oh my darlin'

:: 2009 1 May :: 12.10am

Hahahaha karma is awesome, or I guess from yout perspective, karma's a bitch. Hahaha!

:: 2009 30 April :: 2.53am

Let me tell you about the not terrible at all things I am doing to show you that my life is actually awesome and not terrible at all.
Throw up throw up throw up throw up.

Last class tomorrow. Still have 4+ papers (best estimate has been 5-6) and one exam next week Thursday.

Cap and gown threw me over the edge. Puke puke. And of course people at work can't stop talking about how next Thursday is my last day.

I got that job by the way. Sorry, things got in the way so I haven't talked about it. Remember the one I talked about earlier? I had a French interview after my normal one and I guess it went well because I start the Monday after graduation: May 11. Ugh. Adult life is such a bummer. But full time, one and a half times what I'm making now plus benefits after 90 days is kind of nice, I guess.

I applied to another government job. This one requires a civil service exam. The next testing period is in June and since I have a real world job now, I have to choose a date during the weekend. Of course, the second I got home to set a date, all the testing times at GRCC were taken. Same with East Lansing. And Dearborn. So I could choose Auburn Hills, Caro or Sault Ste Marie. Guess which one was the only city with Saturday testing times available. That's right. Sault Sainte Marie.

So on June 6, I will be driving by myself to the UP for the first time. I have never been to the UP. I have never driven by myself for longer than two hours. And since the test is at 10:30 in the morning, I should leave by at least 6:30.

Is there anything awesome up there? I definitely am going to stop at the locks because I'm a dork and locks are awesome. And I hear there are waterfalls up there somewhere too. I might as well make a day of it. Let me know what I need to see and where I need to go. My camera is definitely coming with me.

Okay I just googled some waterfalls and not only are they a little disappointing but they are also basically in Wisconsin. So I definitely need some tips. Is Sault Sainte Marie a cool town? Should I just stay around there?

I'd like to say a little something here about stupid people but I decided to say this instead:

You have one life to live. You have a ton of time left to live it. (Don't you start in on me about how old you are. Look at how far you've come. You are still young, kid.) Are you really going to waste some of that time worrying about what might happen? There are so many things out there you could be doing. There are so many places to see and people to meet. Stop sitting around worrying about whoever the news is telling you is coming after you, hates you, wants to get you. Stop thinking about catching whatever they say is out there from paper plates or pop cans or popcorn or other people. Are you going to waste this moment of your life inside? Worrying? Scared? Live. Do things. Love. Hug someone, love someone, do something. Just breathe. In. Out. Live.

I have only been alive for 22 years. Do you know how much I still get to do? I get to get married, have kids, have adventures, have grandchildren, live a long life. I get to graduate from college next week with a bachelor's degree. Who knows what the next 22 years hold for me? I am excited.

I love you guys. For serious. I hope you all are doing okay and aren't too stressed out. Just keep breathing and put it in perspective. Papers aren't going to kill you. Exams aren't going to kill you. Do it and get it over with.

I love you.

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:: 2009 28 April :: 12.45pm

I hate April
Nick's coworker also passed away Sunday night. He was 35, divorced and had two daughters. He had a massive heart attack and never woke up.

The only good thing about this month is that it is almost over.

4 gaa gaas | goo goo

:: 2009 27 April :: 1.59pm

Oh my gosh I am watching wedding shows and tearing up like crazy at every little thing- imy shower was yesterday and it was a total blast, stef did sucha good job planning and executing it I am so so so so excited for our wedding ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh yay roman I love you I can't wait

m&ms487

:: 2008 17 February :: 1.38am
:: Mood: blah

So, one more regular week left of school and then final exam week. A million papers due and a few exams.

Wednesday afternoon at work I realized that my right lower gum behind my wisdom tooth was hurting. Thursday it started to swell and by this morning it became bigger than my wisdom tooth. I called around to a few dentists in Mt. Pleasant because it hurt like a bitch and ended up going to the hospital to ready care. They gave me a script for some antibiotics, and antiinflammitory, and some prescription ibruprofen. On my way to Meijer to pick it up I realized that it was getting smaller and that my stomach hurt. I'm pretty sure I swallowed some nasty stuff that was in the huge inflamed bump. Gross. I came home, took the drugs, ate some ice cream and mashed potatoes and took a two hour nap. I'm still quite drowsy.

That's my grand adventure for the day. Au Revoir.

:: 2009 21 April :: 7.32pm

Update
Bad news comes in threes, right?

Nick's grandmother (the one on his father's side, the one his parents are staying with)'s best friend passed away Sunday. Four years ago on the 15th, Nick's grandfather (her husband) passed away.

So at 9 Sunday morning, we all got up and drove up to the house to basically house-sit while Grandma got out.

I got to see the house in daylight on Sunday. I don't know what was the worst thing to see: how small the hole is...the hole that used to be the house, the steps that led to the front door that are now cement steps to nothing, how little is left or the charred leaves and grass surrounding the house, the charred path carved out behind the house to the man who started it all, the ash that threatened to jump the road to take out another house. I don't know.

I think I was in shock before then because Sunday night it really hit me that it was all gone. And Nick's parents are spending their days making lists of everything they had, trying to remember everything they lived with, how old it was, where they bought it and quoting things that have no price. Things like Nick's grandfather's woodworking tools, the baby clothes, his great-grandmother's handmade quilts, his grandfather's guns, the bunk bed his father made, his mother's wedding dress, Jess' cake and all the pictures of everyone and everything.

I feel like I need to be helping out more but there's nothing we can do. I can make food, I guess. I can give hugs. But these lists, the insurance stuff, everything. I can't help.

When they start to look for places to live, then I can help.

Thanks for everything, kids. Love ya.

:: 2009 17 April :: 4.08pm

Nick's parents' house burned down yesterday.

Fox17 (We were there when they filmed the news at 10. We watched this story at his grandmother's house while they were up at the house. It was surreal.)

WZZM13

Everyone is okay. Nick's parents were at work. His mother's sister lives with them and works third shift. She was asleep when the house caught on fire.

We went up there last night to see if we could help with anything. The whole house is gone. They went to buy some clothes and necessities but they have nothing. Aunt Jean saved the laptops and the dog. The stray cat that they feed occasionally is okay too.

Thank goodness everyone is safe.

It's so weird to see the house not there. We visited them for Easter and talked about what they would change if they had to build the house all over again.

Nick, Katti and Jess grew up in that house. His family built it themselves.

I am glad everyone is okay but I really wish it hadn't happened. They are staying with Nick's grandmother who lives down the street for now.

I feel like I should do something for them but I don't know what to do. We are just thankful that everyone is okay.

m&ms487

:: 2009 14 April :: 1.09pm

Rueben is at home and sick. He's not doing well at all.

I'm in band-aides. It's a small help desk/store for the music building. It's staffed by people from my fraternity.

University Band tonight. I practiced last night for a while and got some parts in shape. That's the first time I had practiced in quite a while. Drew, my conductor and my honorary little came knocked on my practice room door and was excited that I was practicing. No one in university band practices much-that's why we suck so much. Oh well.

Another paper down-I think I got it-had a french exam yesterday-barely finished it. I'm sticking with French. I only have one more year and then I'll be done. I'm starting to like it. I've finally figured out how to study for it and consequently am getting better grades.

That reminds me, I have vocabulary cards I need to make...

Au Revoir!

:: 2009 1 April :: 5.37pm

I have an interview next Wednesday for a bilingual customer service job.

That's right, I am actually interviewing for a job using my major.

And I do not like it one bit.

I cannot speak French. What am I getting myself into?

:: 2009 29 March :: 12.26am

concert yay!
Nick and I are going to our first concert together in April.

I am super excited because the band we are seeing?

It is Cloud Cult.

Awesome songs? Check. Live paintings? Check. Biodiesel-powered and solar-paneled tour bus? Check. I am super pumped.

I really wanted to see them in concert because they are going on a possibly permanent hiatus after this tour. And this tour celebrates the release of their documentary.

They are coming to GRap on April 14. Nick and I are counting down the days.

runningfreak

:: 2004 14 January :: 1.43am
:: Mood: Ugh

Here We Go Again...

My head is spinning cause I have stuffed it with too much knowlege and I really want to go for a walk rather than sit in the class room listening to the professor yap on and on about the government. All though this class isnt half bad I still want to leave.

I am proud of myself because I was prepared for all my classes this week. I managed to almost eliminate the list I made for myslef on the white board. My next great immediate task is to find something worth eating and run. By the end of the weekend I hope to accomplish the amazing task of obtaining Pokey's registration papers from a man that I consider a great asshole and cleaning my car.

Oh and yeah and boys are stupid...

(sigh) So is life...

:: 2009 26 March :: 1.39am

Recent Tweets
I am only this awesome when I can't sleep and I'm watching HGTV. The past couple of days have given me some good material too.

@Laure I concur. Got cancer? Have a coke. Need a smoke? Have a coke. Your dog's sick? Have a coke. Want a coke? Have a coke!

I am thinking of running for president but I am not rich enough to pay my own food bill AND save the world. http://tinyurl.com/da6dmo

My sister got a full ride (tuition only) to Smith College. She will hear from the rest next week. Then there will be choices.

I really feel sorry for the poor guy who had to look at reference photos and drawings to do Doctor Manhattan. That poor, poor man.

I have 4 dollars to my name right now. Payday could not come any sooner.

Unless I am retroactively getting money through some sort of time travel direct deposit but then I wouldn't only have 4 dollars.

Someone tell me why you need a chandelier in your bathroom. A chandelier ABOVE THE BATHTUB that just happens to be BY YOUR FIREPLACE.

This is all in your bathroom. The FIFTEEN HUNDRED DOLLAR FIREPLACE BY THE BATHTUB. ON THE WALL. It's not even warming the floor.

I did not catch the price on the chandelier.

Having a chandelier in your bathroom does not make it Parisian. It just makes it ugly. I am going to rate it STUPIDLY OPULENT, HGTV.

Just in case you want to see it. http://tinyurl.com/cva4dg I did not notice how claustrophobically cluttered it was on TV.

THINGS THAT AREN'T PARISIAN: Claustrophobia

Why would you wear a t-shirt about blaming your farts on someone else ON NATIONAL TV?

Yes, I cannot sleep.

Think of a new metaphor, onion layer people. Your house is not an onion and you are not an onion. A banana maybe. Shut up about the onions.

chelthesmell

:: 2009 26 March :: 12.40am
:: Mood: StOcKeD!!!

These weekends just keep getting better and better!
Well Thursday I will be working for the day and the same during the day on friday but I'm not too upset about that because I never work and I need money motha fucka! lol. (I've been hanging out with Jessica too much...) Then Friday night my neice Kylie is going to spend the night with us and that's always a trip. Then Saturday AJ is changing oil on cars, then I'm going to Mindy's to give her her present, and I'll probably stay to party! I'm excited about that one! Then, FINALLY (!), Sunday night we're going to the Far From Finished, Flatfoot 56, and 10 Second March concert!!! Yay! Two other bands are going to be there but we've never heard of them so whatever...But the tickets were only 9 bucks a piece and 3 really kickass bands will be there! I'm super excited! I cant wait. So pretty much my weekend will consist manly of getting drunk and rocking out...! =)

:: 2009 25 March :: 1.19am

I am making a list of emergency places to live in case I don't get a job right away (which will totally NOT happen because I am totally awesome).

Our lease is up here at the end of June. If I don't get something before then, we'll be trapped in Michigan, homeless and living off only Nick's pay (because my work won't be able to keep me on after graduation and I don't want to stay there any longer than necessary).

Obviously a list is needed. Both to calm my nerves and to prepare for craziness.

I applied to a buttload of jobs earlier this week and I'm sending my transcript to one tomorrow.

Now it is just waiting and more searching.

I do not like this waiting part.

:: 2009 25 March :: 1.17am

I wish I loved to run. Perhaps then I would not be so gargantuan. Boo. I cannot sleep. My moms flies in tomorrow.
B

I cannot sleep

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m&ms487

:: 2009 23 March :: 11.27am
:: Mood: anxious

C'est Lundi.

It's the middle-end half of the semester and I can't wait for summer to get here. I feel like this semester had way more work than any previous semester. I'm writing over 16 papers, having over 15 exams, and over 2000 pages of reading (one being an 800 page novel entitled "Middlemarch"). Add to that the fraternity and working twenty eight hours a week; it's been trying.

I have class in about a half an hour: political science. It's about foreign policy, which is alright, but not my favorite. I get to take the better classes next year.

I figured it out, I only have three more semesters left, so it'll be four and a half years in total. I think I'm going to do an internship, too, since I'll be finished in December and Grad school doesn't start until August. I was thinking about doing an internship in Lansing with a congressman and seeing where that takes me. Lansing is only a fifty mile drive from Mt. Pleasant, and a few day a week wouldn't be that bad. We'll see!

For now, things are going good. I'm able to eat again and that's making me gain weight back...not too much, though. I'm still much more little than I was. C'est la vie!

:: 2009 22 March :: 11.35pm

I NEED A JORB
I graduate in 48 days, people. I want out of Michigan. I want a job/career/whatever. I need one.

One of the girls who graduated LAST YEAR just got a job. I do not want to be her. I work with a girl who graduated last year and is just hanging around at this job trying to find something. I do not want to be in that position.

Hyperventilating,
me

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:: 2009 20 March :: 6.10pm

I am so happy and relieved! We have been hoping and praying for this- roman got the job! Which means 3 times the salary, healthcare for both of us when we are married, his school 100 percent paid for and he can pick his schedule. I am so happy and proud of him. Ahhhhh yay this is such a relief for us

:: 2009 18 March :: 10.48am

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so i forgot to write this yesterday... i had another dress fitting appointment yesterday and she changed a lot to my dress ... like a lot of things needed to be doen because i was having the whole back of it changed to like a lace up back instead of the just plain zipper and anyway she got the whole back of the dress done and it is GORGEOUS!! i was so happy. it is so flattering now and i just love it. i can't believe how good the back looks, i was so worried that i wouldn't like it. and then she is changing the sash on the front and she picked out a really pretty champagne color for it, it's gonna look so pretty. and i am so happy my mom is coming into town next week and she will get to see the dress. actually, it worked out perfect because i'm going to get a practice run done on my hair and make up as well an then right after that we are gonna go try on the dress so she can see it and the sash and bust area will be finsiehd by then so i can actually get a good idea of how everything will look.

yeah after seeing the dress yetserday i was in such a good mood. i love the lady that did my alterations, she is the sweetest lady ever. ahh so i'm so happy and so excited for my mom to come up and we can actually get a bunch of stuff done. oh and dottie has a friend who custom makes veils so i am going to look at some on thursday and probably get one custom done to match my dress which is awesome and they aren't expensive, actually less than average cost. it would just be neat to have one that matched all the beading on my dress.

and then stef has my shower scheduled for the 25th i believe so that is exciting as well because everything is coming up so quickly!!! ahh i am just very very happy.

jess is now in the wedding which is awesome, i'm so glad she accepted and wants to be a part of it. all my bridesmaids are going to be so pretty in their dresses that i love. i cant wait to get ready together and be all nervous for that first time that i see roman in the church. ahhhhh

okay i am getting wedding fever and being too mushy so i'll just leave it at that but i just couldn't help it- after seeing my dress it got me so excited. i just am so glad i'm marrying roman!
woo!

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:: 2009 16 March :: 1.03pm

i feel very unproductive today. i'm at work but there is like nothing to do.... i tried designing my own wedding program and it really would be good if i could work out the few little problems..but i really think i need a program better than PUBLISHER. bleh

i dont know when i am going home today.. by 2 or soemthing. we are supposed to find out today if roman got the new job/position and i really really hope he did. ahh that would be so good. yeah so hopefully we know today.

i had this awful dream last night where it all of a sudden was my wedding day and i had a million things not done like nothing to put in the bathrooms, no programs, no flowers, i had to do my own hair, a million things it was awful lol. so yes i want to be sure that like 3 weeks before i have EVERYTHING done. i am not a last minute person- i hate that feeling!

i've been trying to get on woohu all morning lol cuz i just really wantedto update for some reason but it was down earlier. boo.

i am really looking forward to the nannying job i have lined up in may. can't wait because it will be a good change of pace. and babies yay i love babies.

been taking the puppies to the dog park lately i love it there. so fun. and roxy is finally getting a little more social with other dogs lol.

so i have this sweet neighbor that we've became friends with (and his fiance too) but he is a computer programmer and he's been doing all this stuff for free for us that he usually charges $100 or more for... he made my computer like brand new it is so fast now. and he put some really cool stuff on romans computer, gave it more memory and made it faster. all this stuff for free. it was so nice of him! we lucked out and really got some nice neighbors thank goodness because you never know when you move in who you will live near.

so yeah... thats life right now. i suppose.