Ramblings

Ramblings

:: 2003 18 June :: 8.29pm
:: Mood: numb
:: Music: junk on my computer

ummmm
Ow sunburn hurst but that's not really what I want ot talk about.

OK so mg missed my presentation TWICE! Once when he was supposed ot give me critisim, and his excuse wasn't really lame but you know it was that he 'had to talk to mm'. I mean it wasn't too bad because he had what at least what he thought was a 'good' reason. And I did get critisim but it would have been useful to hear his point of veiw. Then the culminating activity day right before my presentation he called out the first group to grade their papers and he never even came fully into the room ONCE! I really hope that they got my presentation on video so that he can watch it. I know for a fact that he popped in and out for other people's presentations while there were people grading papers. Why not during mine? Gaaa. Liz suggested that it is part of a conspirecy. An evil plot to take over the goverment. I'm curious how i would fit in with that but ok. Sound good to me.

Yesterday we(jazz band, wind ensamble, and select chorus) went to hershey park. YAAAA!! Only bad thing was k wasn't there. Another thing that i'm not too happy about is that someone grabbed my butt while we were in line at wendy's. I know it was someone from a band. And it was either some guy or one of these two girls and at this point i'm hoping it was the guy. Not much else to say except for some rants but i'm too lazy to write them right now.

STUPID STORY!!! it's 7 pages and I am jsut about to introduce the plot. gaaa

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kiwi	:: 2003 15 June :: 8.48pm I would rant but i ahve no time. Tune in next time for an actual rant! reflect

kiwi

:: 2003 24 May :: 5.17pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: Tracy Chapman

challenge
Did i talk about his? do i really care if i have? hehe ok so well i'm not in challenge class. Mg thinks i should be, i think i should be (like anybody cares what i think). And a while back my mom called mm and asked about me getting tested. and he told her i didn't get tested the first time because theyonly tested people with a 97% or better in LA on the terra novas. I HAD GOTTEN A 96!!!! And he acts like that was the only test i had taken! I also took the SATs and got a 610! the about 82% of COLLEGE bound SENIORS!!!!! And i'm in 7th grade!!!!! And i got a 99% on the IQ test!!!!! GAAA!!!! But no they won't test me unless i get a 97% on the terra novas this year! And i had already taken them. Humph i hope i get a 97 or above on terra novas. I'm sure i ahve before i think i got a 98 in 5th grade so why am i not in challenge? I don't know. humph. gosh and this makes me lose like TOTAL faith in my school. i mean really, first the field trips, then DI, then the field trips, and now this!!!!!! GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. And i mean it's not even like the terra novas is an important test! There are two more important test that say i'm smart but they only listen to the terra novas. And i do well in class. MG knows i'm smart and i'm what i really think is the dumbest class, and he even called my class immature. I'd heard before he hated my class, and i knew it then too even though he hadn't said anything. I wonder if anybody in my class knew he hated the class before yesterday when he told us. You know it seems unfair to have two smart kids in one of the dumbest classes because we don't really learn much new stuff. MG tries but it seems hard for him because if the other kids don't get it we can't go on.
You know sometimes i feel like in class when we get in groups i'm clumped with the dumb people because i'm different, i don't really like the popular people, i like some of them but all of them in a group... no. So i get clumped with the dumber people and i don't know. Maybe they aren't dumb, but sometimes they sure act like it. I really shouldn't call them the dumb people because the pops are also dumb. But since i'm different i don't really fit in in too many places. I'm not the the other smart people, alot of whom have recently become popular. i don't know. I don't really feel i fit in with my friends sometimes. Because they laugh at some really dumb things, curse alot and are always complaining about getting bad grades. While there at the table is me, reading, being quiet, not cursing, not finding things funny, gliding with good grades. The friend who i REALLY connected with was k. But she moved. Now i feel like there isn't much funny stuff because now most of the comedy comes from p. And i really don't like him. It's not like how i dislike a, but it's jsut i really can't tolerate him. And it really makes no sense why he sits with us. I think the only reason he doesn is because he's dating kk.
I got this really cool notepaper that says 'more stuff to put off' hehe i'm using it now.
Writing a story for a teacher. What to write about. Him? or something else? ohoh i could write were we all get tranported back to ancient greece. hehe. That would be funny. And would include him in a toga!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok well i got to work maybe i'll rant later too.

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kiwi

:: 2003 22 May :: 11.07pm
:: Mood: blank

i don't know
i don't really know... well mg keeps being absent and i'm sure it's not because he's sick. And i've had... two dreams about him this week and one the week before but i'll spare you the pain.
I don't know me and a seem to be more different everyday. Maybe she's just stressed... maybe i am. I hope we stay friends.
Gaa too much work. Pah people they are. And track and field was fun it ended today. Only 10 days, 3 or 4 of which i missed. Oh well. hmmm.
I ahve to go to sleep good night.

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kiwi

:: 2003 3 May :: 6.38pm
:: Mood: chipper

NEWSFLASH!!!!
OK i have a NEWSFLASH!!!(which i forgot to give yesterday) I'm no longer the only one mg locked the door on. But when he locked the door this time it was on two annoying people so i guess i'm more annoying then those two put together. hehe. This has been a newsflash from kiwi. Now i must go and practice french horn more, practice piano, and maybe jump rope. hehehe

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kiwi

:: 2003 2 May :: 11.06pm
:: Mood: accomplished

Hmm
OK well i'm happy for a couple of reasons. I'm not mad at mg. I did good on my science report and mg didn't seem to diagree with anything while looking over my rough draft and kept reading it for a while(which is sorta a mixed blessing), the field trips are back on, and i think i might do pretty well in this marking period, oh yeah and mm is back!!! Hehe and we had a party thursday to celebrate. I'm unhappy because they reinstated field trips but after they canceled them so we didn't get to go to the DI comp., and... and... well i don't know probably katherine's gone. Other random things. Mg came into our math class today and said 'can i use your mirror' to df. She says yes, he opens the cabinet door(which is not quiet), opens his pomade or hair gel or whatever, SMELLS IT, puts his fingers in, and runs his hands through his hair. Then he says to one kid he would like it if they would fix their hair and starts coming over with some pomade or whatever still on his hands and after one kid says something promptely leaves. Ok and through out the school year his hair has annoyed me and i've wished to run a comb through it (which may not be possibly) but know i learn the hair that looks messy and annoys me it is what he TRIES to make it look like. Geesh. Then in LA someone mentions something about it and they say 'why don't you have a mirror in your classroom' he says because he is not vain? Oh come on he says he's not vain but he comes in to your math class while we are taking a quiz disrupts our quiz taking to DO HIS HAIR! how is that not vain then he says if he was vain he would carry around a razor. And throughout the time he is saying this he looks at me like 'you are the only one sane/smart enough to get me, this kids are stupid' or 'gosh this is a stupid comment/question'. And i mean what he knows by those looks but really i'm like staring at him like 'you can't be serious' the whole time. Yeah and i like mf, he's cool, nice to just talk to instead of actually doing pyshical activiy we signed up for. So yeah we were tired of doing shotput in track and field so we sat down in the grass and talked the rest of the time. He's cool sometimes. But sometimes i know what mg means when he says he bables and you want to stuff gum in his mouth. hehe Di was fun i learned many things from mg about mf. hehehe. And some fun things i could use for blackmail. But it would never work on this journal because i would need to use their names.

yeah so i really should practice french horn so we can go to hersey. Oh yeah katherine. They day we are playing will be the 17th of June and the park will be open so if your parents let you skip school that day please COME!!!! And i should practice so we can go to teen arts. ow my wrist hurts. and i should do my works cited and the outline and cover page for my paper for critique but i'll probably just do the works cited. and i need to find a picture of a crossbow and alanna's sword after she mergered the two(from tamora pierce's books), and talk to katherine, and talk to liz, and finish the poke wars, and work on websites, and wokr on my project but that would be it! Hehehe. I have to go to sleep. But first! Tea and reading!

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kiwi

:: 2003 30 April :: 10.00pm
:: Mood: sore

MG
You knwo i'm like so easily swayed to like or dislike someone. Of course it's easier for me to decide to dislike someone. And once i dislike someone unless i liked them before it is hard to like them. Yeah so i'm not mad at mg anymore. He's cool he gave me too as on my cards and an A- on my thesis statement. So he's cool. hehe. that was way too easy for him to sway me. I should be like a rock. Firm in my desicion to dislike him.

Did you know he hates our class? And i don't think it's because of our personalites or anything but that alot of the people are irresponsible. I mean really 3 people forgot their notecards in one other class TEN! forgot them in my class(i remembered mine) Like 5 or 6 people remembered to get their thesis statements yesterday(hehe me included). And he's like cool with me because he knows i'm responsible. And that if needed he could trust me. doubt it'd ever be needed but you knwo whatever. Hmm wonder what would happen if gilson like fainted in class and mc wasn't there (mc is the back up teacher to help the stupid kids). Who would do something? And while i doubt that would happen because mg is only 36 and a runner therefore in good shape. You know if he didn't eat enough or was dehydrated he could faint. But what would happen. hehe i could imagine him fainting or at least falling if i say kicked him in the balls. Because i doubt that he wears acup to school. hehe mg wearing a cup that would be funny.

You know apperently mg was very comfertable talking to girls about seeing their cleavage. There is something so wrong with that. And he is engaged. Hehe Wedding. Him married hehe, hehe if his gf didn't get his humor i would pity her. But i bet she does. You know he and i have like THE smae train of thought. I mean we were talking about something and in my head i said unless they were cannibals then in a few seconds he says outloud 'unless they were cannibals'. It was so weird. hehe.

Yeah i had a dream with him in it. weird he really should stay OUT of my dreams. That's just wrong. At least nothing sexual has happened between me and him or him and anyone else in my dream. And i really really hope it stays that way. you know i heard mg was married before. Wondered what happened. did his former wife die or did the divorce? And he quit smoking around that time and lost weight around then. I don't know divorce seems wrong. Why would HE of all people rush into marriage so that he ends up getting a divorce. Unless the wife wanted the divorce then it doesn't seem as weird. But still you should divorce you should marry someone you love adn stay with them.

Ok i think i'm done ranting about marrigae.

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kiwi

:: 2003 28 April :: 9.47pm

Pyshicals
Man going to the doctor and having them check you out seems like such a invasion of privacy. I mean sure the doctor was woman but still. Can't they just trust you to tell them when you don't feel well. Or come up with like a watch that tells you if somethings wrong with you?

Some people are soo inresponsible. Are notecards have been due the same day since before break and TEN people forget them or don't have them all!

And while I was sitting there and the people still sitting down got fewer and fewer for some reason my heart beat speed up like i had something to fear. But i had finished all of my notecards and source cards the night before. So what was i afraid of? The fact i had forgotten the volume and page numbers on two of the source cards?

So i'm getting my passport picture taken tomorrow. So what would happen if you dyed you hair, had plastic sugery, and grew 2 inches between the tiem you had that picture taken and tried to go to another country. Would they bring you in for fraud?

Bored. And hungry. Maybe it's time to go downstaris and get some desert?

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kiwi

:: 2003 27 April :: 3.10pm

Work
I hate school work. And i mean who USES notecards? Not me adn source cards may be sorta useful but not really. And why in the world are we doing scientists in science? I mean really shouldn't we be learning science. Not looking around and being bored by presentations? ga

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kiwi

:: 2003 24 April :: 2.19pm
:: Mood: awake

Grades
Well i'm back from Iowa and i got my grades. And i got preetty good grades in everything except gym. And i tried!!!!!! She gave me an 88 how could she do that! She bumped me off the Principals list! That was the ONLY B+ I got! The only one i've gotten the whole year! But Cubby did give me a 96 which was really suprizing because i didn't finish a WHOLE project and one was really crappy the other was poor workmanship but one i thought was really good. Hmm maybe he gave me a break because i ended up being absent so much. My grade went down in a couple of classes. Guess i might want to try to study humph. But the only thing below an A was GYM!!!!

Yeah in other news Iowa wasn't as boring as the car trip not that i expected any thing else. Iowa wasn't as boring as last time though. Other wise i think i might have died.

Lalalala. Wish liz would get back from her grammies. I want to talk.

OH! I got my ears pierced! White gold balls 3mm. I both ears! Finally!!!!!

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kiwi

:: 2003 15 April :: 4.04pm
:: Music: NOFX-Hobophobic

Double standards
They are sooo mean and cruel the... ok well i won't cared them names. So by now you should now that they canceled DI. Ok and they did that because they called going to the competition on a saturday a field trip. But BUT!!!!! THEY DIDN'T CANCEL ROBOTICS! OK and the big deal is that Robotics is that they go to a competition too. And it's on a weekend. So why sin't it canceled? That's what i want to know. And then there is always the thing that they didn't cancel sports. Ok so i think they have something against DI. Because it's the only thing that got canceled. Well... yeah it's the only extra-crulicum activity that got canceled. There are only two other activites that go to competitions and neither of them are canceled. Ok so the games aren't really compeitions but they are close. But technalliy if those are compeitions there are more of those which poses more of a risk. And Robotics that is like the same thing we are doing. I want to know why they didn't cancel that. And if they say they worked harder its bull****. If the worked longer bull****. It's later in the year, that's a crappy answer our field trip to the shore is even later in the year and that got cancelled. There are less people in the group. So? I thought you didn't want to lose any! Ok So i'm like going to hit the whole school board over the head with a tennis racket soon if i find out anymore stuff like this.

On anyother note i can't even fanthom why any teacher might even think i'd use something i made in class in my final draft. It was off the top on my head. Weirdos.

Yeah and i got to be my friends 'bodyguard' when she went to get snack. That's how evil her ex is.

Oh yeah i get to go to Iowa for spring break i mean really that is not going to be the most interesting spring break i've ever had. I mean really have you ever BEEN to Iowa?

So in conclusion people suck, the school board sucks more, boyfriends are evil, and Iowa is boring.

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kiwi

:: 2003 11 April :: 4.06pm
:: Mood: complacent
:: Music: NOFX-Heavy Petting Zoo

Mad
Oh i'm not mad at mg any more i'm still mad at a though but that may carry over from when i was really young. And i'm not mad a k either but he is always pretty much nice so whatever. Yeah mg still annoies me on a regular basis but i'm not mad at him. I'm bored. really Really bored. I should work on my poster for science. Should I? Maybe i should work on my website. You know you people are no fun right? That i have NO Drops of blood, except my own. But that doesn't count!

Yeah and i had a really weird dream where they canceled all the field trips and then we went to europe. And i killed two evil, drugged up kangroos.

I WANT MY PRESSIE!!!!!

And my grades but not as much.

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kiwi

:: 2003 11 April :: 3.44pm
:: Mood: complacent
:: Music: NOFX-Heavy petting Zoo

Perfect little world
I don't know lately i've seen stuff happen to my friends that is horrible, sometimes just i think that but sometimes they do too. But it seems compared to them i live in a perfect fairy tale land. I mean my friend has her old boyfriend like STALKING her(exageration). Some my other friends are like constantly failing and getting trouble. One has an older sister (i'm friends with both) and they are constantly getting ready to fight and saying stuff to me behind their backs. Another friend is getting sick all the time. Another one of my friend hatres preps with a real passion and gets made fun of because she wears black and finally lost it and slapped some girl.

And all that's really happened to me is my friend moved. Some stuff might pop up some time but right now that's it.

Wow this is weird and i can't even help really. I only get to give warnings and do little things. I didn't even get to give moral support because two others jumped right in when she started crying and i didn't notcie right away.

Dom perfect world. How do i get out?

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kiwi

:: 2003 26 March :: 9.33pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: TLC-Thorw your hands up

DI
I'm really mad at my school district. they canceled all of our feild trips for the whole year! And no other school district that i know of is doing that! And they are jsut doing this because the 8th graders can't go to washington D.C. doesn't make it fair to cancel everyone elses field trips! And we've only had one field trip so far and it was to Camp bernie. Adn that was like the worst field trip i've ever been on, seriously. We were going to go to the shore but nooo. And the Wind ensambles was going to go Hersey Park. And i think W.E. should still go because we work our bums off to sound good and only our parents and some classmates hear us. And we are the best sounding instrumental group in the school! And we were at the end of the concert so all the spoiled parents LEFT before we played! Only parents of the kids in W.E. and polite people wre left! So we deserve to show off our work to people who will care and get rewarded for working hard by hanging out in the park! And then, this was the last straw, they canceled DI!!! I mean really it's an inter-scholastic program like baseball and softball but were those canceled? Nooo. they can't cancel their precious sports but they can cancel DI. We've been working the whole year jsut to go to the competition. And the competition is on a saturday! It's not even during or right after school!!! AND! I was the last to know! So know i'm amd at the board of ed., my teacher, adn the other 7th graders in DI for not telling me!!! I came in early today and i had jsut found out! How is this fair? Sports get to go on adn they travel to different schools? the DI competition will be in a school! And we have been working the whole year and the sports (baseball and softball) Have jsut finished or not even finished their try-outs! That is soooo unfair! I think that's having a double standard(correct me if i'm wrong please). That it's ok for the sports teams to go to other schools to compete but not for DI! And again i state Di has been working for the whole year and sports hasn't! And DI would be at a school! On a saturday! And their reason (they say) is because of current world events. I bet the terrorists don't even know were the town we live in is. And i don't even think they are dumb enough to bomb a school on a SATURDAY!! HOW COULD THEY DO THIS TO US! That is just cruel and unusual punishment. We have worked hard to get jsut the right script and get the materials and i wrote two good poems for it but i get to read them? NO!!!! And it is really sad that we work really hard and what do we get. Denied the chance to show what we worked on. Unlike sports!

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kiwi

:: 2003 25 March :: 8.10pm
:: Mood: miffed
:: Music: A*Teens

Teacher
GRRRR. MG is really annoying me lately. Or maybe i'm jsut being mouthy lately because of stress and i'm annoying him. But still i was mad at him like all of last week and I had jsut recently cooled down. And then today he goes and makes me mad... AGAIN! Grr he was acting like such a smart mouth. I mean really it wasn'tlike it was how to define it was a word, it was if you saw a shape out of words. And jsut because i didn't see it and said no meant i was right and you were wrong. We can BOTH be right. I mean really YOU are the teacher you should stinking know that! Don't they teach you anything??? And you make it seem like i always think i'm right! I DON'T!!!!! Most of the time i just pretend to because it seems like everyone expects it! And i didn't give my self a five though i really should of because i thought you might give me a four and i wanted to even it out!!!!!! I know it wasn't the best i could do but if you would stop coddling us and start teaching us maybe i would do better! AND YES, I DO WANT TO READ NOVELS!! Do you have a problem with that? And if you do? DO i give??? NO!!!!!!!! SO right now.. if i seem distant and cold. It's your own dom fault. Because you were an idiot to me so i'm mad at you making me seem distant and cold. And if you weren't a teacher i wouldn't talk to you until i was over being mad! GRRR YOU!

ok i think i'm better. I'm still mad at mg but you know i'm better. Yeah that was pretty much the most interesting thing that happened around me. MG did get hit in the nuts by some keys MF threw but i wasn't there. And MF's fly was down the whole class and when he found out he turned red and had to go outside. hehehe. All the good things happen when i'm not there.

Kiwi

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