.. :o) thanks babe... and i made a mad dash to our seats cuz i didnt think id make it lol.. then umm.. i went to put my drink in the cupholder...but sam already had her coke there..and cokes dark.. and so was the room. so yeah didnt see it lol, and couldnt hear her telling me not to... so i put it ontop of her coke and everything spilled all over everything lol.. sry! so all our shit was soaked.. cept for my shirt.. luckily lol.. anywho.. then new found glory was playin and we were all rockin along... mucho divertido.. lol.. and that was our night.......rach and jessie saw this "hot guy" like 10 times and they were like omg its a sign were meant to be with him lol.. fun stuff.. sam tried to find some random guy so she could prove to us shes not a lesbo.. but yeah that didnt happen.. instead she smacked my ass.. so im still suspicious lol... im jk babe! u know i love uuuuu! (not that way.. sorry...i already gots sumone for that :o) lol ) .. k .. well im so fuckiing sleepy.. time 4 bed... nite guys!

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH LEAVIN FOR THE CIVIC TOUR SHOW IN 15 MINUTES!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :o)

wow.. its been a while.. updating this thing just for natalia! lol.. anywho.. lately.. been prettty busy....lotsa work.. weekends havent been home... mostly been with my sammy! hehe. but this weekend if i cant see emy.. then im gonna go over rachies on friday...that shuld be fun! ..she hurt her footsie in eaglettes tryouts so now shes on crutches! poor baby....annywho.. WE GOT YEARKBOOKS!!!! ahhhhh lol .. im like inseperable from mine.. i cant wait till next year i get to maaaaake it :o) lol.. dont really kno wat to say.. i lost the hang of doing my daily woohu entry.. so , im lost :o( . today i went in at 10:30....to turn in my paper to sr. mcmanus.. and take my damn math test.. eesh that thing was hard.. bus was kinda funn.. sam took like a frikken hour and stilll didnt write shit in my yearbook lol.. rr,. u better finish it tomorrow hunny lol.. adams been extremely obnoxious at points lately.... like sometimes i love hanging out with him n stuff... but then theres those times hes just ....RRRRRRRR.. ::deep breath:: .. oh well.. itll pass.. everything else is good tho.. kinda.. maybe.. i think.. w.e lol sick of over analyzing shit.. k well g2g... i gonna call my baby :o)

lala.. .. tonite was fun.. i went to andreas, we went to pick up adancito :) lol .. and her daddy took us to get tickets to see that movie. uh whats it called. identity. there u go. but they wouldnt let us get em so we were like ok w/e well just sneak in later.. so we went across the street to mission bay to eat at wings plus. NOBODY go there. lol. 1) the hostess stuck us in the kids room in the corner lol 2)she asked if we wanted frikken kids menus when she was our age.. 3) after like, 15 minutes, we didnt have utensils, drinks, nothing, no service.. at all. so we just got up and left.. and we walked to fridays.. lol.. once we got a table our waitress SEEMED nice.. but then after adam was wacking his glass up n down to get more she looked kinda pissed lol and then we found paper in my soup and she looked quite disturbed lol shes like "oh i can assure u whatever it is, our kitchens are sanitary!!" yeah.. cuz im sure everyone likes paper in their soup. lol. so then after that we walked over to shadowwood n got tickets for Anger Management.. and walked over to borders cuz we had like another hour till the movie.. and we just hung out there.. fun fun.. then it started lke 9:30 .. it was ehh. adam sandlers movies started out so fucking funny.. and theyve gotten worse every new movie.. this one was ... not that good.. but ehh i dont know we left i guess 1/2 or 3/4 way through at like .. 11? cuz adams mommy was gonna get us and we didnt really like it anyways.. she was kinda pissed off lol.. anywho, i was gonna sleep at ange's but she wasnt feeling too hot so i guess im gonna go over there manana. bio and purses.. i remember me n her n adam used to do everything together.. i miss hangin out with them! it was fun.. like old times.. k .. well im kinda tired.. didnt really get to talk to my baby tonight.. :( ...maybe tomorrow i hope so.. i was with him today last week!! :( .. (i miss himmmmm)... ::sigh:: .. k.. time for bed.. buenas noches.

awesome day :) .. i think, lol. spanish mr lona brought us donuts! hehe they were yummy in my tummy.. french was gay as usual.. english was so fucking funny lol... adam and josh tried out their "new styles" with their shorts rolled up to like, their fucking crotches, it was so gross, but then so funny lol, adam held his up with suspenders .. i almost like pissed my pants the first time i saw him.. then josh went up to mr mcmanus like that and mr mcmanus was like, staring, and like uhhhhhhhh, lol, we were all questioning his sexuality today.... english is usually pretty funny lol.. then in math we had a quiz.. but it was so easy, like the first math thing, that one, i didnt cheat on, didnt have to, aaaaaand i finished in like 5 minutes and did the bonus too.. im really happy about that lol i know. im a dork. and i actually did my hw in class lol.. that was like, the 5th hw ive done this year for math.. so.. yeah school went well today.. OH i forgot lol Sammy brought in the apples and peanut butter lmao when she pulled it out i couldnt stop laughing. . i duno why tho.. i guess we were just such dorks about it at her house that now whenever i see peanut butter im gonna laugh lol... anywho.. i was supposed to be goign to church tonight but mom said were not.. so im gonna go see a movie or something with andrea.. duno wat yet tho.. and tomorrow i have to study for bio :( but im goin to her house n were gonna make our sexy purses too.. so it should be fun! we havent hung out in like, months.. so it should be fun.. then i gotta go to church for midnight mass.. i hope i dont like fall asleep.. that wouldnt be good...
oh yeah.. things are superdeedooper again with emy :) its like whenever the tiniest things wrong with us, i get all depressed, but when things are good, :) tehehe. <- which is where i am now.. :) i looove him

today was gooood.......1/2 day! .. rach missed the bus so she caught a ride with me n michael.. spanish was... translations and free time..history was kinda fun, sticking cheese in lawrences hair lmao ange he didnt notice .. bio was easy today.. PE was ok.. i guess? .. i duno nothing really eventful at school... i had a nice chat with adam on the bus :) i miss those. we determined that once we make his velcro shirt over the summer were gonna get started on my novel.. my life story as a romanian lol.. itll be .. interesting..very drama-filled tho so itll be good :) heh. it was a fun bus ride today.. like there were maybe 15 people there instead of like, what, 60 ? lol it was nice.. we talked a lot... good convo! .. so i went home with sammy and we discoverd a new awesome food (apples with peanut butter = yummmmmy ) lol dont forget to bring the jar to school tomorrow lol... so then me n her walked over to boca falls and we went into their little gym/weight room thingy and were working out for like an hour.. oh yeah.. and then we walked home.. we were being silly :) .. love u hunny! .. then we hung out a little n mommy came to get me n here i am.. joy.
i dont know why but ive been like depressed this week. i think it has something to do with emy but im not really sure what it is. i dont know. whats wrong with me!! i just feel like we hit a cold spot or osmething, like he hasnt called me in 3 weeks :( and ive called him a few times and he wasnt home.. so his mom said she'd have him call me back.. but he never did.. i miss talking to him :( .. i feel like maybe things arent as good as they could be with us, maybe its just cuz im having an off week, i dont know, but it just bothers me some of the stuff he says.. maybe i take things too personally... idk.. i dont like to think..it gets me all depressed like this :( oh well... gotta go study for math quiz manana....... :( joy. at least we finally get our mother fucking donuts in spanish!!!!!

i guess when it comes down to it.. being grown up isnt half as fun as growing up.. these are the best times of our lives.. the only thing that matters is just following ur heart.. and eventually ull finally get it right..

.. best fucking song ever..gonna see it live too:) .. warped tour..yayness..

so.. eh this weeks been a "keep-to-myself" kind of week..havent really let many people in on my life.... like, everything everyones been doing has been pissing me off this week.. u know u have those weeks, like there freaking awesome, and then, like POW a shitty week comes along. i mean nothings happend.. its just been...bleh... but tomorrow me and sammy are going to the beach.. so that should help :) ..

lalala.. procrastinating... as usual... today got up.. went to church.. fam. stayed for lunch.. michael drove him with me.. i ate.. somewhat.. i guses. watched a little tv.. and here i am.. procrastinating.. eesh. math hw, test, eng. hw, reading, french hw & test.. wow todays gonna be fun.. ::gag:: .. anywho i guess i better go get started.. happy easter everyone.. mines not till next week tho..

i cant fucking believe this..
i was just sitting around thinking about emy and how much i missed him, and he came on, and i was so happy, and he told me all this stuff how his parents are being so fucking gay, like he scared me so much, theyre fucking not letting him do anything cuz of "school" but wtf he has fucking straight a's what the hell more do they want.. he was so upset, and that plus the fact that i probly wont get to talk to him much anymore.. much less see him.. all that crammed together made me fucking burst into tears, adn i cant stop crying , its not fucking fair, lots of couples get to see eachother every fucking day and they take it for granted so much and now im probly gonna get to see him even less, its not fucking fair, why cant he live 5 minutes away.. if he did id be ther every fucking day, i wouldnt wanna spend my time anywhere else, and even living like 30 min away or w/e, i could still be out there every weekend.. but his fucking parents have to be so freaking gay, its not fair, just cause they fucked up their own lives and arent happy doesnt mean they have to ruin his :( .. i really hope they'll get over the "lets ruin our sons live" phase.. and realize what theyre doing to him.. rrrr i hate this.. i miss him so much :( i cant fucking stop crying... i need him here :(

lalalala
christini is bored....should start hw... but knowing me......nah...why not wait till sunday nighT! lol.. soo.. today was supposed to be Rapids day...but i didnt talk to lizzy...sammy couldnt go cuz her mommy "didnt want us all the way out there alone" or something, and she had to do dress shopping, and my mommy wanted a big group.. and it woulda just been me n rach n jessica anyways...,so... w/e, i know i woulda been the third wheel anywho so i guess it worked out better in a way? but i still wanna go to rapids.. one day . lol. so sammy asked me if i wanted to just go shopping with her nher mommy instead so i did..seeing as how i wanted to go to the mall anywho! .. i got some cute stuff.. 2 pairs of pants.. my ADORABLE bag.. a shirt.. and my free makeup! lol.. i really wanted that belt too.. but my daddy woulda shot me in the head if i came home with more shit.. he still hasnt seen my purchases.. lol.. but now that i look in my closet, i have a fuckload of clothes, i just tend to wear some more than others.. and i think i need to stop the shopping.. its like a sickness...lol..my moms like always tellng me how i have to wear dresses to church but i only own like, 2, one doesnt fit anymore cuz i lost a lot of weight since i last wore it (u can tell that was a while back....lo.l) and ones like christmas-looking, idk, im like if u want me to fucking wear dresses why dont u get me some lol, m,e and sammy tried to get me into the skirt look..but they just dont look right on me.. :sigh: lol.. anywho.. then we went n dropped off sammys mommys friend, and we went to ross! lol.. me and sammy tried on stuff in the mens section... literally..both their clothes AND in the section itself lol.. got some funny looks..tehehe lol. love u girl! .. we found these slicker pants that we wanted to get someone for their bday or something lmao they were so fucking funny.. then the mens underwear.. lol.. ghetto-waer... and of course.. the NIGHTGOWNS..man.. wow i dont know how some of these designers came up with their stuff lol.. so after that we went to wendys.. and as we were driving home.. we see chris with his friend lol.. sheesh.. sammy wanted to get out of the car but her mommy wouldnt let hjer... but i dont think he noticed us anywho.. so then we went back to sammys and hung out there.. and then she had to babysit so i came home, and cleaned my room, and now im bored lol. .. im sure ill find SOMETHNG to do ... hehe. lol i duno. bored/hyper. later doodies! ::silly face::

:0) teeheehee saw my baby today :) ... all warm n fuzzy inside !!! :) big smile.. :)))).. lol .. soo.. OMG FUCKING OOMPA LOOMPAS ARE ON JACKASS!!!!! AHHHH Lol hehe addeed em to the film.. anywho...today was undecided.. i really wanted to see emy, but he was busy or something so i was supposed to go to wellington with valerie..but i didnt get in touch with her.. then beach with rach.. but there were lotsa clouds n i got the vibe she didnt really wanna hang out with me.. then mall with sammy but she couldnt.. and then EMY signs on and i was like yaaaay get to do what i originally wanted!! so michael and his friends drove me there.. man his friends are gay.. wow lol.. but its all good cuz i saw my baby:) i wuv him so much!! teehehee.. all giddy.. i love u emy:)

this is who i am and this is what i like ..gc sum and blink and mxpx rockin my room.. if ur lookin for me ill be at the show.. i could never find a better place to go until the day i die, i promise i wont change...so u better give i dont wanna be told to grow up...and i dont wanna change i just wanna have fun...
ahh best song ever. even better live :) .. every time i hear simple plan now i picture me n rachie jumping up n down singing and screaming :) <- big smile..ahh... cant fucking wait for warped tour.. our canadian flag idea lol.. and sammys gonna be ther!!!! so itll be even better... ::screams:: lol.. anywho.. yesterday was muy divertido.. my girlies came over... first sammy then rachie and lizzy.. we ate.... started some scrapbooks (theyre gonna be sooo cute.. i worked on mine more today guys.. lol) , we .. started filming our video.. with "downhill laundry", "the mating call" and some random footage.. some funny..some kinda gay lol.. but it was good.. liz u gotta see it! .. so between that.. sam raping my cat... getting honked at by garbage men and mexicans..(ahh) , the woods, wendys, dans, it was so much fun.. love u girls! OH and rachel here..just had to start up some trouble with this little kid.. got me scared lol.. sam too.. then there were these scary guys .. they looked like they were 17 or somethin.. and as we were walkin home they started to follow us, like AS we passed them thye started walking, and we (as in me and sam lol) got really scared.. and we started walking faster cuz they were catching up.. then we turned the corner.. and we didnt see em, but then as we turned into my community, me n sam looked back and one of them started to run after us, and it was so fucking scary, we ran the whole way home... ahhhh.. but then we recovered..went swimming..watched american pie (we found it liz!!! sorry.. lol ).. and the girls left... and i went sleepy poo.. but it was soo much fun...
soooo...today.. i wanna go to wellington with valerie like planned but i dont htink its gonna end up happening cuz i havent talked to her yet......but i really wanna see emy, and i talked to him and he said his dads making him go n do some stuff with him and he doesnt know when he'll be home.. so i wanna go to the beach in the meantime.. get some more tanning.. and i think rach said she wanted to go today.. so maybe we can go.. i duno.. think brothers going too so maybe he'll take us.. we'll see.. so rach lemme know if u see this......and who knows maybe i can get home in time, shower, and see my baby too... i really hope so .. i miss him :(.. ::sigh::... k.. thats all for now.. later dudes