When We Live

:: 2003 14 September :: 1.35am
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Shakira singing Dude Looks Like a Lady

Hey! Bailey is being a bitch!
I scored 118 on my IQ test. Damn I am stupid(right!??!?!?) I am not quite sure what all that means. Oh Well! I have 2 years to improve and then "accurately" be measured (it was designed for 16 years old and up) woohooo for emode! and I am better. but cold. Brr.

:: 2003 12 September :: 3.50pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: He was a skater boi! (kidz bop commercial)

omg i suddenly feel like I am going to puke.
Today I stayed home. I feel terrible. This morning I kept spitting up chunky greenish yellow thick shit and it did not help my pukiness. I have no idea if Bailey got my flower thing this moring. Whoa..I just realized the song I was listening to is over. It got over like 5 minutes ago, I guess. I think I needa go back to bed. I don't feel like listening to musik. "AAHH!! This coffee tastes like mud!!" "It is mud." "Oh." ahahhahahaaaa that was hilarious. Bye bye my droughty comprendes!!

:: 2003 11 September :: 4.08pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: squeaking of chairs and typing

I can't type worth poo.
I am in debate class. Supposed to be looking up shit on the death penalty. Like someone said, no journal would be complete without a school entry. Maddie is muttering next to me. I feel like shit. My nose will not stop running. I have a sore throat, and health next(UGH). These people are smart. Damn. Anybody wanna buy flower bulbs from me?!?!!??!PLEASE!!

2 truthsooth sayers | lie

:: 2003 9 September :: 10.27pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Ba BA BA!!!

Dead Ducky to the rescue!!
I am talking to Roy and just woke up. Tommorrow I stay after school for measurements. O Joy. Everyone should sign up for the speech and debate team tommorrow even though I will not be there.

2 truthsooth sayers | lie

:: 2003 7 September :: 6.39pm
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: ROCKO!i luv this show!

so leeeet me hold on to
Hacker-Meets-Underworld Goth
Cyber Goth -- I pity the fool who threatens you.
Between tweaking on caffeine rushes and chain
smoking, you are way too good with computers
and all things high-tech. Throw some morbid
humor and way too much electric blue eyeshadow
into the fray and you've got a jittery,
demented, and very capable person on your
hands. I'm never giving you my e-mail address.

Which Gothic Stereotype Are You?
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ok...strange as I break almost every computer I have ever sat down at....so maybe I am just not a stereotype but the opposite or something

and in science on friday, we listened to ska(woohoo!!), ICP(NAY!), and rush(indifference) and some other people in the same few days/period..it is strange.

4 truthsooth sayers | lie

:: 2003 7 September :: 1.38pm

I just took one of those care bear quizzes.... it said I was both cheer bear and grumpy bear.... strange...

5 truthsooth sayers | lie

:: 2003 6 September :: 11.37pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: killing

I shall TRY to figure out what to do
Big surprise. same thing as Nicko and Mishellio.

Quark
Quark -- You are subtle and mysterious and people
know very little about you. You like hanging
out with small groups of friends (usually 3)
who you are very close to. You are usually
friends with other quarks like yourself.

What kind of subatomic particle are you?
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I also forgot to say that i am in the wardrobe department for the play. If any of you have ever seen me dress myself, you should realize how much of a mistake they are in for. I hope there is no sewing involved.....

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:: 2003 6 September :: 9.21pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: that carousel music from The Haunting

blah
ok.... another stupid yet funny quiz....

Quark
Quark -- You are subtle and mysterious and people
know very little about you. You like hanging
out with small groups of friends (usually 3)
who you are very close to. You are usually
friends with other quarks like yourself.

What kind of subatomic particle are you?
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:: 2003 6 September :: 7.58pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: AFI and commercials

we are living in a world of smoke
fuck you, you asshole.

Last night the show was amazing. I went with Bailey and Jodi and when we got there we found Raab and Roxanne and then Beth, Cari, Val, and the boyfriend came and they all went to Raab's. They came back and Shane was with them. Jodi then went off with a senior from CMR for a long time. Nobody could find them. I still do not like the CHUDS but they are fun to watch people to. Beyond Nothing was better than I expected and I almost liked them alot. I had never previously heard Noise, Noise, Noise, but they are prety damn good. The emo sitdown was fun. The Monsters were great like always and they are going away for a long time so I am sad. Ummm...I forgot....

:: 2003 5 September :: 9.14pm
:: Mood: scattered (like cockroaches!!)
:: Music: "Going Under" ... (just randomly popped into head)

Came off of a serious high this afternoon....
Wow, felt like I dropped from a skyscraper too... but that was probably because I had to go to soccer practice right after it went away...
Anyways...
Things just seem to be falling in and out all over.... School started out OK, then for the past three days it SUCKED A MONKEY'S SWELLING COCK.... and now it's back to being ok.... I guess it's probably the whole *weekend, yay! No work worries!!*
Yeah, I really am missing you guys (as you guys is everyone not going to CMR...) It's strange... somehow I've ended up right on the outer ring of the preps.... scary, yet nice at the same time.... My other group is the *Mormon group* (they dominate CMR... help...) ... ah... yeah, they're not necessarily all churchy and stuff, but they're a lot sunshinier than some old friends (which is where my high came from today)... yeah, but it just sucks because all those dark, moody people I know at smer I don't get to see during the day.... so it's just blah... And class projects have been too fucking often for me... God, I really don't want to be writing an essay a week, but that's what it's feeling like....
Oh! I have a stalker.... yeah, Aly won't get off my back, because she doesn't understand I don't fucking want some cheap-ass, cuddle-up relationship. Oh, I want to strangle her! I already told her "I don't want a relationship right now." But of course, she didn't hear what she wanted. She must know if it's yes or no.... so she follows me everywhere. It's so fucking sick. I'm about ready to say "Get the fuck away from me, you sad shit. Find yourself some other fuzzy object to cuddle with, because I'm beyond that love by now. Listen and GO AWAY!!!"
gah...
And then there's the whole *everyone's life sucks right now.* Yeah, that's the general way of life, but it's hard when I'm not there to see it... Maybe I should've gone to GFH... but fuck it... things can be screwed, because it's gonna end that way anyway.

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:: 2003 3 September :: 12.23am
:: Mood: my eyes hurt
:: Music: i have no clue

stupid people!!!
Tiphani, Mishelle, Shane, i spose i shall count Lindsey, Nicole, Kyle, Beth...yah...all so sad it is ruining my happy period of my life. all because of the opposite sex. welll...i dont think i would classify shane as "sad" or say whats up with lindsey is guys, but just generally. so now i am off to understand even though i know i never will and do my homework. I wish to do tech. It shall be fun.

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:: 2003 1 September :: 8.31pm
:: Mood: surreal
:: Music: something that my brain's making up

Jessika and I are getting a lot of the same results...

You come from Dark Water. You are solitary and
find peace in yourself, or maybe you're
turmoiled but pull off peace.

Where Did Your Soul Originate?
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Well, I guess Michellio and me do too.....

Cosmo says:
The muffin isn't picky, and it doesn't taste good, but it's powerful! All hail the muffin!

He also says:
I love the species that throws their feces!

Ok... Nick's gonna go be "productive"....

:: 2003 1 September :: 9.35pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: none

i getta stay the night at schylars though it is a school night and the mom was pissed!
this brings my nifty list up to nine off the top of my head not including school. i will not say what the list is i will just feel special ^_^ and i am just sitting here experimenting with underscores and letters to make faces

:: 2003 1 September :: 8.37pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: abra catastrophy

ya know....all these i take tell me i am water

You come from Dark Water. You are solitary and
find peace in yourself, or maybe you're
turmoiled but pull off peace.

Where Did Your Soul Originate?
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last night me and bai went over to see raabs and scotts place and then today she was being a BIG bitch and i went home crying.