Futile Fluctuations in Time

:: 2005 19 September :: 9.03am

Oh good Lord, I feel like I'm going to puke.

This is the last time I eat instant breakfast when he is visiting.

Edit 1:08 pm

I'm dumb. I just started to get better and went down to the caf with Tara and some of her friends and ate apple pie for dessert. That apple pie had nuts in it. Fuck.

My stomach's hurting again ;_;

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:: 2005 19 September :: 12.47am

I wasn't saying, Kyle, that people who drink are anything less than people. My parents drink and, before they were married, my father drank quite a bit. I'm so sorry that I'm upset that the people I care a ton about are making stupid decisions.

And I'm especially sorry that you think I don't give a flying fuck about them. I'm sorry that you think I don't care. I thought that by now, you'd know me better than that. I'm sorry that you weren't there to see me when I found out that Ben spent the weekend at his brother's drinking and getting drunk. I'm sorry that you didn't see how much I worried about him and still do worry about him. I'm sorry you don't see me pray every night that he, Jackie, Kelly and everyone at college or elsewhere will be okay.

Amanda's cousin died of alcohol poisoning.

I'm sorry that you don't see how important this subject is to me.

And I'm sorry that you don't see how important everyone is to me.

I apologize that I'm having a difficult time adjusting to everyone growing up and experiencing adulthood but I am. There's been a lot of stuff lately that has made me have to grow up and it's too bad that you aren't here to see it and that I'm not comfortable enough to tell you.

Yes, people with make dumb decisions. I accept that. I can suck it up.

I can care about them. And I do.

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:: 2005 19 September :: 12.29am

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Didn't write my paper for I&E. Have to meet with prof tomorrow for 20 mins to talk about said paper and previous paper. Whoops. Might be a short meeting.

Start radio show tomorrow. Nervous as hell.

I love you all.

:: 2005 18 September :: 10.51pm

Tracey, I've got two more German bands to add to the obsession list and as possible obsessions for you if you haven't heard of them yet.

Eisbrecher and Megaherz. Both good. Both delish. And I'm going to probably make Andy get their CDs for me when he goes to Germany this summer.

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:: 2005 18 September :: 6.13pm

Good Lord
Tara and I can hear the people just above us having sex.

Bleck.

Edit 7:51 p.m.

And they're at it again...

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TaoMan1121

:: 2005 17 September :: 10.38pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Coldplay - The Scientist

I felt at home and at peace in this city for the first time tonight. Comfortable in my skin and in my head. I could see the future tonight, saw the necessity of my life, all without ever leaving the present.

I don't want to give away the ending, but I know how it's going to end.

:: 2005 17 September :: 9.37pm

"I believe in safe anal-sex"
"I don't want to get pregnant!"

Ben, you've made my day.

kthpkc

:: 2005 17 September :: 4.49pm

I should probably go and eat something. But I'm not hungry.

Hey, at least Tara's gone so that means her emo music is off. I think I'll just start blaring some german stuff one of these days so she'll start appreciating the good stuff.

Eye is still semi-swollen, am hiding it underneath my bangs.

There's a football game today *insert groans here* so that means I'm going to be even more paranoid than usual about riots.

I'm wearing my red and black striped tights right now because I can, they're awesome. And a tattered-looking skirt. Yay. Now I'm gonna go find a graveyard to hang around in. Anybody know of any good ones near the WMU campus? Preferably in the campus and by the Valleys.

Mmm...want squeezy cheese on Ritz crackers right now. I really need to go to Meijer. But I'm afraid to go alone because I could get raped behind one of the cart return stall thingys.

I really wish that I had a social life here at Western.

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:: 2005 17 September :: 3.39pm

The puppy!

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:: 2005 17 September :: 2.30pm

So we are getting the car. I just don't know when. I probably won't be able to drive it until I get a job and insurance but still: YAY!

Apparently, a Geo Prizm is just like a Toyota Corolla.

Then I'll get to do all those cool car things that I've been planning on doing (visiting Katie and Kelly, driving to school, visiting the houses I used to live in etc).

I love you all.

P.S. Leo is the cutest dog ever. He tries to usurp McHenry, it's funny.

Angel_Bob

:: 2005 16 September :: 11.22pm

I had a job interview yesterday and today my mom said she found me a car.

It's a '90 Geo Prizm (maybe?) and I hope I get to drive it before we actually get it. If we do.

And I hope I get the job because I need it.

I love you all.

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TaoMan1121

:: 2005 16 September :: 10.34pm
:: Music: Nellie McKay - Respectable

I need a free and decent image hosting site. Any suggestions?

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:: 2005 16 September :: 9.43pm

There's a ginourmous jug of vodka sitting on the floor less than a foot from my leg. As in, "holy frick it's huge!" And "holy frick, they're really planning on getting wasted tonight!"

Someone shoot me now.