i've been thinking... yeah... thinking and actually this conversation sums it up.

volleyballchix8: i need some new music...
Tuwang128: FENIX TX!!
volleyballchix8: alot of mine is getting kind of stale
volleyballchix8: ah..i've heard of them
Tuwang128: get threesome
Tuwang128: awesome
volleyballchix8: alot of people at band camp listin to fenix tx
Tuwang128: Picture's on the wall just waiting there to fall
Tuwang128: Still remind me that painful holiday can almost hear you say
Tuwang128: Please don't miss me too long
Tuwang128: What did I do wrong
Tuwang128: Could've sung a different song you were my tune
Tuwang128: Could've sung a different song you were my tune
Tuwang128: And I'm all right without you
Tuwang128: The days go by the nights don't change
Tuwang128: The stars still spell out your name
Tuwang128: thank you
volleyballchix8: i like the last line the best
Tuwang128: it's just awesome
volleyballchix8: yeah
volleyballchix8: i just need to download a bunch of new songs and crazy bands
Tuwang128: dyou see dani
Tuwang128: not the attitude to have
Tuwang128: cuz then your gonna end up
Tuwang128: and have 500 bands, and not really know music
Tuwang128: only band names
Tuwang128: you have to feel music
Tuwang128: it's not something you can just rush into
volleyballchix8: ugh kevin.. im not rushing
Tuwang128: alright then
volleyballchix8: i have more of an appreciation for music than most
Tuwang128: yeah you deffinitely do
volleyballchix8: different kinds of music too because i practice 3 instruments every single day
volleyballchix8: but i suppose that doesn't have much to do with it
volleyballchix8: maybe she thinks she's a musician
Tuwang128: hmm, listening to music , and playing music are two different things
Tuwang128: but she's just wierd
Tuwang128: she likes all these really crappy punk bands
volleyballchix8: heh
volleyballchix8: but listining to music just for noise and listining to it for the lyrics is different too
Tuwang128: yeah, but lyrics are only one aspect
Tuwang128: ok
volleyballchix8: yeah
Tuwang128: I like 311 because the musical compisition and the lyrics put together, along with the many styles that they bring, just makes good music
Tuwang128: like most adults can listen to 311 and say, hey, this isn't so bad
volleyballchix8: right...
volleyballchix8: i like 311
volleyballchix8: who here likes 311???/
Tuwang128: *raises hand*
volleyballchix8: that's an inside joke
Tuwang128: yeah
volleyballchix8: anyways...back to music
volleyballchix8: well how do you really "know" music?
Tuwang128: hmm, well, it's hard to say
Tuwang128: you just know when someone KNOWS music
Tuwang128: yeah
Tuwang128: like Mikey knows music
Tuwang128: you know music
Tuwang128: you really have to play an instrument, and dedicate yourself to it like you and I, and mikey, and Robby do
Tuwang128: and Dusty
Tuwang128: he KNOWS music
volleyballchix8: yeah...
Tuwang128: you get what I'm saying
Tuwang128: ?
volleyballchix8: yeah i do
volleyballchix8: i do alot now
Tuwang128: I'm trying not to sound like I am a musical genius or something
volleyballchix8: because all the people you just named that know music.... play an instrument whole heartly and love it like no other
volleyballchix8: i nkow
Tuwang128: yeah, I don't know music well, but I KNOW it
volleyballchix8: yeah... i think you know it well
volleyballchix8: better than me
Tuwang128: well, it's just, yeah
Tuwang128: I'm trying not to be, I know music better than you, you know
volleyballchix8: yeah... i know
Tuwang128: but it makes me mad when people talk about music like they know it, and then don't really know
volleyballchix8: me too....
volleyballchix8: i really don't think i know bands well...but i do know my instruments without a doubt
Tuwang128: yeah, listening to a whole bunch of different bands doesn't make you know music any better
Tuwang128: like, alright
Tuwang128: when Nirvana came out, they were genius's , because they had this style of music that they created,
Tuwang128: but then like now, all these bands like saves the day, and new found glory, and taking back sunday, and thursday, all sound the same
Tuwang128: well, they just lack musical enginuity
Tuwang128: but 311, Incubus, Sugar Ray, and Ben FOlds, Blink182, they all have their own unique sound to where you can here one of their songs and say, that's Blink182, or 311, or Incubus.
Tuwang128: not that all their songs will sound the same
Tuwang128: just that you can distinguish their style
volleyballchix8: yeah.... i feel like i don't know music though because i don't listen to alot of different bands
volleyballchix8: yeah...
Tuwang128: well, knowing bands isn't what you want to know
Tuwang128: you have to know the types of music
Tuwang128: like Ska, Reggae, Rock, Pop
Tuwang128: etc. etc.
volleyballchix8: ahh... i love ska!
Tuwang128: just try listening to them, and find bands that play that music well and listen to them
Tuwang128: then you get your bands, and a greater knowledge
volleyballchix8: fun :-)
volleyballchix8: even though i complain about practicing and going to my big scary strict flute teacher... i love it
Tuwang128: yeah, you still do it
volleyballchix8: i do...and i enjoy it...
Tuwang128: then you know music
volleyballchix8: have you ever heard of nick drake?
Tuwang128: no
volleyballchix8: ah.. he's cool...
volleyballchix8: i like his song pink moon... i heard it on a tv commercial the other day and spazed because i had it on my list
volleyballchix8: it's a cute little song
Tuwang128: Oh, I finally listened to Wonderwall
Tuwang128: that's a nice song
volleyballchix8: you did!!!
volleyballchix8: i love that song!
volleyballchix8: haha

anyways...that's how i feel... so yeah... i need to practice alot because if i don't i'll get my ass chewed out at lessons tomorrow. ahhh... i have to have all 12 major scales memorized by next week. then minor scales!! fun!!! wooo!!

by the way...before i go.. i forgot to mention... 10 days till camp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and ... 375 days till wolverine band camp 2003!!! hahahahaha!!!

ok...this is silly because i just went back in time to do the countdown because i've been too busy to be on latley! i'm talking to erik right now and we are both riled up for camp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but who isn't!!!!!!!!! and you know what?! 12 days!!!!!!!! wowzers trousers..that's alot of exclamation points! but hey... when you are this happy about what's happening in 12 days... you need alot!! oh and i got my homecoming dress today! it's a little early, but we were shopping and this dress was calling to me so i had to get it. now all i need is jewlery and a hot guy. hahahahahaha.... right!!!!!!!

bwahahahaha... the official wolverine band camp countdown has begun with 15 days left till band camp 2002!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

beans is spending the night so i won't be talking to you all tonight. anyways.... have a good one. later.

last night
last night was kevin's big 4th of july bash! i had a great time and the shirts were soooo cool! jessie and i looked so cool and charlie took our picture to put it in his website for the band!!! wowzers..i've never been a groupie before. weird. oh well i'm a happy kid. but i guess i'm a little tired too. ugh... the thing that annoys me the most is kevin cuppett's keyboard. it's like split in the middle and it screws me all up. i had the worst time typing last night!!! oh well. jessie and i are having our own clothes line called sleezy geezers and we may get a record contract for our great improv. singing to random people. hehe. anyways...... i'm going to get some fooood!!! later!

i'm at kevins house. haaha... we're having a great time!! i did go to a good party last night too. well... now we're listing 311 beautiful disaster. ah well everything is great so i'll catch ya later! happy day!

ehh...
maybe i'll be a hermit.

happy 4th of july. see you at kevins party.

happy birthday tanya, well yesterday, but i wasn't on to tell you. :)

put on a happy face.

eh...
i had a fun past few days. kevin and jessie came over yesterday for a while and we went swimming at the lake. jessie and i camped out in the back yard and i was really paranoid about boys on slides. oh well... the drunk ducks and sleezy geezers kept us laughing. we had fun. she went with me to piano and we made really cute shirts for the party. pit was alright. i was really stressed out though and dacia kept yelling at me to stop being all tence when i play. i wanted to cry because i was so frusturated. oh well... i'm tired and i miss some of my friends. esp. spud, gangles, robby, jessica, mikey, matt and charlie. ah well... gnasd.

the survey...i\'m just jumping on the band wagon
seven things you can't do:

1. I can't: live without music
2. I cannot wait till: band camp 2002
3. I can't stand my dad's: dull and boringness
4. I can't stand my mom's: constant nagging and physotic bitching
5. I can't eat without: food
6. I can't stand that: i do stupid stuff
7. I can't wait much longer: until i can be free

top seven songs people should listen to
1. 311- 8:16 AM
2. Ben Folds Five- Underground
3. get up kids- i'll catch you
4. john mayer- comfortable
5. incubus- summer romance (anti-gravity love song)
6. oasis- wonderwall
7. incubus- i miss you (acoustic version)

top seven things you say the most:
1. bah
2. crazy
3. silly
4. messed up
5. beans
6. ahhh
7. hmmm

i find: happiness is waiting
i want: to fly... yes fly fly away
i have: a friend to confide in
i wish: you were here
i hate: the way you say things you don't mean
i miss: my friends in other states
i fear: hights
i feel: different
i hear: dashboard
i crave: love
i search: for meanings
i wonder: where life will take me
i regret: the bad choices i've made
i love: music
i ache: in my wrists from drumline
i long: for a best friend who i can be crazy with, not have to worry about growing to far apart or too close for comfort and having her there to talk about boys and to confide in. someone to cry to and to laugh with. someone who will always care and always share. but most of all someone who loves me for me.
i care: about my friends
i am always: listining
i am not: what people think i am
i foolishly believe: on miricales and dreams

five favorite trips you have taken:
1. band trip to florida
2. mexico in 8th grade
3. visiting friends in pensylvania last summer
4. the beach a few sundays ago
5. all the times i went to the mall with stefanie

stuck in your head frequently:
1. music
2. guys
3. worries and what if's
4. ideas

four things you'd like to learn:
1. how to play bass
2. the guys' inner brain and thoughts
3. what life is all about
4. how to dance pointe ballet

four beverages you drink regularly:
1. water
2. juice
3. faygo creame soda
4. milk

four tv shows that were on when you were a kid:
1. step by step
2. growing pains
3. nick news
4. boy meets world

four places to go in your area:
1. ric's coffee
2. bean's house and pool
3. the beach
4. alice's pool

four things to do when you're bored:
1. play piano
2. play flute
3. call beans
4. go online

four things that never fail to cheer you up:
1. bean's funnies
2. music
3. pictures
4. home movies

about 20 years ago...
1. my parents were married
2. they wore funny clothes
3. rod stewart was famous and well liked
4. mom wore mini skirts...

about ten years ago...
1. i was 4
2. we lived in traverse city
3. we played in the blow up pool for fun
4. i was as tall as a fish my dad's friend caught

about 5 years ago...
1. we moved to cedar
2. i was in ms. simpsons class
3. i wore spandex pants and big shirts
4. my best friends were larissa herrera and marissa walker

about 2 years ago...
1. i was obsessed with make up
2. i was obsessed with being popular
3. jessica and i were best friends
4. i cared what other people thought

about one year ago:
1. i started to look at the world differently
2. i made new and better friends
3. i wore a shirt with courious george on it on the first day of freshmen year
4. i disliked marching

Today...
1. i'm in love with music
2. i've become a different person
3. i'm sick of waiting
4. i'm still tring to find the meaning of life and tring to be happy all the time

hmmm
i've got lots on my mind... but unfortunatly for you i'm calling beans and spilling to her instead of writing it all down on here. sooo... if you want to know what's on my mind just call me. i'm agreeing with dustin that it's better anyway. i'm still going to update but don't count on it too often, reading other journals just piss me off and put me in a bad mood so i'm not going to anymore. there. i did it. i wish so much but i don't. eh.... sean and stef's open houses were fun. i wish i could have stayed at stef's longer but we had to get to that one in bay city. grandpa took us for a boat ride yesterday and i got to drive it. wow... fun huh..?! that's all you get for today because i'm pissed. later.

my happy night!
i had a great night!!!!! i mean.. it was soooo fun!!! my new youth group had a party at ashley badge\'s house. they\'re the greatest! i hung out with my friend scott i met a few weeks ago and he\'s a really nice guy. anyway.. tomorrow\'s schedule looks like this...
get up
get ready
pack
go to stef\'s open house
go to sean\'s open house
(those are interchangeable... depends on whose i feel like going to first)
go to bay city
go to kylee\'s open house
get back to grandpas at the wee hours of the night
get up early sunday
go to church at grandpas
waste time at grandpas
go to some concert he\'s taking me too
come home monday morning
.... ah well once again i\'ll be gone. only one day inbetween to rest and repack. but i\'ll be home in time for sean\'s b-day thing if he\'s still having it on monday night. i\'m kinda drowsy so gnasd :)