You tell me you're in love with me
Like you can't take your pretty eyes away from me
It's not that I don't want to stay
But every time you come too close I move away
I wanna believe in everything that you say
'Cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move slow
There's things about me you just have to know
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right
Be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time
I don't wanna be so shy
Every time that I'm alone I wonder why
Hope that you will wait for me
You'll see that you're the only one for me
I wanna believe in everything that you say
'Cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move slow
There's things about me you just have to know
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you righ
Be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time
Just hang around and you'll see
There's nowhere I'd rather be
If you love me, trust in me
The way that I trust in you
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right
Be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time
Yeah
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2009 21 September :: 6.48pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: "Here(In your arms)" By: Hellogoodbye
Brie and I are bored
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I wind the clock backwards
Inhail
Exhail
I wind the clock backwards
and I'm still here
I'm ready to run, fast. Getting out of Holland is a goal that I feel I have to reach soon. I'm so flustered all the time and I know I have so much to do before I leave.
Why isn't there ever an easy answer?
If I could turn the clock backwards for just a second would I change or leave it all the same? If I could wind the clock backwards and still have obtained all that I've learned would I change or would I do it all the same? My insides burn and my head spins as soon as I make my way out I jump right back in. A little bit oxymoron a little bit self-sabotage, it has become my way of life, a distant memorie, a mirage.
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2009 8 September :: 6.32am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: "Be my rain" By: Zeraphine
Ugh
Back to school for me. Leaving in about 20 minutes. I'm tired, bored, and school will increase both of those. But, I have to do it. Wish me luck. :P
When I was young I knew everything
She a punk who rarely ever took advice
Now I'm guilt stricken,
Sobbing with my head on the floor
Stop a baby's breath and a shoe full of rice
I can't be held responsible
She was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place
For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen
My best friend took a week's
Vacation to forget her
His girl took a weeks's worth of
Valium and slept
And now he's guilt stricken sobbing with his
Head on the floor
Thinks about her now and how he never really
Wept he says
I can't be held responsible
She was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place
For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen
hey yeah
hey yeah
hey yeah
We've tried to wash our hands of all this
We never talk of our lacking relationships
And how we're guilt stricken sobbing with our
Heads on the floor
We fell through the ice when we tried not to
Slip, we'd say
I can't be held responsible
She was touching her face
And I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place
For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen
For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen
We were merely freshmen
It's the real thing
Safety's off
Are you there
Are you there for me
By my side
An angel
Who dodge the bullets wide
It feels right
On a beach
When you talk
You talk without a sound
And when you walk
Your feet hardly touch the ground
- - - - - - - - - - - - -
When I think of you my head spins
I'm naseaus
I wanna get off the merigoround in my mind
I wanna stay with you and leave the world behind
But we're stuck
In the same paradigm
In the same spot
Giving into you is my weakness and the thing I hate
Your the light in my darkness and the salt water in my glass
We once said forever isnt long at all
Oh but my love it is
Its our moment of reconing
Will we suceed or give in?
Will you tire of me once you realize you want the child I cannot produce?
Will I ever exit this fantasy world which I've worked so hard to create?
Will you ever tire of seeing me sleeping next to you?
Or will our dreams drive us in two seperate directions?
I'm scared and confused
Nervous and excited
Am I really ready for this?
Please someone tell me!
Someone tell me what to do
For a time where I should be the happiest
I feel awfully alone
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2009 24 August :: 5.00pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: "Sleepwalking" By: Analog Sway
Sleep walking through the party
Just like everybody
Your denim was your weapon
Shhh everybody listen.
Your boots a deadly venom...
Your lust was your addiction
You ask for no permission and
My body is the victim
Your eyes met mine across the room then
Boom
She knew she had me so she started dancing over slowly
She smiled at me as my jaw dropped to the floor.
I stood speechless and still
She went right for the kill
She took my hand and whispered,
I can show you so much more
Twist my lips in submission
From all your k k kissin
You got what Ive been missin
Shhhh boys just keep on wishin
Tonight youre on a mission
Keep me on one condition
That this becomes tradition
My body is the victim
Your eyes meet mine across the room then
Boom
Sleepless dreaming, sleepless feeling
When I saw her dance
I saw her dancing
Its Cleo's first week aniversary and she's finally settled into the basement, I tried to get her to get used to the dogs but she hisses and whines about it so whatev, she'll learn to deal.
Thad and I are finally tying the knot.
I don't know I have so many things running through my head right now its insane. I need a nap... so does Cleo
I think that's what I'll do
I'm visiting Hillary tomorrow and we'll be going over absolutely everything as always and probably blowing some money. You know the usual.
I just brought my baby home yesterday, she slept under the sheets with me until about six thirty in the morning when she rubbed her face against mine and cried. I woke Thaddeus up and we examined her bleeding leg and all morning I spent running around from Petco to different vets to try to figure out how to stop the bleeding, stop the pain.
I have to take her to the vet later I just set the appointment up and I'm worried sick. I just spent tons of money for her and she's hurt. I follow her around cleaning up the blood and carrying her from couch to couch because I don't want her to strain her leg anymore. What a spoiled little girl. I hope she doesn't get to used to this
