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2005 9 February :: 9.42pm
damnit
damnit damnit damnit
why cant that damn song leave me alone?!
go to hell. i'll be there eventually.
-.-
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SeraphimRhapsody
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2005 7 February :: 5.16pm
Yeah. I so just used this site to update my interests... I have like a bazzilion interests now
http://www.inthe80s.com/toys/index.shtml
XDDD
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SeraphimRhapsody
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2005 7 February :: 4.18pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Get Up Kids
do you hear what I hear?
Lesse... Friday..
I did the ever so graceful and rather painful slip and slide and smash in mah kitchen.
Was chasing after Katie.. and the tile was dusty or something... and wow man.. it was amazin! Legs went straight out from under me and up like to the level of the counter then I crashed down and continued the force of momentum horizontally.... right into the stove drawers. Owwie.
But it's so pretty! God did it hurt. -.-
Swelled and all. But it's so pretty!
Saturday I was up at 5 AM! Psh.
Got to school by 6 like we were supposed. Kids got there at 6:30. Bus left at a quarter to 7. I was grrrr-ish.
Really sleepy.
Burger King wouldn't sell me a chicken sandwich! GRRRR So what if it was 8 in the morning! I'd been up for hours already and wanted mah sandwich!!
Got to Felix Varela down in Miami. Unloaded and headed into the calc individual test. That test was crazy hard. Seems Andrei's brother Dima actually made that test. -.- I so did not know any of the questions... felt to stupid. I worked on them sure. And kinda.. dozed.. off.. but I woke up again and worked on them! But I didn't know any... so.. I didn't answer.. any... *cries*
Least I didn't get negative.
Obviously wasn't on teams so I worked on Interschool with everyone else. We placed 6th on that. Grrr. Only top 5 get credit.
Lunch was publix and hanging out with a bunch of nerds. Andrei and Kim and Richard and David and a bunch of others. It was fun stuff. Got in a bread fight with Andrei. Hehehe
We got back to school at 5. I'm just now realizing that was 12 hours with math. -_______-
Headed straight out to West Boca High for the Chinese New Year Festival. It's the Year of the Rooster you know! Thank goodness Aaron has such good eye sight and saw me, I was afraid I wouldn't find anyone there! Natalia came and dragged me over to the food line (whole reason why I got there so quickly ^____^). Mrs. Kelly and her grandkids were there! And supposedly Mrs. Schilit.. didn't see her though.
A bunch more of us found each other and we ate outside in the cold then headed to the auditorium. Meredith danced beautifully! There were some slow points in the Festival.. but that's.. okay...
Good times though.
Was exhausted when I got home.
Up Sunday late since I didn't feel like driving. XD Made Tom drive down and pick me for Youth Orchestra but so did not feel like playing. Fun enough.. I didn't play for like.. more than half of the time. Kinda pissed me off since I brought the wrong kind of work to do for that much free time. Then Mr. Simmons got mad at all percussion cause Kyle couldn't play this one part in the Bernstein piece. Pretty funny. Except that he made us staying during 2 songs we have no parts in until after everyone left so he could rehearse that part with the 5 of us. GRRRARGH.
Finally saw Princess Mononoke! Pretty cool. Pretty cool.
Anime rox my sox.
Now.. it's Monday.. and I have to write that stupid English paper. *sigh*
With love...
~*~
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SeraphimRhapsody
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2005 2 February :: 9.44pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: Blast
Marimba Spiritual
Means too much not to steal
Gratzi Jeanna and Amanda
It's the heart, afraid of breaking, that never learns to dance.
It's the dream, afraid of waking, that never takes the chance.
It's the one, who won't be taken, who can not seem to give.
And the soul, afraid of dying, that never learns to live. <3
With love....
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2005 1 February :: 5.50pm
:: Mood: numb
:: Music: none
I found out...oh, about half an hour ago that my grandfather died this morning.
I've decided to stop using the line "funeral's on Thursday" as a joke.
I haven't really had time to "feel" anything about it. I mean yeah, I'm sad that he's gone...I haven't cried though. Is that normal? Don't people usually cry? I didn't really cry when my grandmother died in 5th grade. Not until after the funeral with my cousin.
He's being cremated. No grave.
Dan Myers is doing the funeral. That's about the best thing that's come out of this. If there is anyone I want to really see now, it's Dan.
I'll talk to Ms Youngman about missing class thursday. I don't anticipate a problem. Mr Dalsass will be in Vancouver, so there's no issue there. Calc doesn't count. I also have to talk to Mrs Zacher because I'll be missing the NHS meeting. If I don't bring those tsunami envelopes tomorrow, I'll have angie bring them on thursday.
I'm trying to talk will into coming home. He seems to not want to. I think he should.
I haven't talked to my grandmother yet. She must be in pieces. She's said my whole life her "plan" was to die before my grandfather. She needs to plan things better. I just don't know what she's going to do...there's no way that she can live by herself and we can't afford to keep having the nurse there full time. And she has no income. She'll probably have to move within the next few months.
It's just weird...I'm going through waves of like my eyes welling up, and then I'll just feel absolutely nothing. I'm feeling a big breakdown around the corner. Hopefully it won't be at school tomorrow.
It's not like this was unexpected. He lost his mind (literally) a few months ago and has been deteriorating since. There had been some mention of a blood pressure drug that a doctor prescribed him that was not meant for maintenance..but the damn stupid doctor still used it for that. Supposedly after you take it for a while it shoots your blood pressure back up. Side effects include dimensia. They took him off the drugs and did a cat scan, but the results haven't come in yet. Some good they are now...
Fragmented thoughts. This is new for me. Writing what I'm thinking is usually my forte.
I guess I'm not really thinking.
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2005 31 January :: 9.33pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: anything and everything and my heartbeat
hooray for useless song lyrics
And all the good girls are home with broken hearts..
I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
If ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay...
Do you know what stars are?
Balls of fire, burning up the black space
Falling from the landscape
Exploding in the face of God
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone
Now the half-time air was sweet perfume
While the Sergeants played a marching tune
We all got up to dance
Oh, but we never got the chance
'Cause the players tried to take the field
The marching band refused to yield
Do you recall what was revealed
The day the music died
Catch me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself
This truth drives me into madness
I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away
Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I have no options left again
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
Cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused
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2005 25 January :: 9.30pm
:: Mood: unknown
secrets, secrets are no fun, secrets are for everyone!
I'm not going to Vizcaya.
Too much I've missed being out and I don't want to skip chem. Hopefully I don't have to write a lab report though... o.0
Still trying to be hopeful with this NY trip. I'm excited to finally get to see that state. And Broadway should be awesome.
I need to talk to some people.
And some people need to talk to me.
DoBeDoBeDooo
My parent's are still out of town. Should be coming home tonight.. might not. No idea what's going on with that all. It's fun to be in the dark.
Maybe I should order us a pizza. Do they deliver this late?
I was wondering how much you pay the pizza deliverer as tip....
Edit: 10:00 pm
Mom just called. Seems grandpa died last night. About 24 hours ago. Katie was supposed to tell me but for some reason neglected to...
Wow... last night was an awesome night.
Feels really awkward thinking he was just dying all today when really he was already gone.
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SeraphimRhapsody
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2005 23 January :: 1.35am
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: "Straw Dog" ~Something Corporate
all out of pills
What's complacent?
I've forgotten what it means.
Tried to go over chem stuff all day with Katie Odrobina but I couldn't focus and was all depressed and such.
Kim and Mer and Katie and her sister and brother and I watched a lot of movies on TBS though. Good distraction to have it on while trying to study.
And they had me eat a whole hot dog. I haven't eatten that in like.. four years... but it was pretty good.
I want to see Hotel Rowanda. Is supposed to be a good real-life movie.
With love...
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