'24 24 24 hours ago i wanna be sedated, nothing to do nowhere to go i wanna be sedated'
hypocrite lying bitch. yep, you know.

uhm i actually woke up this morning happy, er fake happy but in a good way yes indeedy doodly. dani and me had some sex at the courtyard and john talked to us and asked our names OOO so pretty.

of course i sawed my andrew which made me smile with delight :). i have key club after school today with the lennile. yay. HI LENNY

cheerleading mode
OMG okay, well my day was great fun and i liked it mucho lot...but now let me slip into cheelreader mode.

alrighty, so after practice today i went to target to get a bunch of shit for compeititon and then i walked over to barnes and noble for books and coffe (cant beat that) welll i happened to see a pair of red shoes, signifying legacy, southwest rival. well i also hear this chick go 'oh look shes from southwest'. okay so i get my coffee and this guy and girl come up to me and proceed to tell me that i my squad must beat legacy because they suck and kicked off all their guys member to be in our diviosn. THEN the guy proceeds to tel me legacys ENTIRE routine, i mean everything. which is fucking awesome becvause now we have the advantage over them, and they also happen to have standing backs which is illegal in our division....okay well that just made my night harharhar.

not going ot school tommorwo too tired hehe i love you andrew, and i shall miss you hehe. love all my boys too!

Seen
pale blue moonlight
snatching icy breath of a lover
dagger positioned above poisoned heart
threatening to stab millions of heartbreaks
heart of a corpse
exploding faster then that of the living
barbed-wire dreams
daring to be caught
unnoticed scars waiting to be noticed
stand like silver wisps of tears
apathetic eyes
determined to stay unloved
captured memories staring
come alive with pain of regret

blah, i have so much shit to do i want to fucking scream.
aw it made me sad, andrew called me at like 7:30 but i couldnt go out blah blah, but maybe we can play tommorow :).

went to the mall today with CLE so happy charlies back! we had fun buying items and looking in ho stores lol.

now i must go to do all my fucking homework EW

hey uhm, ookay last night was so silly.
me and the lennile went to target and barnes and noble and then i pushed her all around the thingymabobber in a cart. it was so silly, we make great memoires! hehe
my annie fletcher has been missing lately :( oh well, i still sad though.

daily stupid quote: "I think my hair gets tired because it can't, like, rest on my shoulders anymore"-lenny

ooo
alright, lets start with last night...new years eve

yesterday after i got home i ran amuck over to lennys where my lovely lenny and andrew ere there so i hugged them and did a dance...then they both came over to my house to get ready to partttty. around 8 we left to go to the beach and have fun. we ended up just sitting and playing truth or dare on the beach and it was really fun. i got home around 1 -1:30 and i crashed. then silly adam calls me at 2 in the fucking morning...oh well hes my buddy and i liked it.

today after i woked up i was summoned to go to the mall with linsey and andrew, so i did. now i am home tired and lonely ha. so i will sleep before linsey comes over...ya know since my parents are away and all!!! hehe :)

Linsey Kouns is sex.
people always burst my bubble, i hate them so much YES ANNIE YOU GAY. lol i joke i love my andrew...anyway

i am home home, like...real home...well..at this minute im at LENNYS yay i lurve linsey like a bunch of jumping froggies in a pond hehe...there is boy coughing on my head right now and i dont like it very much hard to type like this ooooo i dont have to look to type 6969696969696 thats from lenny to all of you simeritans.


my friends are weird...i love them though

its amazing how much people dont know me...and how they dont try to find out...oh well at least they tried...er not really...mm anyway.
IM HOME! freaking HOT as all hell florida that is. oh well i get to see my gorgy boyfriend and lovely lenny tommorow!!!! wooo NEW YEARS EVE

regret
I went downtown today and it was so nice, i cant wait to graduate and move back here. i want college, and to make desicsions myself...i know its the classic case of young person wanting to grow up, oh well its what i want.
i saw this awesome documentary movie thing, The Company. its about the geoffrey ballet in chicago (which i was in once thankyouberymuch lol) and it broke my heart wathcing it. i know none of you care, but i used to dance and i miss it so much. i dont know, sometimes i think about not cheering anymore and just dancing. i miss it so much and i dont want to be one of those adults that regret not doing something they love when they were young. its hard to explain what i miss exactly, its just the feeling of dancing and letting yourself...go. its so great. but yeah, just something i needed to say.
i come home tommorow, mixed feelings abhout that. its nice to watch how things work out from a different state, definitley nifty. but i also miss everyone...blah i just wonder what if sometimes, but so does everyone else...

my dear loulou, im not sure what exactly is happening in your life right now but from what i gather its not to great. so i just want to tell you im here for you and get better because i miss the happy lou, you can always talk to me i love you mucho lot, you are my boy.