I wanted to believe in all the words I was speaking, as we moved together in the dark.
And all the friends that I was telling.
And all the playful misspellings.
And every bite I gave you left a mark.
Tiny vessels oozed into your neck,
and formed the bruises that you said you didn't want to fade, but they did, and so did I, that day.
She knows I like him so very much, and what does she do? She asks him on a date one day before I planned. She does not even like him. Shes never even shown the slightest interest untill she found out I like him. Who does that? Honestly. I really might punch her in the face. But for sure im telling her what I think of her when I see her next.
So finally we have 2 running vehicles again.
I am waiting for my student id number so I can register for summer classes.
I just finished cleaning, but I still have some more to do..
But I am running out of ambition.
I like Kyle, and I guess I will find out this weekend what he thinks about that. He cant be totally disinterested, he sits and talks to me at rehearsal every night.
And what’s up with my roommate? He sometimes makes things awkward for me. Hmm.
Now I just wait for an answer and the days to pass..
As well as my student ID for MCC so I can register for classes.
Not to mention take the placement test.
They set me up with a time, but I can't do it at that time because I have this thing called work that I must attend so I can bring home a small paycheck at the end of the week! Yippy.
Today is the last fast food meal for what I wish would be the rest of my life... and being that i"ve eliminated pot already I decided to make a list of other things to get rid.
things left to eliminate:
-Pop
-Hamburger Helper
-not excercising
-hatred
-lists
oh right, why I would say that.
Well I kind of went on a cleaning spree, and cleaned everything.
::
2008 22 March :: 10.19pm
:: Music: Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love
I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
I seriously love that song.
Everytime I heard it on the radio, I'd never catch the name of who sings it.
Finally tonight I withdrew from my laziness and found out.
So now I just sit here trying to prepare for tomorrow.
I have some cleaning left to do.
Inside I have a lot to say.
However, I don't feel that this is the place or the time to share any of it..
I had a dream last night that me, Chiwetel Ejiofor, and Sam Jackson were in New York stealing cars. We had to run away from a helicopter and two cops but Chiwetel made the chopper crash into the other cars. Then we had to hide out in a rusty building in Central Park "so the heat seeking bastards" wouldn't get us. I'm pretty sure they'd still see us, but it was my dream, so back off.
ahhh success. I've never been so lively after a night like that but something in me clicked and it took about two seconds from when I opened my eyes to get up and moving. Now I have this whole day ahead of me.
Gotta take the good with the bad..
I got a new phone yesterday.
I hate it. It doesn't do what I want it to do.
So I am going to have them order me the one I really truly want, that they don't carry.
We are getting a new couch today.
Can't get much better than free!
It's in great shape, and its extremely comfortable.
Shannon got laid off yesterday.
Martin told her that she had the "Rachel thing going on".
I laughed.
I filled out an application for admissions at MCC.
I got to the section where I have to fill out what program I want...
And I stopped.
Thought I knew, but now I changed my mind, again.
So... I'm doing my usual re-hash the past thing. Whatev. The point is that between last night and now I've been scanning some of the old songs that I used to listen to alot. We're talking my freshmen/sophmore year. This has been a couple week process but I"m not making a list so I can look at it later when I forget about these songs again, plus maybe you'll see something you remember from way back when and we can have a moment... together!
List of Songs:
Weezer - Say it ain't so ( I thank stewart for this song which started this journey), El Schorcho, Sweater Song, Buddy Holly, etc. It's weezer, just about every song is a "bring back good times" song.
Lost Prophets - Shinobi v. The dragon ninja/ Fake Sound of Progress. Dusty and I used to crank this song alot.
The Get Up Kids - I'll catch you/ Holiday. I totally forgot about this band. summer of 8th grade man... god damn I'm old.
All-American Rejects - Last Song. Wasn't always their biggest fan but I loved this song.
That fucker Chris Carraba - Living in your letters/ Bitter Pill. I know... I know... But there was a time, even if he is a narcassistic asshole who wines till he gets his way. Plus I'd be lying if I said I didn't still like the bitter pill song. I think it's the progression that gets me. Maybe I'm gay, who cares...
311 - Well, you know, just about every song, but if I had to be specific I'd say All Mixed Up/Confusing Use of Time/Purpose. Confusing Use of Time was a song that reminds me of Ski Club, those were the best of times.
Incubus - Anti-Gravity Love Song/ Here in my Room. I still listen to these, of course. But based on the whole vibe I have going, the songs are transcending their usual sounds and providing me with some good emotions. Summer Romance is a dusty standard from a LONG time ago, and here in my room will always be me and Chris, that fag. I love you.
Brand New - I still hate them. Gotcha bitches! And don't you forget it future Kevin. Classic me, really.
Thursday - How Long is the Night. Hilary turned me onto them, and I still like them like I like TBS. Not really fond of their newer stuff though.
Bad Ronald - Let's Begin (Shoot the Shit). Dude... how did I not know what this song was about? I guess I was 15.
311 - Tribute - I know I said 311 already... but I totally fucking forgot about this song, and I was borderline stalker obsessed with this one.
Blink182 - Party Song/Josie. Dusty made his TV pro video to Josie and we did a bunch of "jackass" stuff., and the other one is just fun.I refuse to put any other songs up there, because they hold no super significance to me other than the ones I may have attempted to play in a band.
Rival Schools - My Echo. Another one hilary turned me on to. Good times, you should look it up. here I'll do it for you. http://www.last.fm/music/Rival+Schools/_/My+Echo
FenixTX - Threesome. Lol. I know, I forgot about it too! If I were any older when this song came out it would have been my mantra. Because you both deserve a good time, and any position ;).
Silverchair - The Greatest View/ Emotion Sickness/ Ana's Song / Hell pretty much the entire "Neon Ballroom" album and then some. Probably who I view as one of the most underrated bands ever. THey had hit's sure, but Neon Ballroom is timeless and is some of the most Musically competent "alternative" music ever. Go Aussies.
The Vines - I'm only Sleeping (Cover). I thought it was well done to their style, plus I loved the vines, and God Knows I HATED the Hives... I dont' remember why though. I think it was a song they did I just thought was obnoxious. Who cares...
Taking Back Sunday - Ghost Man on third/ There's no "I" in team/ that whole first album. Very few people I know weren't into them at some point. I did my TV Pro video to Ghost Man, and it came out alright. Remember the Trilogy.
Something Corporate - If you C jordan/ 21 and Invincible. C'mon, we all know if you C jordan. and here I am now, 21 and Invincible.*tear* /wrist
Glassjaw - Worship and Tribute - Thanks Chuck for that one.
Saves the Day - At your funeral/ She
I'm sure there's more, but that's enough for now. Instead of dwelling any further I'm moving towards the future. If there is, however, any songs that you remember that I have not listed that you tie someway to me and you know I'd remember, let me know.
Its weird how Styx songs can put me in an amazingly good mood.
They also give me ambition.
All time favorite Styx song is Lorelei.
So we haven't received mail in almost 2 weeks.
Not cool.
I work in a shit hole.
The lady told me it was the cleanest factory she had ever been in..
hahaha whatever.
I come home with burns on my arms from the press and from the sand paper rubbing against my arm as i try to roll it through onto the arm of the press.
I make a lousy $7.50 an hour.
Lori is in Cancun right now where it's warm and she's getting a tan..
Bitch.
Man I could go for some taco bell... again..
Shannon brought me some when she came over today!
