"Sometimes" I'm dreamin about tomorrow, I'm thinkin of yesterday, I consume myself in sorrow this moment in time is what I betray, I am searching for the answers I look around sometimes I get sad, 'Cause I don't know which way to go, I look around sometimes I get sad, 'Cause my life is spinning out of control I never know what you want, I never know what you need, it was different from the start, when you cut me in two I never thought I would bleed, but I am searching for the answers I look around sometimes I get sad, 'Cause I don't know which way to go, I look around sometimes I get sad, 'Cause my life is spinning out of control I will go this alone I don't need nobody's help, I've got to do this myself, Alone, Alone, Alone, Alone I look around sometimes I get sad, 'Cause I don't know which way to go, I look around sometimes I get sad, 'Cause my life is spinning out of control I look around sometimes I get sad, 'Cause I don't know which way to go, I look around sometimes I get sad, 'Cause my life is spinning out of control

 

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Evilgirl28666

:: 2004 13 December :: 9.44pm

danielle is in the hospital
she called me a few mins ago
she sounded so scared
i feel like im never gonna be talking to her again
god...


this is the first time ive cried in weeks

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evilgirl28666

:: 2004 12 December :: 7.25pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: elliot smith

updating yet again
yeah...im updating again

saw this song in heather's profile
its good, depressing, but good

i really wanna be held right now
it would be nice
or so ive heard

surv3ys YAY

Measure Your Fears - Would You, Wouldn't You, You Did

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Pet a snakeyeah
Spend a week in an empty roomit fucking freak the shit outta me, but i would
Ride in a hot-air balloonumm..maybe :/
Sky divenope
Sing in front of a huge audienceyeah
scuba diveumm..if i had practice
Sit in the front seat of a roller coasternever
Deliver a babyyeah, id maybe puke or laugh
Swim across the Amazon Riverahh...umm...sure?
Change careersyeah
Disappear for a long period of timeyeah, i was thinking about doing that neway
Walk through the forest alone at nightno
Join a space missioneh..im not to intrested in it
Tell everyone what you honestly think of themyeah sure...i kinda do neway
Call off your weddingif there was a decient reason
Walk naked through New York City for 10 minutes during rush houryeah sure..i dont know neone who lives there
Walk up to Mike Tyson and call him a girlsure
Disarm a bombif i knew how to
CLean the outside windows of a skyscrapernope
Draw a mustache on the Mona Lisa with a permanent markerno one messes with art
Go on tour with Elvis...
Go swimming during a thunder stormi have before
Preform surgury on your best friendif i knew how

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Ultimate Survey (377 questions long)

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time started7:59
full namealison *a**li*e hunt
nickname(s)ally, bitch
birthday9.9.88
where were you bornbeverly
zodiac signvirgo
height5'8 hehe
weightahh..more than 100
hair colorredish brown
eye colorbrown
shoe sizedepends...9n a half usually
ring size...
skin type (freckles, tan, albino, etc.)um..pasty
blood typei dunno
grade10
GPAdunno
siblingsnone
tattoosnone
piercingsnone
hobbieskeybaord, drums, walking around aimlessly...
favorite
colorred
foodsteak/cheesecake
candyummm sweetarts
type of cheeseumm...i like a lot of cheese
pizza toppingcheese or just sause
salad dressingitalian, or greek
sandwichcheese n tuna
cerealoatmeal amond chrisp
fruitgreen apples
vegetablecorn on the cob
berry...
cakecheese
booki like a shit load of books
moviebraveheart
magazinedont have one
newspaperdont read one
tv showbuffy
websiteumm...javanoid.com woohu.com
radio station104.1 101.1 107.3 180.0
fontumm..
cartoon characterzim, kenny cartman..ect,
artist (painter)i
actorlike
actresstoo
cdmany
songto
music groupname
music typeone!!!!
day of the weekfriday like 4pm ish or saturday
monthdecember/janurary/september
seasonfall
holidaychristmas
shampooherbal essences
conditioner^^
number28666
phrasecrack addiction much
storehottopic, bestbuy, spencers
weatherwarm and rainy
restaurantalcapoclos,
channel30,25,26,24,
teacherum...ms desmond...the only teacher who i think knew what the hell she was doing
weekend activitygetting stoned...lol jk...umm hanging with friends
hangoutumm...someones house with no parents
house colorwhite?
sport to watchnone?
sport to playbaskettball
animalcat
flowerdont have one
guy's name...
girl's name...
board gamestrageto
party game untill you pass out
story from childhoodday i found out about santa
body parthands
have you ever
been on a trainy
been on a planen
been in a car accidentn
caused a car accidentn
run into a wally
burned a potato chipy
almost burned the house downy
smokedy
been drunky
been highy
broken the lawy
burned a cd (if yes, the one above is yes)y
kissed someone of the opposite sexn
kissed someone of the same sexn
frenched an animaln
made outn
had cyber sexy
gotten engagedn
had an online relationshipn
been rejected by a crushy
lovedy
made yourself cry to get out of troubley
cried in publicy
cried over a moviey
fallen asleep in a movie theatern
given someone a bathn
been to a boarding schooln
been home-schooledn
lost a valuable itemy
bungee jumpedn
skiedn
met the presidentn
met a celebrityy
gotten a cavityy
shopped at abercrombie & fitchy
made a prank cally
skipped schooly
faked sick to get out of schooly
purchased something that you knew didn't fity
climbed a treen
fallen from a treen
broken a boney
sprained anythingy
passed outy
made yourself pass outn
been to disney worldn
been to a theme park (not disney)n
said i love you and meant it (not to a relative)n
made a model volcano (working model)n
made a clover leaf with your toungen
past
what did you do yesterdayhung out with jamie spiker n josh
memory you miss the mostthe month of august
memory you want to forgeta lot
something you regretted after it was doneomg yes
the last
song you heardelliot smith twlight
cd you boughtumm..cant remember
thing you said"well probably because ive said no every time except for like 4 times"
time you crieda while ago
movie seen in a theaterumm...the grudge?
thing you atecupcake
person who calledkim
nail polish shade wornprobably black
time you showeredthis morning
person who complimented youumm...kim? "we are so weird"
at this moment
what are you listening toelliot smith
what are you wearingblack shirt, pants with things that hang off em
what are you thinkingbobby is online, i feel like shit, my neck hurts
what are you scared of mostbeing myself
how many people are on your buddy liston as in line? 18, total 83
future
occupationpianist photographer psycologist
marriage sitei dunno
honeymoonnewhere but here
place to livewherever
kids2
carnething that works
what are you doing tomorrowschool
do you think george bush will be reelected...
will there be a wwIIIcannot have peace without war
will politics ever be truthfulnope
will humanity snuff itself outprobably
can the gov. be changedno
friends
best friendkim
funniestjosh gurney
silliestumm jamie spiker
loudestdanielle.kim
quietestumm...none of em
craziestkim
calmestpcock
skinniestjaycee i guess
best secret keeperdunno
worst secret keeperdunno
the one you have but don't wantnone
smartestvy
preppiestjamie/danielle/jaycee
peppiestdunno
most hyperjamie
hottestdave lol
weirdestdunno
biggest pervertdan...but hes more my cousin then frien
most annyoingandrew
shyestnone
most religiousnone of em
do you believe in
heavenn
helln
angelsy
deviln
godn
buddhan
aliensy
ghostsy
spirit (soul)y
soulmatesy
reincarnationy
love at first sighty
karmay
love in generaly
lucky
yourselfn
crush
who and when was your first crushi think james o gorman 4th grade
any nowyeah
a celebrity crushnope
who do you want to be with right noweh... ***** *** *****
whos number do you wanti have all the numbers i need
who do you want to kisslol...same guys i like
what is something you dont understand about the opposite sexwhy they dont like me
if you could go on a date with anybody, who would it be...
on scale of one to ten, how romantic are you10
first thing noticed about the opposite sexhands,
what do you look for personality-wisegotta make me laugh...its just somethign that needs to happen
biggest turn onmusical talent
biggest turn offnot showering
something thay weat that turns you on...
something they wear that turns you offnothing really the fact that they r wearing nething at all?
the most romantic thing you want to happen to you...
the most romantic thing that has happened to youumm....lets see....NOTHING WHATSOFUCKING EVER
what do you wear on a coffee datei wouldnt know
is it right to flirt if you're takenno lol
is cyber cheatingno
are eyes the passegeway to the soulumm...sure
who would you like to take to the promsame guys i like...or maybe a sexy lead singer from some band that i like
do you want to hug somebody right nowyeah
do you know what an aphrodisiac isumm...sounds fimmilar
describe
mellowwhat i can be
melancholyeh
the perfect datehaving one?
the perfect matehaving one?
how m&m's are madedont care chocolate is evil
why manhole covers are roundlol
one or the other
coke/pepsicoke
sprite/7-upneither
boxers/briefsboxers
gold/silversliver
vanilla/chocolatevanilla
flowers/candyflowers
book/magazinebook
tv/radiotv
glass half empty/half fullempty
democrat/republicanneither
colored pencils/markersboth
coffee/teaneither
sun/moonmon
day/nightnight
hot/coldhot
dog/catcat
button/zipperzipper
cotton/feather pillowcotton
blue/purpleboth
plumber/trashmantrashman
jeans/shortsjeans
long distance relationship/noneneither
mechanical/regular pencilmechanical
matt/ben...
that 70's show/simpsonssimpsons
kelso/ericeric
donna/jackiedonna
bart/lisaboth
romeo/julietneither
romantic comedy/thrillerthriller
nsync/bsbneither
peanut butter/jellyneither
waffles/pancakespancakes
letter/emailemail
florida/californianeither
pizza/burgerspizza
hat/visorneither
football/rugbyfootball
iceskating/bladingi cant do either
movie at home/in theaterdepends on who im with
first thing you think of when you hear
yellowsun
red lipstickmirror
socksfeet
cowtippinglol
moulin rougemovie
greenlandwho named it
icelandin the over there place of the world
harry pottergood books
redblood
blackberryeww
rosered...good movie
roostercock-a-doodle-doo
taxesdont want tehin
bill clintongo away
whipped creamYES!
george w. bushgo away
lollipopslick
dreamsdreamer
lovehate
guysgrr
south parkfunny
boy bandsmeh
pengiunsthe best ever
girlsyeah..so
thonghehe
deathcomes
spoonsthere is no spoon
junk mailmy mail
dairydary
pantiesbra
your father...
pizzayum
britney spearsgo aweay
vitaminc
are you
happysometimes
sady
religiousn
bitchyy
crazyy
messyy
mady
slackery
nerdy
bookwormy
jockn
preppyn
selfishy
givingy
obsessives
violents
calms
peacefuls
mellowy
eccentrics
caringy
untrustworthyn
loyaly
patrioticn
pervertedn
colorfuly
artistici guess
miscellanoues
what color is your jacketi wear sweatshirts
do you shaveyes
wherelegs, underarms..and..other girl places lol
what color is your razorpink
what size is your bedfull?
what color crayon would you beid be the box
what are the last four digits of you phone number7719
feelings on abortion6months is the cut off
how lond does it take you to showerfrom 5mins to 2hours
what does your screenname meanevilgirl28666-i have a shirt that says evil on it and when i went to sms the little kids would point n say "evil" 666...self explanitory n 28 is feb 28th
thoughts on blonde pop stars in generalDIE
who so you trust the most...
is cussing a necessity in lifeyeah
how about coffeeno
is the world screwedyeah
what something you cant live withoutinternet
what time did you fall asleepwhenever
know what 69 meansyeah
how about 143nope
can you live without a microwaveno
what do think about deathhappends
where and when do you want to be married...
do you want to drop out of schoolno
why is the sky bluecuz if it was green wed get it confused with the ground........actually the sky isnt blue..
what is a good trait about yourselfumm
what do you always think aboutwhat i want more than nething...
what is wrong with your schoola lot
what is right with your schoolnot a lot
how do you react to changeok i guess
do you talk to yourselfyeah
what is your opinion on lovewant it
can you afford to lose weightfuck yes
what color would you dye your hairredred
best thing anyones told you...
what is your reaction to someone telling you you're hotdening it
does being psycho appeal to youyeah
if you wrote a book, what would it be aboutdunno
what would you change your name to...
longest crush lasted how longgahh..
tme finished9:04

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Evilgirl28666

:: 2004 12 December :: 11.51am
:: Mood: jealous
:: Music: boxcarracer-there is

christmas
the only part about christmas i enjoy is decorating the house at about 11 pm at night by myself. it just is..i dunno
mom puts the lights up and i do the rest
there is one set of lights that u can press a button and they change the tempo of the blinking
its my favorite
this year we had to throw it away...i felt so..depressed all cry-y and ish
mom knew that its just something that i had to have..so at fucking 10pm we went to CVS n got lights
lol
i love my mom
yeah
jamie spiker came over friday night
it was funny
and his first time
we r supposed to hang out today too
i dunno
i dont really like getting high nemore
its just not...i dunno
its just not the same or like it used to be
gah..so yeah
bobby is online
im all staring at his name and ish
trying not to like him...failing grr
jon is like...not there nemore.
ill probably still like him but he was such a fucking faggot
talking about me to jamie
grr
n dave...i dunno lol
hes so...dave...at least i can like him in secret and peace
except kim flirts with him
YOU GOTA FUCKIN BF
gimmie a fucking chance...

hung out with gurney too
he is such a fucking hysterical person
n thats saying something
cuz everyone can make me laugh
u cant u got something wrong with u
but hes just so funny

yeah...i dont want to go to school tommorw
i want it to be christmas time except a year ago
before my life started changing
i usually save this for my newyears post
but im gonna start now
things that have changed since last year:
1. smoke a lot
2. made honor roll
3. started loosing myself more n more
4. met bobby, jon, and dave managed to push and be pushed away by each of them
5. not best friends with kim like i used to be
6. friends with danielle n jaycee lol lyl
7. not gotten a new hair style

my opinion of my life hasnt changed
im still waiting for love lol
still kills me eh
i wanna stop smoking
like i think that should be my goal in life right now
sucky goal right?
eh?
new years i wanna hangout with jon jaycee danielle and other guys that dont do drugs
but i doubt thats gonna happen
ill probably end up passing out in some random fuck's house
if i end up walking around by myself ill probably kill myself
happy new year
maybe ill jump off the bridge
...
sry for the manic depressive
better in this thing than my head

yeah

gahh i need something to do with my life
that isnt getting stoned every night
yay for ryming
fuck u my spelling

i kinda went backwards with the progress i was making with my life
if i was making progress at all

s-o-m-e-b-o-d-y
.s.a.v.e.m.e.

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eragedbluerat

:: 2004 6 December :: 11.47am
:: Mood: been better
:: Music: numb - linkin park

Junior #2
It happened again. Another one of us is goneone less student. One less friend. One less person in the halls. And one less person to smile for.
her name was Sam. She was a junior just like me. just like Ian. Sam and my friend, kellie, were walking at about 8. They were crossing the streer when a 19 year old kid came speeding around the corner. He tried to move out of the way but he still hit them. Kellie barely got hit but Sam was hit hard. She later went into a coma and had blood clots in her head. She would eventually suffer from major brain damage. This past friday her mother decided to take her daughter off life support. She was brething for a while on her own. But eventually on Saturday morning she died. So like i said, Junior # 2.
~BOYER

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Evilgirl28666

:: 2004 2 December :: 8.28am
:: Mood: fucking scared outta my mind

sitting here, in about 30mins gonna leave to go to the "special dentist" to get my fucking wizdom teeth pulled out. NOT FUN
god
i dont wanna go!
someone save me

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eragedbluerat

:: 2004 25 November :: 2.12pm
:: Mood: ahh i dont really know
:: Music: Until the Day I Die-SOTY

If you die right now you know that I'd die too
good song. I don't listen to it as much now. I think I'll be instituting a strong regiment of SOTY listening. Man have things NOT BEEN HAPPENING. I'm trying to go to the camp reunion. that aint gonna happen. Probably since i didnt go this year. but i'm still gonna try. I'll call or something. Now that i have a job and a steady income, i can afford it and pay for it myself. So thats one less thing my parents need to worry about. I went to get my driving permit validated. They wont let me. i have really bad vision in my left eye. So I gotta get a doctor to say that i can get my permit with glasses. GREAT. So now i'm just gonna get a surgery in february so i never have to worry about it again. I wear contacts and ish. But now i'll get surgery to straighten out my eye more so that i have better peripheral vision and hopefully better regular vision. Right now i have perfect heat and X-Ray vision. So i dont need to worry about that. the doc promises that won't be affected. We'll see (no pun intended). Alyson is home today. Well she's been home for a few days. SHe got tickets to a sonic session with Taking Back Suday. For those that don't know......A sonic session is basically a private, acoustic concert for less than 75 people, all set up by Y-100 (our local rock station) So this is pretty badass. Even though im not a big TBS fan. O well. PEACE
~BOYER

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Evilgirl28666

:: 2004 25 November :: 2.04pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: finger eleven- one thing

ive listened to this song like.....20mllion times
eh
poor turkeys


eh holidays rnt usually my happiest times
but hey
who cares
well i guess i do
but that doesnt matter
blah
cousins over
well 3 of em
got new shit though
which is nice
gonna go for a walk when it gets dark out
i think i need to start takin holiday walks by myself
ill start a tradition
eh
just for this year
but ill tell everyone that ive done it forever
cuz im cool like that
eh
maybe i wont
jaycee is all "worried" about me
i dont know if i can start hanging out with bobby again, even though i want to
mom just left a cheese thing...
im gonna go eat it

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Evilgirl28666

:: 2004 21 November :: 12.03am

and what if it doesnt
what if it doesnt come back...

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Evilgirl28666

:: 2004 20 November :: 5.11pm
:: Mood: shitty

god i just feel like shit right now
kim's all..."yeah me and dave have been talking about stuff lately. like if we would go out with each other if me and my bf broke up." i was like.....i dont wanna fucking hear this. god
n i just wanna fucking break down right now but my fucking mom n her stupid ass friend are over n i just wanna stoping thinking right now. n its really killing me
i wish it was august right now
i was so happy then
or i guess
i dunno
bobby was my friend n talking to me
dave would still be talking to me
im pretty sure me n jon hung out sometimes
god i hate everything
and i hate nothing
fuck!
i just need right now
i need so much
its fucking killing me
kim was my friend too
we just arent friends right now
im such a loner
n i have this goddam emptyness inside my stomache n my throat and its fucking killing me
i just wanna go out somewhere n smoke myself to death
i just hate living right now
i dont think ive ever enjoyed it
i hate feeling like shit
WHEN IS IT GONNA FUCKING END
god...if kim n dave went out i think id flip
just cuz shed end up hurting him in the end
god
i hate fucking living.......

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Evilgirl28666

:: 2004 15 November :: 8.44pm

someone tell me everything will be ok
someone tell me everything will be fine
cuz right now
im sitting on the edge

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