Loving Life
"Given The Chance"

the minute before we play
i'm pacing waiting anxiously
i can't wait to hit the stage
and say hello to jersey
and when the last note rings
and when i've sung all i have to sing
every minute i will count
till the next show in the next town

what can i say
that can explain
all this time
i'm LOVING LIFE
theres not a day
that i can't say
all this time
i'm living out my...

the feeling is screaming out
the words of the things i think about
hearing them coming back
from the crowds mouth is perfect
and when the curtains close
i'll realize how fast time could go
thanks for everything
you know how much this means

what can i say
that can explain
all this time
i'm LOVING LIFE
theres not a day
that i can't say
all this time
i'm living out my dream

what this is to me
is more than words could mean
i guess dreams do come true
this song itself is living proof
what this means to me
is more than it may seem
i guess dreams do come true
this song itself is living proof
what this is to me
is more than words could mean
i guess dreams do come true
this song itself is living proof

what can i say
that can explain
all this time
i'm LOVING LIFE
theres not a day
that i can't say
all this time
i'm singing out
singing a song about
a dream that has come true

O my freakin God. Life kicks so much ass right now. Well we had a semi-formal last nigh. I couldnt find a date since Kelli was going out with Tom. But on Monday night, my friend Becca called and said that her boyfriend was being a dick and borke up with her and now she had two unrefundable tickets and asked me if i wanted to go. I said of course. Then last night after having a week of the hardest track practices ever (I felt really good after them even though i collapsed in one of them, i felt really in shape and healthy) was the dance. So i go to pick up Becca and she looks great. We get a few pictures and then go across the street to our other friends house. While at Heather's (the other friend) we took another set of pics with her and her date. Which interestingly enough, was another chick. Neither of them are lesbians, 'cus i know everyone reading this is gonna think that. Stuff happened and basically their boyfriends couldnt go. So they decided why not just go together. They were crazy and joking about it like that. It was funny how they got flowers for each other and stuff. But at the same time that meant that i kinda had 3 dates (emphasis on kinda). But anyway it was fun. so we get to the dance and the decorations look like they were bought at the dollar store. And i told everyone so. But it didnt matter to any of us. We were having such a badass time. Then Becca and i really started dancing and it was sooo much fun. Especially compared to last year. Which i think ive mentioned before. (Recap: i really dont think she wanted to be there with me) The whole dance was spent in the back where our group of i guess about 15 or so like it. Anyway i saw kelli. She was with Tom since they had bought the tickets together before they broke up and i guess they wanted to go together still. I dont know. But she looked amazing. I didnt want to be all over her though. even though in my opinion we were kinda flirty all night. I didnt want to make Becca feel like i was deserting her. After all 9i was there with her and i think my main job there besides making sure i have a good time, is making sure my date has a good time. And i think i did a pretty good job of that. Then after the dance ended we went to get our jackets and stuff. I saw Lincul adn Salera there. Lincul is the craziest kid ive ever met. But moving on. Becca and i went outside to wait for her dad since her parents wanted to do pick up becuase where we were going next, well my persnts had no idea how to get there. So i offered her my jacet nad she took it. Like a gentleman (momma raised me good). Then i notcied she was still shivering so i put my arm around her and she got really coles to me. Like as close as she possibly could. She was cold. So we watied for her dad. He came and we went to a kid name Matt's house. When we got there clueless was on. Neither of us we interested in watching it so we went downstairs and we watched tv. Despite the situation, i didnt want to make any sorta move. Of any kind. I really got the impression that Becca liked me since she was the one that first suggested to go downstairs and watch tv. But i still like Kelli. And sice at the dance i noticed Tom was nowhere near her, i knew that kelli was available. And even if she wasnt. i didnt want to do anything with Becca if im still tinking about Kelli. It wouldn't be fair to her. So nothing happened. But about 10 minutes before hjer parents came (we knew when her parents would be coming) somehow (i forget) but our hands met and there was that romantic hand grab moment. Of course it wasn't like fingers interlocking kinda ish, but it was there. I know. Major screw up on my part. I'm worried i gave Becca the wrong impression. I like her and all but i like kelli more. so her parents came and picked us up and i got drtopped off. I finally got my coat back. I didnt mind but i told her she could keep wearing it if she were still cold over at Matt's. So we hugged. Nothing special. just a hug. And then i went in. And that was my great night. Except for the potential screw i up, i can't think of anything better. well i gtg.
~BOYER

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