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2005 16 February :: 7.55 am
THIS IS NOT AN APPOLOGY TO ANYBODY BUT JESSICA AND TONY!!!! IT IS SIMPLY MY REGRETS.
Yesterday was....for lack of better words...eventful.Now, i have regrets and i figure "Hey, what better place to tell them then on the gossip and badmouth website we know and love as woohu" I think what i regret is....the fact that Jessica was so upste about the pictures. Granted, it was a little over-reactive seeing as how Mindy made it clear that she could easily make copies, but again, Jessica, im sorry for getting you involves at all. But, it seems like sometimes when you have certain friends, you get involved and hurt in things you dont need to be, and thats the way life is. If i would have known, jessica, that you would have gotten so hurt over the pictures, i wouldnt have done anything to them at all. I also regret not handling things in a more mature way. Now, this is in no way an appology to Mindy or Chelsea or Sonia, but i regret that i didnt just do what i wanted to and kick your ass. Sonia almost got it, and both Sonia and i can thank mrs warwick for, one, saving me from getting expelled, and two, saving sonia from a sore face. (Not trying to make myself seem all bad -assish, but ill tell you, i was pissed) And i guess i regret not making my feelings clear to the people i insulted. You would think that all of us, including me, would be above calling names and making fun of people, seeing as how we are all going to be out in the real world soon (and for some, it may be a hard truth to find out that the real world wont be solved by woohu bashes) Insted of commenting on mindy's horse face or whatever else i said, i should have just come out with the truth. So..........
Mindy, as much as it seemed like we were "buddy buddy" or whatever....i cant remember a time where i ever truly liked you. (Again people, remember this isnt me bashing her, this is me explaining my feelings) Since 8th grade i have alway had some un-known hatred against you. And you were always seeming to be trying to be better than me. ANyways, i suppose that hatred continued on all throughout highschool. And, going back to the one time i spent the night...im not sure if you know anything thats going on with Andrea and i, im sure alot of people dont, but because of whats going on with her and i, i felt like i needed some friends to hang out with, and it just so happened that my friends were at your house...so i wanted to go too. And the time we went bowling...i told you on the phone that i didnt want to go. But you told me that Eddy was dumping Justin, so i wanted to go there and talk to her about it and make sure she wasnt making a mistake. I guess the thing i am super pissed about is that, as bad of a person that i thought you were....i didnt think you would stoop down so low as to blackmail me and threaten to break up my boyfriend and i because of a mistake i made almost 8 months ago. So i guess, now that things are clearer....you can go on knowing that i didnt just start hating you sometime throughout our friendship, because i never truley considered you to be one of my frineds.
Also, i dont remember if i bashed on Chelsea at all....but if i did..AGAIN, i should have just made my feelings clear. Now...
Chelsea, you are the complete opposite of Mindy (as far as my feelings for you go) Sure, you and i had our little fights, but what friends dont? You and i were always friends. In fact, we used to make fun of Mindy together. But then, it seems like ever since my mom took me out of my dad's house (with influence of him kicking me out) you seem to have this massive grudge against me, and you've turned on me. Now, i know that you and mindy were conspiring behind my back. i know that plan. and thats what im mad at you about. You were going to pull that elementary school prank of 'pretending to be my friend and pretending to hate mindy so that you could get me to say bad things about her and then you could go back and tell her what i said.' also, you did it to see if i wrote the stuff that was in the bathroom. Ok,from what i, and everyone knows, and can figure out, it was in the boys bathroom....and as much as you guys want to joke around and say im a man.....really, im not...i promise. So no, i didnt do it. there's your answer you can tell mindy. Now you dont have to pretend to be my friend and "get the dirt"
I guess theres not much more to say.....except to make a comment about Eddy.
Eddy, thanks for always being there for me, and for being the one person who, surprisingly, i can trust (i say surprisinly because there arent many people i can trust in this school) Im glad that i can at least depend on you to not turn your back on me, and to always be there for me when i need you. I love ya buddy.
AND..... i want to quick appologize to Tony....for ever doing something that i knew would hurt you and something i knew would cause us these kind of problems. I hope someday you can completly forgive me. And you know that with all the mistakes i've made that i do love you, although at....certain times...it seemed like i didnt. We al make mistakes. We are all guilty of them. But our life will go on together and we will be happy. Im sorry for bringing you into this at all. I love you.
And thats the end. This wasnt an appology to anybody except tony and jessica. so stop thinking that...................(im so proud of myself for actually getting on woohu without making fun of anybody)
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