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rayray

:: 2008 26 November :: 2.11pm

I'd like to believe that we decide when to wash our hands, or reveal the skeletons that we keep baracaded in our closets.
On our own terms, at the right time, and when necessary.
But in reality that doesn't happen.
Sometimes the past comes whirling in and everything else that mattered completely stops.

..While driving around greenville today, I had all these insightful thoughts that I planned to write. But when I got home I got side-tracked and had to do laundry. Now all those thoughts are barely there..

Crap.

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phil-himself

:: 2008 25 November :: 12.24am
:: Mood: aggravated

Karma comes around in full, I keep thinking of that. Believe what you want but the grapevine lies and the liars within can go fucking drown.

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skife

:: 2008 24 November :: 11.25pm

http://cgi.ebay.com/Spider-Drawing_W0QQitemZ250329640167QQcmdZViewItemQQptZArt_Prints?hash=item250329640167&_trksid=p3286.c0.m14&_trkparms=72%3A1205|66%3A2|65%3A12|39%3A1|240%3A1318


BUAHAHAH!!!!

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phil-himself

:: 2008 23 November :: 12.08pm

So apparently I was the only one that knew about old greg yesterday

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phil-himself

:: 2008 23 November :: 4.46am

Went to KC bar with Will T, Sam Adams cherry wheat on tap is the best the best the best

drank 3 brews there
then we went to eric's and wasted some shits at beer pong

good night

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skife

:: 2008 22 November :: 5.29am

i hate being woken up early.

i hate being woken up early because someone NEEDS me to talk to them.

i hate being woken up early because someone NEEDS me to talk to them so the don't fall asleep behind the wheel

i hate being woken up early because someone NEEDS me to talk to them so they don't fall asleep behind the wheel because they are driving drunk

i hate being woken up early because someone NEEDS meto talk to them so they don't fall asleep behind the wheel because they are driving drunk and they don't wannt a ride.




UGHHH $%(!#$()&!#$&(*

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spud

:: 2008 21 November :: 2.39am



And i still won it.

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skife

:: 2008 20 November :: 11.10pm

....at least my female problems don't involve bleeding.

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skife

:: 2008 20 November :: 4.15am

I played to much rockband and i now have aqualung by jethro tull stuck in my head.

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spud

:: 2008 18 November :: 3.55am

so, i saw the first cut of the summer film today. well, it's already been through several revisions. but this was the first public screening.

i will say, some things turned out really well. some did not. i'm glad to see that it came together okay, at least. i would have been pissed if it sucked, and surprised if it was out of this world. i still think some of the big problems with the story are in the script itself, and are therefore beyond fixing at this point. i also think that cleaning up the audio will do wonders. and that is going to be a formidable task. i'm just wondering if my class next semester is going to have to do all that. it would be interesting. then i'd have my hands on it during two phases of the process, instead of just one. that would be weird.

other than that, just business as usual. falling steadily farther behind in all of the important classes, with the one class that i'm doing best in the only class i'm actually making headway on.

it'll all come together in the end. i just hope the collision isn't too catastrophic for me to keep it together.

and in the meantime, just keep plugging away at it, little by little. but i am also running out of time, which means a step up in pace is in order.

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rayray

:: 2008 17 November :: 10.33pm

It's pathetic how I find myself defending why I love my boyfriend after 3 years, to people who know me better than a lot of people.
And they tell me that I'm not happy.
But truth be told, I am the happiest I've ever been.
In high school, I was a train wreck.
I was always depressed, crying over never-meant-to-be relationships, drama ate at me like I was a thanksgiving turkey, and I was stressed out the moment I stepped foot into my house.
I was constantly being told what to do.
And I hated every moment of the life I lived outside of my friends.
I may not hang out with my friends as much as I used too, and those relationships may have grown awkard over the past 3 years.
But I truly am happy.
I finally have someone I love that I can come home to everyday, and wake up to every morning.
It may not be the best of relationships, but I am happy.
After this long, I shouldn't have people who I feel I can trust, telling me that I should have a baby, but not until I get a different boyfriend.
I haven't felt that hurt in awhile.
Many of you feel the same way, but don't judge until you know the whole story.
I shouldn't have to defend my life to others.

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skife

:: 2008 17 November :: 2.44am

I hope they don't kill opie.

He's one of my favorite characters

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phil-himself

:: 2008 17 November :: 2.32am

I don't know what to believe anymore.
Tired from over thinking, numb from over feeling.
When you try to move on and things get thrown back at you.
This whole event seems like mutually assured destruction.

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phil-himself

:: 2008 16 November :: 1.11pm

Mudvayne - Pushing Through This
Salt the wound
Cut through a conscience I've failed to explore
The calm before the storm
Speak your peace and prepare for the fall
Words have been chosen
Tainting the gift
Lying truth's so increditable
So fuck you all
I'm turning my back on this killing so small

Step by step I'm pushing through this
(All of you get away from me)
Eye for an eye I'm pushing through this
My law
Step by step I'm pushing through this
(All of you get away from me)
Tooth for a tooth I'm pushing through this
Through you

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skife

:: 2008 16 November :: 1.39am

my brother thinks that i'm an alcoholic for taking a minicooler with 3 beers in it, in the bathroom for my bath.

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