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2008 7 January :: 5.14pm
:: Music: a day to be alone - one less reason
Its amazing how your surroundings impact your feelings.
Lately I have had more than enough time to think about things.
And I'm not sure if it's because I'm a very fickle indecisive person, or because I really truly do not know what I want out of life, but I haven't been able to come up with an answer for anything.
The more I think, the more clustered everything gets.
I'm almost positive what i want to go to college for, and career i want to pursue.
I feel that my boyfriend deserves more than what I am capable of giving him.
But I know that if that were true, he'd leave or been gone a long time ago.
Which makes me very grateful for every moment I've spent with him, every memory we've created, and anxious for moments and memories to come.
Is it possible to be so completely happy, yet feel so depressed at the same time?
its a new year, tomorrow i'm going out ot manpower, hopefully i can get in at ITW.
Box moved to ludington with his mom.
Its funny how a group of friends can fall apart.
wow, i just relised i started this update 35 minutes ago.
started talking to people on AIM and forgot about it. lol.
i'm watching the shineing now. Its the one with jack nicolson in it, this is the part where there is a naked chick in 237... Oh well, it doesn't make sense to me at all. i'm hungry, going to go find some eats.
I saw my Dentist drinking pop yesterday. It made me giggle on the inside.
My Birthday in 3 days! I'll no longer be a 'teen' and that feels really weird to me.
Welcome 2008! I sadly worked during New Years eve, so I ddnt even get to sit home and watch the ball drop, let alone be out with friends. =(
Damn Meijer Nazis.
On another note, I heard Vitamin C's "Graduation" while working the other day. I admit it brought on a couple tears.
EDIT: Haha! Gotta love Wee-man dude. This was posted on his myspace blog yesterday.
one of my friends happened to dissapear, i got an earful from his girlfriend becasue she doesn't have any meds left, doesn't have a car to go get them and has a doctors appointment tomorrow at 10 am.
take care of your shit man, I've had your back before in the past, and you've done a bunch to help me, but your on your own now.
What could you see?
What could you find?
If we meet please avert your eyes.
What I'd never show, what you'll never find
Is explosive, so hide your eyes.
Just really looked into Blaqk Audio, and just found out that they're actually Davey Havok and Jade Puget from AFI. It's funny, cuz I've been listening to 'Stiff Kittens' for a long time, and never recognized Davey's voice. It seems like it should have been obvious now, but, oh well.
They have a great sound, I suggest you check them out. =] 'Stiff Kittens' if nothing else, because its' a great song.
So i haven't updated in about a month.
Figured it was time I should.
Still looking for a job.
Christmas is around the corner.
All my shopping is done.
I have christmas with my moms family today at 3.
Christmas with my dads family tomorrow at 1.
Christmas with my dad sometime between now and monday.
Christmas with my mom monday I believe.
Christmas with Paula and Jim and the kids on Monday night Tuesday morning.
And i think that about sums up my christmas' for 2007.
The closer christmas gets, the more exited I get.
And I get to see my sister and my brother in law!
you know, i don't mind doing favors for friends, i actually enjoy them.
But, when you never ever help me with anything....
don't ask me to give your friend a ride somewhere espically when;
1.) We don't hang out much at all
2.) You've known this guy for like a week
3.) you told me the reason he needs a ride because he's running from the cops
4.) you wouldn't do the same for me
also, when i tell you that i won't do it grow the fuck up and don't get pissed at me for you asking me to do something illeage.