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2003 26 October :: 3.27pm
:: Mood: crushed
hmm..thursday was the worst day ever...it was my bday and nothing went well...i felt horrible...my friends decorated my car, and i shattered my drivers side window.
friday was ok, went to the game, we lost, went to megans, hung out, nothing special, went home
saturday, spent the day at hess's with dani nelson sara stevie and hess, then a whole bunch of other people came over..it was fun, i really had a god time
sunday..today was fun...spent the morning with dani went to DQ with her and ian, went and watched the boys play football...i feel like shit right now though...it sucks and i have an editorial to write and a studyguide to work on...woe is me
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2003 26 October :: 3.22pm
:: Mood: :(
girl has problem. girl has boy problem. girl spends time with boy A. boy A is a nice boy. boy A is a good friend. girl spends time with boy B. boy B means a lot to her. girl cant seem to get boy B off her mind. girl spends saturday with boy C, has fun, but isnt really thinking much of boy C but boy C is still an option. girl also spends part of saturday with boys A and B. while girl thinks and stares at one, she can't help but think of the other. girl doesnt know which boy she likes. girl has problem. girl has boy problem.
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2003 22 October :: 9.54pm
:: Mood: im not really in a mood...
so yea, i turn 17 in about 2.5 hours...am i excited? not really...should i be? i dont think so, but others do...its not that im not excited or im trying to be a big downer or something, its just i see nothing exciting about it..its just 17, theres nothing special about 17 except i can get into R rated movies legally...big deal, i can't go with anyone yet except nick and stevie...and nick will want to go with jackie so i'm left with stevie...maybe i'll take her to go see the new angelina jolie movie..
i asked my friends to not get me anything for my bday...they didnt listen, they got me something, i appreciate it, it shows they care i guess...idk
my parents keep asking me lately how things are going...and i always give a one word answer...its not like im trying to sound depressed or anything, its just that i dont feel like elaborating on the current happenings...its not really that big of a deal..
i havent been sleeping a lot lately, i dont really know what my deal is, i really wish i would sleep..it make the day a little better...all i want to do in classes is sleep and not listen and for some reason that pisses teachers off...i dont want to practice for band, i dont care about places in spain, density sparks no interest in me and i could really give a shit about indians being removed in 1890...i think im just cranky
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2003 19 October :: 2.39pm
:: Mood: im ok, better than last night
i felt so horrible last night, i felt like a horrible person, but i feel a lot better about it now...i was sitting there in church this morning and i just got like this moment of clarity, it just felt like everything was going to be ok, so im just going to go with that, and think everything is going to be ok...
yesterday was so boring! i went out to lunch with the girls, then they drug me to for keeps and ben franklins so they could show eachother what they were getting me for my bday even when i specifically told them not to get me anything, they do it anyway and i had to stay in a designated part of the store where my gift wasnt located...they make me angry sometimes, but i guess it just shows they care :)
then sara and i went to my house, bummed around, went to visit tara at work, and saw bob, bob was wearing a neon vest...yea hes cool, then we went home, then we went back into town to see coomes and doug, then we crashed jacobys house, and ian called me from on-star and i was jealous, but he had to tell me they won their first hockey game so yay for him :)...then we just hung out, watched part of bowling for columbine...i swear i will never be able to watch that entire movie...i'll have to steal it from jacoby sometime...then i went home at midnight and talked to megan the whole way home...that was fun, late night convos woo!
i guess thats it...not a very exciting update...sorry
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2003 13 October :: 9.16pm
:: Mood: contemplative
its been a long time and im sorry i havent updated sooner...ive really had no time, homecoming preparations have consumed my life but luckily its over! yay!
homecoming was a blast though!! BG finally won a game, and it was really nice that it was our homecoming, it just completed the night really. the guys were in such an amazing mood at megans house it was just awesome, everyone was in high spirits, and we even had a newcomer which was really nice. i stayed at megans that night and we had a nice conversation about our current situations, and for a brief moment before we finally said goodnight we had a sense of clarity, so we were all excited. saturday mornng bright and early we had to decorate, the decorations turned out awesome though, i was very impressed at how well it all came together...so congrats to evreyone who helped, you all were amazing!
the dance was so much fun, this is the first time all the girls had a date and it was just amazing, hess was a total gentleman the whole night, pulled out my chair at dinner, payed for my meal, and held my arm as we walked across the street so i wouldnt fall, so it was nice, i felt special, and megan and ian were too cute when they swing danced, and nick and jack were cute because you can just tell they love eachother...its almost sickening lol jk!, sara and baldwin looked to be having a good time....she actually danced thats a good sign right? stevie and steve...never really saw them...but im sure they had fun!! tara and winston...always a sight....and doug and carmen are just too cute! doug im serious, dances are your element, you just seemed to be having too much fun, and it was awesome, im bummed we didnt get to dance, but its cool, i didnt get to dance with ian or baldwin either but eh, no biggie...it was just a great night, minus the fact i felt like a had a stalker but hess and i just ignored it...the after party was fun, mutt and herringshaw and john joined the group, we just hung out and it was nice...ive had so many comments about me looking "cozy" with someone...idk, i think im just gonna try this friends thing with him, its nice to be talking again and im not gonna push it...i had a nice chat with ian that night, i love that kid, hes like my brother and to see him bummed makes me feel bummed so chatting with him while trying to sleep on the porch was fun...cold...but fun, so in the middle of the night i left him and went to the security of my own bed...hehe...
but its monday now...back to school, everyone was totally draggin today, and oddly enough there was no gossip really from the dance...weird!
and i just wanna give my regards to sara and her family...life probably feels really sucky now, but it'll get better i promise....and no more being stupid on potter road!!
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