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Beagle147

:: 2004 14 April :: 7.15pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: "Busted Stuff" -Dave Matthews Band

Putnam County Represent
Went to Gainesville this weekend. It was good, except for the fact that I have some kind of flu-ish thing. But I didn't let that stop me...atleast not till monday. I drove up on the bus friday afternoon and will met me in some random uf parking lot. Then we walked back to his dorm and chilled for a while before driving around campus a bit and heading to dinner at Las Margaritas. Then will drove down to Orlando to pick up Adina to surprise Jeff, and I stayed back in Gainesville and caught up on some sleep. Saturday we woke up and walked over to the O-Dome for the CALS (College of Agricultural and Life Sciences) open house thingy. It was not real informative...well, yes it was. But a lot of it I already knew. It was worth it to go, but I was selective about what exhibits I stopped at since it was so crowded. You're supposed to get this little card punched out at each different place you stop to talk to somebody, and after about an hour or so of cruising around I decided I had enough info and went to go cash in my card for whatever crap prize things they were handing out. The girl was mad at me for only having 6 punches on my card, but I took my CALS pencil and left. We went back to will's dorm and waited for a while before calling jeff and adina to go to the sinkhole. Mind you, I had had descriptions of the sinkhole, but nothing could have prepared me for Putnam county's pride. First of all, even though Gainesville is kinda in the middle of nowhere, you have to drive like 45 minutes outside of gainesville to get to the real middle of nowhere. After passing a few obscure signs for oysters and/or chicken places, you come to this dirt road. Now, I would think, upon coming to a dirt road in the heart of Putnam county, you would not want to turn there, but apparently, that's the turn. So you drive down this dirt road that ends up being no sort of road at all, just kind of a sandy trail, put the car in first gear, and find a place to pull off to the side (not like it's hard to find a place....there's nowhere really that you can't pull off). So then you walk a little and you come to this sinkhole. It's insane. It's like 80 feet almost straight down to even get near the water, and then once you get there, the only way in is to either jump off a rock ledge or a rope swing. At first, me and Adina decided that we would have more fun watching will and jeff and the drunk 16 year old putnam county kids make fools of themselves jumping 30 feet into this sinkhole. Yeah, they sure were drunk. At one point, someone said the cops were coming (why the cops would bother showing up to the sinkhole is beyond me, but whatever) and so they threw all the beer into the water. So the cops did show up, but they were putnam county cops. In other words, they did nothing but encourage the drunk teenagers to jump off higher places. Eventually the cops decided they had endangered enough young lives for one afternoon and they took their leave. Before the four of us left, I decided that there was a good chance I would not be back to the sinkhole, so I jumped in a few times. It was fun. I first jumped off of the smallest rock ledge, which we decided was about 8 feet, then went a few times off the next higher one. It's hard to describe, but it looks like a lot bigger jump after you have already jumped. There comes a point when you're falling through the air that you think ...why am I not in the water yet? But you eventually do hit the water, which is crystal clear blue and COLD. It's a natural limestone pool, so it's gorgeous, but it's really cold. Then you have to climb up this ladder and a few ropes to get back out of the water, and you're good to go. So we went back to our respective dorms/houses and cleaned up before dinner. The four of us met stan at Dragonfly for some really really good sushi. Then we went to Maude's, which is this really cool coffee shop where you can play free board games while you drink your coffee, so we played a game of scrabble. There were only three little letter holder thingies, so me and adina were on a team. It was so painful. We had the entire word zodiac and couldn't use it. We tried for so long to keep that together incase it could be played, but we ended up coming to a stalemate...since we weren't keeping score, we were just playing till someone ran out of letters. We headed over to Jeff's house and watched this movie...I forget what it's called now, the Run Down, I think. It's with the rock and sean williams scott. Then me and will went back to his dorm and went to sleep. Sunday we just kinda chilled, watched the masters a little, had lunch at Jimmy John's, and I went back on the bus.

I went to school a little on monday, but that's it. I have been sooo sick. Still attempting to write my ToK paper, it's not as painful as I would have thought, because I already had an outline for it and all the quotes and everything. I'll finish it tonight after American Idol. So I'll be back in school tomorrow, because I'm finally feeling better. Word on the street is that mr power's not gonna be there, so that gives me a break on that, since I've missed more math classes than any other. Yeah, that's about all that's going on. Ohoh, I got my ticket for the prom, going out dress shopping this weekend. I know, a little late, but hey, better late than never. If anyone knows people who are going who either need a limo or need more people for their limo, lemme know ASAP. So I will try to survive the rest of the week, and maybe I'll start updating more often. Hmm....well, I'll update in my free time, how bout that.

4 glances | Never look back.


kangabunny

:: 2004 12 April :: 7.46pm
:: Mood: Confident
:: Music: RUINER | NINE INCH NAILS

I'm sick of cliches o.o
Doom.
Lily's surprise party was today, so I skipped guitar and went to hang out with the azns... and play ddr.. and video games... and watching anime...
lol!
I tried ddr [miserable failure], watched princess mononoke with teh fiends, and best of all took pictures =). They will be on photobucket by tomorrow, I think. <3

Now I have to do a book report.. but it's on a very good book, When She Hollers. I tried reading it in fifth grade, but that didn't work out =P. doom.

Rainy days amount to...

Watching, Waiting
Loving, Hating
Freezing, Hurting
Me inside.
Faking smiling
Laughing, Lying
Stopping
Endless horror ride.
Keep me colder
She who sold her
Soul will sooner
be so gone...
Giving up a
life unlived to
find a place where
we belong.


Doom.

2 glances | Never look back.


kangabunny

:: 2004 10 April :: 11.20pm
:: Mood: alright
:: Music: something I made up =)

::hums a guitar solo::
Just got off the phone with Nicole.. I'm glad she called me.
You should know... I do lose faith easily. A sign that you're still there never hurts...
I'm probably going to delete this o.o

6 glances | Never look back.


kangabunny

:: 2004 10 April :: 9.26pm
:: Mood: Apathetic and Evil
:: Music: The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows-Brand New

here before me is a web of lies | it's got me so hypnotized | perhaps it can't be untied...
O.@
I was walking in the rain, and I started thinking about the past... feeling pretty shitty, and then.. "The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows" comes on.
Oh, the fucking irony. x.x
I went down the street..
then I printed out a bunch of pictures to put in my room =). All my buddies, and some of my art. ^.^
Yeah..
So deviously deviant @.@

I'm feeling some anger...
This [awesome, of course] song by Alice in Chains really describes how I am.. a lot of the time.. a lot.....
You simply MUST love AIC, by the way. Layne's voice... wow ^_^. Yeah.
---Love, Hate, Love by Alice in Chains---

I tried to love you... I thought I could
I tried to own you, I thought I would
I want to peel the.. skin from your face
Before the real you lays to waste

You told me I'm the only one
Sweet little angel, you should have run
Lying, crying, dying to leave
Innocence creates my hell

Cheating myself still, you know more
It would be so easy with a whore
Try to understand me... little girl
My twisted passion to be your world

Lost inside my sick head
I live for you but I'm not alive
Take my hand before I kill
Still love you, I still burn

Love, hate, love

Never look back.


kangabunny

:: 2004 10 April :: 7.29pm
:: Mood: Peaceful, but I can feel myself getting evil..
:: Music: That song by Black Sabbath ^^

Ecstasy of an escape, leave me longing after leaving
=D.
I'm going to try to make this not-boring. Lol.
I went to Lake Travis today, to Jackie's dock, for her big fat party for everyone of d00m =)))
PICTURES!!! Yes. I took my time and gave each a caption. Enjoy ^.^
We swam, jumped off the building, ate and ate, hung in the trailer, buried katy... and I got an insane looking tanline. XD

Oh! Then it lightninged and thundered! Lol ^^ Twas mucho fun!


::points to self:: I... photograph.
When I have a camera, I just catch so many moments.. it's indescribable. Every moment is a picture. Lol.. dawned on me today.

Realizations. =).

I now have a deviantart account for poetry and such. I am devious. yes.

She who woke up at 7am is tired. ^.^
AND wahey.. I pretty much managed to avoid my parents all day! Score.

~julia~

Never look back.


orfwashere

:: 2004 10 April :: 2.36pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: incubus - make yourself

So I enter the adult world...
...just a buncha bull shit. Buying smokes, porn, and lottery tickets never really appealed to me. Turning 18 just means I have more shit to do now. Gotta go get my "totally free checking account" this week, I'm getting my license next week, I'm gonna get more hours at work, less breaks, and now I can get into more trouble for the shit I do if I get caught, because I'm now an adult. I sure don't feel any older. It's all just a number.

All district concert band tryouts are on monday. I haven't done more than look at the names of the songs I have to play for the audition. It would be pretty funny if I didn't make it though, seeing as I got two superiors at state S&E, on my quartet and bari solo. Shit always has a funny way of working out like that. It wouldn't really matter if I didn't make it though. I allready took off of work on the days of the performances.

Since I get my license in a week, I get my car in two, or just before prom. My dad is really hooking it up. He's got his personal mechanic fixing everything on the mechanical end, it's getting new upholstery on the seats, new carpet, new dash, new head liner, new front and rear bumpers, the body shop is grinding out all my rust, fixing the dent on the rear qtr. pannel, it's getting the accents rechromed, and a new paintjob; going from ghetto spraypaint baby blue to a more masculine GM dark blue. So my dad is basically taking care of everything and totally hooking me up. I'm responsible for the stereo and wheels. I just dropped $300 on the head unit and front and rear speakers. I'll eventually get subs to give it some bottom. The wheels on the car now are apparently the most expensive option Chevy had in 1984. I bet in 1984 they were pimp as hell, but in 2004 they don't look as cool. They've got to go. I'm thinking a set of late 80's Camaro RS wheels would look hot.

Thanks to steph for liking my poem; if it is a poem at all. I'm flattered. And suki, you rule.
I'm out.

4 glances | Never look back.


kangabunny

:: 2004 10 April :: 9.08am
:: Mood: Who knows
:: Music: What You Are-Audioslave

Now I'm free from what you want, Now I'm free from what you need...
DOOM =)
Well, yesterday it finally dawned on me that guys stare at my ass.
...?
So maggie was right all along.
XD
Speaking of dawn.. that's when I woke today. =) Yes. On a saturday. at 7. yes. HAHAHAHA Yes, I AM CRAZY...
I'm leaving with Jackie, Magz, and KT for Lake Travis in half an hour. It's gonna be a really good time =)

Bad news is.. my parents keep accusing me of all this shit. =(... *sigh*

I have a sunburn =D YAY

Moot.
Can't wait til summer ^.^
~joolz~

Never look back.


kangabunny

:: 2004 9 April :: 10.23pm

Not a poem.

They hurt me
used me
abused me
who tore my heart up
before I had a chance
so I can never put it back together all the way
And neither can you...
so you can feel free to rip away at my sanity
and forget me as I melt into the darkness
And trick me again
so now I'm trapped
and I always will be
and you will never
ever
know.

Never look back.

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