It hurts so much........
Why does my life have to suck all the time?? I cant ever get a guy to begin with, and when I finally do, i cant keep him. Oh well, its nothing new i guess, my life has always been like this. It's always sucked. And the worst part is...while i guess he was liking me less and less, i was liking him more and more. If he was gonna break up with me so soon, why did he even ask me out in the first place??

*sigh* Oh well, I had fun for the what......2 weeks? that it lasted. It was good to have a break from my usual life........Im still kinda unclear as to the reason why though.....and i hate myself right now, im a bad person.........with really low self esteem....for those of you who didnt know that already.......

Im really confused right now.....about me really, what kind of person i am.....things i need to change about me,.....maybe then people will like me more......i dunno....i dont know who i am.....i have so many different personalities and in an argument i can see both sides so clearly, I can see so many ways to deal with this....but they all seem so wrong, and then so right, at the same time.....im just so confused............
Those who still care....please let me know.....

Today, is....a.....Thursday :D
Yeah, im just sitting here at Jessica's again, she playin around with her new Palm Pilot, those things are really cool, im glad i took that class, basically getting those was the reason i took that class :P But yeah, kinda bored, We were thinking about ordering some Hungry Howies and having Nate deliver it :) yeah.....so....so...bored.......Me and little cousin tony had an interesting conversation about Penis' in Art today tho :D lol, noone's in particular of course :) heh,

Nate, you really need to come meet my dad, lol. Seriously, he is way too paranoid and hopefully if he meets you and gets to know you and what not, he wont be so paranoid anymore :) Oh, and thanks for takin me home or other places all those times too :D

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.............PENIS!! O.O
Yeah! This weekend was awesome! I would put the details down but everyone seems to have some small account of it in their own journals and plus i tried earlier and my fucking gay computer got a system error in the middle of my thing and i didnt want to retype it all so yeah......heh....yeah.....

Friday
Yeah :) Today was ok, didnt really do much, just school again. I hope i have fun this weekend though. Ah! of course i will! as long as i get to sleep till 3 ill have fun!! Well, maybe not quite 3.......but noon at the most! :D

Thursday...uh...Day (Quizes)
Yeah, Im at Jessica's house right now. Hehe, and shes goin kinda pyscho on me, though shes tellin me shes not right now. Heh, were pestering kevin on messenger, its so much fun!Heh, yeah, school today was alright i guess, It was school, jessica is strangling my wrist right now so its hard to type. But yeah, when i go home, i plan to uh....eat...and umm.....sleep....after i take my shower of course :) and umm...then...uhh...go to school again tommorrow! :D which really sucks -_-

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YEAH I LOVE THAT SONG!!!!!

More quizes!
Heehee!!

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Quiz
YAY! Another quiz! Yep, i no i no im sorry. But like i said yesterday i can't help it!

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Red Flannel
Yeah! Today at Red Flannel was pretty cool. Most of you know how it went so I wont write down all the details cuz im lazy!! O_O anyway yeah. Yesterday at the Football game, that was fun too. Even though we didnt even go to the actual game, we just kinda hung out at the park and stuff but most you already know that too so....yeah.....Yep, Nate asked me out on Tursday and I said yes so now we are going out, obviously....since i said yes that would be a given as to it meaning were going out......and I just completely confused myself......so im gonna stop typing now cuz i dont know what im saying as its 10:30 at night and im tired from walking around all day and being cold so im gonna post another quiz, yes! i no! im sorry!! theres so many but i cant help myself!! its like a drug man!! lol....not really......so yeah, here it is.....

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All Nighter
Yep, the all-nighter was pretty fun, until about 3 or so when i started to get really tired and i was having these really bad mood swings :S i was depressed for like 5 mins and then i went to the psycho hyperactive part of me, well not quite that part but i was a lot happier than i was, but yeah, it was fun, like when me and jessica and kristine sat around drawing for like 2 hours or something lol, ummm yeah, then after the all nighter i went home and slept till like three and ive just been up watching Trigun since then, yep, everything is starting to come together now, i think i almost understand everything lol, but yeah...that was basically my day......