two songs by Bright Eyes..read..please..

Bright Eyes - Don't know when.. [Lyrics: Click + to display]

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Is it true what I heard about the Son of God Did he come to save, did he come at all And if I dried his feet With my dirty hair Would he make me clean again They say they don't know when but a day is gonna come When there won't be a moon and there won't be a sun It will just go black It will just go back To the way it was before I knew a lovely girl with such pretty pride And every man wanted her and so did I And so did I But she up and died In a fit of vanity Now men with purple hearts carry silver guns And they will kill a man for what his father has done But what my father did You know it don't mean shit I'm not him So you think I need some discipline well I've had my share I have been sent to my room, I've been sat in a chair And I held my tongue I didn't plug my ears No I got a good talking to Now I don’t know why but I still try to smile When they talk at me like I’m just a child Well I’m not a child No I am Much younger than that And now I have read some books and I have grown quite brave If I could just speak up I think I would say That there is no truth There is only you And what you make the truth So I will just sing my songs and I'll pass a hat Then I'll leave your town and I'll never look back No I don't look back Because the road is clear Layed out ahead of me I'll get home and meet my friends at our favorite bar We'll get some lighter heads for our heavy hearts And we will share a drink Yeah we'll share our fears And they will know how I love them They will know how I love They will know how I love them I am nothing without their love Now I don't know when but a day is gonna come When there won't be a moon and there won't be a sun It will all go black It will all go back To the way it is supposed to be Is it true what they say about the Son of God Did he die for us, did he die at all And if I sold my soul For a bag of gold To you which one of us would be the foolish one Which one if us would be the fool Which one if us would be the fool Which one if us would be the fool Could you please start explaining You know I need some understanding I could do with some exaplaining You know I want to understand

Bright Eyes - Lover I don't have to Love [Lyrics: Click + to display]

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I picked you out Of a crowd and talked to you. Said I liked your shoes, You said, "Thanks, Can I follow you?" So it's up the stairs, And out of view. No prying eyes. I poured some wine. I asked your name; You asked the time. Now it's two o'clock. The club is closed, We are up the block. Your hands are on me, Pressing hard against your jeans, Your tongue in my mouth, Trying to keep the words from coming out, You didn't care to know Who else may have been you before. I want a lover I don't have to love, I want a girl who's too sad to give a fuck. Where's the kid with the chemicals? I thought he said to meet him here, But I'm not sure. I've got the money If you've got the time. He said, "It feels good." I said "I'll give it a try." Then my mind went dark, We both forgot where your car was parked. Let's just take the train. I'll meet up with the band in the morning Bad actors, with bad habits... Some sad singers, they just play tragic. And the phone is ringing, And the van is leaving Let's just keep touching, Let's just keep...keep singing I want a lover I don't have to love, I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk. Where's the kid with the chemicals? I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full. I need some meaning I can memorize. The kind I have always seems to slip my mind. But you, but you... You write such pretty words, But life's no storybook. Love's an excuse to get hurt. And to hurt. Do you like to hurt? I do, I do. Then hurt me, Then hurt me, Then hurt me...

well. i would much rather be back to my dull life. atleaste there wasnt any homework. school sucks.

i have a goal in life now:
to find every Bright Eyes cd and buy it.

yeah.

too early for an entry.
i am so sick of people complaining about not having a boyfriend/girlfriend. if you are so fucking dependent on someone else to make you happy you are pitiful.

so if you are going to complain to me about being alone. dont.

or

if you are going to complain to me about who you are dating. dont.

have i mentioned to fuck off?
yeah. rant is finished. *smiles*

i got my hair cut. too short. i dont like it much. *shrugs* its just hair, it'll grow back.

I've swallowed nails so i can never say your name..now words are heard through my eyes-A Static Lullaby/Love to Hate, Hate to Me

im bored. and yeah.
d o y o u
HAVE A BAD HABIT? swearing, not applying myself, saying girls are hot, drawing bunnies, pie.
LIKE TO DRIVE?: im scared to drive. sad huh?

f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: i dont watch tv much. i guess that 70s show
CONDITIONER: *points*
BOOK: The Perks of being a Wallflower
MAGAZINE: AP
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: water
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: your mom. oh and bunnies.

h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: a few times.
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: nope
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: mmmaybe
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: yes, many.
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: yup
USED YOUR PARENTS CREDIT CARD: yes
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: oh yes.
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: i dont think so, how could you fall asleep in the shower? *wonders* thatd be awfully interesting.
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: no. they cry. i watch..try not to laugh.

l o v e
BOYFRIEND: no
GIRLFRIEND: hell yes!
CHILDREN: of course!
CURRENT CRUSH: psshh..like i would tell you.
BEEN IN LOVE?: maybe.
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: sure
BEEN HURT?: when i cut off my hand. it hurt a little, not too bad.
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: umm.. you.
GONE OUT WITH SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: no

r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: i wish
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: pink floyd
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: green
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: music
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: dead sexy men, who let me touch them.
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: The Vines
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: i would list people. but, i dont want to offend others.
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: your mom.

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
THING YOU PURCHASED: cd
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: i dont recall.
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: lotr ; rotk

at the end of this survey all i was thinking was..why were the questions in caps.

new years was alright. consisted of playing halo. me losing. watching the fucking ball drop. playing halo. me losing.

now im home. yup. happy fucking new year.

(there goes my new years resolution...it was cutting down on swearing..)
*shrugs*

hey anonymous fuck..my name is spelled 'stacy' not 'stacey'
all anonymous comments will be deleted. if you don't have enough guts to leave your name you are not worth my time.

yeah. thats all.

"can i touch it??"
i refuse to grow up. im gonna be immature until im 40.

I copied kate. again. *snickers*
I deleted the ones you know and the wigger words.
skip over it if you wish.
* sibling(s): 2 brothers
* school's rival: Rockford? i guess.
* your rival: a lot of people.
// the look
* hair: naturally brown, dyed black
* eyes: blue/green/grey
* height: around 5'2
* bra size: um...next question please.
* curly or straight: straight
* people you look like: kate shelton (so many have said) *glances at kate and smiles* hehe.
// favorites
* day: Saturday
* colors: black and green (not bright green)
* ice cream: chocolate!
* food: popcorn..mmm.
* nintendo system: *shrugs*
* movies: Monty Python and the Holy Grail and any Adam Sandler movies
* band: Taking Back Sunday
* song: Cute without the E (cut from the team)-TBS
* names for girls: not sure
* names for boys: Marty, Adam and Landon
// least favorites
* day: Monday
* colors: yellow
* ice cream: Butterscotch or vanilla
* food: any vegetables
* nintendo system: *shrugs*
* movies: christmas ones
* band: Simple Plan, GC, and any pop, country or rap "bands"
* song: that fucking milkshake song!!
* names for girls: any over used names.
* names for boys: Bob, Bill, Dick, Fred, George
// currents
* clothes: vans warped tour shirt and hoodie
* hair: down
* jewelry:none
* socks: tube socks
* make up: eyeliner, mascara
* belt: tbs one
* music: The Clash
* smell: uhh..i dont know
// have you ever...
* bungee jumped: nope
* lost someone you loved: yes
* kissed someone: yup
* had sex: oh yeah! all the time, ha. j/k no.
* broken a bone: no
* traveled far away from home: yes, all the way to grand rapids!
* done something you regret severely: only about a million times.
* cut yourself: yes, this one time i cut my hand off. there was a lot of blood. but it grew back.
* not eaten for a long period of time: yeah
* smoked: no.
// finish these lyrics to see how much you know
* unbreak my: heart?
* bring me to: your leader!
* somewhere i: belong
* sometimes i feel ive got to: uhhh
* you were my strength when i was: weak
* and you kissed me like you: meant it.
* my milkshake brings all the boys to the: yard?
* im sorry i cant be: perfect
* hold on if you feel like: letting go
* ive become so: uhh
* baby boy you stay on my: uhh
* nuttin chillin at the holiday: Inn
// say what first comes to mind
* apple: mmm
* blood: red
* love: music
* computer: fast
* nintendo: game
* nintendo game: donkey kong
* actor: Johnny Depp
* hot dude: Kelso
// tell me your opinion about...
* your school: sucks.
* your home: boring
* your computer: great!
* your lover: where?
* your christmas: pretty good
* your hair: boring. needs something new.
* your parents: dad is stupid. mom can be ok sometimes, like when she buys me stuff.
* your sibling(s): there alright. cept for that dustin kid. *snickers*
* your neighbors: they are all stupid fucks. like that kevin character. *snickers again*
* your relatives: i hate most of them.
* your name: could be worse.

..yeah. i was bored, leave me alone.

but.

this is hell.

think about it.

this world is so sad. why? because of people. yes there are some good people. a very very small amount. the rest are bastards. oh how i wish i could live somewhere else. cedar is such a poor excuse of a town. and the people that are in it are even worse.

now that i can see you, i dont think you're worth a second glance-Dashboard Confessional/Rapid Hope Loss

whiiiitee rrriiooottt!
christmas was good. i got some cool stuff. favorite thing would have to be the 2 disc set of The Clash with 40 songs (2 hours of music) *smiles*

ok. enough of that. im gonna get going. later kids.

life is dull. i need something implausible to transpire.

proof that shannon is a complete dumbass

Shannon: so cj told me u miss me?
stacy: umm no. i dont recall ever saying that.
Shannon:: good.
well i miss u
stacy: i dont care
Shannon: ok i never said u did care
Shannon: dont get all pissy with me then
stacy: am i getting pissy with you?
stacy: i didnt think i was.
Shannon: not now damn. calm down
stacy: wow. im not even upset.
Shannon: omg i never said u were upset
Shannon: i dont care what the fuck u r. i fuckin try to be nice, and so what i fuckin called u immature? omg its the end of the world
stacy: dude. im not even mad. your the one all freaking out.
Shannon: im not freaking out at all cuz i dont care
stacy: alright
Shannon: i dont care that u take things to far. but hey so much for being sisters huh?
stacy: guess so
Shannon: ight then

ok so yeah..shes stupid. and sisters? wtf does that mean?

anyways.

today was good..."pants and feet..thats all you need to know." hehe. yeah.

round and round and round to only come back again.
do you ever want to just stab someone in the eye with a fork?

i hate when parents talk about you, right in front of you. like they know you hear them but they pretend you cant. rawr.

break is boring as fuck.

you make my heart beat faster.
break has been alright. very boring. i saw lord of the rings yesterday with some friends. it was good. they could have ended the movie an hour earlier though. i thought it was gonna end like 19 different times. well today i guess i get to show my mom more stuff to buy me for christmas. should be fun. im gonna go, later kids.

Pale angel, go away..
come again some other day.
Devil has my ear today..
I'll never hear of what you say-A Perfect Circle/Weak and Powerless

im bored. like a lot
i have a ready response to the next person who calls me immature...im gonna..
stick out my tounge and say "i know you are but what am i?"

is calling me immature supposed to hurt me in some way? i know i am immature. am i supposed to take it as a insult? i take it as neither a insult nor a compliment. i take it as a fact. yup.

so i was skimming through my agenda..and i see this quote..Enjoy your ice cream while it's on your plate-Thorton Wilder

ok..Thorton Wilder...your a dumbass. people dont eat ice cream on plates. *shakes head*

i dont know. i didnt think giving up would be this easy.

all i know is..

i quit.

list (continued)
I had to finish my list..this time i really am done. skip over it again if youd like.

-I hate selfish people.
-I hate when guys flirt with other girls when they have a girlfriend.
-I love music more than anything, I really do believe i would die without it.
-I am scared of rollercoasters
-yes, i listen to Avril Lavigne and i like most of her lyrics.
-I do not think i dress different, but I am different.
-I have only dated 3 people. and only one of the relationships were serious.
-i am comfortable with who i am as in my personality, but would still like to change how i look.
-I get crushes on guys very easily.
-I think some girls are hot. and i am not a lesbian or bi.
-I think Tom Delonge is the sexiest man alive.
-I am too mean.
-I use the word gay too much.
-I read everything i write atleaste twice.
-My friends are the 2nd most important thing in my life (music is first as wrong as that may be)
-I want my lip pierced.
-Eventually i want my left arm sleeved with tatoos.
-My favorite band used to be be Good Charlotte. I have found much better music, but their still alright in my book.
-I currently have a crush on like 7 guys.
-I listen to Tool every morning.
-greenday makes me happy.
-I hate when people always mention who they are in love with. its annoying.
-When it comes down to it i am extremely perverted.
-James is the smartest kid i know.
-I have never taken a pill in my life.
-Im done with this list. I feel like a bitch for talking about myself this long.

..and cool kids, they belong...together-The Yeah Yeah Yeahs/Modern Romance

I copied Kate..cuz i thought it was interesting..skip over it if you wish.

Things about me you may not know

-i like to hang out with guys rather than girls.
-i really do love my mom even though i say i hate her a lot.
-i really do hate my dad.
-i have a step brother.
-when i know the answer to a question i dont answer it because i think it will be wrong.
-i dont tell a guy if i have feelings for them, unless they tell me first (if i feel the same).
-i hate my hair.
-i trust guys easier than girls.
-i have never done any drugs. and i dont plan on it.
-some of the people i hug everyday i cant stand.
-i used to lie about everything. not sure why. i dont anymore.
-i hate when people on chat say "fine..dont say hi"
-i hate when people say "sounds like a personal problem"
- i hate sitting in the front of the class. (like in second hour)
-i fall asleep a lot in class.
-i constantly need to know what time it is.
-in my head i schedule my day before and after school. (example: when i will do my homework, and what i will do first) its crazy.
-i am extremely organized.
-i write poems and songs daily. most of them suck.
-i keep a lot of things to myself.
-i dont have one person i tell everything to.
-i cant concentrate in classes if i have good friends in that class.
-if i tried, i could understand math.
-i have a lot of maturing to do. but i dont want to.
-once someone lies to me i have a hard time talking to them again.
-i dont trust anyone completely.
-i love darkness.
-i take a shower everyday because i like the smell of my soap. *laughs
-i havent played my guitar in weeks. due to frustration.
-i love to wrestle with my friends. even though im weak. its just fun.
-if i dont hug people or dont get hugs at school its a bad day.
-i wake up throughout the night. all the time. i have to lay in bed for an hour before i fall asleep.
-i keep every cd i have ever received or bought.
-i own 132 cds that i actually listen to. i have about 30 or more i dont listen to.
-while chatting on messenger i forget im talking to people and just stop.
-i havent watched tv in weeks.
-i like having posters all over my walls.
-i have to straighten my hair, its naturally curly.
-i want to learn how to skateboard.
-i am unsure of my religion and beliefs.
-i love acoustic songs.
-i listen to music everyday. for atleaste 3 hours.
-i spend way too much time on the internet.
-last week on friday i was online for 12 hours straight.
-i have 2 smog journals and 4 woohu journals.
-i like blue jeans. but they shrink up or dont look right. so most of the pants i wear are black.
-people sing the song "stacys mom" by fountains of wayne to me atleaste once a day. i hate it.
-i get weak in the knees when a singer screams (a good scream, example: the used, or tbs scream).
-i eat chocolate chips out of the bag.
-i hate the crust on bread.
-in the morning i usually dont know what shirt i put on..i just throw a hoodie on.
-i hate when shirts dont fit me anymore. like my system of a down shirt *frowns
-i like when the bottom of my pants are ripped.
-i hate to tie my shoes.
-i hate talking on the phone.
-i like when guys hair is messy and hangs in their face.
-i dont get scared easily.
-i like to break rules.
-i say fuck all the time.
-i have tried to stop swearing. i cant.
-i think its sexy when guys wear pink. and if they wear colorful bracelets.
-i love to watch guys play guitar.
-i can ride in a car for hours if i have a cd player and my cds.
-i only drink water and chocolate milk.
--i have a lot more to write but my hands hurt. and you pry dont care.

..i hope others do this so i can learn about them. ;)

Leaves me cracked and empty. Drags me down like some sweet gravity.
well. today turned out alright. i ended up going to brads to hang out with all the guys..i was the only girl, hah. im used to that though. it was entertaining watching them play Halo and hear their random, rather amusing comments.

now im home. burning cds. im so dead tired, so i guess im gonna get some sleep. night kids.

he had a lot to say. he had a lot of nothing to say. we'll miss him.
christmas cards suck. theres no money. and there always about joy..happiness..bla bla.

its fucking cold.

i might hang out with some people tomorrow after school. if i do mom will kill me. she said i couldnt. *shrugs*

i better get going...yeah.

in 5th hour i look over and see mitch drawing a horse hanging from a rope.
things that annoyed me today
1. Norm Cole saying "b e a utiful".
2. Norm in general.
3. Algebra.
4. people being annoying as hell, when they know im pissed off.
5. the girls in 6th hour.
6. learning how to judge a cow..than watching a video about it.

yeah. today was alright, coulda been better. i have loads of homework, so i better get started on that..yeeaahh.

i know i died that night and I'll never be brought back to life..once again i know.
so i was thinking..whats the point of my journal? or any one elses for that matter?
if you write about how your feeling and what your confused about, etc. people think your trying to get attention.
if you write about what you did that day/weekend whatever it bores people.
if you write something about a person it starts a huge fight.
if you write something funny..usually only you think its funny.
if you talk about something your having trouble with people say your complaining.

yeah..i guess im lost as to what i should ever write about. *shivers* its cold.

this conversation is just so...true.
Ben says:
your my hero.
you know why your my hero stacy?
because if there was a company who made somethin that made millions of people happy and really helped out you would find some way to shut it down and stop the making of that product for good.
Stacy says:
*laughs
Ben says:
i can see you now..
a doctors like i've found the cure for aids and you kill him and burn his research.