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2006 10 May :: 7.55pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: Stars
Not much new here. I'm occupied by anticipation. Everything is going to happen soon. Some things I know of and, I'm sure, some I don't.
Right now I'm going to M's to hang with S, where anything could happen. We shall see..
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2006 9 May :: 9.05pm
:: Mood: sad
I miss you. I wish you were here. But you aren't.
whatever.
Band awards dessert tonight. I'm receiving my department award on May 30 at honors convocation.
I got my honors band CD today. It is quite lovely. I like listening to people who can actually play.
Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.
michelle
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2006 8 May :: 8.34pm
I'm printing off the pictures for the mr. robuck and mr. green present thing for tomorrow. I'm not sure if i have enough photo paper. oh well.
I didn't do my rough draft for english. I turned my test in late. I bullshitted my way through my presentation. I don't know how I got through the past four years.
Jessie, Josh, and I are going to the mall on wednesday! I'm really excited. I love josh, he's my favorite oboe player ever.
Graduation party is June 3. Everyone is invited. Ask for directions if you need to. We'll have good food and a classic rock band (my dad's band).
mmhmmm.
I got a flower for my flute choir concert because I was a senior. I was extremely excited. You have no idea. My solo went well, the piccolo song, not too much. Oh well, it wasn't my fault he was so sharp.
Band concert went well. Last band concert. I cried on the way home. I know, i'm a band geek. It happens.
Pictures are almost complete. I'm getting very excited.
Good night.
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2006 2 May :: 6.31pm
random:
my mom bought ping-pong balls today... for playing beer-pong at my open house. seriously.
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2006 2 May :: 4.29pm
I took the ap statistics test today. Three hours of exciting fun with my space shuttle. Woot.
It was absolutely horrific.
I don't understand what is wrong with me. I feel the need to hide under the covers and eat chicken noodle soup. Interesting.
michelle
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2006 30 April :: 7.10pm
:: Mood: enraged
I think i lost my fucking bioethics test that I didn't remember I had due tomorrow. Fuck.
I had the bitchiest lady at work today. She actually made me cry. I had to go to the manager's office and sit down for a few minutes because she verbally attacked me. I don't normally get that upset, sure I have people who I want to strangle, but for some reason this lady just made it so fucking personal. I was trying to tell her that she was wrong in the nicest way possible and she was like "don't you shake your head at me like that" and "You people owe me for my time fixing your mistakes" and "don't tell me that I'm wrong, you're wrong, I'm not wrong, I deserve a twenty five dollar gift card, and that's what you need to give to me to make me happy".
And of course my manager gave it to her. It was all because she was "overcharged" on a twenty four pack of water. Well, the upc on her water and the upc on the receipt didn't match, meaning there was no fucking way it was the same product. NO WAY IN HELL can that happen. Well she wanted not only the price that it was marked, but the "sale" price from last week. Okay, I can live with that, it's like fucking five dollars, and she wanted a gift card, okay, a little much, but whatever, and then when I wouldn't give her the michigan scanning award (if a product is marked lower than what it rings up at the register you get the difference back plus ten times the amount UP TO FIVE DOLLARS) because the fucking upc didn't match the upc on the receipt, which it has to to give the award, she wanted to be upgraded from a ten dollar gift card to a fucking twenty five dollar gift card. Which, my manager did of course. There wasn't even a "thank you for your fucking help". Nope. Not at all.
I haven't cried because of a customer since the first day I worked at the service desk.
Whatever.
Fucking bitch, and she wasn't even fucking right.
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2006 30 April :: 12.15am
:: Mood: annoyed
Last night was nothing that I expected it to be. Prom was fairly lame, I had a much better time getting ready than at the dance itself. I love Josh so much, he's so much fun. I think he's the male version of Jessie; scary, I know.
So this time it wasn't just about it, it was about being together.
If I could only mix the cola and the grenadine together, I'd have the perfect cherry coke, but no one makes them the way I like them anymore. They use to when I was little. It's just not as good as it use to be, I guess.
I loved my hair last night. I even slept with it in and it stayed, but I took it out in the morning before I went to pick up summer. I had a shit load of bobby pins in my hair. Went to flute choir this morning on four hours of sleep. Took a nap this afternoon, and now I can't go to sleep. I feel like a restless zombie, my whole body is on a fucked up schedule. I have to work tomorrow, and I have a ton of homework just waiting for me to start on it. I don't want to start on it.
I've put in four good years. Time for a break.
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2006 29 April :: 10.14pm
:: Music: Mewithoutyou-January 1979
bsc?
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2006 24 April :: 1.30am
It's okay. We're helping the people in Iraq. And fitting in time for golf.
'Bring it on'
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2006 24 April :: 7.54pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Earwig- Drag
I don't like the conditions of my life right now. A few weeks ago, it was excellent. Things have changed. It's only a few weeks. And I have a feeling things are about to get a little worse. I'm going to be more lonely for a while, so I apologize if I complain at all. I just can't keep having "friendships" like the ones I have with Torrell and Angie. I know this. I'm putting a stop to it. After I go there once more.
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2006 18 April :: 8.08pm
It occured to me yesterday that everyone I know is painfully normal. There is nothing special about any of us. There are one hundred other people out there with the exact same talents and skills as any one of us. What makes us think we are anything to be proud of? The only thing that sets us apart are our experiences, but hell, who cares about experiences if you can't fit them into a concise paragraph along with your hopes and dreams and plan of the future?
I found out a few weeks ago that I was accepted into the Grand Valley State University School of Music to study for a degree in Music (performance) or Music Education.
It appears I have everything figured out. It would be wonderful if I really did.
Today was a horrible day. I don't know exactly why. It was just the feeling I had about it. Everything seemed so real, so acute, so harsh. It's hard to explain. It seems like the good days float by with a cloud of superficiality, nothing really grabs hold so much as just grazes by. It's like a bullet being shot that whizzes about your head. You realized it would hurt if you were struck, it might even be fatal, but because it didn't strike, it's almost not real. You are left with no physical reminder of it's presence. It can be soon forgotten, there was no true impact on your life.
Being struck with that bullet is a different story. You must live with the pain and reminder of it every day. It digs into your body, as much as into your soul. It's there, it's real.
That's what today seemed like. Real.
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2006 8 April :: 5.37pm
I got another tattoo. It's chinese for music, on my right foot.
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2006 7 April :: 7.32pm
Updating now, I haven't done so in a while. I now officially hate 6 people that I otherwise liked before. I don't know what to do about half of them. 2 of them were like my best friends but not anymore. Oh well their loss, not mine.
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2006 7 April :: 2.44pm
Happy Birthday, Stacy!
Happy Birthday, Dustin!
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2006 3 April :: 12.20am
Thursday night, 6pm, Craigs Cruisers on 54th street and Clyde Park, thats where my birthday party is at, be there or be square
Comment and let me know if you'll be there or not!
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2006 1 April :: 10.21am
:: Music: James Blunt- No Bravery
As much as I hate myself, I just realized that I hate everyone else even more. So stop being dumb selfish bitches and do things for the benefit of others.
Bitches.
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2006 26 March :: 6.26pm
get off of it bitch.
you need to stop going after what will never be yours.
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2006 26 March :: 6.22pm
i feel like i need to escape, or i need an escape.
whatever.
so much bullshit. of course my happy little world will come crashing down, what more could be expected?
i'm going to prom with josh.
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2006 23 March :: 6.51pm
Saturday is state, i'm pretty nervous. I have my GVSU music auditions next saturday, so I'll get everything out of the way so I can enjoy my spring break. At this point I don't really care how I do at state, just so I can get it over with.
During the meaps today my english class was combined with a modern lit class. There was this kid who was bugging the shit out of me because he was suppose to be writing a paper, but didn't know how to do it. So I turned around (because of course I wasn't going to do any of the work I was suppose to be doing) and I helped him write his paper. The kid was a junior and didn't even know you could incorporate a quotation from a book into your own sentence. So, I helped him write a couple of paragraphs. He just didn't know how to say what he wanted to say. I bet when he gets his paper back it's better than a C he'll be surprised. It made me wonder just how some people can get so far in our education system and fail so badly. I really did like working with him, however, and it kept me busy for an hour.
Syrinx is going good, and I'm excited for the end of my senior year. The future is getting less scary the farther I travel. That's a good thing, a very good thing.
michelle
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2006 16 March :: 10.16pm
humm... i think i prefer shallow post to well thought out and articulate ones. Reality is much too revealing.
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