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So I haven't really updated on what exactly has been going on in my life these past few weeks. Christmas break really opened up my eyes as to what I should really do about Jason and I. Right before I left for school we broke up, but it felt like more of a break than a break up. We were still talking and having fights and I was really upset and depressed. I also wanted to see him very badly on this past Sunday because Monday was our 5 year anniversary. Technically we were broken up, but he was still my boyfriend and I wanted to be with him on our anniversary. He came down on Sunday and we had a great time. I told him that after that night we had to not talk anymore because I need my time to get over him. After we talked about that, we had a good time and he spent that night. I feel really good about everything and I just miss him. I know that in the future we'll be friends, and I know that I will know him forever, but I need my time to seperate myself as Jason's girlfriend and move into being single, and being myself. My friends tell me that not talking to him will make him realize what he is missing, I like that idea. That is actually my motivation to not call him.

School is going alright. I have pediatric nursing this semester and my clinical site is at Battle Creek Central High School. I know, hardly the place to study pediatrics...I thought that I would be at an elementary school or something, but I end up at a high school with a majority of it's population that is poor. That means that a lot of the kids I will deal with there have some issues and that usually translates into a lack of respect for anyone. It should be a lot of experience dealing with patients that don't want care...that's how I'll look at it. I have an interview this Wednesday at WMU's janitorial services for a job in their central office. The good news is that the building is right next to the new college which is where my only 2 classes are, so I can get there easily after class. I also have my second interview with Metro not this Monday, but the next, about the nurse externship there. The interview is in for the ICU and if I get it, not only will I have an job for the summer, but I'll learn so much because of the variety of patients I'll take care of. So keep your fingers crossed for me. If the job at the janitorial office doesn't work out, I talked to an assistant manager at the Subway down the road and she seemed like they would want my help, so that means I'll get some money, because that is very scarce right now. I know that I am above Subway, but it'll be money and hopefully it'll help me save some money on food because I'll eat some meals there. And I have been trying for so long to get a job, and nothing is working. I have a ton of free time and all I do is just sit around and think about Jason. Getting a job would help me keep my mind off things for sure. And I could use the money for my trip to Florida that I will be leaving for in 27 days!!!! I will get to see my parents new house too!! They can move in the first of June, so they will be leaving when Eric is out of school for the year. But if I get the externship, I don't know if I'll be able to go with them and help them move, I'll just have to wait and see. I do know that I will for sure be going there for Christmas, and maybe even Thanksgiving if I can swing it . Now that would be an awesome thing to do. And then next spring break in the Bahamas, then graduation and who knows where I will end up. Wow, I just looked way into the future, it's not even pass this years spring break. Ok, I'm going to get going to study for a bit before the night starts. Hopefully I find some really cool people to hang out with !

Ricci