A place filled with poop about me

:: 2004 9 February :: 10.32pm

i have lots of homework i need to be doing but i want to take a break.
tomorrow there are 3 tests and on wedneday there are tests (2 or 3). we have winter break next week so i guess the teachers want to load us up with extra work and get all our tests done right before. normally it would be okay and i would manage but i think i'm starting to get a cold. my head really hurts and stuff and we have to study and take tests. its gonna suck.
this morning i had to write all these fractions, decimals and percents down cause i didnt do it over the weekend like i should have. during religion as i was writing all 200 of them down ms doherty caught me and told me to put them away. some teachers would have just taken the paper but she didnt so i managed to get them done in time for math.
during p.e instead of playing basketball and not really having to do much work we actually did stuff. first he started us out with 2 laps around the field to get ready for the mile in march or early april (i cant remember which). then we had to play capture the flag. nino and maria were pissing me off so bad during p.e. first nino kept mispronouncing my name. M-A-R-I-L-Y-N--3 syllables. its not pronounced "merlin". stupid ass. is it so hard to say an "a" sound and add an i into it? lots of people mispell (sp) my name too. i can understand that more cause my name is fairly unusual but its annoying when everyone does it. getting back to the nino thing. he kept saying "hey merlin run!" and i said "no i dont feel like it" maria also did the same thing and yelled to brad that i think he runs funny. stupid bitch.
ok i just told jessica about this but i'm going to put in here as well. my parents are i guess "mild alcoholics". that means they dont get drunk every night but they do at least once every week. they act very strange and yell a lot. my mother tends to be very emotional when she's drunk and it brings back memories of when her dad used to beat her mom. my dad gets very mean and yells quite a bit. i remember one time when my sister took me into the bathroom cause i was crying and gave me a hug and i asked what was wrong with them and she said "marilyn, i know this sounds terrible but our parents our alcoholics." The words stung my ears and i began to cry even harder. i never thought they were alcoholics. i guess i kind of thought that everbody's parents drank every night and got drunk. i didnt want to accept that they were alcoholics and from then on i observed and still do observe their drinking habits.
3-4 drinks before dinner. 2 glasses of wine during dinner and then my mom goes to bed while my dad drinks more and eventually passes out.
thats what happens just about every night in my house. i hate talking about it cause its embarrassing but since the only person who sees me and reads this is jessica and occasionally louise so i am writing it.
i'm tired. goodnight

:: 2004 9 February :: 7.49pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: the "i love to swim" song in finding nemo that dori sings

blah blah chicken nuggets!
hello. today was pertty goood. Me and sarah were brainstorming ideas about how to get guys not to be so attracted to stephanie b.c she is friggin stealing them all. And so we were passing notes with that stuff on it in L.A. b/c mrs. saunders is stupid and she doesnt know anything. anypoops we are having a chat to brainstorm more ideas (me and marilyn and sarah). i am talking to seam. About sleepy hollow. lol. ok i gotta go.

:: 2004 9 February :: 7.49pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: the "i love to swim" song in finding nemo that dori sings

:: 2004 8 February :: 2.41pm

random stuff
this morning i am going to complain about everything that i hate so if u dont like complainers i suggest that you not read this.
i will begin by complaining about my sister, maureen. she would like to think that she is my favorite sister or that i really can confide in her about things that are troubling me but the truth is that i need someone else that i can complain to about her. i cant though because almost everything i say gets back to my or dad or spread throughout the family. this morning she came into my room and woke me up at 8:45 and made me get up cause we had to go to church. i hate being catholic. i ate breakfast and did everything like that then i was down stairs and looking through a pile of papers. in the pile there was a book called "band of brothers" (i know its supposed to be underlined). that is also a show that was on a couple of years ago and my dad got it for christmas from "santa" aka my mom. so my dad watches it at night on the weekends cause hes obsessed with anything to do with history. i said "oh i didnt know we had this book" and then i went over to go sit on the arm of the couch so i was across from maureen. i was kinda being annoying and felt like talking so i said "i feel like watching Pearl Harbor." then i said that they are going to have it on network t.v and thats a bad idea cause they will have to cut so much out of it and they will have to add commercials so it will be like 4 hours. then she looked at me and said "marilyn, you are being so obnoxious" isnt that nice. then she said "you are acting like you are so into this war stuff and now you are just magically interested in it all. where were you when dad and i were watching the war stuff before?" its like dude fuck off. i'm not obsessed. i am not pretending to like it. i am generally interested in it now because i read anne frank and this other book for school. WHY THE FUCK DO I HAVE TO ASK HER FUCKIN PERMISSION TO BE CURIOUS ABOUT SOMETHING? then i told her that i have always been "obsessed" with pearl harbor and if they have to edit out all the bloody parts a love story with some mild violence will only be left. stupid ass. i hate her a lot when she does shit like that.
another thing that pisses me off is that she is always comparing how big i am to her. she only 5'1 (if that) and i'm 5'3 and she thinks cause shes 5 years older that she should be taller than me. then she says "what size are you" so i tell her that i am still a size 5 and a medium and she says "ooh i'm a small still". this makes me really mad. i dont care if i'm bigger than her cause i'm not fat. stupidass bitch.
i'm done complaining now.

LoupGarou

:: 2004 7 February :: 3.31pm
:: Mood: creative
:: Music: Kryptonite - 3 Doors Down (teehee)

Bomwitdabomdebangdebangdiggydiggydiggysaidtheboogiesaidupjumptheboogie
I went to a dance at my old school yesterday with my friend Julie. When we got there it was decorated very nicely for Valentine's Day theme. They had hot pizza and snacks and this was one dance that actually didn't run out of soda! And the cool thing was that it was $5. All other dances are $8 and some of those don't even serve snacks. Evil I say.
Some of the preps hugged me, and I think Michelle only hugged me because Allyssa did. lol.
I saw Natalie there, which was a surprise. Natalie was one of my close friends when I went there, but she left to go to the nearby public school. I guess if you wrote down on the permission slip that you went to some Catholic school you got in. Quite a few people did that for their friends. They just wrote down some random Catholic School name.
David M. asked me to dance. He's a nice guy. I remember sitting next to him in class. He liked to draw mazes. lol. It surprised me when he asked me to dance, but it made me feel loved, even if he was just doing it to be nice ^_^.
And then Vinton kept wandering around like a loner. I felt really sad, but I knew that was what he did becaue he just randomly goes up to people and makes them laugh. He's one of the best actors in that school. I miss talking to him -_-. We try to convince him that the Persians are extinct, but he insists they aren't. Yup. He's proud of his heritage ^_^
I know my writing isn't very good today, but I don't feel like being creative about the dance. Today I'm just going to very un-artistically tell you the facts.

They had a dance contest. DUDE I SHOULD HAVE WON! I was the best dancer there. Ask anyone there. Yes, I should have won. I did such things as the sprinkler, the dosey doe or however you spell it, the robot, the swimmer thing, and some other over-the-top dances. Later I went outside and sang the Sailor Moon song into my water bottle and asked people if they wanted my autograph. Twas fun. *nods*.

Oopsie. Can't type anymore. I'm going to go help babysit my cousins. bye bye!

(I didn't edit this. Sorry if there are any errors)

5 did | Go fuck yourself

:: 2004 7 February :: 2.08pm

yesterday was fine until the evening came around. then it went from good to bad to good to bad to okay.
sarah called me yesterday afternoon and begged me to ask my dad if i could go to the dance. since i was grounded i had to do something extra good to get my dad to say yes. so i decided to vacuum (sp i think) and put away my laundry and stuff cause my dad appreciates anyone who will vacuum for him. so he called and said he was on his way home and he asked me what i wanted for dinner and i told him my idea. first thing he said was "youre not going" then i said "but dad i vacuumed and did some other stuff too." so then he said "ok well how are you going to get there?" yup it worked. my dad is funny when it comes to doing chores. so i took a shower then sarah called a few seconds after i was done and i told her. then about an hour later she called and told me that stephanie (cause of our earlier fight) didnt want to be in the same car with me and that her mother didnt to drive me back from the dance. so sarah said that she would take me and her mom would pick us up. very nice of her to do that i was surprised.
we got to the dance and the first 20 minutes stephanie was giving me evil looks and i wanted to hit her really bad but i didnt. then completely randomly she turned to me and said "marilyn, i'm sorry i got mad at you." then sarah yelled "YES!". so i forgave her just cause i knew sean was going to the dance and i wanted to be around him. stephanie then decided she needed to go the bathroom and as we were coming out a chaperone grabbed her arm and told her to put on a sweater or something because her stomache was showing. lol it was funny.
sarah found her friends nicole and kristen and they all started to ignore me about an hour into the dance so i went off with erin y and jennifer. they were being nice to me and i feel bad cause later on i was kinda rude. after another 10 or 15 minutes of hanging out with them monica came up to me said that stephanie and sarah were looking for me. so i told erin and jennifer that i would see them later then went to go find stephanie and sarah. when i did stephanie told me that sean was there. so we were looking for him then i saw him and "there he is" and stephanie didnt believe me but she yelled out his name several times and he turned around. so fuckin hot how i love him. so after the first slow song they WOULD NOT let go of eachother! at all. him arm was ALWAYS around her waist and sometimes their bodies were facing eachother and there heads were looking at me and sarah to talk. that fuckin pisses me off. the rest of the dance sarah and i were walking around occasionally talking to nicole, meghan, erin and monica. someone decided to spit out their gum on the floor and then of course i stepped on it. it got on my shoe lace and stuck to the bottom of my shoe. sarah and i went over to sean and stephanie then sarah, while laughing hysterically, said "she stepped on gum" then sean told me to go to the bathroom and put hot water on it so i did and it worked. hes very smart or maybe its just happened to him before. i got most of the gum out but there was a little left which ended up getting stuck to the bottom of my shoe still but not as bad.
as i've said before there are many good things about sean but there is one very bad thing that kinda makes him hot but in a weird way. when he looks at you to talk to you he doesnt really look at you cause he only opens his eyes half way. also he has bad posture so he kind of slouches. so when he looks at you since i'm about his height but a little shoter it feels like his eyes are glued to your chest. even when he talks to guys he does it. its very uncomfortable but if that is the way he is then theres nothing that can be done about it.
during the night i got to touch his sweatshirt when he was standing next to me. i wasnt putting my hand on his sweathirt but sometimes i would bump into him by accident. then i also gave him a high five (like i said before in another entry he really likes them) cause i said i wanted to beat jason. his hand was a bit clammy but nothing disgusting.
sorry if i talked about sean too much and this was boring but i still love him.

6 did | Go fuck yourself

:: 2004 5 February :: 11.56pm

i liked today. i went to school and the guy who always rides through our school on his bike went through. i flipped him off but not so he or anyone else could see cause parents were dropping off their kids. then sarah and i walked over to where he had just gone through and i discovered that he smells really really good. i dont know what it was but it was yummy. also this guy in our class, aj, smells really good. axe is good stuff.
in religion class today nino raised his hand to answer something about some saint and said that the saint freed the people from jurisdiction. it didnt make sense at all cause you cant free someone from jurisdiction so miss doherty said "what does that mean?" and he didnt know so she said "nino, dont use words you dont know the meaning of in your work." he is always trying to use big words to sound intelligent but it just makes him sound dumb cause he doesnt make sense.
we had an assembly today and it was funny. people kept yelling stuff like "DAZZI! DAZZI!" LOL FUNNY! DUDE BONE MARROW IS FUN TO SAY!
MY MOM SAYS ITS TIME FOR A SHOWER. BYE!

:: 2004 4 February :: 11.40pm

LAST PERSON WHO...
. Slept in your bed: me and my dog on top
. Saw you cry: uh....my mom i think
. Made you cry: mr.vane and my aunt marie for dieing
. Spent the night at your house: hmm louise?
. You shared a drink with: i took a sip of my sisters drink w/out asking but thats not sharing really
. You went to the movies with: louise and jessica and anna was there
. You went to the mall with: sarah
. Yelled at you: my dad, he called me a jackass
. Sent you an e-mail:i dont know
. Said "I love you" to you: my mom

HAVE YOU EVER...
. Said "I love you" and meant it: yes but to a picture and to my family
. Been to New York: yup but not the city
. Been to Florida: yup
. California: well cause i live here yes
. Japan: no
. Mexico: no
. China: no
. Canada: almost
. Danced naked: yuck. no
. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: kinda. i had a dream i cussed out sarah then i cussed sarah out behind her back
. Got a really bad feeling about something then it happened: not really
. Wished you were the opposite sex: never
. Had an imaginary friend: yes. i remember he used to wear blue shirts a lot
. What are you going to do after you finish this survey: type some other stuff then be forced to go to bed
. What was the last food you ate: chicken and salad and a nasty red potatoe and spinach
. Are you bored: not really
. How many buddies are on: 17

WHAT WAS THE...
. Last movie you saw: in theatres LOTR and at home billy elliot or pirates of the carribean
. Last noise you heard: my mom tell my sister to be quiet
. Last time you went out of the state: last summer

. Hair Color: brown
. Eye Color: green on the outside and hazelish near the middle
. Height: 5'3
. Glasses/contacts: unfortunately yes
. Current Age: 13
. Siblings: 4 older sisters
. Siblings Ages: 23, 22 (in 2 days),20,19
. Location: san jose california
. Any Piercings: yuppers-ears
. Are You Timely Or Always Late: depends on whose driving
. Do You Have A Job: no
. Do You Like Being Around People: only if they dont shop at abercrombie

STUFF...
. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: of course
. Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: stupid ass sean made me cry cause he cried
. Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: ENGLISH PEOPLE!
. Ever Liked a close Guy/Girl Friend: well he used to be my friend but i havent talked to him in a while and i like him now.

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
. Cried: yes..once again my aunt marie and mr.vane
. Bought Something: yes
. Sang: lol yes. i feel so bad for my family
. Said I Love You: no
. Missed Someone: yes
. Hugged Someone: yes
. Kissed Someone: no
. Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: day dreamed
. Had a lot of sleep: no
thats a nice survey. so today was nice. lynn stopped being mad at me but then started again this afternoon.
ruben, sarahs old boyfriend, just told me he thought i was hot. (JESSICA DO NOT TELL HER THAT) i dont think i believe him but hes not lieing then that is good. i admit that i like him but havent been able to cause of sarah. he is nice and i dont see why sarah doesnt like him but i dont really care.
so today in the car on the way home from ccd sarah started talking about owning cabins and stuff. she was complaining about owning only one house. we dont even own a house though so i felt kinda dumb but i said "yea i know the biggest thing we own is a car".everyone seems to think that just cause my dad is a lawyer that we are rich so its embarrassing when people find out that we rent our house. they dont realize that we did own a house once and we almost bought one but my sister always got sick and we had to back out of it.
i'm tired of writing. good night or day depending on when u read this

LoupGarou

:: 2004 3 February :: 11.28pm

LAST PERSON WHO...
. Slept in your bed: Me
. Saw you cry: Probably Marilyn and Louise
. Made you cry: erm... school?
. Spent the night at your house: Marilyn and Louise
. You shared a drink with: Mikaela (I can't remember the last time I shared a drink with someone, but she's pretty much the only person who takes my drinks and actually drinks out of them)
. You went to the movies with: ...Marilyn and louise
. You went to the mall with: Mom and my sister and my grandma
. Yelled at you: Stephanie for spitting and kicking their lockers when we were mad at them ( I didn't spit! I just kicked! Wow I feel really low right now)
. Sent you an e-mail: Amanda M.
. Said "I love you" to you: Mom... no wait.... Dad...... oh whatever. One of my parents

HAVE YOU EVER...
. Said "I love you" and meant it: yes. To my family ^_^
. Been to New York: yup! I like it there! GO NEW YORK SONG! Sing it I say!
. Been to Florida: Yes. I'm going to Walt Disney World for Easter. SOUVENIERS FOR EVERYONE!
. California: Hmm... lemme think... No! Never! ....wait...... I live there.
. Japan: I wish
. Mexico: nuh uh
. China: nopers
. Canada: negative
. Danced naked: I sure hope not!
. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: Yesh
. Got a really bad feeling about something then it happened: Yesh
. Wished you were the opposite sex: When I was little
. Had an imaginary friend: Yes! His name was Peetree and he looked like a multicolored Grinch!
. What are you going to do after you finish this survey: poke people and talk
. What was the last food you ate: eggs with ham and home fries! (that's right folks, I ate breakfast food for dinner)
. Are you bored: Not really, but this chair needs a cushion.
. How many buddies are on: 12

WHAT WAS THE...
. Last movie you saw: Gundam Wing: Endless Waltz
. Last noise you heard: The Enya song "Shepherd Moons"
. Last time you went out of the state: Summer I think. We went to Rhode Island to visit family.

. Hair Color: curly brown
. Eye Color: brown
. Height: 5'4" or somethin like that
. Glasses/contacts: nope
. Current Age: 14
. Siblings: one younger sister
. Siblings Ages: 12
. Location: Santa Clara County, California, USA
. Any Piercings: ears
. Are You Timely Or Always Late: usually right on time
. Do You Have A Job: nope, but this summer I'm allowed to get one.
. Do You Like Being Around People: sometimes

STUFF...
. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: yep
. Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: yeah. Shawn the ass was being..... an ass!
. Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: nice guys! ^_^
. Ever Liked a close Guy/Girl Friend: Kind of I guess a bit. (GUY friend mind you)

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
. Cried: no
. Bought Something: no
. Sang: yes
. Said I Love You: affirmative
. Missed Someone: yesh
. Hugged Someone: yup
. Kissed Someone: I think so. My mom or dad
. Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: No I don't think so.
. Had a lot of sleep: I wish!

3 did | Go fuck yourself

:: 2004 3 February :: 10.51pm
:: Mood: " "
:: Music: " "

fuck sean (continued from last entry)
i wasnt fucking done with my last entry and i accidentally hit enter so it updated it. OK so i talking about lynn and stephanie and sean i think. Yes I was. Well i fucking hope they fucking burn in hell. Especially fucking stephanie. God damn that moffo. I hope they fucking break up before valentine's day so she can have a horrible valentine's day. I hope he breaks up with her. Not vice versa. THen he would cry. Even though I don't really like him. If he likes stephanie hes obviously not worth it. But he fell into THE EVIL LURE OF STEPHANIE! Fuck! why did it fucking have to be fucking sean. Why couldnt some other fucking dude fall into the lure. Stephanie urg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And the worst part about it she isnt mad at me and i have to be friends with her....."for sean". B/c he told me too. I know ive been saying "fuck sean" and shit and hell the title of this fucking entry is "fuck sean" but i cant help but like him. If i didnt like him i wouldnt be mad about this. So i gotta just fucking admit it. Yeah well i dont feel like writing anymore b/c i took fucking pissed off.

:: 2004 3 February :: 8.00am
:: Mood: fucking pissed again
:: Music: coldplay songs (all of them mix together)

fuck sean
fuck sean. i hate him. the fucking cock sucker wont fucking im me. His fucking profile is so fucking gay: "I love steph". I hate how he fucking calls her fucking "steph" and not "stephanie". Does he fucking not no what steph is short for? God it fucking pisses me off. And fucking stephanie. She fucking doesnt love him. I know she doesnt. Fuck her. And fucking Lynn. She's so fucking pissed at us and she doesnt even know what the fuck is going on and shes just acting like it.

1 did | Go fuck yourself

LoupGarou

:: 2004 3 February :: 7.05pm
:: Mood: lousy
:: Music: Darkness - Disturbed

Try spelling "racecar" backwards
Sorry I haven't been able to update in a few days. I suppose I'll begin with my weekend at San Francisco.

We all met at my grandma's house, and when we were ready to leave, Adam (my cousin), Larry (my uncle), and Mema (what I call my grandma) all piled into the car along with my mom, dad, sister, and me. The drive wasn't all that exciting, and to my dismay it was sunny outside. Adam played his gameboy and talked with Denise most of the time and I either stared out the window or looked through my mangas.

We took a detour and ended up driving through the gay part of San Francisco, which was really fun, because you'd pass these houses and some of them had flags with rainbows on them; even the streets were lined with those flags. You'd look on the sidewalk and see a bunch of guys walking together. ^_^ Fun fun. Mema said she saw one of those "flambuoyantly gay" people jogging and he was flailing his hands out while he jogged (you have any idea what I'm talking about?). You know; one of those girly gay guys. ^_^

Finally we got to the hotel (the Hyatt I think). From the outside it really didn't look that impressive, but once you got inside it was really cool. You could see all the floors from the inside, and part of the building was slanted like a pyramid. In the middle of the lobby place was a big circular art structure thing on top of a cool fountain. The water would flow off the sides of a brass bowl-like thing so the water came down in a continuous sheet of liquid silk. OooooOOOOOOoooOOoo I say!

We checked in and my grandma got a suite, which was nice enough I guess, though the only thing really suite-like about it was the nice bathroom. The view wasn't even that good, and it was only on the fourth floor. She had a balcony though.

Our room was on the very top floor if you don't count the restaraunt that takes up all of floor 18. I'm not all that great with hights, so I avoided the window as much as I could. Later I would get used to it, even stick my head out there a few times, but when I first got in the room, there was no way I was going over there.

Everyone else got situated, and once we had eaten snacks that pretty much made up our lunch, we walked around a bit outside. There was this giant thing that I first thought was a play sructure out the back door, but it turned out it was "art". Even still we jumped around on it... well, no ON it really, but below it where some raised platforms of cement served as stepping stones.

Then we walked a little bit toward the bay, where there was a small place that was too small to really be considered a park but too large to be considered a lawn thing. A lot of homeless people were there; at least two were sleeping on the grass, and one seemed to be worshipping a..... tree. We moved on towards some shops; John wanted to find a Wallgreens to get some baby Tylenol for Anna, because she had an ear ache. Adam and Denise kept running ahead and jumping around, and it was both making me mad and getting me very nervous. You think Adam would know to stop when a street came after what happened to his brother. I told Mom, and she had been thinking the same thing, so she told them to calm down. Adam was still goofing off when he almost stumbled into a street, so Larry made him come back and hold his hand. We found the Walgreens and I started trying glasses on just for the heck of it. I've always wondered how I'd look in glasses.

After we were done looking around, we decided to head back to the hotel to get ready for dinner. It was getting darker outside, and the sky became that dark cobalt blue that I've always liked. At one point when we were walking on top of a shopping area (yes, there was a walkway. Don't worry, we weren't climbing on the roof or anything. It was only two to three stories above the road anyway) there was a really nice view of the Bay Bridge if you went up some dual stairways. We took some pictures there, but because my dad and uncle took it from below, you couldn't see the Bay bridge.

We went back inside and got ready for dinner. I really didn't want to change my clothes, but mom made me, and i thought I looked bad in all that fancy stuff. Well, to be truthful, it wasn't all that fancy. Just casual-fancy. ..... But I still didn't like it!

We didn't eat at the restaraunt at the top of the hotel because it was a frickin $50 per person and they wouldn't even let us get up there to look around. Instead we went to the one downstairs in the lobby. It was nice, but the food took forever to come.

While we were finishing dinner and waiting for dessert my uncle had the idea of making boats to have a race down the little river in the lobby. My dad made his out of a safeway card and straws, I made mine out of my sister's kid menu, and most of the rest were made out of straws. Well, except for Larry's, which was made out of straws and cheese. My dad melted a crayon to use the wax as glue, and my uncle melted the wax to make sure the cheese stuck to the straw properly O_o.

When we finally raced I came in third and my dad came in first. Anna, who's ear ache was now better, came in second, and she was so proud of herself. She's so cute. ^_^

We went back to Mema's suite and waited for a little while to decide what to do. I was really bummed because I wanted to watch Gundam Wing: Endless Waltz. I had gotten it on Friday and hadn't been able to watch it yet. I was frusterated because I had waited two weeks to see it and everyone wanted to play a board game. I wouldn't have been so grumpy if Adam and Denise hadn't begged to watch it earlier just like I had. Then they went and changed their minds on me and wanted to play the board game. I was tired too, which added to my grumpiness.
Oh well. Maybe I'm just selfish. -_-

The next morning Sue, John, Anna, and David left early. We drove around Frisco in the rain, whish was nice. Except for going up all those steep hills. God, I hate doing that in the rain. It maked me feel like we're going to slip because of the wet streets and fall backwards.

We were able to watch about fifteen minutes of Gundam Wing on the way back on Larry's lap top, but it lost betteries soon.

Yup. That was basically my trip to good ol' Frisco. Parts of it made me really miss New York. *dramatic sigh*.

Okay, now I'm listening to the New York song with Frank Sinatra and Tony Bennet. Fun! I think I'm going to start on another wntry now about what has happened the past school days. Yush, I am behind. T_T

Oh well. What can you do?

Bye bye!

3 did | Go fuck yourself

:: 2004 2 February :: 9.58pm
:: Mood: so fuckin pissed

today was a fuckin nightmare. i hated today. so we went to school and then sarah got out of her car and walked right passed me on her way to lynn. luckily louise was there and she came over to me. we both got really pissed and were yelling and getting very angry cause of the sean thing. we yelled and stuff and then jessica got there and we got very angry again and yelled. so we went into the lockers and louise went over to stephanie and hit her twice. not too smart cause now she is in trouble. so anyway stephanie got really pissed and they all got pissed at us and us at them. at recess sarah came up to me and said this:

at that point i was very close to beating the shit out of her so i turned around and complained to louise and jessica. i hate them so much. it makes me so mad how stephanie completely changed what i said about sarah around. we were all in the car and i said "sarah is obsessed with her boobs" then stephanie agreed with me and we were kinda making jokes about them and stephanie was laughing and stuff. then when stephanie got mad at me and louise and told sarah that i was the one who was saying all the stuff even though she was too. stupid ass bitch. i cannot trust any of them. sarah had such attitude that she made me fuckin cry and she has caused louise to cry several times. it makes me so mad that i cant describe my feelings.
my mom just called sarah's mom and stephanie's mom and told them what happened. stephanie is mad at my mom and so is sarah. what ever i really dont care. lynnn is trying to help thought so that is good.
bye