love me or hate me its all the same

2 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2008 24 December :: 11.31pm

the only thing i want for christmas is to not feel so alone.

4 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2008 24 December :: 11.16am

This is Mike's puppy: Tank

This is my kitty: Titty

So yesterday started off to be a bad day.
Dog got into the trash, and made messes on the floor.
But I got 75 dollars from work!
And then I waited around at my dads with my brother for my check..
Oh, and then I got stuck in the snow trying to turn around to go get my check.
So I waited for my daddy and my brother to come get me unstuck.
Quite the eventful day.

Now it is christmas eve, and I have to wrap presents, bake brownies for my dad and brother for getting me unstuck yesterday.. and then make my way to belding, and then to go up to black lake to have christmas with mike's daughter and whatnot..

Yay!

3 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2008 23 December :: 12.31pm

also i'd like to add.
For our secret santa party at work.

I gave:
1. fifth of smirnoff apple twist vodka
I recieved
1. baggy with 2.5 grams of some decent bud in it.

:: 2008 23 December :: 12.30pm

delivering pizza in this shit sucks.

hard core.

8 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2008 21 December :: 10.24am

This snow shit, can go away at any time.
Oh, and Im getting a doggie..

:: 2008 21 December :: 3.30am

the best gifts cannot be bought, they come directly from the heart.

now, what do i get her?

3 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2008 20 December :: 7.13pm

i should be shot and killed

i have womanizer by britney spears stuck in my head.

god save my soul.

:: 2008 18 December :: 5.53am

i think i might need glasses, i'm in chicago and can't read the letters on the HTPC from like 8-10 feet away, they are decent size too. uh oh.

8 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2008 17 December :: 5.52pm
:: Music: Sorry - Buckcherry

Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me want to die

I have watched him suffer through the death of a friend..
And exactly a month later, for the course of about a month I watched him suffer the pain of watching his mother suffer until she passed away.
I have seen him at his weakest moments, and his strongest moments and the moments in between when he was lost in his own body.
I have helped him mend the pieces of a broken heart that I caused.
I have fought with him over serious things, and stupid things.
I've seen the fury in his eyes and the anger eat at him like a bacteria.
I've felt the distance grow and then be wiped away.
I've felt the butterflies day after day after day for over three years.
He's helped me through my roughest moments.
Wiped away a million undeserved tears.
Helped me mourn the loss of two friends.
Brought me chocolate shakes when I'm sick.
Let me get a cat even though he's allergic.
Let me keep the cat even though she's had an accident or two in the chair.
Let me fall asleep in his arms and wake up in his arms.
Our love is thicker than molasses.

I could go on and on describing our relationship, and its imperfections but it would take me days, and I would end up over analyzing everything to the point where I was stir-crazy, so I won't.

Christmas makes me cherish the ones I love. Makes me think about what I have, what I've lost, and what I could have.

This time of year makes me emotional.
November 21st this year was 7 years since my grandpa passed away.
December 23rd this year will be 4 years since my grandma passed away.

11 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2008 16 December :: 5.57pm

best weapon in COD5 is the flame thrower :D

:: 2008 15 December :: 11.15pm

this is an update.

I'd like to actually write what I'm thinking here.
But I'm censoring it so that nobody judges anyone else.

Fair enough?

2 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2008 15 December :: 7.43pm

Things have been pretty crazy lately, and are finally starting to calm down.
We have the house to ourselves.
Haven't lived by ourselves since August.
Im signed up for spring classes.
Hopefully the funding goes through.
I started talking to Tara a lot more latley, and it makes me miss the past.
When I lived a more adventurous life.
When nothing mattered but having fun.
I don't do spontaneous things anymore.
And I should.
I need to, but I really don't have anyone to do them with because I have distanced myself so much from everyone.
Put miles between us.
I really miss hanging out with friends.
Not that I don't love hanging out with Mike, but ya know..

:: 2008 12 December :: 3.13am

https://www.officialobamacoin.com/

this grinds my gears.

really, he's not president yet and the quotes from people in that little animation are amazing, they are praising how amazing of a president he is.

the guy wasn't even in the senate for a whole year before he started his campaign to run for president, how great of a guy does that make him?

:: 2008 12 December :: 2.46am

As if life hasn't been good enough to me, tonight i bowled a 212, 160, and 190.

my average is 156
my new high game is 212

chelthesmell

:: 2008 11 December :: 9.46pm
:: Mood: Fuck it...

I'm done!
I dont see how something can go from being about David and Mindy and turn into me showing my 'true colors' and apparently being the biggest bitch in the world and losing friends. I just have one thing to say to those of you that this concerns...
Fuck you.
If I'm such a bad fucking person for not putting my nose where it doesn't belong then you can go to hell. Dont talk to me anymore and dont act like your some sort of force to be wrecken with or something because you're not.
I dont need this kind of bullshit in my life.
I'm better than this, I'm better than you, and I'm happy with my life and dont need to worry about what other people or saying because in my case, shit isn't true and never will be true.
I'm happy with or without such idiots in my life...

:: 2008 11 December :: 4.09am

whatever bad things have happened in the past all melt away when i see her smile.

and that makes me smile.

:: 2008 9 December :: 2.17pm

i just found a BSC cd, it was buried in some stuff.

hahaha, brings back highschool memories.

2 will hate me | will you love or hate

box

:: 2008 9 December :: 12.21am

My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I..
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window..
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'll all be gray,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad..

6 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2008 8 December :: 11.15pm

these past few entries have been all emo and shit, and the next few arn't going to get any better.

if you want to talk shit about someone do it elsewhere, this is MY place to write what i think.

Don't be a dick on my woohu, thats my job.

1 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2008 7 December :: 3.48am

02:36:20 < Danno> < Kidsune> Shhhh, don't tell anyone, but i'm gonna go down on
you...
02:36:20 < Danno> < Kidsune> And you're gonna love it...
02:36:20 < Danno> < Kidsune> But it's only going to be long enough to let you
start enjoying it...
02:36:23 < Danno> < Kidsune> Then i'm gonna come back up again and fuck you, big
time...
02:36:26 < Danno> < Kidsune> Lots of love,
02:36:28 < Danno> < Kidsune> Fuel Prices

3 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2008 4 December :: 1.39pm

That was the most nerve racking experience of my life..
Took my civil service test..

I am hoping I passed, not just so that I can apply for a corrections job, but so that I dont have to go through that again..

:: 2008 2 December :: 4.07am

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8 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2008 29 November :: 1.55pm
:: Mood: irritated

When your friends call me crying looking for you, I think thats a sign that you should quit being so flakey.

and i take care of your fek-in cat while your gone and you can't even come over to thank me.

I'm very very underappericated.

:: 2008 26 November :: 2.11pm

I'd like to believe that we decide when to wash our hands, or reveal the skeletons that we keep baracaded in our closets.
On our own terms, at the right time, and when necessary.
But in reality that doesn't happen.
Sometimes the past comes whirling in and everything else that mattered completely stops.

..While driving around greenville today, I had all these insightful thoughts that I planned to write. But when I got home I got side-tracked and had to do laundry. Now all those thoughts are barely there..

Crap.