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2004 26 July :: 11.09am
:: Mood: i like home :)
its been awhlie, but for the last four days ive been hanging out in NY/Canada so i think i have reason
the trip was, to say the least, amazing. i had a wonderful time, many stories to share...none of which can be chared on here, because they would A)take too long and B)they're much better in person. but i will do a quick rundown on the last four days...
thurs: woke up, rolled out of bed and went to the van, this being when i forgot to stop by the truck and pick up my ID...oops...fell asleep in the van, woke up in pennsylvania...went shopping once we hit buffalo and made it to the fort by 4, set up, talked to terry and jim left to go to canada...got into canada without my ID, i thought that was impressive...went to the falls...went on maid of the mist...got wet...good times :)
fri: woke up horribly stuffed because of allergies, took medicine, ended up sleeping most of the afternoon, but woke up when bill robin and dani showed up...that made me happy :) hung out with them for the remainder of the night
saturday: woke up, kept busy throughout the day, watched the battle, hung out with dani..then we went to CANADA....again, i got into canada without my ID..we went to dinner and walked around..all of which we did in garb, so all the french canadian people thought we were the coolest thing ever..i felt like i was actually somebody...i have never had so many people come up to me and ask to take a picture, it made me laugh...we walked a lot, sang in a gazebo, window shopped and got some ice cream...we got back to the states sometime near midnight...we missed the dance at the castle...
sunday: kept busy...did a lot of tearing down throughout the day...made plans for the next visit, said our good byes and we were out of there by 430...got home by 1130...it was lovely, im sunburnt, and extremely tired, and i never want to hear bag pipes or see the 42nd regiment ever again..:)
now im home, going to watch a movie with doug in a bit, from what i hear he needs a friend...thats where i step in
i like home :)
let it
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2004 19 July :: 5.25pm
this song has been running through my head all day
Hope, dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
Roped me in so mesmorizing
And so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am...
Vindicated
I am selfish, I am wrong
I am right, I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated
So motivated, I am certain now
That I am..
Vindicated
I am selfish, I am wrong
I am right, I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself
So turn up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defence is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in too deep down
to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away, so let me slip away
So let me slip away, so let me slip against the current
So let me slip away, so let me slip away
So let me slip away, so let me slip away
Vindicated
I am selfish, I am wrong
I am right, I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself
Like hope, dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
let it
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2004 17 July :: 12.09pm
:: Mood: i want sleep!
hmm..thurs night was girls night, 4 guys stopped by though, but it was ok, because its not like they could have stayed the entire time, so we still had PLENTY of girl time. i missed most of the track and field trials though because we were out on the porch visiting with ian and adam..i was a big nerd and kept looking in through the window to see what events were on :) it was a lot of fun though..A LOT of giggling..there comes a time where we all just lose it..my time happens to be 130am...yea, after that i was completely idiotic...as in..making a big deal to go get on the computer..and then after 2 minutes getting bored with it, or...spazzing out when stevie wants to turn on the light and i think its going to blind me, or...bursting out into renditions of Eye of the Tiger...yup! megan was entralled to see a jar of M&Ms..plus she fell asleep once and we woke her up to play a game...she wasnt happy with us...tara got a boob job, but then it turned out she didnt..because it was tara reid, not rood..it was like 2am, it made sense at the time...and it turns out tara is going to marry jamers because in her eyes he's a perfect 10..haha. gah, i dont even think i remember anything else...i had a wiggle dance once...i was so far gone that night...wayyyy too giggly, i think i fell out of the chair once because i thought something was so damn funny lol. we finally went to bed around 5, woke up at 8 :) we're winners. we ate cinnamon rolls, then megan and i left.
i went to gmas after that...helped her with whatever needed to be done for the party that night..i really did nothing, i ate more than i helped, i had to check all the food though and make sure it was good enough for mom and grandpa! went home after that, did a lot of nothing...mike and heather came out, we played some texas hold em..i won the loot the first game, lost the second though...i'll be a lot smarter sunday night when im playing with people i dont know...that should be interesting. we went down to grandmas...saw EVERYONE...ate A LOT...brats, steaks and hamburgers were the main course, plus every fruit ever, potato salad..macaroni salad..onion roll ups..pickles...cheese...butteringer cheesecake...and more..it was crazy, i ate sooo much but it was soo good
went to see I,ROBOT that night, it was very good, i suggest you go see it.
today i have to work a lot..no going out for me.. :)
let it
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2004 14 July :: 5.01pm
last night i told amanda i wanted ice cream, so i went into BG and met up with her, got a call from megan, and the three of us, plus stevie, decided to meet at the sundae station for some ice cream...the place was completely packed, so i had to park at the orthos, and we decided to sit in the bed...one of the props of having a truck i guess...stevie and megan were going to meet some others at the movies, while amanda and i went back to the dever household and watched some old school nick shows and the UK edition of queer eye..it was quite odd, but we learned some new phrases :)
today has been completely unproductive...i started to not feel well again, which sucks, i have a meeting to go to tonight, so ive been getting ready for that a bit...pretty boring
last night at about 1am was quite interesting...i was getting ready for bed, i actually got to the point of laying down, under the covers, and i have this problem where i think A LOT before i go to bed...and i was thinking about all this things i need to do in a short amount of time...i need to finish my 4h project, i need to start my summer reading - i already have, but i need to keep up with it, i have a job application i need to turn in like now, i havent seen ian in forever and ive been trying to think of when i might be able to actually say hello to his face, i have a meeting tonight, plans tomorrow, family get together on friday, im traveling next week, ive been neglecting my gym membership, i need to go in a throw before i completely drop doing that for the year, i need to go buy my moms gift (which technically i should have given her today), i need to give daron that damn marching hat back, and i need to start narrowing down my 10 college choices to like 5 which is IMPOSSIBLE!, plus megan started going through this idk what i want to do with my life phase, which made me question what i want to do with my life...so im now in that phase also..i know i picked something that i will love, but there are other things that i would love just as much that could be a lot more itneresting...grr..so all of these things started to build up and low and behold i put myself into a position that i havent been in for about a year...and of course my parents were asleep and i didnt want to wake them up, i got online, and adam was on, but hes never experienced this with me so i didnt wnt to drag him into it, so i was stuck there by myself trying to work through it...i dont remember if i ever worked through it, i may have passed out, or calmed myself down enough that i actually fell asleep, idk, i was doing really well with this all too, i was going on over a year...this sucks
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2004 13 July :: 6.16pm
it hurts less than i thought it would...but more than i ever wanted it to
let it
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