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2004 13 July :: 10.59am
:: Mood: content
saturday and sunday i felt pretty crappy, so i actually stayed home both nights...i know, kind of a shocker there...i decided to stay in rather than go out...it was nice though..i slept A LOT, which really is what i needed..."liquids, sleep and chicken soup" - check, check, and check. :)
yesterday i went out to lunch with amanda and megan - had to catch up with them after their fun filled day at CP. plus it was my very first trip to jimmy johns, which according to some is a crime, so i was more than happy to do the time...it was yummy :) i went home after that, sat on my bed with my mom and finalized my senior picture order, then sara called, i caught up with her, she got her pics, which are soooo nice!, we went out to dinner, visited amanda at work, hooked up with stevie, went to ians hockey game, then visited megan in her 4H hell. pretty exciting huh?
moment for contemplation:
ok..i understand it now, i see why you thought i would try to change it, but what you pointed out..isnt exactly something i can change, its who i am whether its something you like or not, it comes with the package...and the more i thought about it, we all know i hate the same thing about you...you know that, i've told you that. but it never crossed my mind that you should change it...its you, it just happens to be that part of you i dont like as much as the rest..so no worries, the past few nights shouldnt change anything, id like to go back to how we were like a week ago...
let it
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2004 10 July :: 9.14pm
:: Mood: yucky
wednesday night i had my band mtg..it all went fairly well..i dont know if we necessarily accomplish anything, but we do get a greater understanding for what this group of officers wants to do this season, which is nice...after the other officers left i hung out with jamers for awhile, then megan and amanda made their way over, and daniel and adam decided to stop by seeing as how they were only next door. sat around, watched le tour de france some more, then we decided to go to daniels, save me because mom wanted me home, so instead i stood in the middle of the street for another 20 minutes talking to megan and amanda about randomness that can only be explained as bliss, i love just talking to those girls, no matter what is running through your head at the time they have the ability to make it seem not so life altering and they can actually make you not think about it for an x amount of time. so i headed home that night...
my parents left for detroit thurs morning, they woke me up at 5 to say goodbye...i honestly dont know if i like staying home alone anymore...not because im scared or worried or anything, but because when they leave, i never get to go out because people always come here because its the place without parents...not that i mind but its a little unnerving at times because the times that i dont have a curfew i stay home, its a slight bummer, plus everyone complains about coming out..idk, its an odd situation that im not completely sure of...plus the fact that when my parents are gone theres never any food here! i eat pure crap while they're gone...but anyway, adam came out around 4 and we watched some kill bill scenes because heading into megans for dinner, stopped by video spectrum and then came back out here...megan hodges sara stevie and daniel joined us...we watched shawshank redemption...good movie..and then they headed out
friday...went to throwing and the gym...came home, took a nap, went on a 13 mile bike ride with stevie, had some lemonade, sat around, came home, made cookies, adam came out, followed quickly by daniel and herringshaw and hodges...sat around, watched the track and field trials...they all left...same ol' same ol'
today i woke up feeling completely congested, my voice still is a few octaves deeper, i slept on and off pretty much most of the day...went to the car show with amanda, drooled over some cars, walked around with baldwin and jackie for a bit...picked up a random job application..went to sunway for lunch, came home and ive been a bum ever since...watched some more track and field trials..those are amazing, i though it said there was going to be disc though, and all i saw throwing wise was more mens shot put...which is amazing, dont get me wrong, i mean hello?! adam nelson threw 71 flat, id love to see that in person, im pretty sure i would be speechless...either that or gazing at them with complete awe as drool goes down my chin..either way
ive been contemplating my ways lately...theres a lot about me that has changed a lot in the past few months, i have theories as to the influence that has affected me so..i just dont understand why...that influence has been there pretty steadily for the past 4 years..why is it being so drastic now? idk, at times i like this new me that as popped up, but other times...idk, i think im really pissing some people off a lot..idk anymore
i think thats it...the meds are slowly taking over and my eyelids are getting heavier
let it
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2004 7 July :: 2.01pm
:: Mood: contemplative
busy day today...i skipped out on throwing, but according to hodges i didnt miss anything...he was there with adam, and that was it, coach didnt even show up, so im glad i didnt go, it would have been a waste...i have to be over at wilhelms for a 4H mtg later, and i actually have to leave that mtg early to go to my other mtg for band officers at jamers' house...hopefully we get some things squared off at this mtg...
last night me berber kelly stevie hodges and amanda played volleyball at carter park..it was so much fun, playing the the sand :) then we went to DQ which was rather interesting...to say the least...headed over to daniels...ran into doug in his driveway, had a discussion that really accomplished nothing, mostly my fault though, i didnt really feel the need to accomplish anything, to put it bluntly i didnt care to accomplish anything, as bitchy as that sounds, its the honest to God truth..sure i dont like the idea of doug not being happy with me, but at the same time i dont know if ive doen anything wrong...sure i could of done things better...but idk, i had fun and thats all that really matters right?, idk, call me a bitch if you want, or self centered...i dont care
i think i need an ian talk...but i cant get that anymore
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2004 6 July :: 9.48am
its been a while
ive been keeping busy though since last thursday...friday night stevie adam daniel, and i went bowling which was interesting, i suck at bowling and it showed, but it was a lot of fun anyway, after that we went to rallys because we were thirsty and didnt feel like spending 4 bucks a glass....
saturday i met adam at 10 to go throw for a bit, we're going to be sweet when spring comes around, after that we decided to go raid daniels house after just waking him up, watched some tennis and le tour de france, then the boys got hungry so we went to taco bell...which was fun, i was bummed i had to leave them so early, but i had to get home and pack so stevie could come and pick me up so we could go to the lake. went to the lake, and jet skied A LOT! it was so much fun though, her family is so nice, and the house was so cool...definitely going up again sometime soon. got home sunday, had a nice dinner with my parents mike and heather, then went into megans house to hang out before going in to watch the fireworks...they were pretty good, i enjoyed them, i missed being in NY for the 4th so much though, and it showed, megan and amanda kept asking me what waswrong, and i couldnt pin point it at the time, becuase i was surrounded by my friends watching fireworks...whats not to love? but i figured it out later...im just used to being somewhere else with different people for the 4th...its been that way for the past 7 years and it was just odd...i missed NY, but i got over it quickly....monday night stevie wanted to play homerun derby, but megan and i had already agreed to meet tim, so we did both....DQ with Tim was great...i love him so much, he just makes everything fun :) then we went to play bball, but ended up leaving soon after becuase the bugs were nasty, so we ended up the night at daniels...watched some TV, nothing special..came home....the end
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2004 1 July :: 11.07am
:: Mood: content
time for a morning update i guess...
i got to go into town yesterday and pick up my senior pictures...im actually happy with them, there are some that i really dont like at all, but there are others that turned out really really well, so im happy, my parents and i are going to have a hard time picking out the ones we want...but megan had told me that she wanted to see them all when i got them, so i called and told her and she and amanda came out, i called sara because i figured she would want to see them also. they all loved them and gushed and drool...everything that great friends would do :) ian called wondering where we all were, told him we were at my house, he asked if he coul blow things up, i asked my dad, he said that was fine, so ian adam and daniel came out and got to shoot the musket..they were excited, i think ian moreso than the other two, but sara and i were manly for a few seconds and shot it also, i actually was good the first time and got really close to the center of the target but i think i missed it the second time haha. after that, we just kinda sat around the living room...herringhsaw came out a little while after and showed us his proofs which turned out really nice also..there were a few that i didnt like, but i think that comes with every batch...people started to dwindle a bit, and daniel was last to leave at around 1140, chatted online for a bit and made it to bed at a fairly decent time and then did wake up until 1040..my life is a waste
today wll be an easy day...im not really in the mood for going out, but ive said that before so we'll see what happens, i know stevie wants to see my proofs so maybe i'll just have her some over...idk, we shall see
thats it
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