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nerdalert

:: 2004 4 February :: 10.23pm

its only wednesday :'(

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buttercup954

:: 2004 4 February :: 4.26pm
:: Music: tori amos - your cloud

i'm hoping that animated icons annoy you.
::sigh:: so, like i never have thoughts to put in here. i have another journal i do that in. if you're special, you have the link to it. not that anyone enjoys my blab. but whatever.
i've also been making lots of (stupid) icons lately. you think i'd be smart and take a class on it so i atually get credit besides personal satisfaction out of it. hey there's an idea! ;o)
btw, in case it wans't the most obvious thing in the world.... there's some really fucking dumb people out there.

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moana

:: 2004 4 February :: 11.24am

family values
Momma raised me and raised me well
Said, “Say what I say and do what I do,”
But all along she was telling me,
“To yourself, you gotta be true.”
A girl is supposed to be a woman
Humble, subtle, but firm and strong
To raise a girl into a woman
Is one of those important and unwanted jobs
Momma tried to teach me life
To be a survivor just like her
But everyone else tells me ‘life’
Just like ‘death‘, is another word
She said to always be feminine
Sexy, charming, shy and smart
But still be strong, a feminist
Always finish what i dared to start
Momma taught me about oppression
Said, “Man will hurt and ridicule you,”
And all along she still told me,
“To yourself, you gotta be true.”

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moana

:: 2004 4 February :: 9.42am
:: Mood: apathetic
:: Music: A Perfect Circle - Magdalena

ooooooovercome by you...
hoooooliest of altars.. and THEN i LOVE this song. it's so absolutely sexual... i love it i love it i love it. i wanna change my name to magdalena when i'm a profesisonal actress. so i've been sick lately and that's why i didn't update in so freaking long! *tear* i missed you all too!

i can't stop thinking about naruto. i fuckin love that cartoon like hell. it's so THERE and so I WANNA BE THEM and uchiha sasuke-kun is my man, the THE hottest cartoon character ever drawn. his only rival is Garaa of the Desert. *sigh* i need to get out more.

now that that's out of my system, i just spent a good fifteen minutes elaboraitng to AC why i wanan be an actress. it got me thinking. i mean, why am i only ME when i'm playing the role of someone else? that makes no logical sense? i've always been a sucker for the irrational. ah well. and THEN

i feel like my life's turned into something boring. i need some life in my life. i need to make something. a drawing or a story or something. i just need a bolt of inspiration. maybe i should do that now...

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buttercup954

:: 2004 3 February :: 10.25am
:: Music: modest mouse

quite result
Quiet Girl


What kind of little girl were YOU?
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nyc
You're a New York City Trendster. All of the bands
you like are from New York or sound like it.
You're probably the least indie, but still
pretty cool. I mean, despite our backlash, we
love these bands too. And yes, Julian
Casablancas is hot.


You Know Yer Indie. Let's Sub-Categorize.
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(btw that first question is evil. pick one from there, pssssh)

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nerdalert

:: 2004 2 February :: 7.25pm
:: Music: poprocks and coke - green day

woo hoo!
yay!!! i am stoked, i get to use my new snowboard this weekend !! and im going with elly who i havent seen in for-ev-er (i wore my goonies shirt today, how ironic). so let me tell you how much this weekend is going to rock, apparently cannonsburg has a kick ass terrain park, and i'll probably die, but it will be fun. but now its only monday, and i have to wait till saturday :'(

today i had an anatomy exam, wow that sucked, should have studied for like 130918 more hours, then maybe i would have gotten a good grade....well i dont know for sure, but we will probably recieve the news on wednesday of how terrible we all did bc everyone i talked to thought it sucked too.

so yay!

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buttercup954

:: 2004 2 February :: 1.37pm

i stumbled on this (it will open in a new window), and found it hilarious. i love you michiganders :o)

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buttercup954

:: 2004 2 February :: 1.24pm
:: Music: it's a taking back sunday/ the used/ jimmy eat world day

my little icon on here represents how i feel allot. people drive me crazy.
oh, happy groundhog day.

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nerdalert

:: 2004 31 January :: 3.51pm

this was in my history book, looks like things havent changed in 400 years....

this is the indians talking about the european colonists......

"The indians reguarded most colonists and mean and stingy, enslaved by their property and their longings for more"


now im not saying that im not that, i just thought it was interesting.

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nerdalert

:: 2004 31 January :: 3.15pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: the noise of the hallway

well this weekend is going to blow, im currently writing a 5 pager for my history class about if the native americans were intentionally or unintentionally killed by the european colonists/explorers. and i have a huge anatomy exam on monday that i have to study for....take whitbreads tests and mutiply their hardness by like 10 and thats what its like....yeah, tons of fun.

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WhitePony

:: 2004 31 January :: 9.06pm

FAE
You are blessed with FAERY wings. Beauty,
laughter, life, magic...that's what you are all
about. You are refreshingly innocent and happy
with your life of purity and play. Life's a
game and it's a good one. In your eyes there's
no way to lose! You can be very mischeivous and
have been known to cause trouble, but it's all
in the name of fun and not meant to really harm
anyone. You like to play tricks on people who
aren't quite as bright or clever as you - which
is almost everyone. Nature is the setting you
prefer to be in - Always. Barefoot and wild you
can't be tamed. You're probably a restless
spirit who loves to travel, and quite a
dreamer. Your creativity is astounding and your
art (of whatever media - from writing to
painting to drama) is like something from
another world - ethereal and often very
fantasy-oriented. You can either be a social
butterfly or a loner with their head in the
clouds - but rarely inbetween. You stubbornly
refuse to accept responsibility or to give in
to the wishes of others - unless you feel like
it. You have a strong passion for music and
can't imagine life without it. You'll grow up
someday, but you'll always be a child at heart.
You are adventurous and love to take risks, and
feel a deep connection with the weather,
plants, and animals. You prefer sunshine to
thunder or snow, the warmth of summer to
autumn's chill, and quiet forests to suburban
backyards. Magic through and through, you are
far more powerful than you seem, and are
capable of being extremely passionate. Though
you can be childish, naive, stubborn, and self-
absorbed, one thing is certain - life with you
will never be boring!


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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WhitePony

:: 2004 30 January :: 6.58pm
:: Music: From Autumn To Ashes - Chloroform Perfume

Back as far as I can remember, whenever I'd have dreams about running or fighting, things wouldn't go so well. While trying to run my feet just wouldn't have any grip at all and it was if I was running on ice, I simply would not go anywhere, and whatever or whoever was after me would get me. And as far as fighting goes I'd be in slow motion while my opponent was moving regularly. And my punches would be so slow and without any force that my fist would just go limp against their face. I'm sure some of you have experienced either of these once or twice. But about a year ago my dreams had some sort of strange breakthrough. Now everytime I have a fighting dream I seriously kick ass. If you've read my previous dream entries you can see it's evident. But seriously, I had some fighting dreams where I wake up seriously impressed. Its like ninja stuff, I'm all swift and agile, crazy stuff. Now here's what really boggles me. Whenever I have dreams where I have to run, honestly, I turn into a tiger. EVERYTIME! It's happened more than once. And in the dream there is a lot of emphasis on my claws digging into the ground and pushing myself off. Its so weird, but honestly, I kick ass now and I turn into a tiger to run, its madness I tell ya.

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nerdalert

:: 2004 30 January :: 9.35pm
:: Music: get low

just another day
well today i had to work in the "scene shop" for my theatre class. so basicly i had to build the set for the show thats comming up....12th night. i got to build a giant wall, i was on this platform like 10 feet high adding on about another 10 feet to it.

im playing lax again, didnt make softball, but i dont care because well i dont know why. i guess im just lathargic, i guess that would be the word, i just really dont care that i didnt make it. it would have been fun and all, but whateva. i guess thats all for today

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buttercup954

:: 2004 30 January :: 6.22pm
:: Music: jack white

phoenix
You are a PHOENIX in your soul and your
wings make a statement. Huge and born of flame,
they burn with light and power and rebirth.
Ashes fall from your wingtips. You are an
amazingly strong person. You survive, even
flourish in adversity and hardship. A firm
believer in the phrase, 'Whatever doesn't kill
you only makes you stronger,' you rarely fear
failure. You know that any mistake you make
will teach you more about yourself and allow
you to 'rise from the ashes' as a still greater
being. Because of this, you rarely make the
same mistake twice, and are not among the most
forgiving people. You're extremely powerful and
wise, and are capable of fierce pride, passion,
and anger. Perhaps you're this way because you
were forced to survive a rough childhood. Or
maybe you just have a strong grasp on reality
and know that life is tough and the world is
cruel, and it takes strength and independence
to survive it. And independence is your
strongest point - you may care for others, and
even depend on them...but when it comes right
down to it, the only one you need is yourself.
Thus you trust your own intuition, and rely on
a mind almost as brilliant as the fire of your
wings to guide you.You are eternal and because
you have a strong sense of who and what you
are, no one can control your heart or mind, or
even really influence your thinking. A symbol
of rebirth and renewal, you tend to be a very
spiritual person with a serious mind - never
acting immature and harboring a superior
disgust of those who do. Likewise, humanity's
stupidity and tendency to want others to solve
their problems for them frustrates you
endlessly. Though you can be stubborn,
outspoken, and haughty, I admire you greatly.


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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buttercup954

:: 2004 30 January :: 11.27am
:: Music: the stills

You have just won one million dollars
1. Who do you call first?
dad or tamara
2. What is the first thing you buy for yourself? 4 years at my first choice college
3. What is the first thing you buy for someone else? house for my parents. then go crazy on stuff for my friends. i'd have michiganders out here asap and join them at a beach house in laguna.
4. Do you give any away? If yes, to whom? of course, to a fab charity related to cancer, kids, animals, etc.
5. Do you invest any? If so, how? i would hire a professional to help out with that

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