:: 2004 1 April :: 8.37 pm

Hey peoples well Brent has been extremely mean to me lately like getting mad about me not being home and stuff... so i wrote him a letter saying that i'v been in relationships like that before and it just doesn't work out... and he wants to wait for me to break up with him until after we get a chance to talk about it!!!!... ugh i hate this on a lighter note the new kid Tyler is really cool... eeks and I like him... Grace is here she is coming to school with me tomorrow... and then this weekend i am staying at her house... because it's her birthday everyone wish her a happy birthday i dont' care if you don't know her... why doesn't anyone write on here anymore... :( that makes me sad... me n apryl are better i think... not sure if we're as close but we're not arguing and thats a plus. Jessica is being fine but i do need my purse back. I'm so glad I have friends like Grace... we don't ever argue like stupid gossip stuff lol. well im off... have things to do plus im sure Grace doesn't want to sit here while i'm online...
JES

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:: 2004 29 March :: 9.04 pm

Hey all so Brent got really mad at me for having "guy friends" he says that I hang out with them more than i do him... ok fer one if you didn't live like 45 min. away i wouldn't and two if you didn't lose your liscence you could come see me more!!!... so this sucks but he did send me a pic... but i think i deleted it on accident so i have to have him send me it again... he's with his mama!

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:: 2004 26 March :: 9.46 pm

Today i realized how much i miss all you guys... and i thought about it i would miss my friends at cta too... they are really nice people... so i was so confused and im not sure where i plan on going to school next year. I might actually go somewhere different i like new people... i just have an issue of miss the old ones... Everythings jumbled in my head right now and I just am so confused on what to do...??? ON a lighter note me and Brent are doing extremely swell... I have never met a guy who treated me like i was so special before... in a way it gets a lil annoying because it seems so wierd it's fake or something??? Apryl says she wants to get back the friendship we had... but it's hard to get something back that has been gone for a while... I just wish it were easier done than said... lol For all of you who have heard about me and apryl... trust me it hurts me a lot more than you would think... but the part that hurts the most is that im so easily replaced... well talk to you all later love you miss you
JC

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:: 2004 24 March :: 7.53 pm

Hey all lifes ok lately i am going out with Brent Bossner... who is extremely sweet and nice and all of the above... life is going almost absolutely perfect besides the fact i lost my best friends to the most immature person i think i have ever met... she whines about everything... and the funny things is no matter who you ask they all say bad things about her... even the people closest to my old best friends... on the other hand me and grace my other bestest best friends started hanging out again it's so much fun and I now remember why she was my best friends in the first place... she is so understanding... plus we hate the same people... hee hee... well i guess so long old life hello new!

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:: 2004 6 March :: 3.07 pm

Today I realized I don't need anyone but myself... I'll never find anyone but myself... I feel so empty... real empty like nothing and no one matters anymore, my brothers got on my case today BAD... about Jason who's 22 and he works at McDonalds and I was talking to him... they act like i was making out with him in the middle of McDonalds or something. I hate it... they make me feel like im honestly doing something wrong. My dad today said that he knew that I smoked... yeah I smoke all the time.. actually when other people smoke around me I get pounding migrains, so why in the hell would I smoke?... they think i'm a slutty drug attic or something... i'm not sorry to disapoint some of you but i'm just not. Apryl and I aren't really talking right now I guess I was being kind of mean last night but I have been waiting for a while just to say something along those lines to her... and I wish I could have told her everything thats on my mind. I know you all don't really care to hear complaining but im in the mood to complain so if you finish reading this it's only your fault... Shilo just called with some good news but it's a secret so I guess that puts me in a better mood. The other day i was thinking i'd talk to god... the one person who doesn't complain about me complaining... but you really don't feel like your accomplishing anything especially when no one talks back to you. Right now if I didn't have Shilo I swear I would have broken down he is the one person who I can say anything to and know that he's not going to say a word to anyone. Right now it's like 3 o'clock in the after noon I am sitting here in a hoodie and pj pants... no makeup and my hair in pony tail... hot huh?...

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