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2004 28 February :: 11.03pm
:: Mood: old ladyish
Wooo!...?
I am dying my hair right now. I have to walk all hunched over so my hair won't fall off te top of my head. I also can't see. I had taken out my contacts, and my glasses won;t work because I can not look up enough. So my typing sucks. As you can all see.
Today I got Mozzarella sticks (YUM), the Da Vinci code, a swimsuit, hair dye, some protein drink, and my mom to say she will FINALLY take me to the doctor on Monday. YAYAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!
Well...my back hurts. See y'all later.
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2004 28 February :: 10.37am
:: Mood: groggy
:: Music: *scratch*...The puppy wants in.
I have a dream....that one day....my three children....
Ok. I did indeed have a dream last night. Just not like Martin Luther King. Nope. Mine was fun. And had a few members of AFI in it. It goes as such:
I am not sure why, but Davey and Adam (the drummer ;- )) were going to stay in Great Falls for a weekend. I offered to give them rooms and such, so they were staying with me. For some unknown reson to myself, I went off and stayed the night with Roxanne the first night they were here. If some AFI was in my house, I would not leave....But anywho. I came back pretty early Saturday. I discovered I could talk with them slightly, but whenever I wanted to start a conversation, I couldn't. I looked at them and said "It's YOU. I can't!" Fianally, I began to warm up to Adam. We had some interesting conversations. While we were out, it had snowed, melted and somehow snow was on the ground again. It was like 60 degrees out... Stupid Montana weather. We decided to go to the store. Davey wanted the "Thirst Quencher"...I figured out he wanted Sprite, but they did not have any. We got the next best thing. Then we looked again and found it, after the store dude told us they had none. So Davey got sarcastically annoyed and stole a tiny little thing of soda after saying "This'll teach ya", but then a store person came and he got caught. Somehow he got off the hook, and we checked out our stuff. The store clerk(the one that caught Davey stealing) looked over at me, gave me an evil look, and pointed saying "You had better watch out. I will get you." It creeped me out beyond all reason. I was happy when we left. We went back to my house, and I found out they also have Woohu journals = p. So, I added them to my friends page.
Shortly after, my puppy came and woke me up. It was 7:45 im the morning for Christ's Sake!
I realized I really need a boyfriend. Pathetic, eh?
I lost another death yesterday. Ironically I keep getting sicker and sicker. Coinkydink? I think not. I shall now go die in my sleep.
lie
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2004 27 February :: 6.18pm
:: Mood: Weak
:: Music: Rocko's Modern Life!!!!!
My leg hurts.
Well....more pea soup-like substance this morning...
My computer is fucking up. I have to get on under my brother's name. Bleh.
I was about to stay home today, but I had stayed home Wendesday, and I am using my ten days sparingly. I was so weak and tired today...I nearly passed out or died or something in choir and history.
I need to go sleep now.
lie
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Jessika
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2004 26 February :: 9.30pm
:: Mood: Take a guess.
:: Music: Full House
BOO!!
Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but
its there, and your friends can see it. You
constantly feel alone, and need to do things to
fill your time. Your afraid to tell people
this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad
way, and you think you screwed up everything.
And when you are in love is when you are sad
the most. (Please Vote)
What Emotion Dominates you?
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2004 25 February :: 10.21pm
:: Mood: existant
:: Music: "Perfectly in My Way" - BallyRag
sorry for the no update...
yeah... I've been busy trying to finish up ORB... well, no worries, I have the page count now...
Today... nothing special. We schedualed for classes. Pep assembly (band's going to state, yay!) ... which by the way, means I will be gone Friday and Saturday, just for the heads up...so... classes were about 30min. long today because of all the *special happenings* ... yes... um... doughnuts in band today (the concert was last night... um, best that none of y'all came) .... yeah... nothing too special.
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2004 25 February :: 10.19pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: Sister Sister
I have typed this fucking entry three times.... *angry face insert*
You adopt a child. Do you tell them they are adopted or not? If you don't, they will remain oblivious. They will not know what they are missing, so will forever be in happiness with you. (Judging that they have no way of finding out except you.) Or...do you tell them? They may hate you for not telling them sooner, or whatever, as it seems they would, but that will pass, correct? They will spend time now searching for parents that they more than likely will never find. There WAS some reasons there parents did not want them, or could not handle them. They will never find the parents they search for. But, they will love you all the more for telling them and being honest, right?
Which way is more correct? O_o
On another note, I coughed up stuff that looked like pea soup. It was all the puke green color and thick and chunky. Rather yucky.
I still have to put the finishing touches on my egg drop. That thing was such a fucking nuisance!!!!!!!!!!! I had to CUT the sticks with scissors to make it small enough. My hand hurts ;_; I need to put pretty pictures on it now. And test it... = - /
I gave my white guitar to Shane. I have no use for 3 guitars.
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2004 24 February :: 9.23pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: dog barking incessantly
i_i
Certain things really reminded me of other things today....like a chain reaction of good things.....bad memories to have when you know they will never again be. Meh....oh well. "Hakuna Matata", right? Got to put your past behind you. No going back. Get over it.
Harley's little nerdy friend likes me. JOY. *puke*
I may stay home tommorrow. I still feel all sick and stuff. It was funny. Today in Science, I realized my base was way too big. Annie said she would help me fix it, and she ended up literally sawing off popsicle stick with a big pair of dull science scissors. She also happened to get glue all over the desk. Mr. Logan will kill us tommorrow = ).
Speaking of death, there are around 5 people that have asked me to kill them over the past year or 2. I am willing to do it with a smile on my face, sure, but do I SEEM like the killer type???
Err....don't answer that.
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2004 24 February :: 10.27am
:: Mood: nauseated
:: Music: *hummmmmmm*
EMO!!!!
DAMN JOURNAL SKJDWRFJNSXJNKMWQ!!!!
I feel very sick lately. My throat hurts and coughing and sneezing are worse. I can hardly talk sometimes. My stomach feels like it hates me so is going to throw partially digested food everywhere as revenge.I am very achy and sore. Gym is a bitch. Unfortunately, I can not stay home tommorrow as we schedule. Not something I want to have to make up.
I am going to take a 7am class with Gwen/Mishelle if possible. Bio or Culinary Arts. I have to take Culinary Arts to get a vocational credit. Question for anyone: What do electives count towards? Do we get credit for them?
I think I got a pretty ok grade in drama today...I hope I got extra credit for being in two groups = }...
*sneeze* Owwwwwwwww
Egg drop is greatly confusing me.
Umm...Alex likes dicks!
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2004 23 February :: 1.44am
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: Nope.
Damn math!
Blast these damn word problems! Blast them all to hell!!!!!!!!!!! -_-
I have asked Nick. He had to go because the aunt was calling. I have asked Gwen. Of course she was lost. And also sleepy = p. I asked Alex. He was lost. I asked Alex(ander). He just would not help me. I asked Lindsey. She helped me greatly with one, but I did not want to pester her with MATH = p. I asked Kyle. He tried and tried but could not get any to work. I asked my older brother. He tried numerous ways and even went to get his math book (He is in college fro the second time...business stuff). He could not get 'em. DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh well.. Thank you all for helping somewhat...
Nick...did you get them all??? I shall kill you happily if you did. = ).
I really need to sleep.
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2004 22 February :: 9.24pm
Fuck you all.
You are Pig Pen!
Which Peanuts Character are You?
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Goddess of Loneliness
What Emotional Goddess Are You?
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The goddesses were along the same lines. Lonliness...sadness...I see the connection.
I don't want to work on math.
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2004 22 February :: 4.19pm
:: Mood: thoughtful
:: Music: "Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger" - Daft Punk
sorry I didn't update
Yeah... I've been lazy... too bad... plus, I don't exactly have my h/w yet... Anyways, our play was better (yeah, yeah... school pride) :P The cast/crew party was not the most happening, so don't worry about it, Shelli0 & Jessika. We just stayed up until one watching Wallace and Grommit, The Brave Little Toaster, and watching David's and Jessica's (too many Jess's....) feet having sex... very strange.
So, I came up with an idea for a new book. It's going to be called "Gods and Mortals in the Household Realm" ... comparison of the deviance of Christian religion to the relationship of father and son. Wow... that sounded extremely sophisticated, even coming from me...
I'm realizing (and how naiive of me to not notice until now) that I seriously need to be in a relationship, because I'm becomming overly affectionate to many many people... mildly disturbing... but I feel like I just need one person to cuddle up with now (awe, how sentimental).
Anyways, I need to get all my homework done. Mainly, I have about another 200 pages to read in A.H.W.O.S.G. .... yeah... right now, the guy is interviewing for the first season of Real World San Fran. ... very entertaining...
Anyways, I'm going to make my farewells for the moment. I love you all (affection bleeding through right now), and one day we will all have children!!! ahahahaha!... oh, except for you, Alexander... but that's understandable...
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2004 21 February :: 10.48pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Leave it to Beaver
*sets Mishelle ablaze*
Yes. *sets Mishelle ablaze for her "interpretations"*
I went to the play. I enjoyed their unison. It was...weird...And I now know who Lacey is! WOO!!! It made me want to go out and find a duo piece and do it with Gwen NOW. Like sometiems Deviant inspires people to draw...that inspired me to act. I am a loser. Leave me be. I now need to go write a paper on it for drama.
Nick is going bald AND gray! Mwaaaa!!!
Shell and I are just a "herub (SP??) of girls" after Nick. My meaning that I had in life dissintegrated.
We were going to go to the cast/crew party. Damn the mom of Shell's. But no, because she was nice enough to give me a ride. Thank the mom!
I need to do the Egg Drop capsule tommorrow.
Wow I am bored.
This is going to sound pathetic. I want emo music so I can just sit and cry.
I think I am becoming sentimental or whacked out of my mind or something. I began to cry today. No particular reason. I was not sad until then. It hurt like a bitch to cry out of the blue like that. I quite wish it had not happened.
A dream is a wish your heart makes. This is quite true. If you do not know what you are feeling or something, read your dreams. It is amazing what they tell you. Maybe there is a reason why I can never remember mine.
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2004 20 February :: 11.06pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: I have
Fucking journal just deleted ENTIRE entry -_-
DAMN JOURNAL!!!! *sets it ablaze* = )
I just got back from the play. I still like it. I saw all kinds of people I don't like. Such as: Policy debaters out the ass (for those stupid kids, that means alot ;-)..), Katie Hall, Michelle Noble, Allyson English (she can be ok...), Skyler Morgan, Maggie...Yup.
I am very sore and I do not know why.
My mom is watching the Home Shopping Network O_o..
I die everyday..the death of her dying soul...
In choir stupid people got us a writing assignment.
In English the stupid teacher had me read like 2 full pages today. GRR on her. -_- *sets her ablaze next to my journal* Damn Mishelle got me using that.....
Motion problems absolutely suck. EWWW and such. I am sucking as of late. = p
Nick's mom's van is going to explode. Not Lacey's car.
Ummm....I think that is all.
NO!!! It isn't! I got Lion King 1 and 1/2!!! YAYYYY!!!!!!!!
That is all. ^_^
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2004 19 February :: 7.30pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: Sister Sister
Damn English teacher!!
I had to stay after for a timed write. I went all debater......security to improve quality life...blah blah blah......That was ok and not too bad.
Then my English teacher got back from a meeting and we began working on my essay revisions (I got a D-!), and she pretty much told me I have no points whatsoever and I can not organize my thoughts. She "helped" me get straight points....bullshit like that......Then she started on the typical "You have potential....blah blah blah...." So I said something to the effect of how I can not write, I lack creativity, I am good at grammar and talking and that is it. She then went about how I can discuss things..TALKING......why she was being stupid....then she said she has seen me write good and stuff.....I said no....then I was just "arguing with" her or so she said......I left nearly in tears and very very pissed. BITCH.
Drama was fun today. We played games.
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2004 19 February :: 7.22am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Evanescance - My Immortal
Damn you, I like to sleep.
I went to sleep around 7:30 last night. I slept for 13 hours. Now I do not get to take a shower because I have to do math. Damn.
lie
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