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2009 13 September :: 10.42am
I got to see my nephew the last few days and probably will see him again today..
I am very happy about that, but i dont like the circumstances behind it.
He is getting so big and learning so much, and I miss a lot of it.
And he looks so much like my sister, but he changes more and more each time I see him.
It has been a long stressful, packed week.
I'm not even sure what kind of crap there is going to have to be done tomorrow when I go back to work.
I know there was a lot to be done when I left on wednesday.
Going through pictures, seeing my whole family in pain, the visitations and the funeral were hard.
And even though all of those events took place, and I mourned, I don't know if I mourned completely.
I still don't feel like it really happened, like I am completely numb on the inside.
I know that she is gone and won't be coming back.
But it feels like she is on vacation and I just have to wait a couple weeks before I see her again.
And apparently my mom likes to share her germs, because Friday I started feeling really sick, and started to lose my voice.
So yesterday, I spent all day in bed, except for 2 hours.. I went to bed at midnight saturday morning, slept til 2:30, was awake for maybe an hour, then slept til 9, was awake until 12:00, and then slept until 10 this morning.
But I definitely needed it, and I am feeling better today.
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2009 11 September :: 9.32pm
Imperfection is an opportunity to be better.
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2009 10 September :: 2.50pm
I am not posting this for political reasons, I just find it highly amusing. Since I absolutly hate the south as well.
http://www.fuckthesouth.com/
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2009 9 September :: 9.12pm
So this week has been pretty shitty..
My grandma passed away unexpectedly yesterday morning.
They believe she had an ulcer that ruptured, and caused internal bleeding. She was coughing up blood, and they were able to revive her twice and get her stabilized, but her heart stopped. They tried to revive her again, but they weren't able to get her heart beating again.
Tomorrow is the visitations, and then friday is the funeral..
All 4 of my grandparents deaths have been either the day before or the day after a holiday.
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2009 8 September :: 9.53pm
I wind the clock backwards
Inhail
Exhail
I wind the clock backwards
and I'm still here
I'm ready to run, fast. Getting out of Holland is a goal that I feel I have to reach soon. I'm so flustered all the time and I know I have so much to do before I leave.
Why isn't there ever an easy answer?
If I could turn the clock backwards for just a second would I change or leave it all the same? If I could wind the clock backwards and still have obtained all that I've learned would I change or would I do it all the same? My insides burn and my head spins as soon as I make my way out I jump right back in. A little bit oxymoron a little bit self-sabotage, it has become my way of life, a distant memorie, a mirage.
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I need a day out with a good friend
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jayzulla
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2009 8 September :: 8.35pm
Quinton Rampage Jackson will be playing the role of B.A. Baracus in the upcoming A Team movie. Only thing that sucks about it is he had to cancel his fight with Rashad.
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2009 8 September :: 5.38pm
You now hear the voice of Coach John McGuirk
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2009 8 September :: 12.45pm
Jonathon the zombie, he likes turtles.
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2009 8 September :: 6.32am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: "Be my rain" By: Zeraphine
Ugh
Back to school for me. Leaving in about 20 minutes. I'm tired, bored, and school will increase both of those. But, I have to do it. Wish me luck. :P
-Samm
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2009 5 September :: 4.48pm
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: "Don't let me down" By: Dana Fuchs
Random conversations are the best.
Samm: Yeah, I like Frosty the Snowman.
He got my toes a tappin' in his movie.
Mike: It's like I've known you my whole life...
Samm: What??
Mike: My toes tap too Samm... My toes tap too...
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2009 4 September :: 2.50pm
When I was young I knew everything
She a punk who rarely ever took advice
Now I'm guilt stricken,
Sobbing with my head on the floor
Stop a baby's breath and a shoe full of rice
I can't be held responsible
She was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place
For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen
My best friend took a week's
Vacation to forget her
His girl took a weeks's worth of
Valium and slept
And now he's guilt stricken sobbing with his
Head on the floor
Thinks about her now and how he never really
Wept he says
I can't be held responsible
She was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place
For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen
hey yeah
hey yeah
hey yeah
We've tried to wash our hands of all this
We never talk of our lacking relationships
And how we're guilt stricken sobbing with our
Heads on the floor
We fell through the ice when we tried not to
Slip, we'd say
I can't be held responsible
She was touching her face
And I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place
For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen
For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen
We were merely freshmen
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2009 3 September :: 10.08pm
It's the real thing
Safety's off
Are you there
Are you there for me
By my side
An angel
Who dodge the bullets wide
It feels right
On a beach
When you talk
You talk without a sound
And when you walk
Your feet hardly touch the ground
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When I think of you my head spins
I'm naseaus
I wanna get off the merigoround in my mind
I wanna stay with you and leave the world behind
But we're stuck
In the same paradigm
In the same spot
Giving into you is my weakness and the thing I hate
Your the light in my darkness and the salt water in my glass
We once said forever isnt long at all
Oh but my love it is
Its our moment of reconing
Will we suceed or give in?
Will you tire of me once you realize you want the child I cannot produce?
Will I ever exit this fantasy world which I've worked so hard to create?
Will you ever tire of seeing me sleeping next to you?
Or will our dreams drive us in two seperate directions?
I'm scared and confused
Nervous and excited
Am I really ready for this?
Please someone tell me!
Someone tell me what to do
For a time where I should be the happiest
I feel awfully alone
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2009 2 September :: 1.07pm
A joyful meandering that wound up being about driveway hockey.
i had just gotten up today, and gone to the bathroom for a solid B.M. the bathroom window was open, and outside it sit the garbage/yard waste/recycle bins. all of a sudden i hear someone walk up alongside our garage, and open up one of the bins. i had finished at this point, and was blowing my nose for good measure. so, the person getting into our recycling heard me and said, "oh, hey, just dropping off some cereal boxes and milk cartons." i recognized Valerie's (the neighbor) voice, and said, "yeah, have at it. the trash is kinda full, though." it was just a very odd way to start my day off.
in other news: happy september! the weather's gorgeous, and the air smells crisp and clean.
:: sorry, neighbor came over to smoke a ciggy ::
what was i saying? eh, whatever.
i should play disc golf again. i made it out there quite a bit the first half of summer, but i haven't played in several weeks. I guess it has been overtaken by driveway hockey, which is honestly a better workout, but you really pay for the next day.
it's actually a lot of fun. we have a net that bruce built, and they spray painted a crease to go in front of it. the garage door is about 2 feet behind the net, so there is some playable space back there, just like the real deal. The rest of the rink is surrounded by short wooden boards to hold the puck in. the rules have been adapted - obviously - to suit our needs, and there's a continual evolution there, but the gameplay itself remains pretty much the same. we have three offensive players (a center and two wingers), a defenseman, and a goalie. the three offense and the defender will rotate positions after every goal. goalies rotate every 30 minutes (the mishmash of homemade pads takes a while to put on). it's like a full-time 3-on-1 rush, but since we suck so bad, sometimes it's still tough to get a puck to drop. even still, if you pepper 'im long enough, something's bound to go through eventually.
here are the basic rules:
> no high sticking (we're out there in our tennis shoes for pete's sake. we don't want to cart anyone to the hospital)
> no cross-checking (same reason)
> no slapshots (or we'll have to listen to the goalies bitch. loudly.)
> the center has to pass before anyone can shoot
> if the puck goes over the boards and out of play, it counts as "clearing the defensive zone," and the offensive players must go back to their start positions (marked with chalk)
> if any of the offensive players are not in their start positions when the center starts the puck, the play is "offside" and must be reset.
> if a defenseman clears the puck over (or through) the fence and into the neighbor's yard, it's a two-minute minor penalty. since the power play has yet to fail, it's pretty much a death knell. although, bruce once killed off 1:56 of the penalty before they scored on him. that's the current record to beat.
they typically like having new people try it out. kevin and masa joined in this past sunday, and i think they had a good time. so hit me up if you're interested. there's no set day that we do it, so it's kinda random. we usually play from mid-afternoon 'til dark.
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2009 31 August :: 5.36pm
I had a pretty eventful week..
It was a good ending to a very filled week.
Only worked 3 days last week and only one day was a full 8 hour day.
I got to spend time with some friends I haven't seen in a very long time.
Spent some quality time at home, watching movies.
Worked on some homework.
Maybe I will stop procrastinating so much, and not wait until the last minute to finish 6 weeks worth of work this time..
But probably won't..
I won't ever change..
Well at least I don't ever stop procrastinating..
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2009 31 August :: 12.56am
skewl tommorow , FML
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