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2007 17 June :: 3.53pm
roman and i are moving into a fricken SWEET apartment at the end of august.
i thought our place was nice but it doesn't even compare to this.
we finally will have a DISHWASHER yay!!! and it is a TWO BEDROOM. 890 sq feet and we will only be paying about 30 bucks than we do now. yay i'm so excited.
on top of all the extra space we will have, we also have access to an indoor and outdoor pool, tennis courts basket ball courts, hot tub, saunas, and fitness center that has everything you need, it is it's own fitness center that people who aren't residents even use and have to have memberships to so it is huge and nice. there is also a community center to just hang out in and it has like a pool table and it's just a cute place to hang out.
i am just so excited!!! the only thing i am upset about is that we still wont have our own washer and dryer. that SUCKS. but i am still very pleased with our choice. YAY!
i wish we could move in tomorrow because i dont want to have to wait.
it is still in the same area we live in now- wyoming . so thats cool too.
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2007 15 June :: 9.20pm
so i just had an interview with a huge jerk.
fuck him.
''it makes it hard for follow up questions.''
''i'm the weeder''
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2007 14 June :: 2.18am
I feel kind of bad because everyone else is reverse culture shocking it up and wants to go back to France.
But then I think about it and it is okay that everyone else loved France and wants to go back.
I am more happy here than I have been since maybe November or before whenever leaving for France became real.
They can have all the France they want.
Because it sucked and I hated it.
I seriously am surprised when men don't yell at me, check me out or honk at me when they drive by. And that is not a good thing to be surprised about.
For clarification, when I was in the airport in France waiting for my plane wearing khakis that I'd slept in and an old comfy shirt, airport security guards clicked at me. It's this thing that French guys did. They clicked at girls like you would click at a cat or dog to make it come to you. When I was in Texas and wearing a shirt white dress with a tennis skirt that snapped in the front, a guy looked at me and moved on. Like a normal person.
I am so glad to be home.
Plus there are stores open later than 7 at night. And I understand everything people say.
Seriously, this is the best country in the world. And you know how I hate this country.
I just wish I had my car and my job.
I love you all and I am so happy to be home. Beyond happy.
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2007 12 June :: 10.48pm
*sigh*
life....
overwhelming.
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2007 11 June :: 11.21pm
we used to do this when we were in high school, like the early years of it i mean and you just have to assume. so i dont know. i'm really confused right now. but lets keep being all mysterious i guess because thats just how we do. ha.
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2007 9 June :: 8.49pm
Buddy and I found a ribbon generator:
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2007 9 June :: 2.53pm
I'm going to be a nurse.
Well, I hope I am anyway. Davenport finally created a nursing program at their grand rapids campus and I am so excited. I have been hoping for this ever since I got the scholarship. They have been planning on having one there but not for a long while. But I guess they sped things up because they are having one now.
There are only 30 spots and I just pray that I will get one.
yay.
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2007 6 June :: 10.19pm
i know its bad but i am skipping my homework tonight. i am just so overwhelmed and i can't take it anymore. all i want to do is sit around and relax and dream about my wedding.
and my baby is home so that is it. love.
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2007 4 June :: 7.45am
:: Mood: jubilant
I AM HOME!
Things that are going to be hard to get used to: keyboard, McHenry now falls over.
I am home!!!
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2007 31 May :: 10.05pm
i don't understand how anyone can survive without air conditioning.
our air conditioning is still broken even though it was supposed to be fixed today. they couldn't fix it.
i am seriously going to die. i know it sounds pathetic. but i'm really going to die. i'm suprised i'm not already dead. i have never been so sick in my life. tuesday at 2 in the morning i puked like every hour until 9 . seriously i threw up everything in me. i was so dehydrated but whenever i drank water i would just throw it up. i wanted to die so bad.
it's a long story but i took too much cold medicine i'm pretty sure. i just layed in the bathroom and hugged the toilet the whole night and all day tuesday. omg i just wanted to die.
that's it.
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2007 28 May :: 6.54pm
we're engaged!
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2007 24 May :: 10.51pm
something big happened
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2007 23 May :: 9.56pm
seriously, i dont even like american idol that much. i just have a strange curiousity about who is going to win. i just have to know. and god i swear these random songs and random performers are getting so damn annoying i cna't watch for much longer.
they ARE deciding tonight, aren't they?
god they better be.
5 more minutes and this show is ending.
they're deciding tonight right. please dont tell me i watched this whole thing for no reason. just tell me who fricken won.
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lots of crap going on in my life i just dont feel like typing. i hate children.
that's totally not true but i just kinda feel like that.
and yet again i am getting sick. why? becausei work around snot nosed kids all day. and i swear to god i got sick from the one kid i cannot STAND because i had to keep wiping the oozing green snot from his fat little nose.
fucker.
g'night.
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2007 23 May :: 7.48pm
A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
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2007 21 May :: 7.02pm
oh my god i am in tears and seriously i'm going to kill myself. today and ysterday i have had the worst headache in the worldmaking mesick to my stomach with pain and omg so apparantely i get migraines now. i am seriously gonna drill a hole in my brain . this hasn't happened since i worked at beaners so it has been quite a while but then last night it happened and then today at work. right before i get the headache i can't see out of one of my eyes. it is all blurry as if i had been looking at the sun or had a flash from a camera in my eye. but it's not just in one spot it is over most of the eye. it makes me have blurry and double vision. seriously everytime i looked at a kid they had two faces. omg and then i had to wrok in the baby room so that was a little better. a little quieter except when they were crying.
and then itgot really realy bad and i was crying but at least i was in the baby room so no one could see it. omg i was gonna ask to go home but of course i am too scared to so i didn't. and i felt so sick i thought i was going to throw up all over the infants. lol. but seriously i elt so nausous . BLEH andthen i have to spend the rest of the day dealing with annoying kids and having a stupid boy spit/pretend sneeze in my face a million times. and screaming stupid kids omg i swear it was a bad day.
yeah so that was my day.
even now when my head isn't like it was it's like a dull annoying headache and if i bend down or anything it all feels like it is scoming back at aonce. if i sneeze or cough or anything that puts pressure on my head it's just like UGHGHGHG. omg i want it to go waway.
sorry for the complianing but i couldn't complain about it all day and it was so horrible.
OMG.
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2007 20 May :: 7.59pm
READ THIS.
Ok, so I lost all of my photos. Everything. Prom, graduation, parties, my first trip out of state, artsy shots, hanging out, my first photos with my new camera.. basically every photo in the past two years.
What happened is I deleted my account, because I couldn't remember my password for the life of me. I was asked if I'd like my files moved, so I said yes. Then I was asked if I'd like to delete my account even though my files would be deleted, I then chose no. After I chose that my account was deleted anyway.
I did searches in all drives and found nothing. And yes, I did check the recycle bin and nothing was there either. It's like they were just gone after the account thing.
If anyone has any way of getting something like this back please help me.
Basically I have lost all hope and am sure that everything is gone.
So, I am asking anyone who has any photos from an event I attended, or when friends hung out, Graduation, dances, prom.. please send them to me. Burn them to a CD or something.
Please take the time to help me out. I am completely crushed to have lost all of these photos.
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2007 19 May :: 10.59pm
kinda not understanding the grey's finale... hmm
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2007 18 May :: 11.17pm
i made macaroni and cheese for you and now it's getting all nasty and soggy.
great.
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2007 18 May :: 12.47pm
Ready to come home.
16 days.
Might go to the beach, I really don't want to.
I miss Nick now more than ever.
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2007 15 May :: 5.21pm
19 days until I am home.
I want to punch someone.
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2007 11 May :: 12.43pm
My dad also went into the hospital Sunday. HE called me on Wednesday and told me.
Thanks for keeping me updated, Mom.
Next week is our last week of classes and then we have exams then a week of nothing before HOME SWEET HOME.
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2007 3 May :: 10.36pm
this is what i'm thinking right now
i need someone new to tell me i'm pretty.
i dont know what to do.
my fucking watch broke
i dont have any money it seems like
how much alocohol is too much.
i miss my long hair god dammit.
i hate my short hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i want to dye it.
and diet.
dye it and diet. ha.
yeah funny
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2007 3 May :: 9.30pm
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
fuck. what is wrong with me.
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2007 31 May :: 9.50pm
soooo
right now
i know i'm slacking. but i will begin soon so i dont feel all that bad about it.
roman had this incredibly exciting, completely romantic big suprise all planned. I LOVE suprises. (for the most part) but he cannot keep secrets/suprises/exciting news from me SO he spilled the beans and told me about it. but i stopped him before he told me the details. i am so excited about this though. it is going to be so awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel like going to sleep right now. i probably should. it'd be good for me. i have to get up at like 7 tomorrow anyway. i have to work at 8.30. i am getting a lot of hours at work. good but tiring. 9 hour days are not so fun. so anyway. i should go to bed. but i'm not going to . i have to wait for roman of course. i hate that he works so late. ugh.
i have been scrapbooking again for the first time since i've lived in the apartment. wow. but i love scrapbooking. and roman is finally putting back to gether the collage i made for him that broke and i cried when he didn't put it back together!! that is nice.
i really like the girls i work with. i am so sad that one is leaving. she is SO funny. i love when people are witty funny. i wish i could be more witty funny. so anyway the girl who is super nice and super funny is leaving and i am incredibly sad.
i seriously love my cats. i feel like a crazy cat lady. but i duno. i just love them so much. i am happy to see them when i get home and sad to leave them when i go. is that messed up?
i hate sarah jessica parker. she is so effing ugly. and annoying.
and god i hate sex and the city.
why is there nothing on my basic cable.
so there is this adorable boy tyler who always gets picked up last at the daycare. and when all the other kids go home and he's the only one left we say "it's just me and you". it's so cute. and then we read books or play the computer together. he can be really naughty but when it's just me and him he is so sweet and adorable. today when the last other kid left I said "What do we say Tyler?" and he said "You say it." and I said "No,you" and so he says "It's just me and you!" and then he said "When I leave then you say ' it's just me!' ". I thought that was so cute.
okay sorry. i seriously talk about the daycare kids like they are my own. but hey, they are part of my life.
btw. i am obsessed with Anchorman. the movie. yeah i know it's like a year later than everyone else on the planet but me and roman like just realized that we love that movie. we quote it like so much it makes me sick.
wonderful Bush, just wonderful. Why don't we all just stay in Iraq until everyone is dead. You are so stupid. I see the reason you don't want to plan the dates for withdrawaling but ughghghghgh. i duno.
yeah so..
that's it. bye
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2007 26 April :: 7.10pm
YEAH BITCH. i just got all a's this semester. hahahahahhahahahahahahahhahahaha yay
a fricken A in med terms which is a class that lots of people fail. that makes me so happy yay!
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2007 25 April :: 9.24pm
So here's the deal. i have decided to lose weight. i would really like to lose 30 pounds but i dont know if that is a realistic goal.
i have 3 months to lose weight. how much is a reasonable amount to want to lose in 3 months?
i dont know so help me out all you in shape people!
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2007 25 April :: 8.53pm
I need to do something with my life. like... before i begin a regular life with a family and career i want to do something exciting.
i need something interesting .
why does the singer from rascal flats have to be so ugly. i never knew what he looked like and i used to picture him as handsome a man as his voice is good. but he's like utterly hideous. but god i love his voice.
i did so well on my final today. i'm pretty sure i got at least a 90% which means my final grade in that class with be 96% which means that is another A. i have all A's so far and two more grades need to be submitted but i'm pretty sure i will end up with all a's this semester which is pretty awesome.
next year after my summer classes end, i will have one more class until i can actually graduate and be a medical assistant. cooley cool cool huh.
but then what.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
i wanna get married.
Roman, i love you.
speaking of whom. he is home. g'day
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2007 25 April :: 12.25pm
39 days, bitches!
I am so excited to come home!
So at the u here there are four or five levels of classes. At the beginning of the year, we took a placement test to get into a level. Most of us got in level 3 but two of us were placed in level 2. Anyway, the only test we have is at the end of the year. In France, doing well on the exam means getting 50 percent but at home, that transfers back as a D. On everything. So last year's group made a stink and this year, one of our professors here expressed concern for our sucess on the exam. She signed us up for level 2's exam so we could actually pass. I still have to take level 3 but they take the best grade you get anyway in the end.
So I am not worried.
Just waiting to come home.
I love you all.
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2007 24 April :: 10.48pm
I finally did it.
I went to the gym.
and it felt FABULOUS!
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2007 24 April :: 12.37pm
we've lived in this apartment for 9 months. that is weird. that's like, almost a year. also that is a lot of money spent.
when it comes to school work and trying to lose weight i feel like i am on this ride that never ends and i just want a break so that i can get my life in order. but i will never get that break. i envy kids that go to school all school year long and dont have to do anything but worry about school and live their lives. i fucking envy you kids. but then again, i feel like i'm way ahead of those people because i can handle being on my own.
so fuck yall.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
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