i`M SO FACKiN` NATURE-ISTIC
o_o. We went Hiking todae. It was funn I guess. but BUT BUT. THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY. :BBBBB

K. Like where I went hiking, THE PINACLE, in FRESNO, CALI. Or like I call it THE PINACLE OF DEATH. o_o yeah So the whole thing is about these works that fell and like now form stupid trails for stupid nature people like me. So we made it through the first cave WHICH WAS SCARY AND DARK.!~ And then we had to walk in cold stream water. So it was reallly cold. and like when we got out the first one. We were like let`s just climb this big steep hill instead of going through the water again. WHAT A FCUKING MISTACK. Mistack. SWEET. K. So we started climbing after this one white guy that said it was SAFE. )= BASTARD. So when I got to the middle my foot lost grasp on the rocks. AND I SLID. Like 2 centimeters. IT WAS REALLY SHARP. Yeah and like now I have a scratch on my hand. )= It started bleeding. yeah yeah. SCARY HUH. And like we found out that the waterway had like logs and like rocks to climb over and it was a hell of an easier way to go. STUPID WHITE GUY. I COULD OF DIEDIDIDIDD. and like broken something.


My mom just slapped me. Right across my fcuking neck. Just because I nevermind. She never slapped for that before. JUST CAUSE THE FUCKING PIZZA GUY. SHE`S SUCH A FUCKING BITCH.

I LOVE YOU. <33~
yeah . can`t upload any icons since stupid photobucket rebuilds their disks i sound so frikken smart. ahh. yeah I keep on saying yeah. well `nyways it`s sundae o_o one day before school starts agen; `nd half a year passing. D;. but i`m not gonna cry. at least not in the open like right now. maybe tonight at 11.05 D; he left so frikken early in my life. i mean he doesn`t even get to see my brother graduate from school for the first time. I mean he never got an education so he would be really happy to see us graduate. but he doesn`t cause he left. and I hate it. i realized that when I was little, I used to hang out with my aunt a lot. but when i`m not with her I`m always with my dad. and as I grew older, i never spent that much time with him. I mean people say that i`m so happy, that i act that my dad passing away doesn`t even bring a burden to my heart. but it does. I can say my dad passed away so easily but if I really think about it . I`m alone and i`m looking for him. i`m always thinking. where is my dad ? why isn`t he here? and then I remember. that he`s gone. that i`ll never hear his voice again. I mean a lot of people dad passed away. but that`s mostly because they were old or because they grew up and had their own families. but i`m still a kid. and I still need him.

none of my friends know how I feel. I never tell them. all they know is my happy side the side when i`m smiling and happy and hyper. but i`m not trying to sound like i`m a frikken emo kid or stuff like that. it`s just that. I feel that I can`t talk to anyone because noone knows how i feel. and they don`t understand. and i have to keep everything inside and it kinda hurts but i`m not going to frikken suicide for it. o_o but i`m okay now. this kinda hit me harder than i thought because I told myself that i wouldn`t cry. but i did )=

the only thing that I could say in the hospital when seeing my dad for the last time was i love you, daddy over and over again. and I truly mean it. [= with all my heart and i always will. (;

nuhtin` much..
Would you yes you be my valentine? <3.

One more week of school and then OFFF for february break. yesss~ WELL WELL. I`ve lost my drawing skills. I couldn`t draw for like 4 days. I`m having drawing block. as Kanna calls it. ;D yaye. I might get a LJ, cause cause everybody there journal to friends only and Jubei can`t read it so I have to get one. which kinda means. 3 journals to update. [= [= [= [= I`m really excited. Can`t you tell.?

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