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:: 2005 23 January :: 2.26am
:: Music: Staind

Don't worry, I'm not really poisonous.
I'm just not tired tonight.

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:: 2005 20 January :: 4.32pm

Feels like monday to me. Maybe tuesday, but definetily not thursday. But I'm glad the week is almost over, it's been a weird week. I've just felt like something wasn't right, something was off slightly. I can't notice anything different, but maybe it's something subconscious. Who knows..?

Blahh..

:: 2005 19 January :: 3.10pm
:: Mood: artistic
:: Music: the good life - october leaves

yeah, I'm bored.
So I've been thinking about what I would look like with a beard. And now, no more wondering. I made a little 'simulation', if you will, to see. I don't think I'd look too bad.

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Sexy, eh?

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:: 2005 19 January :: 10.44am
:: Music: Straylight Run - Perfect Ending

What to do, what..to..do...

Looks like there is a lot of snow on the ground, I could have a snowball fight. But, it's only me, so I would easily win. Or lose, depends on how you look at it. I could make snow an- no, that already sounds homosexual.

Well, I don't know what I'll end up doing. I bet it will be boring though. I need a car, and a license. Maybe some snowshoes if it's actually going to be like winter around here now.

*sigh*
*looks at the hacky sack on the table next to him, remembering all the hours spent having fun out in the street*
*cries*
God, I'm so emo...
Not that there's anything wrong with that ;)

:: 2005 18 January :: 9.08pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: The Postal Service - District Sleeps Alone Tonight

Scissors and a Spray Bottle

Well, I got it cut. It didn't turn out as bad as I suspected, though I've neglected to look in the mirror for the past few hours. I guess I just need to get used to it, let it grow out a bit. That's all it needs, about a half inch and I'll be happy.

~~Maybe I should get a pink mullet. It could be hot, right?~~

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anachronism

:: 2005 17 January :: 7.50pm

Poor Jay..

It's ok, you're not alone.

:: 2005 17 January :: 12.05pm
:: Music: straylight run - the tension and the terror

~~I think I might finally be getting my hair cut today. I've been waiting for a month, and my mom is now willing to take me.~~
*sigh*

I bruised my knee last night, and now it hurts pretty bad. At Joshs house we had his skateboard and it didn't have wheels or anything on it, and we were sliding on the ice covered driveway. I wiped out. It was fun though. But, I learned I would make a terrible snowboarder.

:: 2005 17 January :: 12.07am

last night was fun.

after we got out of work me becca and brandi went down to division to this 24 hour theatre thing.. incredibly bomb.

then we went to morningstar 75.. which i had never been to before. and it was real layed back, i liked it alot. but it was a hazy cloud of smoke.. and that kinda turned me off a bit.

we walked down division.. like 5 blocks.. and in my mind im thinking.. te he he, this is where the hookers are. i've never walked downtown before.. so to walk downtown in the dark is a big step for me. wooo.

this morning i went bowling with keegan.. he needs to stop showing me up in that game.. he got like 7 strikes in one game.. i kid you not.. and i was like.. pshhh. whatever. lol.

*hugs him.
words cant describe.

we were together all day except for the 4 hours i was at work. picked me up at 9:30, went to GR, went to his soccer game, i took his car to work, he picked his car up from work after his game, and then later came back and picked me up. then later brought me home.. thats the worst part about keegan. he makes time go so fast! time disappears when we're together, and i HATE that!

speaking of.. i need to call that favorite asian of mine.....
*runs to..

:: 2005 14 January :: 1.17am
:: Mood: extremely tired
:: Music: A Perfect Circle

It's finally finished.
So here it is, what I'll be handing her tomorrow afternoon.
I need sleep.

Enjoy.

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:: 2005 13 January :: 10.03pm

i have 5 exams tomorrow.. i think i give up studying.

tonight i went to the wrestling match.... micah kicked ass by the way.... then i went to keegans soccer game. worked a little bit of studying in there. its all good.

i think im falling out of woohu.... for some reason.. i dont have any desire to update half as frequently as i used to, and when i do.. i say nothing of any importance.

my life just keeps taking one dramatic turn after another... and its exciting.. because i hate it. and i love it. and its new... and ughh. lifes a rush.. moment by moment... thats how you have to take it on. and now im fully ready to do that.

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:: 2005 12 January :: 11.14pm
:: Music: a perfect circle - the nurse who loved me

The Hunger
This is a story I have to write for english. It's not finished yet, but I have to stop writing for tonight.

Think it's too gory for school?

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:: 2005 12 January :: 11.13am

TunaTaco
I hate to update so much, but damn, there isn't much else to do in my current state.

I feel like I was hit by a few trucks. I probably look like it too. I also feel like I was gang raped by eighteen crazy mexican whores.
Yeah, my mouth tastes disgusting.

Ever had fish at a Mexican restaraunt? I don't suggest you try it.

:: 2005 12 January :: 6.09am
:: Music: Jimmy Eat World.Pain

I would go back to bed, but, I can't sleep. I've been up since four. I'm so lucky school is closed. I don't know if I would have been able to go today, I don't feel any better.

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:: 2005 11 January :: 6.33am

Ah, I'm sorry Kate. I said I'd be there, but I woke up this morning and it was clear that I would not be going to school. I'm horribly sick.

Now I'm going to bed.
I wish I could be there.
Really.

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:: 2005 10 January :: 4.19pm

That'll do it.
I'm sick again. Maybe I just never got over the sickness, and it just decided to take a day off yesterday. But either way, I'm shivering and it's no cold at all in here.

:: 2005 9 January :: 5.31pm
:: Mood: horny
:: Music: muse - sing for absolution

This subject has nothing to do with the actual content of the update.
I found my class ring today while cleaning out my desk. I forgot how kick ass it is. I think I'll start wearing it again.

So, I was sick yesterday and felt horrible the entire day. Now I feel great, and I have a lot of energy. I think I'll wear the coat next time.

I have a shitload of shitty shit to do. In fact, I should be doing it right now.

-Three Page Paper on: Barbara Hepworth.
-Learn a whole unit of economics.

I guess that's pretty much it, but it is a lot. Well, for me anyway, since I usually have no homework.

:: 2005 8 January :: 11.08pm

today was good.

keegan is good.
dinner was good.

scratch that....
keegan is amazing.
dinner was soooo good.

i talked to his mom for like an hour tonight... *hugs her*... aawwww..

keeeeegan. i get all happy when i think about him.

*breaths.
i have to remind myself to do that from time to time.

alsdkfgjal;skdjfsldkf :)

anachronism

:: 2005 7 January :: 11.50pm

Friends only from now on.

:: 2005 6 January :: 1.05pm

i just got to school... my mom wouldnt let me drive in this morning cuz of the roads.. how cool is that. so i got to sleep till like 11:20.

our school is so stupid, honestly. 175 schools closed. ALL the schools around us... rockford, greenvile, tri-county, CTA (which is IN cedar).. but noooo not cedar springs. heaven forbid we have a day off.. however it can be slightly foggy and they'll cancel the day.

grrr... *shakes fist at administration.

the call back list was posted today... and i have to go back after school.. which i would normally be like OK, but i have to meet sue at 3:15 to get my crown fixed. so im like mreh... WHAT to do?! bahh.

i just totally zoned out for a minute there.
the library is really boring when there's noone in it... ahh well.

STOP SNOWING...

:: 2005 5 January :: 6.01pm

we have so much fun.
*remembers... te he ha..

even though i am abusive...

:: 2005 5 January :: 8.43am

nothin like being late for school.

eh.. its all good.
last night me, brandi and jamie made a movie for history.. its so funny.
te he he he.

then i came home, neglected my chem, talked to keegan... the night wouldnt be complete without our conversation of random things that make no sense (its true doll... we should record the things we talk about! giggles..), then went to bed.

i hope it doesnt snow that hard today.. i wanna go to grand rapids.

tried out for the musical yesterday. *crosses fingers*
seems like a real fun story line.
martino's trying to one up H, i can tell.
but he's doin the set.. which'll make the show all the better...
i dont know.. i think its gonna be a really funny show.

speaking of H.. i miss that man.

urgh.. my face is so dry. i hate winter.

me and brandi are both going in late today.. *wooo

this is entry is so pointless its killing me.
*dies.
*comes back to life.

WHAT is wrong with me.. gahhhhhhhd.

im getting two new purses today... if the weather permits me too.. woot hoot. that makes my day... purses, mmmm.

*licks lips.
reminds me of a cat. cats are cool. they sure are. yes indeedy.

mwha ha.
indeedy.
mwah ha ha.

who says that.
*points at self

WHY are you still on line.. GET OFF

(line)

madness...
silence is so loud.
ears, ow.. stop.

misha.aaaa.
*seductive groaaan.

what a gross word.. groan.. and isnt it also an onomotopoeia?

anachronism

:: 2005 4 January :: 6.30pm
:: Music: Dresden Dolls - Slide

So.. in like every dream I have lately bread appears. And it's always really nice, soft, perfect bread. Why would I dream about bread? Honestly.. what the fuck?

Maybe there is some huge meaning behind it. Or I am just insane.

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:: 2005 3 January :: 8.55pm

im pretty darn well sick of all the drama...
stop fighting with eachother... if you dont fight, then you wont. errmm.. yes.

i dont know.. i guess im confused. one of my good friends is making really stupid mistakes.. result of poor judgement i presume. and i almost dont know how to look at her anymore. it makes me sad to see such a dramatic change in someone i used to know so well.

metron has made major hour cuts, im so mad i cant even think about it. in the next pay period (2 weeks), im schedualed to work twice... thats an 8 hour pay check BEFORE taxes. makes me sick... urgghhh.

our meeting went phenomanally good... so good that i dont even care how bad i slaughtered that word. nothing like i had ever imagined, yet all that i needed.

im trying out for the play tomorrow. mehh.. whatever.

i've been advised to not blow my check since i wont have many more after this one and the next one... again i must say... mehh.. whatever.

im in a state of frustration.. so i must go suffer through homework and finish my chai.

what would i do with out my chai to sooth me in times of adlckajsd;fkjas;dlckjsdl;iferhgn;bf (lack of proper adjective).

yeaaah. im so glad i have so many friends... riiight.
i have to basically pour my soul or start some gossip for anyone to take a minute to reply to my entries.
also sad... shows whats important to people.

next year we can all leave this hellish routine and never see eachother again. *counts the days.....

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:: 2005 3 January :: 5.10pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: The Good Life - You're no fool

Wow.
So I got this new CD/ATRAC3 Player for Christmas, and I had no idea what the ATRAC3 part was about, until now.
This CD came with the Walkman and it has some software on it that will let me burn 500 songs onto one CD. It's amazing. I don't know if the CD will play in regular radios, or just the Walkman, but either way it's pretty sweet. I just burnt four CDs onto one disc, just so see how it works.

Perfectly.

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:: 2005 3 January :: 11.08am

back to routine again...

stay up late, get up early, suffer through another day at school, go to work, come home, start over again.

at least i have things to look forward to now.
bahhh.. im to lazy to update anything worthwhile....

:: 2005 2 January :: 7.56pm
:: Mood: apathetic
:: Music: snow patrol - somewhere a clock is ticking

Motivation
I need something to look forward to. Something that will motivate me to keep going, to wake up even. If I'm not working toward something, then what am I doing? I need to figure some things out.

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:: 2005 1 January :: 12.41pm

I worry too much.

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:: 2005 1 January :: 11.57am

i got to spend new years with the only person i'd ever want to.
we played 5 games of bowling.. im getting better i am.

last night was just perfect. we seem to experience that alot.. perfection.
and i love that.

now to do my paper for dolbee that i've put off all break..

:: 2004 31 December :: 9.12pm

yay.. i wont be stuck at home for another new years.

*dances.