"Im wathcing you fall from grace breaking a heart of gold...'
yay! aw im special! lol tony let me hear him sing haha it was good, very emo ha. uhmmm

so im going insane with boredom so thats always fun.

thats all. be my friend will you?


o0o0o0o i made my journal prettier, no fancy icon or snazzy music..but its still pretty

i need to remeber to just breathe....

i need you

sex
who the fuck invented sex in the first place? to begin with they need to be shot, a lot. how does putting someone dick inside of you make a relationship better? i dont get that, taking it the next level bullshit. how does it prove you LOVE someone more by having sex? what the fuck does it proove? nothing. i swear to god, relationships are so messed up...and yes i run away from feeling strongly about whatever and whoever....but im fucking 15 YEARS OLD. im a kid, im a little girl...i dont want to grow up with all this shit, and i dont want to feel so pressured to do anything. so yeah let me run away from it, fine fine fine i dont even care.

using people
okay, my topic of rambling today is using people. and then stupid FUCKING comments.

first off, who the fuck do you think you are to say you don't want to see me unless we can'do stuff'?? fine jackass, whatever like i really cared if i saw you.

second off, why in gods name would you tell someone that...argh. okay im nice, im being unconfrontational *soothing breaths*

goodness, it is mind boggling how stupid people are...lets bring down the girl with low self esteem, yeah thats great fun!!!

dumb fucking people...gawer

*sigh*
there is snow on the ground, presents under the tree, and love in the air...im in heaven.

snow!!!
its snowing right now and i love it. i want to wake up and have it be a foot of snow and me be all warm and comfy drinking hot choclate :). i know its a sad little dream but its mine so shh.

oh my today was quite nifty. i went shopping and saw movie with my mom. and i get home and go to dinner for my grandpas birthday and it was cool. i get back and go online and i have these three great emails from my love. i miss you my andrew, i wish you were here.

i feel so light and giggly and happy. stupid holidays and snow and andrew...all make me happy hehe.



i sound like a fucking hallmark card.
emily

cold winter
yay im in chicago right now! makes me veryvery happy. my nicholas already called me but i missed the call :(...its so nice to be home and in the cold and just *sigh* everyhting. sometimes i wonder if everything bad in my life would have happened if i hadn't moved...but then i wonder what id miss out on too. like i couldn't live without my CLE or my lovely andrew. oh well, fate is fate.

cold and happy,
ernie

im in celebration, that disney town EWW. oh well its kinda nice...cant believe i just said that. anywho, last night it 'snowed' downtown. which pretty much just means that bubbles fell from lighposts. uhm, nothing else interesting. adam called me and we talked about stuff. hes neat. nothing much else really

happy dance
*sigh* last night was good. we saw Gotchica, it was freaky as all hell. but today i have to go away :(. im going to miss my boys so much and ecspecially my annie. but i do really want to go home to see snow and nick and everyone. uhm. theres not a whole lot else to say.

everyone have a great break, call me so i don't miss everyone too much. be happy!

you've become a part of me, your always be right here
you've become a part of me, you'll always be my fear
i can't seperate me from what i've done
giving up a part of me, i'v let myself become you

i dont want to live like this. i dont need anymore friends.