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2006 26 February :: 7.46pm
:: Mood: scared
:: Music: Handel - Messiah
It's quite cold in my house right now. Maybe I'm just the one that's cold.
Finished reading Madame Bovary. It's a very interesting novel. It reminds me of a quote that I heard on a show a little while back that didn't even make it a full season:
"Men are romantics pretending to be realists and women are realists who pretend to be romantics."
I remember hearing that and it struck me. I'm not quite sure I know exactly HOW it struck me, it just did. I believe it's very true. Very realistic. It must have been thought of by a woman......
I'm very scared about the next few months. I'm so busy. But sometimes that really works out because I use that little time that i have a lot more wisely. I don't sit down and watch tv for a few hours, I get my homework done because I know that when I get that done it will be time to go to sleep, then time to wake up and go to school or work and do the same thing all over again. I like how it keeps me busy. I just get tired sometimes. I get scared that I won't be able to get what needs to be done done. I need to memorize my scales very badly. I have exactlly 29 days before S and E and limited time before my auditions for the school of music. I wish I had memorized them when I was in middle school, it's so hard now. I hate our education system. They keep the fine arts, but only enough to the point where students know where they need to get after all of it to make things happen, but they don't have the training they need to make it, and they know it. I know it. I met so many talented people at honors band. They knew so much. I felt like I was in sixth grade again. I think I was more naturally inclined than most, but they had training, and that's all that matters. They've had tons of music theory, expensive private lessons, and opportunities to perform and support from their school that I can't even imagine. I get told by people every day that I just need to settle for how horrible some people in our music program are, and I know how good people can be, how "good" i am, but compared to everyone else out there, how far behind I am and how much more ahead I could be if only I had those few opportunities, and now here I am, almost at the end of the line, getting ready to jump off the airplane and I don't even know how to work my parachute. It might as well be a suicide jump.
But I can't settle, because I know that when I get there it'll all be worthwhile, but can I get there? How? That's my question.
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2006 25 February :: 6.03pm
Bored
Yeah, I haven't posted on here in a long time. Since the last time I've posted I've gotten two tattoos, two piercings, and I had my 18th Birthday. I got a tattoo on my foot that is "soul" in chinesse, I got one on my back that is a treble clef and has some tribal stuff around it. Then I got my eyebrow pierced and the inside of my ear pierced.
Valentine's day sucked. I hate not having anyone. Out of the two people I like, one has a girlfriend and the other doesn't want a girlfriend, even though he claims he really likes me. I'm still confused about that. I hate being so lonely.
*tear*
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2006 22 February :: 10.11pm
Life's been good to me so far.
what about u?
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2006 2 February :: 9.25pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Whatever Bucky is listening too...
I am a horrible person!
So yeah... i haven't updated in ages (as you can see). Xanga sucked me in....I feel like such a traitor.
LIfe has been crazy.
School, Guys, Partys, Finding a new Job, everything. I don't even know where to start so I guess I'll just tell everyone to go to www.xanga.com/stay_ccv_2004 if you wanna know what I've been up too.
and I'll try to update here more often....
Stacy
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2006 29 January :: 5.59pm
solo and ensemble went well
Rob and mine's duet was SO GOOD.
we got a one
and I got a one on my solo......
:)
summer got a one too. I'm very proud of her.
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2006 26 January :: 6.56pm
Your ignorance cramps my conversation. ~Anthony Hope
"Ya, it's the goth kids"
"no,it's more of the emo kids that do it"
"ya, fucking always want attention"
What little arrogant bitches.
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2006 20 January :: 1.23pm
six months single
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2006 20 January :: 9.23am
Last day of the semester! I'm very excited.
No more AP Biology.
Now: Bioethics
An interesting switch.
I had a lesson with linda last night. It went better than I expected. I'm doing very well on my solo now, a lot better :).
I have an english test today. Five reading assignments in two days and then a test. Odd?
I just had some bacon and mushroom pizza and a cup of mountain dew listening to banter abroad. Pep band tonight, I'm not going home after school, but rather staying after with my flute ensemble to practice and going to subway and then coming back to school for pep band. It's going to be long day. But, that pizza WAS good.
michelle
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2006 17 January :: 11.58pm
figures, he's doing the same thing he did before
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2006 12 January :: 10.52pm
i miss my critters. I miss my k-t. I love it down here but i love it up there too. dang. how is everyone else's personal torment and struggle?
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2006 12 January :: 7.57pm
:: Mood: complacent
:: Music: Syrinx by Debussy
I'm listening to syrinx by debussy, which is my solo for solo and ensemble. I think I've gotten myself in fairly deep this time, I have two weeks to learn it to a good level. That means listening to different recordings of it many times a day a practicing for god knows how long. That reminds me, I have to go to the KDL website and find the recordings of it.
Semester is almost done with. That's a good thing, I think. I'm looking forward to bioethics. Eventhough it's a college class, I'm fairly sure I'll enjoy it quite a bit more than AP bio. I'm still stuck with Dolbee for AP lit, but I guess I can suffer through for another semester.
My duet with Rob (and with Jenny's accompiment) is going along quite well for the challenging level of it. It's not too hard in sections, but all together it's quite imposing, at least for me. It has a ton of runs and whatnot.
Today was sunny and warm and I was pleased with it.
Perhaps later.
Michelle
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2006 7 January :: 1.13am
wow my soap opera boyfriend kissed me
(some of you know what that means and or who that is)
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2006 5 January :: 1.11pm
my grandma and grandpa's dog died
goodbye kenize
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2006 3 January :: 12.16am
wow i am starting to act a little like my sis, i fell for someone in the armed forces
*giggle giggle
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2005 28 December :: 1.39am
something happend
it seemed to good to be true
sadly it wasn't
it was all a dream
i had forgptton about it, and when i remmeber and realized it was just a dream
i almost started crying
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2005 23 December :: 1.57am
:: Mood: annoyed
wow, isn't it great when people call you at almost 2 in the morning, its so much fun. it was vinnie
vinnie is a guy that is in hilarys class that does the art and bevs thing at cc. i make this short, he put his # in my phone, and we would talk a little bit on the phone, then i hadn't heard from him in like a week and i didn't feel like wasteing my time, because guys are stupid (jesse hits me in my leg) so i wasn't even going to bother, and they he called me, at almost 2 in the morning, and its not the first time he has done that. half the time he can't hear me and the other half i cna't understand what he's saying. and i guess he wants to hang out sometime but he lives in kalamazoo, so if we did meet up it would be somewhere in gr.
so there is my rambling for now.
ttyl
ames
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2005 21 December :: 11.49pm
just lyrics
And in my twisted face, there's not the slightest trace
Of anything that even hints at kindness.
And from my tortured shape, no comfort, no escape.
I see, but deep within is utter blindness.
Hopeless as my dream dies, as the time flies, love a lost illusion.
Helpless, unforgiven, cold and driven to this sad conclusion.
No beauty could move me, no goodness improve me.
No power on earth,
No passion could reach me, no lesson could teach me
Long ago I should have seen all the things I could have been.
Careless and unthinking, I moved onward!
No pain could be deeper, no life could be cheaper.
No point anymore,
No spirit could win me, no hope left within me,
Someone set me free! But it's not to be.
So just let the world be done with me.
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2005 20 December :: 10.47pm
Your 2005 Song Is
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Don't Phunk With My Heart by the Black Eyed Peas
"I always want you with me
I'll play Bobby and you'll play Whitney"
You were insanely in love in 2005 - and still might be!
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2005 12 December :: 3.38pm
I've been so tired lately. I've gotten an average of ten hours a sleep a night, and still it does not seem to be enough. I don't have time to sleep, I have too many things to do. Too much homework, working, blah I have to call them. Blah Blah.
I want to cry. My body hurts. All I want to do is sleep. I'm drinking a mountain dew in hopes of staying awake until five.
I have an essay to write. I hate fricken ap lit. what a bitch.
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2005 5 December :: 12.31am
Illusion
Love is just an illusion
A mere fantasy
Make up along with fairies, trolls and pixie dust
All things of a child who doesn’t know better
Love is just a barrier
Blocking us from our potential
Sending us doing a different path
The path that will ultimately lead to pain
Love is just a thought
It’s only a feeling because we think it is
True the heat beats red and sometimes burns
But that’s just eating the wrong food
Love is just a fairy tale
There is no pot of gold at the end of the rainbow
No knight in shining armor coming to the rescue
No happily every after
If love is just an illusion
Then why do I miss love so
Where is my pixie dust
My rainbow my knight in shining armor
To think I don’t need it is the illusion
The only illusion about love to believe its just an illusion
If you believe, to believe, then there is that fairy tale waiting to be found
So the question is.......
Where is my happily ever after
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