kind of like this.

kind of like this.

:: 2004 30 June :: 10.23am
:: Mood: random
:: Music: counting crows

the last few days have been quite odd...i feel like ive gotten my best friend back, but at the same time, i feel like im getting a brand new best friend...can someone have more than one best friend? i'd like to think so, but at the same time i feel bad calling the new one my best friend, like its some sort of betrayal to my first best friend...like he's in some way less best than before? idk, its comfusing...i dont think i like the term best friend, its too definite, i mean if someone is best one day...does that necessarily mean they will be best the next? not the way people work nowadays...everything is changing..i think i'll just stick with good. i have my good friend back...and i feel like im getting a brand new good friend - that makes me happy, i like my new good friend

the corn is starting to get high...so anyone who decides to enture out to my house, please, please, please be careful at all intersections! the corn really does hinder your visibility, just be careful

i skipped throwing this morning - my alarm went off and i didnt want to go at all...throwing this morning had zero appeal...normally i'll go just for the fact that i can see the people there and be social, but this morning was different, i didnt jump at the chance to spend time with ian or adam, i just didnt see the point, it was odd, i didnt understand, but in the stir of confusion, i rolled over and fell back asleep

i have to go in tonight and get my proofs...im really curious as to how they turned out, but at the same time...i worried they'll be bad..

also this 4H project has me all tied in knots, i procrastinated too much and i know i'll finish it, but i dont think it will be top knotch like i want it to be. plus this whole judging thing? i dont do well with being judged...plus i just found out im being escorted? kinda weird, idk, i think i need to have a nice long talk with megan about it..she'll make me feel more together about it

movie night last night at ians...it was cool, we watched cold mountain, good movie, id watch it again, just so i could catch all the parts i missed because of random bantering...and people yell at me for talking during movies?? im not bad at all when compared to the people last night, oh well

grandmas here...

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shiznit05

:: 2004 29 June :: 10.26am
:: Mood: im really happy

my theory holds strong, time away from BG does help

NY was tons of fun...a little tedious at times, we went to so many forts, they're all starting to run together right now, but for the sake of an update i'll try to remember the events as they came...

wednesday:left here around 2, ran into BG, bought 2 CDs for the trip then met up with my parents at 3 to head off...we drove for about 7 hours, stoppping sporadicaly for food and potty breaks, we stayed in syracuse that night, met up with bill and robin and then headed off for a jam packed day...

thurs: woke up, jumped into the van, and headed off to see fort stanwix, my parents thought it would be really funny to take my picture next to the sign at every historical stop we made because they know how much i enjoy seeing forts and crap...so thats what we did. after stanwix we went to a battle site..i could tell you the word, but i cant think of how to spell it....oriskinee or something, idk, but i have a picture of me next to the sign! after that we went to Hermkimer home i believe...that was neat actually, we also went to a tomb for some guy...stuepen or something?...then we had to spend an hour at the chrysler dealership because bills van was being funky. we were supposed to stay at johnson hall that night but we ended up just going to the fort for the night because we were so close.

fri: woke up, went to vermont for breakfast so we could have real vermont maple syrup! so we went to the trappers lodge...remind me to tell you the story sometime about tom and dan and the moose...its good stuff, well we did that then we went to fort # 4 which is in new hampshire..that one was probably my favorite, there was a lot more interaction with people so it was nice, but the rooms in this place were nice...i want on of those beds!! took some pictures, then headed to crowne point, nothing too special there..and it was starting to rain. heading back into NY, had some dinner, then headed back to the fort.

sat: first day of the real reenactment! got all dressed in my nice garb, had some breakfast and spent the rest of the day walking around taking pictures, did some shopping, and a lot of talking. drove up mt defiance with my mom and robin, hike to the top, took a role of film took tons of pictures, hiked back down to the car then headed back to the fort, that night we went to bonnies for dinner....bonnie is amazing! she is me in 30 years..i see so much of myself in her. so that was tons of fun. her house is right on the lake, its gorgeous and her dog was amazing...i loved it there, i never wanted to leave...

sunday: woke up, dressed in grubby garb, had breakfast, and then did some more walking and picture taking...changed into normal clothing, helped tear down the tent, and we were out of there by 330. we drove until 10, ended up in buffalo for the night.

monday: got on the road by 9, drove for a bit, stopped for lunch, drove until 230 which was when we got home...i love home...

went out last night with amanda sara and stevie..we went to DW, caught up and shared some stories, hess stopped by, we went to the park, played on the swings, then decided to go walk downtown...daniel called, he and adam showed up, we walked for some more, met up with PL! talked to him for a bit, walked some more, went to wendys, got food, went back to the park, had tons of fun playing on the playground, then ian met up with us and we ended the night at daniels just hanging out, got home late, and stayed up until really late talking online...i need to learn to go to bed earlier...

and thats it...kinda boring right?

let it

shiznit05

:: 2004 23 June :: 12.06pm
:: Mood: great
:: Music: counting crows

goodbye BG!
good bye bowling green...i shall miss thee...just a little though :)

i am extremely excited to get out of this town for awhile. now dont take this as complete and total BG bashing, but we all know that we sometimes need a break from monotony...this is my break, and i cant wait. i leave in about 3 hours, we're going to drive 6 hours, stop for the night in syracuse, meet up with the McBROOMS! i love them, meeting up with them, then driving a few more hours, stopping somewhere...idk where...then driving a few more to Mt Defiance, we'll drive up the mountain, go on a hike, take some gorgeous pictures that i'll have to share with adam so he can understand what ive been gushing out lately, then hike back down the mountain, get into our car, and then we're stayng at some mansion for the night...im not really sure lol im not told anything, the next day we're going to get to the fort fairly early, set up, see people, then cross the lake into Vermont to see Fort #4...yes thats its name #4...my parents have been to 1,2,and 3...so now they're up to 4, and boy am i bummed i missed the preceeding ones...damn...anyway, i get to wake up every morning to an open meadow, a gorgeous lake and 2 mountains...again, im taking pleanty of pictures because i keep talling adam and megan about it, but its so hard to describe, its just GORGEOUS...so have no fear, i have 6 rolls of film lol. i plan on getting a head start on one of my AP books, i should actually finish it before reaching the NY border...its a lot shorter than i thought it was but hey, im not complaining :)
i actually am going to miss my friends though...i had such an amazing time last night :) we met at megans house at 745...we being daniel ian stevie megan and i...sat around until 815 because we always get caught up talking, thenw e all jam into ians car and drive up to perry falls...i thought i sucked at mini golf, turns out im pretty sweet, i only lost by 1 point and that was to ian who played mini golf pretty much every damn day last summer with bob and adam and i think owen...anyway, adam and brian called and met up with us after our game, so we headed up to mr freeze....yummm....ate and chatted, had TONS of fun catching up with megan...we are just not meant to be seperated, i honestly think this is a record, it was a week and a half...im thinking its a record, but at least a few days, idk. after that we headed back to megans, played some pool...more like watched adam and ian play...and just hung out, then we were kicked out at 1130...megan and i ended up standing in the road for another 20 minutes after everyone left, i love megan/britt convos...:) it sucks though, shes gone for a long time, we get one night and then i leave for a week...lol oh well by next wednesday we should be able to hang out quite often
anyway, got home, talked to adam for awhile, then my computer acted up so i got kicked off without being able to say goodbye, i hate it when that happens, but oh well, woke up early, went to throwing, i was the only one...me and coach for an hour, it was a lot of fun though! its interesting to hear his take on the other throwers...it made me giggle, but i got a lot of work done, i was terribly off though today, but still throwing in the upper 32s, so im thinking a good day will be 34? hoping...anyway, i guess thats it

dont miss me too much while im in NY, and if you feel compelled to...call me cell, it'll be on me most of the time and if its not i'll call you back :) i'll see you all tuesday! muah!

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shiznit05

:: 2004 21 June :: 2.38pm
:: Mood: sleepy

its been a few days...sorry about that

thursday night i stayed home and chilled with the family, i figured it they were leaving me i might as well soak up some time with them..so i stayed home and my mom and i watched a movie while my dad finished up their packing...quality time right?

friday my parents left for the fort before i woke up so i didnt see them...i was supposed to go throwing with hodges...nope, slept right through that alarm :) but oh well, i needed someone to come and pick me up and take me to the fort in order to take my parents extra vehicle from them, but ian was hanging out with ali, doug needed to pack, and i think sara was busy, as was stevie, so i asked adam, i wasnt expecting him to say yes, not because hes a big jerk or anything, but i know how he is about wasting gas and how thats pretty much the worst thing ever...but he did, he came out and got me and took me up there, which was amazing of him, so thanks bunches to him really, im so thankful for that, because if it werent for him i would have had to ask my grandparents and it would have taken forever! but oh well, its in the past and it all worked out well

that night sara came out after running a few errands, and then adam showed up, he called up daniel, and while we waited for him adam made sara and omlet which was yummy, and we watched zoolander for a bit, then daniel got here, then later herringshaw showed up with hess and rishel...fun times...lol

saturday mike and heather came out for a little bit...spent some quality time with mike before i ran into town to go to the gym and to kroger, turns out the gym was closed by the time i got there which was really dumb, but i went and visited sara at work and got some munches for people who were coming out that night...got home, mike and heather were still around, chatted with them, i needed a stick of butter, went to gmas, found tara, kidnapped her for awhile, made some cookies, mike and heather left, and sara and stevie showed up for girls night. ate some food, then adam and daniel showed up soon followed by ian...we played girl talk, upon the guys request...quite an interesting game..adam was point princess but refused to wear his crown...jerk. i think everyone else wore it though, that was a fun night, just hanging out....did ians hair while he wore saras shirt, that was quite the sight. then he found that black powder, tried to ignite some of it, but it was too humid, he'll come out one of these days and shoot the musket with my dad, along with the others...the boys left, so we started girls night...but then hodges showed up so we canceled girls night...hung out with him for a bit, he left around 130, so girls night was back on, watched some movies, chatted, figured out some stuf...shared some gossip...good times, megan needs to come back soon so we can include her!! we'll only have one day together before i have to leave now lol

my parents got home yesterday, and i pretty much slept the entire day because i got zero sleep the night before

today i was sweet at disc, then i went and visited my mom and then went to the gym...took a nap and now im here...im cool

let it

shiznit05

:: 2004 17 June :: 10.47am
:: Mood: angry

people anger me...people either make act before they think with situations or they wait for something to be handed to them on a fucking silver platter. and while they're waiting they'll sit and piss and moan about how nothing is going their way and how sad they are and how depressing life is...well, you know why?? its because you're not doing a damn thing about it! happiness isnt something thats going to pop up one day, knock on your door and be like ok, im all yours now!! for the love of Christ people, life is whatever you make it out to be, if you take every bad action towards you as completely life altering and something that will inevitably make your life worse than thats exactly what its going to be. why cant people just move on from things, i understand that some actions are bad, and i understand that they will consume your mind for an x amount of time, but i also understand that dwelling on things never helps, and that thinking that something is the end only adds to the fact that that you're depressed about it and will make you moreso...so my advice to all...take life as it comes, what happens now wont be that big of a deal in a year. dont weigh the bad things in life moreso than the good...if you do that i can promise you life will be better, talk to people about how you feel..yes talk, dont analyze, analyzing never works, treat others as equals, dont be degrading, it hurts. try to make the best out of all situations, being an optimist isnt as bad as you think, if you're not happy where you are now, try something new, try to find something else that makes you happy, or if you already know what makes you happy...do it! living life isnt rocket science people, its just some of you make it more dramatic than it has to be

ok, now dont take all of that as an attack, its just a rant, i know im guilty of most of the things i just stated, but oh well

now that thats done...yesterday was fun, i woke up at 1030 after unplugging my clock when it said it was time for me to wake up for throwing...i was a big bum, and didnt go, but from what i heard i did miss much, hodges yelled because he didnt have a running buddy, but oh well, he'll live, i promise. i bummed around the house for awhile, then called up stevie, she needed someone to go shopping with so i went and picked her up and we went to meijer, bought some stuff for a friend of hers then came out to my house. watched how to lose a guy in 10 days..soemthing we pretty much always do. talked to daniel, got him to come out, called up sara, told adam and adam told ian, and doug came out after work...it was fun, we watched behind enemy lines and the sweet fight scenes in the patriot...then the group began to dwindle..stevie and doug left, with adam soon after, sara had to be home and then daniel got tired and left..ian stayed til about midnight..that was fun, havent seen him in forever so it was a nice change. he taught be how to read this sweet weather stuff so now when im with others i can read it and also feel sweet..to bad he taught me when i was about half asleep so i really remember none of it, but thats alright

last night i had a dream, my friends and i went to a circus, and the clowns were scary and the elephant was really tiny..like daniel size, i got a balloon animal and doug ate it, while ian stole my cotton candy..then they all left to join the circus and i went off to college, then i woke up

i think im gonna cut my hair

where's megan at? i think she died

today i think im going to stay home..maybe talk to my family..they are leaving me for the weekend, and then they leave next wednesday...

i love michael

y2wulff: you should be in bed young missy
WulffMsc: haha, when did you become the bedtime police?
y2wulff: yesterday was my commencement why weren't you there
WulffMsc: i knew there was something i missed yesterday!
WulffMsc: i'll send you a card tomorrow
y2wulff: i'm a junior deputy bed police
WulffMsc: do you have a badge?
y2wulff: do you
WulffMsc: no...
WulffMsc: im ashamed of myself
y2wulff: well then lets not judge
WulffMsc: haha
y2wulff: i gotta go to bed i have classes tomorrow
y2wulff: see yea later
WulffMsc: mmk, i'll talk to you later
y2wulff: bye
WulffMsc: night!

thats enough

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