love me or hate me its all the same

2 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2009 31 March :: 11.11am

things are going good with jordan and i the only trouble is my insecurities

1 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2009 30 March :: 5.13pm

I feel like all my friends worlds are falling apart and there is nothing I can do about it..
How fucking shitty..

1 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2009 28 March :: 6.22pm

Bowled a 300 on wii!!

5 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2009 27 March :: 11.42am

So I took a day off work to recooperate.
Work killed me yesterday, and I can seriously barely move.
I pulled a muscle in my right knee.
Of course it has to be the one that I had surgery on a few years back, not the one that doesn't ever hurt.. Go figure.

I am waiting for a reply back from some people about a washer and dryer.. Hopefully that happens this weekend too, and we can get that.

I had a dream last night, that everyone I used to hang out with from Cedar, showed up at my house in a grey school bus..

So apparently, my sister isn't coming up for two weeks now..

chelthesmell

:: 2009 26 March :: 12.40am
:: Mood: StOcKeD!!!

These weekends just keep getting better and better!
Well Thursday I will be working for the day and the same during the day on friday but I'm not too upset about that because I never work and I need money motha fucka! lol. (I've been hanging out with Jessica too much...) Then Friday night my neice Kylie is going to spend the night with us and that's always a trip. Then Saturday AJ is changing oil on cars, then I'm going to Mindy's to give her her present, and I'll probably stay to party! I'm excited about that one! Then, FINALLY (!), Sunday night we're going to the Far From Finished, Flatfoot 56, and 10 Second March concert!!! Yay! Two other bands are going to be there but we've never heard of them so whatever...But the tickets were only 9 bucks a piece and 3 really kickass bands will be there! I'm super excited! I cant wait. So pretty much my weekend will consist manly of getting drunk and rocking out...! =)

3 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2009 23 March :: 7.09pm

After a long stressful week filled with 4 weeks worth of homework, a couple of exams, work, and very little sleep, I managed to come out alive.
I also survived a weekend that was filled with a 10 year old for the weekend, a barbeque, major cleaning, lots of wii bowling/golf/tennis and a trip to the movies.

Race to Witch Mountain, wasn't the greatest.

I have a PowerPoint presentation to work on, but I lack all sense of creativity.
Isn't it lovely how that works out?
It's like a vicious cycle.
Once I finish one workload, I get another thrown at me.

Not to mention, I need to figure out if I want to take classes this summer..
But it would also be nice to know what is going to happen once May comes..
My whole world will be up in a whirlwind then.

9 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2009 13 March :: 5.50pm

dad found a massacred HP laptop in the trash, only thing savable was this

Read more..

:D

1 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2009 13 March :: 5.50pm

dad found a massacred HP laptop in the trash, only thing savable was this

Read more..

:D

3 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2009 9 March :: 7.17pm

So I just read like 300 and some of my passed entries.
And I can't believe how lame they all are.
I wish I could just turn my mind off sometimes..

6 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2009 8 March :: 1.40pm

I don't even know where to begin..

:: 2009 7 March :: 2.03pm

I really wish that the drama would just stay as far away from me as it could.
I absolutely hate it.
I hate it when people say anything that involves my boyfriend cheating on me.
Especially when we are barely apart, and he really doesn't have time to cheat.
It literally makes me sick to my stomach when someone says those words.
I instantly get tears in my eyes, and my stomach gets knotted up and I can't swallow.
It doesn't happen because I feel like I can't trust him.
And even though I know I can trust him, it still gets my mind thinking, well can I really trust him, how faithful is he, has he done it before, who is it..
It happens because I care so fucking much about him, and the thought of it eats me up inside, because I already don't feel good enough for him.
The thought of losing him kills me inside and I feel like my whole world is crashing and burning right before my eyes and there is nothing I can do about it.

I swear I go through this atleast 5 times a year, at minimum.
Where someone says he is cheating, or that he made a move on them, or something that involves him and another girl.

People fucking suck.
And they are lucky I'm not completely crazy.

:: 2009 6 March :: 2.29pm

I hate when my friends are all unhappy and their worlds are all falling apart.
The selfish part of me hates it, because it makes me reflect on my life.
The unselfish part of me hates it, because I hate watching my friends go through all that crap.

The only unhappy thing I have to look back on right now, is the fact that I have had a migraine for 2 almost 3 days now, and nothing is relieving the pain.
That and my cat is a bitch. I love her, I really do, but she needs a new home.

:: 2009 2 March :: 6.10pm

I have an interview on Wednesday at 4 pm.
An office position at Town and Country Title Services.
Its 40 hours a week too! :)
Now I must find something to wear..

:: 2009 2 March :: 1.46am

here i am, sitting in the hospital right now.

my grandpa butch just had a heart attack.

his right cornary artary is fully clogged.

:: 2009 27 February :: 10.46am

Needs a washer and electric dryer..
Badly.
It's been like 6 months that I have gone without. Can't do the laundromat thing anymore.

:: 2009 23 February :: 7.43pm

Yesterday was probably one of the worst days I have had in a long time.
I managed to lock my keys in my car in the ghetto.
And apparently my body felt it neccessary to breakdown at that moment, because I balled my eyes out.
Crying in public, not my thing.

2 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2009 18 February :: 12.40pm

it happened again!

http://www.woodtv.com/dpp/news/Person_hit_and_killed_by_train

earlier this year the same shit happened in jersey.

dumbass kids need to learn trains are heavy and don't stop.

:: 2009 15 February :: 1.57pm

leaving for alabama thursday.

be gone for like 10 or so days.

peace.

:: 2009 14 February :: 8.55pm

I got a ring!!
Not an engagement ring though..
But a thoughtful, pretty, and shiny one..
And once again, the tears begin. but happy ones this time..

:: 2009 11 February :: 10.40am

events of last night

1. went to rosie's, drank a little beer and a bottle of beer.
2. andy [marini]convinced me to go to the crazy horse with him to play some pool, that was preceded by another killian's and a coors light, then we went and chilled and watched people line dance, then we had another beer and a shot of jack
3. andy starts line dancing
4. jordan show's up to pick me up from the bar because i'm not trusting andy to drive me home, espically after he had the shot of absinth
5. jordan takes me to her mom's house, where i almost win at 3 games of cribbage
6. go back to jordans, cuddle up with her and fall asleep.

3 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2009 9 February :: 8.36pm

our president just used the term "ginned up"

:: 2009 3 February :: 10.07am

truck is gone, picking up the merkur today.

:: 2009 2 February :: 12.57pm

zulla, this remind you of our english class discussions at all?

http://www.instructables.com/id/Build_A_Net_Gun/

:: 2009 1 February :: 11.20am

We all went out for Sara's birthday last night.
I drank..
Possibly way more than I should have, considering today I have to attend my grandma's 80th birthday party.
I don't do this whole hungover thing very well.
It's definitely not my gig.
And after the birthday party, Mike is having people over for the superbowl.
Somewhere in there I plan on falling into a deep sleep like coma and not waking up until tomorrow when I have to go to work.

And all I want right now is a back massage and something water that doesn't taste like crap.
If you want to take care of me, I would not object at this moment. haha

:: 2009 30 January :: 5.09pm

So it has been kind of a rough week for some, pretty normal for others, and for the rest of us certain events really had no effect.
Mike's cousin killed himself on monday.
No one is really quite sure why, but there have been accusations made.
He left a couple of notes, but things are still pretty up in the air.
Today was the funeral. Not really much crying, but then again most of the family had earlier in the week to cope with the death and slowly piece themselves together for the funeral.

Shit happens I guess..