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2004 1 January :: 2.55 am
:: Mood: creative
:: Music: Papa roach-Last breath
Scream and Shout
MMMK so here is my new years resolution....never do what miki did.....yes thats my resolution because ive been thinking about the act itself alot latley...hmmmm.....*twitch* yes kimmers party was fun we went bowling then belly danced/interpretive dance in her bacment!yes there was a reason no guys where allowed...(sorry nicko) but yeah her mom felt really bad for not leting him come....grrrr...i dunno im kinda lost and have lost most of my confidence latley due to the constant battering from family and friends...i think i will become a recluse when and if i decide to grow up...
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2003 31 December :: 5.48 pm
Another year...another eventless new years eve...eh...i guess im going to kimmers....with a bunch of people i dunno cause its the only thing my parents even consider letting me do...grrr i want to DO something i cant stand just BEING somewhere i need to do something with my hands!!!!!!!!!grrr stop thinking like that...
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2003 31 December :: 1.21 pm
My weblog owns 12.5 % of me.
Does your weblog own you?
Grrr my mom wont payattention to me long enough to ask to have a few friends over!!!!!! rar im going to smack her.......wait! my mom says its ok with her as long as my pappy says yes!!!!!and if he does say yes then bring chis or pop or candy please!
for once my parents had the chance to be nice for a change but of course that didnt happen...what was i thinking? that they could say something besides no and insults? thats what i get for thinking....
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2003 30 December :: 11.18 pm
...hmmm...new years eve stuff is hard to plan and i have one day.....omg im doomed...i dont think i will go to kims simply because i would feel out of place also i think im gonna have a movie party that lasts till about 12:30 or 1...yes parents should answer me soon.
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2003 29 December :: 2.33 pm
Strange dream.....guest appearences by Raab Coyne....Christie....Amber....my dad.....and CMR's band room..then the usual roxy jessika nick dara and gwen.yes so we are hanging out in CMR's band room only massive and this guy was talking about a battel we would all fight in and how a few of us might be able to fly..he wasnt sure who could and who couldnt....yes so we are dressed in like regualr clothes ...we pull out wands and hes like ok go! and a few of the people in the room including me fly up inot the air....but there where so many people i didnt know ...yes so we are shooting eachother with our wands and its boys vs. girls....and i fly up to the celing and just start shooting random guys...yes while this is going on coyne is beating a massive drum...but neways i land on accident and i cant fly back up for a bit so im running around and i see raab and he looks like he is having alot of fun...yes he was smiling and everything ,i was going to shoot him with my wand but christies grabbed my shoulder and pulled me down to the ground as i see a large blast of energy explode where mny head had been.we crawl to the front of the room and the teacher dude call a hault to all the fighting.We all stop and look at him and he asks a question about a book and its ending and he says who ever gets it right gets a prize but if they get it wrong they loose all memory of that day..then he tells us to go ahead and continue fighting....few people go up to try and answer the question..i fly back up again but my dad appears out of no where and is like you know the answer to that question answer it! I shake my head and continue to fight...i try to do a flip in the air but end up landing on my ass infreont of the teacher and he is like do you wish to answer the question? and i say...the ending of the book stated this : The End. He just smiled and yelled something and then he handed me a new wand but this thing was brand new polishes oakand shot pretty colors! it was fun i just started fighting again...but i couldnt get back into the air..i tried and tried but i just couldnt fly anymore..well the battle waged for a little bit then stopped all of a sudden....everyone started to pack up and i was like
WTF?! so christie is like michelle its over ...i was like um no and strated to run away..i dont know why but i ran and ran and ran up flights upon flights of stairs and i got nowhere...but i ran up into these seats and a large black dog appeared and ran down and ate the teacher...and all this time christie is chasing me....then i woke up.
Strange dream...and yes so i plan on visiting roxy asap so yes i will update later...
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2003 28 December :: 11.03 pm
neah emptyness.....i miss to many people and i cant find where my heart ran off to...grrr i need a leash for that thing....someone stole my heart then broke it into a thousand little bits once upon a time and i rebuilt it....but now it has run off chasing something that it will never have because of who and what i am...the way that person thinks and the way they view me....i dunno i was working on my ugly celtic knots when i hit a brick wall because someone i knew once upon a time called me....and it has been a long time since i have heard from them...almost a year....and i also relised that its been about 6 months since ive seen dara...and it will be another 6 months till i see her again....i dunno alot happened tonight.....
grrr...my hair was not cooperating today....eh the blue is pretty...i like it...ok for all those who care ive put some new stuff in myy gallery...yes my art is not the best but i enjoy it. http://elfwood.lysator.liu.se/zone/s/h/shellydarksmith/shellydarksmith.html so there is a link just for all of you.....
hmmmm...i drew this really pretty picture and i really like it...i should put it up sometime....
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2003 28 December :: 6.51 pm
Its official we have seen the inside of nickos house and all came out alive!yes...i want his fathers art its very good.....hmm so we went to nnickos and watched movies and what not..then we went over to jessikas they got on the comp for a bit and i fell asleep around 2...then they woke me up many times then around 4 in the morning they where trying to get my chapstick...and i woke up and went up to jesses room and layed down and fell asleep....and i had an extreamly weird dream....it goes as follows:
Roxy jessika and i woke up and we where in nicks room on his bed and his parents walk in and are like finally you are awake...we had no idea what was going on but nick looked really sad and guilty....and when we got up off his bed jessika faded and roxy disoppeared with a pop and one of nicks dads paintings attacked me.....then i woke up.
Yes so i got home and my dad yelled at me..that was my day.
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2003 26 December :: 10.59 pm
My hair is not in the proccess as we speak of turning blue...not all of it mind you just the tips and some streaks but it is pretty!!!!
Th mall was fun today i was better after i got away from my house!yes hair dye henna and some earings and braclets.....
I HAVE DONE IT...HA IT WORKED IT WORKED IT WORKED!!!!!LOL my hair is now officially blue and beautiful!!!!!!hehehe i am so happy.....
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2003 26 December :: 10.04 pm
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Eigth Level of Hell - the Malebolge!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test
ah...again and again and again...
hehehe
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2003 26 December :: 4.32 pm
My parents got mad at me for buying a gift for someone....omg i want to hit them very hard in the head......grrr
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2003 26 December :: 12.07 am
:: Music: my mom talkin on the phone...
rar
Christmas has become so superficial.....gir its frustrating kinda....but who am i to say? Yes i got a phone*rolls eyes* that i really didnt need...a bubble lamp thingy and purfume stuff and a necklace...nothing i asked for or pined over for months..no oil paint..no books...no cds...no nothing i have an interest in.....as usual my parents got me what they thought i needed...and they begged for a xmas list ..i gave and they obviously didnt read....grrr..i dont understand why they ask for that god forsaken thing every year when they dont even read the damn thing*rolls eyes again* i like what i got.....ok i dont but i do appreciate it really i do but....*raises one eyebrow* why do i need another lamp? i have 3 not including the light built into my celing and i already had a phone that i was happy with...oh and my mom confesed she bought me a new phone because SHE didnt like my old one...OMG grrrrrrr....and purfume stuff.....i got 2 or three bottles already....*twitch*..i NEED oil paints...i need a sketch book ...i need paint brushes and color pencils.....ok i would have liked all that stuff....but my parents dont listen and yes so is the life of me...they do this every xmas and on all of my birthdays...maybe they just get the opposite of what i want cause its fun to make me think i know what im going to get but then they *suprise* me with stuff i NEVER...i repeat NEVER ask for...yes lets get me stuff i dont friggin want...they do this every year.....grrrrr.....
Yes im tired and grumpy...and i like to rant my big fat ass off deal.....rar.....oh and to top every thing off the 80 dollars i got from family members (i.e uncles aunts grandpearent..ect) i basically get to touch none of it...im actually pretty angry with my parents...but i have kept a fake smile of appreciation on my face because if i dont then they say im ungreatfull and then ground me.....do you see the stupidity in which is twisted into my "family" holidays? i like to be with friends because at least my friends listen to me...
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2003 24 December :: 5.23 pm
Confusion is disturbing.....eh...now i go to church..byebye
ok yes today hasd been interesting...2 hours of singing..eh
Now the person i worry about the most is Roxy...i think the numbness she feels is slightly natural for something...but when the numbness passes it will be like a brick wall...and it will hurt...unless something happenes.....eh...i feeel super stupid though for the way i have been acting the past 2 or 3 days..i dunno its been weird.....yes
i am asking mmy parents if i can have a new years party...heheheh...
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2003 24 December :: 2.52 pm
If screaming would help....everyone within a 50 mile radius would here me...
Last night was a pang of nerves and ashley talking about getting married...i want to scream and yell but i dont think i will reason 1) does no good 2)waste of time 3) i dont do that usually.....
so much stuff is happening...rar...its like being in a glas bubble not being able to help anyone or touch anyone....im pissed as all hell at raab.......*twitch*......
Yeah i slept from 6 to 12 today and now i must go eat.....hmmm yess.
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2003 23 December :: 3.41 pm
BOB
Lol i made a pretty picture over at roxys like im inlove with her hair ...its amazing i never knew i could do curls....but she ish verty pretty thank you roxy for inspiration!!!
Yes we must have movie party...soon.
I have yet to be home a whole day this xmas vaca...yes lots of walking ...9 miles so far...yes and my dad cant complain!!!!!
HEhehehehe yess hyperness.
yes i have lost my crush on justin!happy day and now life is normal again with no complicated crushes on peoplemi can never have!....ehh that seemed slightly harsh...
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