wow
Well today was fucked up... i found out that one of my best friends was never relly my friend at all and just pretended to b my friend cuz i was friends with manda.... but u knwo thats ok i was sad at fist but now im fine with it i just happy to know the truth now... :-) and im not gonan let that cunt bother me cuz she mad it obv that thats all she is a CUNT!!:-D so i hope she has a good life lieign to ppl and beign a cunt and never going ne where with her life cuz shes to much of a bitch to ppl... lol but its all ok cuz i have soo many friends that really do care about me and shes nto loss....

Well yesterday was crazy!!!! lol me and nikkie and jess and Kaite, got chased by this fuckign crazy kid yellign at us to fuck him and and suck his dick... lol and we were scaired cuz 2 min before he was playign with a knife soo we thotutgh he still had it and jess and i got stuck in a prickerbush and got all wet
it was horrable but funny!!!

Well i have to clean my room today.. and i have homeowork soo im off...

Lizzy

hmm

yea well its 10:30 and theres school tomorrow which means i shoudl really b in bed... but i cant sleep tomany things on my mind so i decited id write in here....

u know its really sad to lose a friend.. and i have lost many i can sadly say...but um not sure if im ready to give up on some now.. i want to give up i really do but i can't... i really believe that if we all make and effert we can b frineds like before.... and i know for a fact that not one of my friends invloved can say that they dont want to tery and make things work... i say fuck it.. start over new... no fucked up ties to eachother due to sexul reasons... fuck all the fights weve had becasue think about it... how pointless were they.. and i can answer that for u they were fuckin stupid and nothign that shoudl have ever caused us to not b freinds.. and as the summer gets closer and closer i get sadder and sadder thinking abotu how last year we were always together, and now i cant even remeber the last time we were together.. and its soo fuckign sad.. things never shoudl ahve gottn this bad.. and truthfully i dont understand y they did.... but im gonan try now.. i really am im gonna give everythign i have to try and b friends again.. and if it dont work then i quit and its all done.. but i really hope it dont get to that point :(

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long ass time....

a year already
You know its scary to think back to the summer and all thats things that happend, and the things that have changed since then, but im happy... i happy with the way things are now..... i was talkign to kelsey on friday about the summer and how all my friends other then jimmy have left me... but i guess they wernt really friends.. but i know that Jimmy Manda Kelsey Robbie Cozzy & Meg are... and i hope more then nethin they will never leave me... since the summer so much has happend between all of us.. but look.. we got over it, and were slowly getting over ti everyday and growing together... and i don't knwo what i would do wiht out all u guys... I LOVE U ALL

Its crazy to think that only a year ago i didn't know Manda Kelsey and MEg, and now i do everythign wiht them... when i think about it it seems liek this year had flown buy, but then when i think about all the things i know about them it feels like i have know them all my life.. and im soo happy that this year has happend... even wiht every bit of dram becasue i lost some friends but i made even better ones, and i have grown, and when i was sad they all helped me.... and i love them soo much!!

Manda, Kelsey and Meg..... I love u guys soo much and i jsut want to thank you for always helping me and being there for me!! and i thank god for letting me meet u guys last summer!! i can't wait till this summer... no worries it will b a good one 2... as long as u guys are with me!!!!1 i love u all soo mcuh idk what id do without u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

<3 Lizzy

a year already

You know its scary to think back to the summer and all thats things that happend, and the things that have changed since then, but im happy... i happy with the way things are now..... i was talkign to kelsey on friday about the summer and how all my friends other then jimmy have left me... but i guess they wernt really friends.. but i know that Jimmy Manda Kelsey Robbie Cozzy & Meg are... and i hope more then nethin they will never leave me... since the summer so much has happend between all of us.. but look.. we got over it, and were slowly getting over ti everyday and growing together... and i don't knwo what i would do wiht out all u guys... I LOVE U ALL

ur soo dumb for waateing ur tiem fighting over somehtign soo GAY!

ok manda and kelsey how long have u been friends!!?? serously! both of u get over it!! kelesy ur a hypicrat and u knwo it and all manda was doing was showing u that u were and that that was gay, and manda u shouldn't have dragged other thigns into this one problem because ut made this sucha a big deal over ntohing... soo ur both wrong get over it... and its not neone else busness soo kelsye ur littel friend needs to watch what she says cuz last nigth i was ready to kcik her ass soo next tiem im nto even gonan hesatate jumpinn on her ass and fucking her up... cuz she got into ur and mandas thing where she wasent wanted and then she had the balls to try and get in my busness... FUCK THAT!!! its nto her busness soo she better get her noes out of everyone shit of her noes will b up her ass, and im not even kidding.... now if ur both goiogn to give up a friend ship over her gay ass then ur both stupid, becasue there is no way its worht it at allllllllllllll... soo let it go! and get over it!

RAIN!
I love the rain soo much!! im all wet rigth now as i write this because i jsut come from my window i was hanign out of inorder to watxch the lightning and thunder storm that jsut ended!! i love rain and lightning and thunder!!! It makes me soo happy just to sit and watch...

Today i sat and looked out my window at the rain and i have never been soo happy in soo long. Just watchign the stom made me soo happy!!! hahah and thats y its my favorite thing. I don't knwo what it is about ther rain but i love it, i love how everything looks in the rain and i love to play innthe rain and i love the feel of the rain as it hits u!! i just love it and every time it rains its liek all the bad things get washed away, at lest for a few min....

RAIN IS AWESOME!!! AND I LOVE IT!!

And i'd love to b a rain drop, because rain drops never fall alone....

<3Lizzy

.....
"Fall"

i close my eyes
thought i was lost but i was stranded
i go outside
to my surprise the sky had landed
i thought it made more sense
if i could only keep you guessing
i was a fool to think that i should stop you from undressing
now i'm believing all the words you say
that i can't say back to you
but so you can

so i fall
i don't wanna feel this small
you know i just can't handle this
handle this at all
and i'll just fall
i let my heartbeat drop
i falter as the music stops
and you watch me as stall
and wonder when i fall

i kiss your neck
i feel you breathing on my shoulder
still i'm perfect
it must be you cause now it's over
i was so close
that was the most that i have ever been through
now old cassettes and cigarettes
will be the ones to save you
how can you ask for me to stay
when all you ever do is go?
just go

and so i fall
i don't wanna feel this small
you know i just can't handle this
handle this at all
and so i fall
i let my heartbeat drop
i falter as the music stops
and you watch me as i stall
and wonder when i..

go on
you've kept me waiting
go on
and watch me as i fall

i don't wanna feel this small
you know i just can't handle this
handle this at all
and so i'll fall
i let my heartbeat drop
i falter as the music stops
and you watch me as stall
and wonder when i..

new song that i really liek thanks to the wonderful Manda!!

well the vacation is comming to an end, and i don't knwo y but i fells like tomorrow at school im not going to see neone, but im going to see everyone, i knwo it don't make sence but it fells leik wiht the end of vacation cums the end of life lol... cuz school jsut fuckes wiht life and makes it a pain in my ass....ehhh but what isnt a pain in the ass....

it seems rigth when everythign gets soo good your finally happy, things go shitty again.... like i was happy thinking to myslef that i was happy but then somehitng grabbed me in my stupid little made up happy-room, shook me and said "ARE U KIDDING UR LIZZY FERRARO!! UR NOT ALLOWED TO B HAPPY!! THATS Y U NEVER ARE U ASSHOLE SOO GET IT THROUGH UR HEAD AND JUST LIVE UR SUCKY UNHAPPY LIFE THAT WAY UR SOPOST TO!!!STOP TRYING TO GET SOMEHTING U WANT ULL NEVER GET IT!! UR A LOSER AND SOMEHOW SOME WAY U DESERIVE IT U BITCH!!!"ehh im might seem liek a cry baby but after 15 years of never gettign what u want and always haveign ur happyness stolen and broken in ur face u get fed up 2.... not like geting fed up will make a drifference cuz im stupid, ill admit it IM FUCKIN STUPID! and im stupid cuz everytime ill go back, i will i know i will, in a way want to, but this is crazy, i wish i din't liek him, i wish even more that i didn't love him, not liek that will change nething either cuz like everythign else i want to come true my dreams are always the first to b broken, and this is the worst... i have NEVER in my life wanted somehitng liek this... i want u...thats all i want, if i had one wish i woun't wish to b rich or for all the sex in the world i would wish to b loved endlessly by you....and its sad cuz all my life i have iv prayed to god, wished on stars, and done every other superstitus hub bub to wish for u but i guess u can't alway get what u want.... but i wish once, just once i could get the one thing i want the most.....


Maybe when the room is empty
Maybe when this bottle's full
Maybe when the door gets broke down love can break in
Maybe when I'm done with thinking
Maybe you can think me whole
Maybe when your done with endings this can begin
This can begin.....

i fuckin hate birds
well hello there...

Hehe, well im sitting in mandas study on he computer (DUH) wrighting this right now... lol shes in the ohter room wint Emily writing her entry lol soo i felt i should write one 2...

lol well yesterday was 4:20!! haha it was fun, i love to sit on my ass and get high then eat hahah and thats what i did all day.. nothing speical..well to u anyway...yea well it was 4:20 soo it was all good hahaha

well today is Mandas birthday!!!!!! shes 15!!! lol HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA I LOVE U SOOOO MUCH!!!

im not sure what we are doing today... lol we'll prob sit on are asses and watch tv till the saine world 0wakes up... lol why were up this early is beyond me but w/e...yea sooo im gonna got eat now ands watch tv... i love u...

I love u more then you know, so if u don't love me just let me go.....


p.s. u BETTER wish my LOVE Manda a HAPPY birthday or i WILL KILL u!! hehe have a nice day