:: 2004 27 February :: 11.29 pm

I'm seriously gonna go crazy if my life doesn't change soon... my parents have no trust in me... they go looking for me if i don't tell them where i'm going they think my choice of friends is all wrong... don't get me wrong their not perfect but they aren't jailbirds either... ok... and for too my head... since the accident on monday... i'v have pounding migrains... non stop i actually cried because it hurt so bad yesterday after we dropped jamie jessica and steff off at home... im sposed to get my liscence soon... yeah sure i will... my parents never follow through with what they say... well so far today i'v taken 5 motrin... and some exedrin not sure the count on those tho... i really don't think headache medicine is working tho... just makes me drowsy... im gonna go paint a picture or something to get my mind off it.

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:: 2004 24 February :: 3.03 pm

Ok here goes... a rant... well I was sitting in my room today radio blaring... you know thinking today was supposed to be fun... no school... not boring... ALONE... and I'm not supposed to feel like this... my life is going pretty good I mean I am passing all my classes... I think or thought something along those lines I had some pretty good friends... I'll have my liscence by the end of the week... yet how come i still want to die... I hate waking up in the morning... and how come I hate life in general? I am a 16 year old girl life is supposed to be a blast so how come I hate it...? Could someone please clue me in?

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:: 2004 14 February :: 11.45 pm

I just got in a huge arguement with someone who makes me feel like shit... I really am worthless huh?... Everything in my life is going to hell... fer real and there is nothing I can do about it... and when I finally do regain conciousness... it'll pry be to late... so while your all pissed at me why doesn't someone kill me please

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:: 2004 14 February :: 11.34 pm

I am so dumb... geez... yeah Jessica stayed the night tonight she is staying all weekend... my mom wouldn't let Apryl stay and it's my sisters birthday tomorrow so I can't hang out till later afternoon... I got my sister a cute ring and a card fer her birthday... OMG... I got a ring fer my birthday and we went and got a new one cuz it's like huge... and real shocking...

I am so sick of dumbass people... I hate life... I dunno...

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:: 2004 14 February :: 10.56 am

Hey all Happy Heart Day... I think I am going to get a dress for our sweetheart swiril which happens to be a week after valentines lol... odd shtuff huh? Jeff the kid I like says to Shilo the kid Apryl's with... that he won't date me cuz my brother... lol that would be the second guy I'd lose to Chris... nope not happening... so I though I'd go and visit my lovely brother today lol... maybe I'll work up some tears... ha
nice thoughts
JC

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