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:: 2005 17 February :: 7.07pm

my messenger isnt working.. but im kinda happy it isnt.. i really hate talking to people on that thing.

i've gotta turn in my lazer skate app tonight.. OH, danielle is spending the night... *gets excited... *loves her.

i was supposed to go to micahs meet tonight.. but ended up not being able to make it.... awwwww

i love my room.. i just like to look at it.. alot. esp when its clean.

theres no point to this... im just oddly happy.... like really happy.. lol, i dont know.

aww jenna and jess.. i love you girls, yearbook is the best cuz we can be all girly together and talk about boys and bad people and fun things... lol. *triple hugs... awwwww.

ok, thats enough from me for now....... *loves you all.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 17 February :: 5.10pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: S N Double O P D O Double G

I specialize in makin' all the girls get naked
I love this song..and that scares me.

Life has been good lately. I've been really apathetic though, mainly towards school. I have no motivation to do anything. I need summer to come, soon. I'm sick of the cold.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 17 February :: 10.09am

awww.. i know im gonna sound like a broken record.. but LAST NIGHT WAS THE BEST!

lol... im so girly sometimes it kills me....

we rented the notebook last night.. and we had a picnic on his bed.. (he has a dvd player in his room).. it was so sweet. i made shrimp dip, and we had grapes and jello cut into little hearts (cuz we're cute like that).... when i got there he had it all set up with a blanket down and roses and everything.... everytime i think we've spent the ideal night together.. it just keeps getting better. the notebook was SO good... you have to rent it.. i cried. then i cried again.. just because i was so happy. i look at him, and i just think wow.. how is he mine? because i dont think many people see him, and i mean REALLY see him.. but thats the best part.... we see eachother.

but anyways.... that was my night. *smiles.

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fatamy

:: 2005 16 February :: 8.34pm

I should be doing anatomy homework...I don't feel like it.
i am tired. I Think i am going to use this jouranl more. I like you people much more. Good people you are. Mothman was shot in the face. Then beaten with a pitch fork. Quite a bloody death, but hey what can you do.

ich liebe es

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 15 February :: 5.46am

i have the best boyfriend ever... no really..

that was the most memorable valentines day, and by far then best.

he took me to the olive garden, he bought me butterfingers, and he got me johnny depp..........(SIGNED johnny depp thank you... *smiles really big*)

the best part about the night was being with him.. laughing with him, holding him... the best part about the night WAS him.

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fatamy

:: 2005 14 February :: 8.47pm
:: Mood: pessimistic
:: Music: radiohead

DELETE. To messed up for me.
Today wasn't a half bad day if you ask me.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 14 February :: 10.15am

WHOOOSH

Fuckin' right, thank me for the day off, bitches.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 13 February :: 7.45pm

ok, ive decided not to update in detail about last night.. because nobody cares... as it is so blatantly obvious on this site... and i'll just leave it at it was a blast... and i love my friends.

bahh... i have no desire to update this thing.. *shakes fist at woohu.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 13 February :: 3.38am

i had more fun tonight then i have EVER at a dance.

i'll update details more tomorrow.. or when i feel like it.... but the basics...

keegan came over.
me, keegan, becky, and alyssa went over to sam ballews (sp* i know).. there were 16 of us.
we all went to applebees.
we went to the dance.
me, micah, keegan, becky and alyssa went bowling on plainfield.
then we went to steak 'n shake... us girls got hit on while micah and keegan were in the bathroom.... te he he.

we just got home a little bit ago. .i think we walked in at about 3:30.

i'll go into detail later... but tonight was the best.

you're perfect for me.. you really really are... and you made tonight perfect..... agrh.. i cant even put words to it... and i hate that.. cuz i REALLY wanna just express to everyone how perfect we are together.. but i cant.. and i want to so bad.. and i want to at least express it to you... but maaaaaaan.... you're amazing.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 12 February :: 4.23pm

Seaworld couldn't have been better

Last night was great. We have to do that kind of thing more often.

I went to the mall today and finally got some new clothes. That was fun.

That's all I have to say. Goodbye.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 10 February :: 11.18pm
:: Music: A Pefect Circle

It's crazy, but it could work.
So I finally got an idea for my story. It took awhile, but I got one. It's about this guy who goes crazy, or develops some sort of multiple personality disorder.

Read more..

Yeah, sounds sort of stupid in those words, but I think I can make it into something cool.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 10 February :: 5.20pm
:: Music: The Simpsons

A 20 minute movie!?

Now that's just insane.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 10 February :: 9.12am
:: Music: Tsunami Bomb

Home, Sick

So I woke up at six this morning, and I could barely speak, my throat hurt so bad. When I tried to talk it felt like there was a rusty saw scraping against the back of my throat, ripping apart my vocal cords. I can speak now, quietly, but once in awhile I forget and go to sing along with the music, and it hurts pretty bad.

Have fun at school, see you all later.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 9 February :: 5.15pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: Finch - What It Is To Burn

Burn me

I knew nothing would change. It never will.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 7 February :: 9.31pm

i still dont know what im gonna wear to swirl.. but it really doesnt matter. because im gonna be with keegan, and alyssas going, and beckys going... and its just going to be fun.

i love alyssa... im so glad she comes to things like this... this is her 2nd cedar dance, and i've been to 2 of kent citys dances.... *hugs her.

everyone should meet her this weekend.. you'll love her gaurantee!

aww.. valentines day... and i'll be with keegan, and we'll be together, and it'll be close to perfection, because we experience moments like that alot, together.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 7 February :: 4.08pm
:: Music: Kill Hannah - Unwanted

Make a move, mark my words.
Today was a relatively good day, especially for a Monday. Had a substitue for Dolbee, and that could make any day worth while. It did feel quite strange having 25 minutes to just talk in that class. For the first 5 no one said a word. I think we were all afraid she was going to pop out of some hole in the wall and start handing out detentions.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 6 February :: 1.27am

i want to die, my life is awful, im going to kill somebody..
whine.. bitch.. complain.

look at me, i'll confess my desire to take my own life.
oh gawwd, i just love sex and im a whore and will profess it online.
im soo fat, now please tell me that im not because that was probably my intentions in the first place.
fuck fuck fuck.. thats my favorite word, lets make sure to use it incessantly.
i hate everything.
whine whine whine.
i have no friends.

now please feel free to comment.. because thats what it takes isnt it?

pathetic.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 5 February :: 11.43pm

i love this... arghh, cant even describe it.

work sucked tonight.. sometimes i just wanna shake people and be like SMILE.. why would somebody be so miserable all the time.

hmmm.. not sure why i got annoyed tonight.. must just be my girl nature or something... i dont know.. its irrelevant.

im to tired to update.. instead i think i'll go get warm under my blankets... MY blankets.. MY bed.... i could make a zillion "MY" updates, but i'll refrain due to repetitiveness.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 5 February :: 5.49pm
:: Mood: energetic
:: Music: Bright Eyes - The Calendar Hung Itself

I don't mind a cold floor
Yesterday was good, I hope today ends up that way too.

I don't have anything to say, I just haven't updated in awhile so I thought I would. I guess it's a good thing though, yeah, you always know everything is going good when you have no reason to update woohu.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 4 February :: 12.05am

im sitting in my room, at my desk, on my computer, using my internet, looking at my pictures, listening to my cd player, in my house, with my own yard, with my own car parked in the driveway, and my own cat sleeping in the hall, and my own little sister sleeping in her own room and my mom sleeping in her own room.

sometimes i lose faith in the one thing that i should be focused on... and then he appears again, as if to tell me, he never left. i feel cradled in his arms and that feeling of peace is so comforting no words could ever do proper justice.

MY own past, helped set up our computer tonight. MY past was standing in MY livingroom... talking, laughing.... and so real. so incredibly real. there is a such thing as second chances... and there is ALWAYS hope in the future.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 2 February :: 2.11pm

last night we spent the first night in our new house... we still have no water, but i slept in my own bed, and it felt so good it almost hurt.

this morning i went over to keegans to take a shower steepen his water bill a little... we got ready together this morning... awww.

yesterday was very good. better than expected.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 31 January :: 7.38pm
:: Music: My Chemical Romance - Helena

Douche; what a lovely word.
I learned today that I have a guestbook. And I also learned that none of you have signed it.

Bitches...

Well, I haven't signed any of yours, so I guess it's only fair.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 31 January :: 6.16am

we moved all our stuff in saturday, but we dont have water, so thats what we're waiting on.

friday night i went to kent city to hang out with alyssa, we went to their basketball game and then to steak n shake with like 12 people.. kent city people are fun. met a bunch of new people, it was great....

then saturday alyssa came and helped us move.. and keegan came over after he got out of work. we went to meijers and got me a dresser and me and keegan put it together... more like i just watched and held a few boards for him. lol.. i didnt know how to help! but yesterday we put my sisters bunk bed together, and i TOTALLY dominated that. *dusts shoulder off.

we have so much fun. saturday night, and he's spending it with me, putting my furniture together.... :)

yesterday i had to work, but after work he came to the house again and my mom was working on the kitchen, and we working on my room.. i couldnt help but think how insanely lucky i am. we all didnt leave last night till about 11:30, he fell asleep while i was doing stuff... i just smiled and kissed him. he's a beautiful person.

now on for the rest of reality..

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 30 January :: 9.21am

Resident Evil Marathon
I have both Resident Evil movies and I'm watching them back to back, just for the full effect. It's going to be great.

[edit]
Man, those are some kick ass movies. I just finished the second one, looks like there is going to be a third.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 26 January :: 6.12pm

tonight was hard, it didnt hit me till i got there.

there are no words to express enough sympathy, and yet no words would do anything justice.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 26 January :: 9.52am

i need to stop being lazy.. and take a shower.

i've decided i hate the musical. no martino experience will ever compare to an H experience. This show is dirty, and by no means is there enough talent in Cedar Springs to pull off a broadway show. thats just my own opinion... you'll see when you see the show.

last night was perfect. all our nights are perfect... we're not perfect, but our imperfections make us perfect for eachother.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 25 January :: 10.23pm
:: Mood: naughty
:: Music: bright eyes

I guess I was wrong, this week has taken an unexpected turn for the better.

Score.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 24 January :: 8.33pm
:: Music: bright eyes

I can already tell, this week is going to suck.

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anachronism

:: 2005 24 January :: 9.00am

Moon boots, moon boots, boots of the moon!

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 23 January :: 10.17pm

guess i should post quick.. damn woohu.

me and keegan and my mom painted my room.. and then me and keegan painted my closet.. we're finally gonna move in, this weekend hopefully... and i could just cry im so happy. and now my room reflects me, and my closet reflects me and keegan, because we got all creative with it, and its just wonderful, and its OUR house, and we're gonna move in, and away from this maddness.. and i can sleep in a bed thats mine and wake up in the morning and eat cereal at my own kitchen table with our own electricity. i can stumble to the bathroom in the morning and dread going to school as i pull out of my own driveway onto OUR road. you dont realize how much you take your house for granted until you dont have one. its been a year now.. and all i've been doing is dreaming and praying for this day to finally to come. for us to finally get back on our feet since this whole divorce has started. and now its finally happening, and chris can continue to ruin our lives, but at least we'll beable to cry in the comfort of our OWN home instead of the cold empty void of someone else's.

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