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2002 29 January :: 9.47 pm
:: Mood: sleepy
hhhmmm...
i have much to say.. but no time to say it.... mike won't make up his mind about what to do on thursday .. i think i may have to choose for him...
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2002 28 January :: 7.34 pm
:: Mood: creative
i feel like i could paint a picture
i am in just a creative mood.. i want to make pretty things for all kinds of people. anyways.. mom and i had a long talk last night that was way overdue. so now she isn't so bothersome. dad however is. but i can't change dad.. he's pretty sticky. rebecca told hilary that i thought she was shallow and jessica that i was mad at the both of them. she thinks we all need a therapy session to talk things out. but i just happen to be busy everyday this week.. so they are going to have to wait.
tuesday-tanning (golf will have to be put off for now)
wednesday-golf
thursday-orcheresta practice for the musical and getting together with mike mcdermed
friday-tanning
haha for them.. they'll have to work around my busy schedule. grandpa is here. tub and grub is open. ha... well i'm going to get out of here.. more later!
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2002 27 January :: 8.06 pm
:: Mood: bothered
moms
mom is quite bothersome.. we always argue and i don't think she understands me at all. we used to get along sssooo well.. but latley it's just been constant arguing between us... i absoultly hate it!!!! i think both of my parents are afraid of loosing their only child. they don't want me to grow up... but yet i continue to every day and i hope someday they will realize they need to let go...
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2002 27 January :: 7.40 pm
:: Mood: sleepy/glad to be home
just the usual crap i post
well.. this weekend was good i guess. nothing really talk about. i babysat all yesterday and made $20 from the one family. see.. jenna and i were going to babysit for jenna's cousins kids at 5... but at around noon.. jenna's other relitive of some kind called and asked if we could sit till 8. well we took the job and at 5 jenna left to babysit for her cousin and i stayed and finished out the job since i had sat for those kids before. anyways.. the parents came home later than expected so i didn't get to jenna until 10 pm. well her cousin called and said they were in mt. pleasent and were lost.. so we spent the night there. anyways to the part that made me mad.. jenna got $40 for sitting at her cousin.. and i got $30 from the place i was at.. i gave jenna $10 of it because she helped for a few hours... but she didn't split her money or give me any of her's for helping her at all!!! i didn't say anything. oh well.. at least i made $20! oh well... gosh.. i had other stuff to put in here.. but i just can't think.. so i guess more later...
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2002 25 January :: 6.58 pm
:: Mood: tired
going away...
i'm going to jenna's for the weekend so i won't be on here for a few days. that's going to be bad. unless we come here during the day and i can spend some time updating and talking to people. mom and dad will be up north at grandpa buds...so that's why i'll be at jennas. anyways, gunnie thinks i'm distroying myself. i'm not sure how or why yet.. but i'm bound to find out. hhhmmmm... i want to talk to mike about alot of things (i did a little bit this morning, but other people were around so it was hard). mike always know's what to do and what to say. but i know he has glp all weekend so i wouldn't be able to talk to him anyways. overall today was alright. i went tanning and am looking more tan (claps)! so... nothing else really.. i should go upstairs and pack, but that's no fun.. but neither is this because no one is on to pester me and distract me from writing like usual. it seems odd writing in peace (except for jenna reading every word i type right behind me.. haha). oh well. well guys.. have a great weekend! more later...
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2002 24 January :: 4.13 pm
:: Mood: not here
he told her he loved her as i watched from afar
he didn't know i was standing there crying under my breath
sometimes i can't help it
it's crazy you see
to be wanting to be with you all the time
but now as i wait for my turn to arrive
i realize it never will
for you told her you loved her
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2002 24 January :: 3.40 pm
:: Mood: who knows?.. i'm alot of things today!
lots of things today
well... my day was half and half.. it usually is really. my morning started out great with finding my open hole back from the gold plating place... wow it looks sooo pretty!! after i frolicked around the band room for an amount of time, i set out to find mike to show him. to my suprise i recieved a nice big hug. and i think that's just what i needed too. anyways.. i was told not to ask him and i was not planning on it.. but later today i found out that stacey asked him for me!!! wow did that ever piss me off. now everyone is telling me to ask mike bowers. i don't even know if i want to go... i mean it's sooo much work for only one night... and i have to get up the next morning to leave for florida. hhmm... something to think about... nothing else really. i'm going to the wrestling match tonight, that should be fun. i'm kind of mad at jess though. i invited her to go to the match with me and she ends up inviting hilary to go with her. she invites hilary to do EVERYTHING... sometimes that just pisses me off. i mean why can't i ever do anything with jess???? aaaahhhhh...more later...
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2002 23 January :: 3.13 pm
:: Mood: tired/agravated/nervos/sick feeling
gosh this sucks... i have just been in the worst mood ever since after 3rd hour. 1st hour was fine, and mike made me laugh a bunch on the way to 2nd hour.. which by the way was mega boring. 3rd hour suprisingly was fun.. we played dodgeball and we didn't have to do those stupid stair things. anyway.. after that.. i dunno.. i'm just in an all around crappy sack mood... cheer me up..
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2002 22 January :: 9.25 pm
:: Mood: annoyed
jvvnohjdhfoujfkldfj
aaahhhh... aol won't let me log on.. i'm so anxious/annoyed and just bothered... i need someone to calm me down right now.. this whole day i've been stressing over this whole thing (you know what it is guys!) and now i just want to get it overwith... i'm sick of this crap already.. more later..
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2002 22 January :: 3.44 pm
:: Mood: anxious
ugh!
according to stef.. i'm her when she was a freshmen. i have alot to write.. but i'm not in the mood. so.. i'll give you an update later..
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2002 19 January :: 10.12 pm
:: Mood: still confused
you and me
somewhere in my memory
i'm trying hard to find
the many memories of you
i have left behind
when we were together
my heart oh how it raced
i never will forget that
but now it's just a chase
you made me laugh so loudly
you made me shed many tears
i hope to be there by your side
throughout the comming years
but that will never happen
it will never be the same
sometimes i sit and wait
for you to call my name
at first it was just a game
but now it's much much more
whenever i see your smiling face
my heart begins to soar
the memories are comming back now
but as you can plainly see
they are only simple memories
that belong to you and me
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2002 19 January :: 9.47 pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: ben folds- losing lisa
how quickly we change
yeah.. how quickly we all change. ok.. i want to cry right now... but i'm not. so there goes that. i need someone to help me. because i'm so confused right now my head is spinning. this sucks guys. aaaahhhh... help me...
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2002 19 January :: 9.07 pm
:: Mood: relaxed
:: Music: some weird survivor music.. don't ask..
i know i'm a dork
well.. we went to church.. saw kyle may there. then dad took mom and i out to dinner!! i got this cashew chicken stuff... it was good. then i came home and took a nice bubble bath! it was soooo relaxing. i'm kind of just floating around the house. nothing really other than what i just told you. hhhmmm... if anyone has a clue to what my personality is, tell me, because i have no clue. i'm still trying to find myself so. beans thinks i'm self-centered and sometimes mean. i agree. i want to go to hope network to help the mentally challenged people. i am kind of confused at this time, so if i start babbling about crazy things... it's ok.. more later...
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2002 19 January :: 2.49 pm
:: Mood: just kind of here...
:: Music: ben folds- rocken the suburbs
hehe... i'm happy!!
alright... i'm so... i dunno... great i guess!! haha... last night was fun! i went tanning and got really burnt on my tummy and bum... that hurt ALL NIGHT!! ugh! i didn't let it drag my night down tho. i went to pep-band. that was fun! then i stayed for the varsity game... but concequently i didn't watch it. i sat and attempted to sell pizza coupons with stef. although we didn't have any luck with the pizza, we had a really nice conversation! i had a good time with stef. then i guess mr. davis declaired that the sale was over when he took our table and chairs away. oh well... the game was almost over anyways. so then i left for the dance. the dance was alot of fun too... my night was just filled with fun! haha... anyways we danced at the dance.. (what else was there to do.. i can be so dumb sometimes!). well something else happened too! during the last song, robby asked me to dance with him! i was so happy! we kind of waddled around bumping into people. and then he was twitching his head.. i just laughed. well without asking me first.. jenna went up to him and asked him if he would dance with me... and he said he would.. so that's how that came about... but i didn't know a thing about it... so they all caught me off gaurd!! we are getting ready to go to church.. so more later...
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2002 18 January :: 12.36 pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: ben folds- the luckiest
ya never know these days
wow! people are responding in great numbers to my journal... wow... i have much to catch up on!!! latley my mom is filling me with things to do... so i won't tie up the phone lines. anyways, i have stuff i wrote in class to put in here... so... have fun!!
class:geometry
time:9:48 am
date:jan. 16, 02
mood:blah
subject:done with geo exam!!
I was going to write last night (1-15), but i got kinda wrapped up in an im convo with mike. anyways, before that happened, some crazy things were going on at home. my mom and was sitting downstairs, watching t.v. and i came down and sat on the couch (she was on the giant air matress on the floor). she then proceded to tell me to go away because my feet smelled bad! YEAH RIGHT!!! my feet NEVER smell bad. EVER! so i told her that i didn't smell anything and she was full of crap. she said "well something smells bad." so of course she starts smelling everything! ugh! Finally she came to a conclusion that it was my dad's butt! yeah... you heard right.. his BUTT!!! aahhh!! he sit's on the mattress every night when they watch t.v. and she concluded that, that was the stench. ha! (he was in the shower, so he had no idea what was going on.) mom said she just couldn't take it anymore and ran upstairs to get the febrese. after a large amount on the mattress (well the giant sleeping bag that lies on top of it) dad came out. i just started laughing. i couldn't help myself! dad looked at me and asked "what's so funnY?" so i just blurted out "your butt.... stinks!!" well that certainly stirred up the crowd.. because mom just started to howl with laughter!!!! of course causing me to laugh even more! so we chose to run up stairs and laugh so hard we were crying/roll on the floor. much fun!!! more later...
class:biology
time:9:48 am (again!)
date:jan. 17,02
mood:relaxed (wow!)
music:good charlotte- little things (mr. armstrong let us listen to our cd players after we were done with our exam)
subject:done with my exam!!!
aaaahhhh... this is the greatest! i just got done with my bio exam. so now i'm just sitting here listing to mine and spud's cd's. all the freshmen have cd players (well me, spud, beans, and sputnick), and we are all having a great time sharing cds. the sophomores are just glaring at us because they are just sitting there bored stiff. haha. mom wouldn't let me go on the computer yesterday (1-16), so i couldn't write or talk to everyone. that made me mad, oh well. beans is comming over today (1-17). well... i guess more later...
ok... that's enough of past crap i wanted to put in here. oh.. by the way, mike, no this journal is still up.. i didn't know what you were talking about. hhmmm... oh well... i'm tired... more later...
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