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2006 23 August :: 4.45am
i need to find a better job this one sucks balls....
i wish some one would talk to me iam so bord
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2006 22 August :: 12.22am
One Year on Sunday
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2006 22 August :: 5.20am
Okay, so the beginning of yesterday was one of the worst days of my life.
Things seem to be back on track.
Or at least getting there.
I still feel incredibly sick.
And I would give anything to go back to sleep right now.
But only if he was going to be next to me.
I don't recommend bouncing off the rail of a pool either.
It hurts.
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2006 20 August :: 8.16pm
this is great
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=1994546325179027565&q=technical+virgin
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2006 20 August :: 6.11am
:: Music: It's Raining on Prom Night
Ain't nothin' like cleaning the house at 6 in the morning while listening to the soundtrack to Grease and dancing.
Just because I can.
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2006 20 August :: 4.36pm
So much drama, it's rediculous.
Last night when we were at the bar, there was a drug bust, a big fight.
Then we go back to Leons and there's 5 cop cars, and cops swarmed around this trailer with their guns pulled. Some guy tried to kill himself after he body slammed his girlfriend.
Then we go back to the bar and the cops show up again, because some guy couldn't find his girlfriend, the last thing he knew was that 2 guys ran her off the road. So he was freaking out.
And then somewhere in between there, Courtney showed up to the bar. Stupid bitch.
Just seeing her ruined my night.
Didnt get home til 5 this morning because Leon and I were sitting in the rain talking.
I needed to get some stuff off my chest, so I stuck around after Mike came home.
And now Im sitting here watching Lifetime movies.
Oh and I got a job at GRC in Greenville. I start monday. First shift.
It's only 8 dollars an hour. Sucky. But atleast it's something.
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2006 17 August :: 7.39am
Its been a while since a really good update. Well I no longer work at burger king, I now work at meijer 3rd shift. So I sleep during the day alot, its weird being on this new time schedule. But I'm starting to get use to it. So basically I've been working and hanging out with kyle alot :). Pretty soon college will be starting. I'm excited but like not at the same time. Not ready to go back to school lol. Oh well only 2 more years right. Well summer has been going pretty awesome. I hope everyone elses is too.
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2006 17 August :: 11.34pm
I love him more than anything, but something isn't right.
The fact that I can ignore all his flaws and still love everything about him and not be annoyed by him doesn't seem right to me.
The fact that I have to think of my mom to get pissed off to get pissed at him and fight back isn't right.
I don't understand how he can fight with me, not talk about it, and have things be back to normal all within 15 minutes.
It confuses me how one person who does so much for me and everyone else, who listens better than any guy I know, can be so insensitive and shut the world out.
It's strange how we can go from being so happy, to everything being wrong, back to being happy again.
It's so weird that I didn't want to go on a date with him at first and all it took was one date to draw me in.
I don't understand any of this.
I feel like I should be living my life more. Going to clubs, drinking, partying, dating more, waking up in strange places with strange people and wondering what the fuck.
Not feeling like a housewife with a step child, with financial troubles, no job and on the verge of completely losing my mind.
He took me back after I did one of the worst things someone could possibly do.
He took the chance to trust me again.
I wouldn't trade our relationship for anything.
There are some things that I wish were differ'nt but I wouldn't change them.
Sometimes I wish he didnt have a kid because then we could just run away from everything here.
Then I feel guilty for even thinking that.
I feel like he's not happy with me.
And the thought of him leaving me, makes me feel sick to my stomach.
I need to tell him how I feel.
But I'm too much of a fucking chicken.
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2006 16 August :: 12.28pm
the fact that im eating soup instead of fast food irritates him.. he keeps asking if i want money to go get fast food.. and him asking me over and over is irritating me..
We were reading through the newspaper and saw this ad that said "No experience need for qualified applicant.".. thought it was funny..
And then we got on the topic of self-esteem and i was like hunny will you share yours with me.. and he goes "self-esteem is like a rubber, you don't share it because that's just fucked up.."
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2006 14 August :: 2.24am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Valo Yössä
Bleh
I got an unexpected call yesterday.
It made me feel good.
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2006 14 August :: 2.03am
:: Music: Snow Patrol - Headlights on Dark Roads
I am back in Cedar. Ten days left before I leave for Poland. Tell me if you want to hang out before I leave and which day is best for you. I'm having a party sometime, the day is undecided for right now.
I have photos, lots and lots of photos from my summer at Camp Nicolet. I didn't really want to post them all on here, so I uploaded them to facebook because it's a hell of a lot easier. If you want to see them, go to facebook and look. You'll have to have an account to do so, I'm sorry. If you don't want to get an account, but want to see them, talk to me and I'll give you my username and password for a bit so you can see them.
It's nice to be back, guys. I'll miss you when I'm gone again. But I just can't seem to stop moving now that I've started.
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2006 14 August :: 7.29pm
Last night was so much fun.
We started off in Stanton at the Old Fashion Days then we came back here so mike and I could grab some warm clothes for the night because we were going back to GR to ride.
Mike and I went to Franco's and had dinner while Leon was working and we were waiting for Wayne, Johnny, Cally, John and Monica to get there so we could all go riding. It was nice having dinner just him and I.
Anyway we left Franco's and we're going down some rd i cant remember the name of it and here come all these cops and whatnot.. There was a terrible hit and run accident.. This drunk guy hit a guy on a bike and the bike is totaled. The guy that was on the bike is in critical condition. A few minutes later, and it could have been one of us. Which is a scary thought.
So then we went downtown for a bit.. Riding is soooo much fun.
Last night the guys were talking about pitching in to get me a bike, so that I can have my own.
And then I slept all day! Woo..
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2006 13 August :: 1.14pm
Yesterday I had quite the eventful day.
Went to Grand Rapids twice, once by car, once by bike.
And I went to the drag strip with Wayne and Leon where we met up with Bowswer and then we went to the bar.
When we were at the bar, I kept making small peter jokes towards Wayne and we were putting ice cubes down the back of each others shirts, until he dumped a whole glass of water down the back of my shirt.
Didn't get home til about 4:30 this morning..
And today we are going riding again.. we're going to the stanton old fashion days.
Yep, thats my life..
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2006 11 August :: 9.53pm
So, the car is dead. For sure this time. Going shopping for a new one Monday. Yay! I hate that car with every ounce of my soul. But yay! to getting a new one, poo for not getting it until monday because right about now I have no way to get anywhere and by the sounds of it, people I want to hang out with probably arent up to coming to get me. So yes, that fucking sucks but...*shrugs* what can you do? hopefully I'll find something fun to do tomorrow, I cant imagine staying home all weekend...that would be a nightmare. I dont even like thinking about it. Just the thought pisses me off.
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2006 12 August :: 9.37am
I hate stressing about things.
Because then I sit here and my heart starts racing.
And I start thinking about everything that is wrong, and all the things that could be wrong, should be wrong, and about to go wrong or that I feel like I have done wrong.
But honestly, I've done nothing wrong, I don't think there's anything wrong, there's probably a lot of things that could be wrong, not sure what should be wrong and who knows whats about to go wrong.
He doesn't come to bed right when he gets home, which is weird because he always has, even if it was just to lay with me for a little bit.
This morning he left without saying anything (on the bike leaving all his stuff) and when I called him, he sounded like there was something wrong.
But of course when I ask him about it, he says nothing.
Which leaves me here, thinking there's something wrong.
And I won't know if there really is something wrong until he gets back, and who knows what time that will be.
And of course I'll stay here waiting until he does get back to find out.
Because I am who I am, and I always think that the moment I leave when something is wrong, he's going to pack up all his stuff and just leave me.
I had a dream last night that Courtney asked him out and he told her to give him to the rest of the day to answer. And when he came home he grabbed some of his stuff and made that phone call.
And being that when I dream, it's like i'm having an actual conversation, I'm scared.
It makes me feel like we're falling apart. Or maybe I'm just being stupid and paranoid.
EDIT:So I get out of the shower and he's back home. And he's pissed off yet jumping with joy, because he got a letter from an impound saying that they have his truck. So we get to go pick up his truck and whatsuch.. Finally. Now I can give back the suburban, and my brother will get off my back! yay.
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2006 10 August :: 11.46am
So yeah, I just told beth i didn't want to take her home, and she threw a tempertantrum and was kicking her feet on the bed and everything, you guys should have seen it, it was fucking great.
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2006 9 August :: 4.44pm
interview tomorrow. dont care if i get it. have a good day everyone else
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2006 10 August :: 2.57pm
If I didn't have my boyfriend by my side, I'd completely lose all control.
As of today, my unemployment is up.
Went to peoplelink today, I have to go back tomorrow for safety orientation.
Hopefully they can place me somewhere right away.
My bank account is overdrawn so much.
Makes me cry.
My mom and I aren't talking.
Laundry needs to be done.
We might be moving.
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2006 8 August :: 12.17pm
Do you ever wonder what peoples lives would have been like if you wouldnt have gotten involved? I have.
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2006 7 August :: 10.24pm
Okay. I feel a little better.
But I still hate you.
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2006 7 August :: 8.39pm
I fucking hate you all.
I quit.
No matter how hard I try, no one ever seems to like me. So I give up.
I've been dropped, stepped on, ignored, and mostly just plain forgotten.
Well, I can do that too.
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2006 7 August :: 7.29pm
Why do I care? It doesn't even matter.
I need to change this specific aspect of my being.
Who knows? It may produce better results.
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2006 7 August :: 11.51pm
The last few days I've been helpnig my dad side his house.
It sucks major ass.
Friday Carley and Hilary came over. And we had fun.
Saturday night Mike, Leon, Wayne and Bowser and I went to Howard City to some anniversary party. It was kind of boring but we had our own fun.
Yesterday I went to my grandma's for awhile, and then I went back to my dads. Then Mike came over there and we went and got something to eat and then went to his uncle Tim's then we went back to my dads and watched a movie..
Which then left me reformatting my computer, losing all my pictures (well over 500) and all my music files (well over 300).
Sucks major ass.
And that about sums it all up..
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2006 5 August :: 4.22am
Only one phrase can describe tonight.
Complete ego boost. =P
Definatley well needed, and well recieved =D
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