:: 2004 10 April :: 2.31 pm

hey fuck monkey's whats goin on? So yesterday i went to a bonfire... great joy that fire brought to me... We played spoons and met the oh so famous... church crazed mom... but it was grand... I brough Sarah baloons and a card well me n apryl did... cuz she is sick :(... awe... well ill get going i suppose i should get going on my 2 dollars lol... i just need to send it out... it's not like i don't have the 2 dollars i just need to find time fer my lazy ass to send it in!!!

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:: 2004 8 April :: 12.46 pm

Still trying to decide on the whole $2 thing how many people are doing it anyhow?

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:: 2004 7 April :: 9.28 pm

OK here goes... moved my bedroom downstairs in my moms house... and working on it in my dads... cool stuff now i have more privacy... me n apryl aren't good thats too bad... me and grace have been talking quite a bit actually it's nice... she's the one person who has never turned their back on me or ditched me for someone else i think thats cool... haven't talked to many people over spring break it's sucky... argh!!!

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:: 2004 6 April :: 4.04 pm

*cough cough* achoo!!
I'm so sick today... im having an allergic reaction to milk... yes folks im allergic to milk! Well Brent write me telling me he could change, i decided to give him some time but we're not dating quite yet. I'm working on getting job, but where? hmmm??? I'm looking hot today lol i didn't even straighten my hair or anything real attractive hee hee. I'm working on moving out pretty soon, i really just can't stand this moving ever couple of days lifestyle. Anywho how are all of you doing?... leave me a comment or write me an e-mail somtimes.

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:: 2004 4 April :: 11.56 pm

I never knew it would hurt this bad to lose you.
I have been reading my journal the last couple of days... the whole thing and I'v realized that I have grown up, and I know im not fully grown up but im getting somewhere. I have done plenty of things wrong... not just during the time i'v had this journal but my whole life... but each thing in my life that happens is like a card... you need each one to finish the game but in the end nobody really wins... and no one really finishes... Just while writing in woohu i'v been angry and sad and all the emotions in between i'v gambled with life and lost one of my very best friends... i'v learned lifes to precious to gamble and no matter how hard you try people are still going to be people and they have their own personality which isn't always going to be like yours and you can't always hold on to the people you care about you have to let them find out firsthand how hard life can be. It takes some people years to think about life this hard and some people never fully grasp the concept... maybe i don't have it figured out and i know i don't have it completely figured out and to be honest with you i hope i never do lifes a dream you live it you love and long for it... and in the end you wish you could do it all again... i hope i never feel that way, you know looking back hoping to change something... i don't regret the things i'v dont' because they'v gotten me where i am... and i don't regret the things i'v said because i'v obviously said them for a reason which is sometimes unclear but at the time seemed right... im just hoping that maybe i can move forward and inch at a time and not let the rest of my life slip me by.!!!
Jc

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