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2004 5 October :: 6.22 pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: the scientist- coldplay
what a week......and its only tuesday- ughhh.
okay, so u know when you get a test and you look at the first couple of questions and u say to urself, okay i dont know any of these so i'll just keep looking until i find one that i know the answer to?
so then, u keep on looking, and u look and look and look and look and u just keep on turning those test pages until u turn the last one and all u see is the desk thats underneath the test packet and u never find any questions that u know the answer to? yeah. thats pretty much the story of my 7th period yesterday. i studied for days for my euro test, in the very "danielle" fashion that i study in, but rather than going into this test saying to myself, i know this stuff, im going to ace it, i went into this one, not only guessing or assuming, but actually KNOWING that i was going to do extremely poorly on it. just as every ap euro student has before me and how every ap euro student will after me, i got that test, looked at it, and within that instant got knots in my stomach. ive never taken any test like that before, and although i was told by everyone that "all the kids get really crappy grades the first time around", its still very discouraging to me to know that i studied for all the time to come into a class room and feel like i know nothing. i left half of the first page blank. ive never done that. anyway, im just anticipating getting it back and knowing what it feels like to fail, and no, im not being the typicial edgemonter who says she failed and gets a b, im saying i failed and honestly, at my best, i got a d...in fact, i would be satisfied with a d, thats how bad it was.
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the weather is slowly starting to turn colder and im slowing feeling the presence of the fall. it was 45 degrees when i woke up this morning- thats really really really cold. i miss the warm weather. i dont particularly care for this "brisk" air that comes along with the seasonal changes that fall brings. give me snow or give me the beach, i hate when weather does this neither here nor there stuff. its like, pick one, summer or winter. spring and fall are always sort of "transition stages" for me, i barely see them as seasons.
the whole school routine and feeling is starting to kick in again. after going to classes for a while and having to wake up early every day, i start to feel groggy and disgusting, and just...tired of the hum-drum boring same day that just seems to repeat itself over and over again. i dont even feel like getting dressed in the morning, i just feel like putting on sweatpants and a sweatshirt and bringing a big fluffy blanket with me to school. and for those of u that know me, i dont even like sweatpants. the weekends seem to get shorter each time they roll around, and with every weekend the weeks seem to stretch out longer than the one that preceded it.
this long weekend is anticipated and much needed in my opinion. i have to babysit on saturday night which im not terribly thrilled about. babysitting, although its easy money, isnt my favorite thing to do- not like i have better plans though, right? i guess itll provide time for me to do all my homework and clear out my schedule for sunday and monday which will be spent in fire island closing up the house for the winter. columbus day weekend always makes me sad in that sense, everyone flocks to the beach for one last hurrah, and then on that monday they lock up, leave and dont come back until the spring. its almost like we all just put the summers away in a little box in an attic, if that analogy made any sense at all. the bright side to this though is i get to see all my friends again this weekend, including nick, FINALLY. i havent seen that kid for a month and a half and i cant wait.
i have to go cook for italian---spaghetti con broccoili, olio ed aglio (spaghetti with broccoli in a garlic and olive oil sauce), nothin like carbs to make u happy right??
danielle <3
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2004 30 September :: 9.40 pm
random thought:
listening to george w. bush talk makes me want to gag myself with a spoon. within the first 10 minutes of his speaking, he "mis-spoke" at least 4 times. this is the man leading our country....and this scares me. what a moron.
KERRY*EDWARDS 2004
rock.the.vote
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2004 28 September :: 5.31 pm
:: Mood: grumpy
:: Music: crash- dave matthews
"if you're my student once, you're always my student."- the great louise kuklis
after being in ap euro for a few weeks now, im finally realizing what everyones always buzzing about with the "work" and whatnot. the class itself is hard to explain. its not that its all that much, since we rarely have homework, but the amount of reading is monstrous. i've also found that this class, very much like the college class that it is, is very "teach yourself". when you come into class, you're expected to have a complete understanding of the topic and very minimal confusion, and even then when we come into class, the discussions are so off topic and random that its almost like if i werent there it wouldnt make a difference. perlman has her favorites and im afraid im not one of them- i dont get hearts on my papers and she ignores my comments and when i raise my hand, she never calls on me. shes also really old school and traditional, and coming from mrs kuklis's classroom environment, its almost, shocking. all this said, and the fact that we have our first test on friday, i started to get concerned that this class wouldnt be as easy as i expected it to be. i decided that i needed to go to mrs. kuklis and talk to her about the course. it was really good to talk to her again, and really makes u appreciate what an amazing teacher she is. and just to think, at the very beginning of last year, i hated her...hah, i was so stupid. i really appreciate being able to have had her now, because now i finally realize how uncommon teachers like her are. she gave me that extra boost of confidence that i needed and reminded me that shes always there if i need help. "if you're my student once, you're always my student". that made me so happy when she told me that. its good to have a teacher thats so supportive of you, it helps.
kuks is the best :)
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2004 22 September :: 5.30 pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: stand by me- oasis
stand by me, no body knows, the way its gunna be.....
things have been very uneventful lately....boring- for a change. schools been good, i guess, or as good as school can be, because lets face it...its school. all my classes are going well for the most part, but i miss my schedule from last year. bio, 6th period lunch, 8th period italian, mrs. kuklis....im having trouble putting in to words what an amazing year last year was for me. you dont come by years like that so often...and wow, that totally makes me seem like a grandma, like ive lived such a long 15 years that i can say something like that. that reminds me of the time that someone came into the flair house this summer and called me ma'am...i turned around and looked for someone assuming that it couldnt have possibly been me who was "ma'am", and when i finally realized that it was me, i was like um, yeah, i dont think so.
woah, tangent- anyway.....
in other news....crappy car broke the other day on evandale. the people at toyota said that theres a shitload of stuff wrong with it, which means we'll probably have to sell it which means that i dont have to have to drive it when i get older. score one for me :), i get good car now :) :)
the downside to having crappy car be broken: there was a teensy shot at us going back to the beach this weekend, which obviously, i was totally psyched about, but since crappy is the car with the permit to park at the ferry and since it may still be broken, i dont know if we'll make it out there. we'll see.
thats pretty much it for now- xoxo dml
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2004 18 September :: 10.14 pm
:: Mood: uncomfortable
i was okay until i called them....
why the hell would i do such a stupid thing? i knew it would just make it 10 times worse, but i picked up the phone regardless and called zack. i heard everyones voices, laughing and talking and having an amazing time---but i wasnt there. i was jealous, sad, but most of all, i missed them so much, and i just, broke down. im now sitting here crying my eyes out, felling like i have nothing to be sad about, but its one of those things where you're so heartbroken to be away from the people u love so much, that its almost like a physical pain. all i want is to be back with them, nothing more, nothing less.
stupid as this may sound, and it may also make me sound conceited, i dont know nor do i mean it to come off that way, but i want to know that im being thought about. after the summer is over, friends have a tendency to let eachother drift apart, both people could be online, but they choose not to talk to eachother----that is my biggest fear. i dont want to drift away from these people i care so much about. i want them to know that theyre all thats on my mind, but most of all, i want to know that theyre thinking about me too. in fire island, i know that theyre thinking about me every time they call me on the phone or come to see me at work, but when school starts, work and other people may take my place....i want them to remember me and how much i love them and how much they loved me.
....i really have no idea where i was going with this, i just needed to get this all out.
i left my heart in ocean beach
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2004 18 September :: 5.11 pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: city of angels- red hot chili peppers
no matter how many times i say see u later, theres never a goodbye like the last one
i just got home from fire island, and once again this is going to be one of those sulky, depressive, reflection entries so if those things make u sad or annoyed, i suggest u dont read this. this was the first weekend since the summer that everyone was there [excluding nick, but he was sorely missed...]. it honestly had just felt like i had never left. the day i got there i went to victorias house and just layed out by her pool and listened to the "songs of the summer" cd i had made for everyone, and just laying there listening to those songs that reminded me of the summer, laying by a pool in the sun hearing the ocean crashing against the shore, even having that irritating sand between my toes and inside my bathing suit, just made me long for the summer. being with all of my friends, i felt like i was home again. on friday we all went to justins house and had a huge water fight with water guns and hoses and water balloons- it was amazing. i was standing on justins deck, soaking wet in a boys bathing suit bottom and an oversized trangleball shirt, freezing cold and uncomfortable as hell, when i realized: this is what i love. it doesnt matter how uncomfortable i am or how cold or anything, but when i hear their voices and see their smiles...THATS what its all about. after the water fight we all went home to our respectable houses and then came back later for movie night since it had started to rain. we watched jay and silent bob strike back which was retarded, but it didnt matter. i was lying on the couch in morgans arms, and just feeling him against me---i wansnt ready to leave that. its only so often in life that u come across something like that and i realized that when i looked into his eyes and he kissed me. this morning i said goodbye to everyone....not see u next weekend, but a final goodbye. it was one of the hardest things ive ever had to do, fighting those tears back when i all i wanted to do was cry so hard. saying goodbye to morgan was the hardest of all- that kid was my world this summer, and regardless of what anyone else has to say about it, he made me truly and genuniely happy, a happiness that i have yet to come by in my lifetime many times before. thank god for the short distance, we're having set dates where we're going to hang out every month. this group....no, this FAMILY, that we're grown to become this summer cannot last 10 whole months without seeing eachother, and so we're not going to let that happen.
to my fire islanders- i love u all more than you could ever know, and each and every one of u has a special place in my heart. you are my world, and no one could take your places. thank you for being my rock when i needed u to be, for making me smile when i felt like all i could do was frown, and for helping me maintain this everlasting happiness that i found when i found all of u. i love u with all my heart.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JUSTIN
thats all for now- danielle*morgan
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2004 7 September :: 7.34 pm
:: Mood: depressed
wishin i was back in 11770....
waking up to a silent bedroom, in a silent house, and putting ur feet on a carpeted floor that isnt scattered with sand can be oddly disturbing when ur so homesick for the summer. when all u want is to hear the crashing of the ocean and the noise from the houses next door, to hear ur cell phone ring and know its ur friends calling because they want u to come to wherever they are, when u want to be on the beach at night with ur friends and ur boyfriend laughing and talking and kissing ;)......god do i miss the summer. i feel like it just came to a crashing halt yesterday when i walked back into the suburban house that i call "home". i miss everyone so fucking much, and it puts such a spin of negativity on everything. i find myself glued to the computer screen talking to someone from fire island or waiting for a fire islander to sign online so i can talk to them. they are the MOST incredible people. its such a contrast too, coming from a place where everyone gets along, no one gossips, and the boys and the girls are social....together- then being back in edgemont where all there is is gossip, everyones always fighting and the guys and the girls barely ever talk. its such a reality check...i dont care what anyone says, its not like this everywhere, its EDGEMONT.
wow tangent.
so anyway, i miss my fi kids so much. i swear i almost cried last night.
"damn i miss u already"
i miss them. i miss them all so fucking much. i swear to god if i make it through this week without crying over them itll be a miracle.
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in other news, i need to go shopping REALLY badly. i havent been to a mall in 2 whole months. i made over $2000 ths summer and i have a major urge to spend it. lemme know if u wanna go to the mall with me on friday.
im out for now, see u all tomorrow----schools here. oh god. i hate that.
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2004 5 September :: 11.58 pm
:: Mood: sad
"it started out just like any summer..."
tonight was the last night of my summer. tomorrow's labor day, which means a lot of things- too many day trippers, sales in all the stores, all u can eat pancake breakfasts and the end of the summer. everyone leaves tomorrow, my summer family that has grown so close this year is splitting apart tomorrow and all going their separate ways.
this summer was the most incredible summer ive ever had. i grew so much throughout it, mentally and emotionally. it was a learning experience, mostly in the sense that ive come to learn who i really am, through the experiences and mistakes ive made throughout the summer. but most of all, this summer was complete and the most amazing summer ever because of the people i shared it with- my friends. in the past summers ive spent out here, never before this one have i developed such a strong bond with a group of people. i spent everyday with them all day long, and until 1130 every night. i got to know each and every one of them on a level that i didnt know was possible to reach in just 2 months. every single one of them is special to me in a different way, and i love u all with all of my heart.
::victoria::out of everyone here, i think i can relate to u the best. ur always here when i need someone to talk to and ur not afraid to tell me when im wrong, u keep me in check. this summer u and i grew to have a sisterly relationship. we've shared tears and smiles, been through good and bad, but no matter what, u always were here to hold my hand when i needed guidance, and i was always ur shoulder to cry on.
::jenna::u make me laugh like no other person i can think of, weather u mean to or not. ur my personal entertainment center. 11 years of a best friendship and still going....thanks for the memories.
::jordana::u always guide me in the right direction and can keep cool when i cant. im so glad we had a chance to become close this summer, ur friendship means a lot to me and im going to miss u like crazy.
::zack::ive never felt so loved by someone in my whole life, and this summer u showed me that there are people that no matter what, will always be there for me, and u are one of them. even at my lowest low, when u didnt even want to talk to me, u stayed up until 3 in the morning "burning ur minutes" to listen to me cry as u calmed me down on the other end of the reciever. that is the definition of a true friend, ur ALWAYS there for me. thank u for always being there, for reminding me every day how much u love me, and for telling me how special i am to u- because sometimes, even though some people think my ego is the size of the post office- i need to hear that for my own self esteem. i credit this amazing summer to u, because u selflessly always put me before urself, and i dont know anyone who would do that for me but u. i love u so much, thank u for being one of the best friends i have, i could never ask for anything more.
::justin::u r by far one of the funniest people i know. ur unlimited supply of hugs and kisses---and butt squeezes---make my day. u stick by me through anything, even when u think im wrong, and are understanding and comforting through everything. thanks for keeping me smiling, even when i thought my smile was broken, u always knew how to fix it again :)
::nickycap::uve grown to become one of my best friends. u give me advice when i need it, and u, like victoria, arent afraid to tell me when im wrong. thanks for making me smile endlessly with our "we're so white, we're black" convos, and thanks for rocking out with me. ur so good at rocking out :)
and last but not least...
::morgan::one of the biggest reasons this summer was as amazing as it was, was because of u. being with u for august was indescribable, i was so unbelievably happy the entire time, being held in ur arms, being kissed by u, and most of all, sharing the "like" that we had for eachother. most of all, though, id like to thank u for my 2nd chance. not many guys would even consider giving me another chance to gain ur respect back, let alone be ur girl after what i did to u. u are incredible and i cant thank u enough for doing that. because of u, we had the end of this summer to share together and next summer as well. thanks for being my guy this summer---and keep that pony around, u may need it next year ;)
"wake up the dawn and ask her why, a dreamer dreams, she never dies, wipe that tear away now from your eye, slowly walking down the hall, faster than a cannon ball, where were you while we were getting high? someday you will find me, caught beneath the landslide, in a champagne supernova in the sky, someday you will find me, caught beneath the landslide, in a champagne supernova, a champagne supernova in the sky, cuz people believe that theyre gunna get away from this summer, and you and i will never die, the worlds still spinning round we dont know why, why why why, someday you will find me, caught beneath the landslide, in a champagne supernova in the sky, someday you will find me, caught beneath the landslide, in a champagne supernova, champagne supernova in the sky....."
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2004 4 September :: 12.06 am
:: Mood: content
finally things are back to normal
so last night i finally became fed up with the way things were with morgan and i. i couldnt deal with having him hate me. hate is such a strong word, he told people that he hated me with a passion. thats as bad as being dispised, and coming from a person who i liked and respected, that really really hurt my heart. i accused him of lying to me...he told me he wanted to be my friend, he told me he wanted to have everything be normal- he lied. a friend doesnt go around telling people that they hate u- thats not a friend, at least not one that i want to have. we talked last night for about an hour, and it was honestly the best thing that ever happened to our relationship. for once i felt like he opened up to me, told me how he was feeling. ive never seen him admit to being emotionally hurt by anything before, but through talking to him i saw that he was. after having him curse me out for being stupid and making a "bitch move" and telling me that i should expect to be hated, i finally told him why i was talking to him. i told him that i wanted him to give me another chance to gain his respect back. after him shooting me down once or twice, i finally convinced him to think about it, to think about the person he knew me as, and if that old danielle was important to him, to give me another chance to prove to him that i can still be that girl.
dmlxoxo: im sorry everyday that i did it, because of the respect that i have for u and the feelings that i still have for u too
dmlxoxo: obviously those feelings and respect are lacking for me though
SirLmO1017: i still respect u and i still have feelings for u, but i just dont understand y u did it danielle
SirLmO1017: i would much rather be with u than be at the status that we're at right now but im just having such a hard time comprehending what u did
i finally got to see what was going on inside his head, and moreover, his heart. i hurt him, and i got to see it, he opened up---finally. after that hour of talking, we ended up deciding that what we had with eachother was something that we were both willing to work at keeping, and we werent ready to give it up because of the stupid mistake that i made that put a strain on things. he wore my pony tonight, it put such a smile on my face to see it there again. and even more than that, he kissed me.
we're back. yes :).
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2004 2 September :: 11.54 pm
:: Mood: tired
a breif account of the past few days....
finally, having a guilty conscience won me over- i needed to do the right thing and come clean with morgan, risking our relationship and his friendship with aaron. all that night my stomach was churning just thinking of what i was going to do, but just to make it worse, since rarely does morgan show emotion, i had no idea how he was going to react. the time had finally come when i decided to take him aside. he didnt have the slightest clue what i was talking about, i would hint and hint and hint, but because it was me, and since it was something that i would NEVER do, but did anyway, he had no idea what was coming. he was thoroughly and completely shocked, but since we had never determined our status he didnt know what to think. he didnt say much, but i could see it in his expression. he couldnt look me in the face....he couldnt even look me in the goddamn face, and that killed more than anything else. "i just really want to be ur friend" he told me- he lied. today i find out that he told everyone that he hated me. i can deal with not being liked by people i dont care about and even those who i do care about, but i cant stand to be hated by anyone---especially when im so far from hating them.
im talking to him right now about it and so far it not going anywhere, he cursed me off at the beginning and now towards the end i think he may be coming around a little. its gunna take some time.
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2004 30 August :: 12.04 am
:: Mood: depressed
no regrets huh? yeah right, i could never live like that.
i told 2 people, people i thought i could trust, all my friends found out.
i fucked up.
im sorry.
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all my friends have lost all respect for me. EVERYONE fucks up. and when someone fucks up and they need help, their friends should be by their side helping them with whatever they can. but ive learned that i only have one true friend out here- jordana. everyone else that found out, and even nick who i told counting on him to help me, have been total jerks. theyre not true friends. all ive heard from them is "ive lost all respect for u" and "how could u stoop so low" and "im so disappointed in u". tonight at the vma party they were acting like total asses, subtly hinting at the subject while morgan and aaron were there. i hate them all right now. i need them, and all along i thought they needed me too, but if they really loved me like they said they did they would help me out now.
"uve changed so much danielle, and its not for the better"
i cant stand to hear that. when someone has me questioning my own identity and my morals and what i thought i stood for, then i know im in trouble.
everyone fucks up. this was one of the few times i have and i think i deserve some slack. i cant deal with them all coming down on me so hard for something like this. do i tell him, or do i not tell him?
why the hell did i do something so stupid? i hurt morgan and in the process, i hurt myself. he didnt deserve any of this, even if he wasnt being right to me all the time. i hate everything right now.
im sorry and i mean that with all my heart. i would never hurt u and i didnt keep my promise. i took ur heart with the promise not to break it and now, i fear that i may have done damage. with all sincerity, im sorry.
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2004 29 August :: 12.23 am
:: Mood: devious
living life with no regrets...thats quite a concept, one that i thought i could never grasp. but tonight someone made me see what that actually means, living with no regrets.
morgan starts acting weird when his family friends come out, a 16 year old guy named aaron and a 14 year old girl named tori. a funny thing, you know, just out of no where, he doesnt act normal when aarons here. today at the beach i was complaining to my friends about how i had to babysit tonight and jokingly was like "if u guys get bored in town, come and visit me". i was sitting inside watching barney with elena (the little girl i was babysitting for) when i hear someone scream my name outside. aaron had actually come to see me---i was totally shocked. elena had fallen asleep on the couch at that point so i was sitting outside on the porch with aaron. we talked for 2 and a half hours and the conversation was just flowing. somewhere in between, i get a fone call from my friend nick who tells me the following: victoria was sitting on morgans lap and he was giving her a massage, and in a previous conversation of the night between morgan and shane, when asked if we were still together morgan said i guess so, and when asked if he would care if i hooked up with somone he said no and if there was a hott willing girl he would hu with her. this obviously wasnt a shock to me, i just wish he wouldve told me when i talked to him the night before and he had denied having anything wrong. so we talked about everything, friends, relationships, school, problems...everything, but most importantly our "policies on life". he told me about no regrets and it almost made sense to me. we talked for 2 hours and he was just like wow we have so much in common and we have a connection which was all so true and he was like i was telling morgan that he really shouldnt be acting like this, especially since ur such an awesome girl. so finally we're walking home and we get to the front of my house and he hugged me and we just started hooking up and he goes to me: remember that thing about no regrets? and then we hooked up again and he said: thats one of them, ill see u tomorrow and then he kissed me
i feel so bad, like such a sleeze. what the hell did i do?
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2004 27 August :: 1.47 pm
:: Mood: crushed
jordana: i hate stomachs......................me: i hate boys.
that last entry, as much as i hate to admit it, was entirely denial. things with morgan and i were at an absolute high a few days ago, but recently there has been a definite change. over the past 2 nights, ive noticed a difference in his actions and body language that has been scaring me. i walk over to him, he pretends not to see me and sort of walks the other way. hello kisses are running lower than usual, and he fucking picked nick over me. its funny, you know, the other night was a special one at the beach, but after that its been down hill. i cant help but think that thats all he wanted from me, since im reminded every dday to "get inside a guys head danielle, hes being nice because ur hooking up, and thats all he wants". and then i think, "dont break my heart" and it sort of gives me some hope...though not enough to make me believe that we may actually still have a chance. he didnt say goodbye to me last night, nor did he talk to me...at all. its things like that, things that make me think: what the hell could i have done? im not suffocating him, im not making him uncomfortable or being unreasonable by any means....what could it possibly be? i miss the kisses, and the tickle fests, and our frequent night-time beach escapades, and im not sure that im ready for it to be over. although according to a lot of people who talk to me about it, hooking up is all we have, im happy, and im not ready to give up this happiness just yet.
please, if you're reading this, "dont break my heart".
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2004 26 August :: 5.32 pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: dare you to move- switchfoot
alotta stuff
my schedule, that was badly fucked up by the edgemont high school guidance department and will remain so for the school year of 04-05, for those that care to inform me, leave me a comment telling me what we have together:
1- chemistry
2- chemistry lab/gym on evens
3- italian
4- lunch ({[please if u have 4th lemme know, i refuse to be alone but i really have no choice :(]})
5- english
6- math
7- ap euro
8- spanish
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as for the end of the summer in fire island, a lot of drama just about concludes it all. nick and victoria broke up...but it was more like an emotional break DOWN than just a plain break up. victoria was absolutely devistated, and hysterically crying, she could barely get a word in. although she knew it was coming, it hadnt really set in yet. we walked to town after nick had left his heartbroken lover for jordana and i to handle to get her a big fat thing of ice cream, i wasnt wearing shoes and i was carrying a tissue box....quite the sight. when we were walking down the street to go to town, morgan caught up with us, he had missed the whole thing so i explained it to him. "dont break my heart". things have been getting better and better between us, im so lucky to have had someone like him here this summer, i had waited too long for someone like him and finally, here he was. he made my summer complete, and helped to complete that gap i had in my heart. ah i wont get into this reflection on summer crap til i get home, summer is coming to its close too soon as far as im concerned.
xoxo-danielle
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2004 17 August :: 11.34 pm
:: Mood: shocked
:: Music: bob marley
OH MY GOD.
SCENARIO:
im working in the flair house and im writing someone up, minding my own business when someone calls my name. i turn around to see the chest of someone really tall wearing a white sweatshirt. i look up to find myself looking at who's head?
1 GUESS:
taylor.
i was so fucking shocked i cant even tell u. gorgeous and sweet as ever. wow. ugh interesting night, eh?
things are going well between morgan and i, and ive finally accomplished my number one goal: hooking up on the beach at night...4 times. NICE :)
stephs home, so excited....shes coming out on friday, even more excited.
thats all for now xoxo- dml
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