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:: 2005 4 July :: 12.26am

oh goodness...

boys and their need to "fix" everything..
bobby, bobby, bobby

im so fortunate to know him. both him and vince, its crazy... because if i had never met keegan, i wouldnt have met these two amazing people.... and even though i've only known them for about as long as i've known keegan.... i feel a need to protect them because i love them and they love me and its like they're my big brothers. this big wonderful protective circle... its beautifull.

we're gong to watch fireworks in grand rapids tomorrow... getting away from sandlake... blahhhh. im excited, i've never seen grand rapids fireworks, AND this is my first fourth of july with someone... i've seen fireworks with ex-boyfriends, not on the fourth though cuz i was in Disney World... and keegan doesnt remember ever spending the fourth with anyone... so this counts as his first too... the way we look at things... if you look back and either dont remember or realize an experience was nothing like the ones we share together... then they dont really count.. because they lack in comparison.. so much that they dont exist. we both have pasts, we both have fairly long relationships under our belts, and we can BOTH happily say that THIS is our first relationship.... because nothing else compares. its just an amazing feeling.... i thought i felt this way once..... but the way i feel when we're together is mind blowing.... it totally replaces everything i ever felt. i mean yeah.. i thought i was in love once.... but the way i feel when im with keegan is so much stronger then i EVER felt... and we're not even in love yet! its a beautiful beautiful thing.....

*sighs......

:: 2005 3 July :: 2.20am

me and keegan saw bewitched tonight... it was pretty good. i love magic. then after that me, emma and keegan went into sandlake.. this is at about 10:30 im guessing... we had more fun on the carride there then we did at the carnival.. the way we see it... the trashy people hang out at the carnival.. the COOL people make a few appearences and then leave.... laughs* you can only walk by so many girls in belly shirts, bleached blonde hair, and nose rings before you've had enough to vomit. ughhh.. laughs.

we were jammin though... DMX.. ohhh yeahhh.... i'd say when it comes to dancin.. i give keegan a run for his money... its true. *giggles.

we listened to this chris rock comedy thing on keegans ipod yesterday, it was like an hour and a half long.. .sooooo funny.

yeah... keegan keegan keegan... i know.
but hey, i didnt see him for 6 days, he's my best friend, and part of me just wants to brag about how amazing my boyfriend is.

*sighs.....

:: 2005 2 July :: 11.50pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Sparta - Travel By Bloodline

The best

I've been to Taco Bell three times in the past 24 hours. I've eaten it for my last four meals. I could never get sick of that stuff. Oh, it's so delicious. I've been to Best Buy two times today, and gotten a total of seven CDs (between both Amanda and I).

I bought:

Sparta - Porcelain
Armor for Sleep - What To Do When You Are Dead
At the Drive-In - Relationship of Command

This has been the best day I've had in quite awhile. And it's not even for these materialistic things, it actually has nothing to do with the CDs or the great mexican (almost) food.

:: 2005 30 June :: 10.56pm
:: Music: A Perfect Circle

A mind is wasting away

Challenge me.

:: 2005 29 June :: 5.36pm
:: Music: Gatsbys American Dream - Pompeii

Come on rain,

-----drown this city.

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:: 2005 28 June :: 8.35pm

keegans mom is picking me up at 10 so we can go get keegan from the airport... he was supposed to be home by 4 today but his flight got delayed... so now he should be in by 11:30..... mmmmmm, darn this weather makin me wait.

yayyyy... i have a consultation with studio 630 about being one of their models... my friend alyssa was their top model last year and her pictures just turned out amazing.. im crossing my fingers..

i should probably put some clothes on.
yeah.. thats generally a good idea..........

anachronism

:: 2005 28 June :: 12.07pm
:: Music: Cursive - Bloody Murderer

Rent the movie is going to be in theatres soon! How kick ass is that?
In other news I got the position I wanted in Yearbook next year. Photo Features Editor. So I get to help people make their spreads cooler with photo shop and such. The yearbook will be kick ass next year. Guaranteed.

Brad and I are wonderful and things are going good.

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:: 2005 27 June :: 8.29pm
:: Mood: energetic
:: Music: At the Drive-In - One Armed Scissor

Sweat Soaked and Sore

Chris and Kirk just stopped over for 2 or 3 hours. I hadn't seen Chris in about a year, and just recently Kirk came over for the first time in about a year, also. We had a great hack session. Oh...it was awesome. Blasted some Linkin Park, which is always a good beat for hacky sack. It was like we had all just been away from it, doing other things for so long, we all just knew it was time and got to business. Sweat was just dripping off of us onto the pavement. We walked away and there was actually a circle of sweat where we were standing.

But...none of you probably care about hack, so I'll stop babbling on about how great my day was.

:: 2005 26 June :: 11.35pm

he never hangs up first....

fucking.. ahrl;akejrl;kj.ac....

on a brighter note, im hanging out with matt tomorrow... i've misssed him.. he's always on the road with his band. it'll be nice to sit down, have some cofee, and catch up.

:: 2005 26 June :: 7.08pm

me and my mom and shelby went to traverse city last night... that was fun. its nice spending time with my family... we havent really done that in awhile.

i miss keegan... i hate massachusetts.

the yearbook thing was awesome... im so sad this was my last year going.. but im almost sure my experience with yearbooks wont be over this year.... awwww... i love kourtney too.. she's so cute!

hmmm maybe i'll call emma and see if she wants to see a movie... just cant get enough of the loye family! laughs* we were planning on seeing the sisterhood of pants movie or whatever... might as well see it tonight...

alright... goodnight dolls.

:: 2005 25 June :: 9.46pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: the USED

Road Commision

Amanda and I stole a total of seven cones yesterday. We are the masters of cone stealing. With her good eye, and my bold, fearless, awesome ability to grab things from the side of the road, we are an unstoppable team. I don't really know what to do with them though, so I just put them in random places around my house.

Also, my cat is missing. I let him out around 6 this morning, and we haven't seen him since. It's not really like him to run off and not come back within a day. My mom is going crazy. She can't stop crying. I feel sort of bad, since I was the one who let him out last. I hope he turns up. I heard something outside about 5 minutes ago, so I went to see what it was, and he was sitting on the porch in front of the door. I was right, I knew he was just out doing whatever cats do.

:: 2005 24 June :: 8.41am
:: Music: Action Action - This Years Fashion

You have the same name as my banana!

I couldn't find the movie, but I did find this quiz.
Read more..

:: 2005 22 June :: 8.03pm

i leave for my yearbook workshop tomorrow morning... and then keegan leaves friday morning for massachusetts on a business trip for lazer skate... so im not gonna see him for 6 days.... call me pathetic.. but that'll be the longest i've gone without him.... :(

but asides from that.. we'll do fine.. cuz even though we SOUND pathetic, we're not... and unlike alot of couples, we're perfectly capable of not seeing eachother for a couple of days... i'll be here when he gets back, he'll come over to my house, kiss my forehead... and all will be well.

i got 40 dollars worth of new makeup yesterday... im very excited... i was gonna go to blues at the mall tonight.... but ended up not, and still put all my make up on... its lovely.... *smiles.

the saying... "all dressed up and nowhere to go" that sucks.... but at least every time i look in the mirror im like..... awwww.

i fell in love with an A&F polo yesterday... but it was 40 dollars... sometime i'll get it... keegan got his first polo yesterday... mmmmm i could just bite him he looks so good. *thinks about it...... he's SO fine... ALL the time.

alright... well im bored now.

1 _ | moved fast

:: 2005 22 June :: 5.55pm
:: Music: At the Drive-In - Lopsided

Voltage in your veins

I just bought At the Drive-In - This Station is Non-Operational, and it fucking rocks. I can definitely see the influences in the Mars Volta that come from this band.

Friday. Fried A. Fry Day.

Mmm...fries.

:: 2005 22 June :: 12.23am
:: Music: Sleeping at Last

Ron finds fun in IQ tests and beating his wife

I've always been good with words.
Read more..

:: 2005 20 June :: 3.25pm
:: Mood: awake

Ron is burnt

Testosterone levels are higher in the A.M. and decrease gradually throughout the day.

Ohhh, that explains it.

Just for fun.
Read more..

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:: 2005 20 June :: 2.33am

thank god....

:: 2005 19 June :: 10.01pm

What if it's more than that?

:: 2005 17 June :: 8.57pm

Ron finds something hilarious

Looks like you accidently left something here. Oops.
*laughs hysterically*

:: 2005 17 June :: 2.30am

keegans car is so nice :)
no more crappy red one... woot woot

so tonight was good, he called me paranoid... whatever.
i think i feel better now though.

i dont like it at all.... *totally different subject* it just puts these terrible images in my mind because the other night i had a break down about it... i wish ______ would just move far far away and i would never ever have to think about what happend ever again... now that i know details... ugh, i could just be sick. i hate that part of him.

whatever right... cant change it eh? deal with it and move on erika, well its not that easy.

im really nervous for next year... for many different reasons.

i need to become dependent on myself more... i depend to much on my mom and keegan to keep me strong. why cant i just hold myself together... for gosh-sakes, i didnt even want to go to the dentist alone today (which i did end up going alone... yay for me) im afraid of needles, so i just wanted someone to comfort me... but i held my own today.. nobody was there to hold my hand or wait for an hour in the waiting room..... wait, now im kind of depressed.... step backwards erika, step backwards. hmmm, not good.

tomorrow is keegans performance at daybreak, i suppose i can brag him up a little..... they're getting paid 200 dollars to dance for 2 minutes... that 50 dollars for each of them for a mere 2 minutes.... thats crazy! but so awesome..... IHOP here we come! the performance is at 8:30... so we have an early rise day tomorrow... haha... i'll be getting up at DAYBREAK... mwah ha ha..... wow, teenage girls should not try to be corny and witty this late at night.

i've suddenly run out of things to say....
*crosses fingers..... (doesnt concern you why...)
*crosses them again.

4 _ | moved fast

:: 2005 16 June :: 1.30am

Ron changes his mind

Ok, after just seeing Batman Begins, I'm willing to say that it would be a very close fight between The Dark Knight and The Webslinger.

By the way, it's an amazing movie. One of the best movies I have ever seen. Go see it.

5 _ | moved fast

:: 2005 15 June :: 12.16pm
:: Music: the Faint

Ron likes to start arguements

Spiderman would totally kick Batman's ass.
No questions asked.

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:: 2005 14 June :: 5.41pm

Ron has a fun idea

The next time I purchase gas, I think I'll wear a ski mask.
That would be fun.

:: 2005 14 June :: 3.23pm

keegans mom just bought me a bike..... *laughs.

for my birthday, so me and keegan can ride bikes together... awww, she loves me! *smiles.... i love that woman..

ahh.. i cant belive she just bought me a bike!!!! hehehe..... im so happy! i havent had a bike since i was like 11.... now i can leave keegan in the dust... since he's to cool to get a normal bike and will be stuck on his little "trickster" pshhh... whatever doll, you're goin down... thats right.....

:: 2005 14 June :: 2.12am

*giggles

i find it funny when girls who are having sex get all defensive about "stupid girls" who get themselves pregnant...

yeah.. that kind of makes you one of them

if you're mature enough to have sex, protected OR unprotected then you sure as hell better be mature enough to have a kid... what a stupid statement.

here... quick lesson.....

SEX. LEADS. TO. CHILDBIRTH.

:: 2005 14 June :: 1.55am

i spent the night at alyssas last night... we talked a lot... and its nice to have a friend that actually wants to hear about my life and who actually cares whats going on and how im handeling things.... because those kinds of friends are very limited... im gonna say 2-3 tops... no counting keegan.

tonight after i got out of work, me and keegan took pats paddle boat out on lime lake (his moms boyfriend) and chased a super big bird all over it... i think he called it a herrid or a harrend... same difference... we're just talking a BIG bird... and we saw turtles... i named one myrtle.... myrtle the turtle... giggles.... oh and we rode those old school scooters down to pats too.... lol..... i was one of those deprived children who never had one... it was fun.. we were like little kids.... then we rode them back to his house, and lauren matthews was over with emma... basically i spent more time with lauren then keegan.... *shakes fist at him..... i love those girls though... we were running around in the dark, and we EVEN climbed a tree... thats right.. i dont believe there are any trees to climb on any stupid computer.... *shakes fist at him again.... long story short: i'd rather not go into it! but yay im so glad i love emma and she loves me :)

(and lauren too..... she's a cutie too..... awww.. i felt like one of the girls tonight.... why dont high schoolers climb trees and play hide and seek in the dark anymore? stupid big kids...)

yesterday me and keegan met bobby at res life in grandville... it was pretty sweet.. the ground floor (the youth room.. if thats what you wanna call it) was incredible... we're talking INCREDIBLE.... the only thing is... the drive would kill us... all the gas it would take to get down there.....

keegans birthday went really good.. i was there all day, i wish i could fully explain the day... but you wouldnt get it, and i probably shouldnt.. but it was really good.. close to perfect...

we're getting air conditioning tomorrow... there IS a god who reigns in heaven...! we've been dyin over here....

i think thats all i got....

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:: 2005 11 June :: 4.59pm

awww.. its my keegans birthday...

and awww... he's standing right behind me....

*giggles...

anachronism

:: 2005 11 June :: 1.02pm

I dreamt that I made out with Spiderman to save my life.
With the mask on and everything.

4 _ | moved fast

:: 2005 9 June :: 11.22pm

we went to the beach today.... im fried.
that rarely ever happends....