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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 10 July :: 11.54am

okay so stef's bridal shower was yesterday. that went well i thought.

and then last night after that i left and met roman in k-zoo. ughghghghgh and now i probably wont see him until august 5th which i know i keep saying but i'm pretty sure i mean it this time.

we got stef and pauls wedding gift last night. which i was thinking Stef- can't you just go to the places you're registered and even though it's not a big suprise what you're getting for presents anyway, since you picked them out, you could just print your list off and see what people have already bought you before the wedding. ha. it's funny i think.

and then after we bought the gift we went to the movies which i dont think we have doen since.... last summer or something when we saw fun with dick and jane, or was that this winter? i dont remember but it's been a long ass time because we never want to spend our money on movies but i wanted to see click and it was pretty good and i cried.

and then there was this storm in kalamazoo when we got out of the movie, it wasn't raining but there was thunder and lightning . the lightning seriously looked so cool. whenever it striked it lit up the sky and was all purple . it looked like a poster or like professional photo of lightning. it was so pretty. so we just watched that for a while. and then went to arbys.

anyway, long story short i didnt' get home till 2:10 am and then had to get up at 8:30 to go to the fricken doctors. i looked at the scale for the first time in a long time today and i WANT TO CRY. but oh well, me and roman were talkigna bout how we're gonna lose weight anyway when we move in so whatever , i'm not that concerned. and i'm gonna try to use the gym or whatever at davenport too when i can.

anyway, the apartment lady called me this morning and told me i get to see OUR apartment 212!!! on friday. yay so i get to see the real one that will be our home in one month!!!! So friday i get to go down there and pick out the colors that they will paint it and get that all settled. i can't wait.

welll now i have to leave for work because i have to work from 12:30 to close which is 10 which sucks a lot. nine and half hours that i picked up even though now i dont want them but too bad for me and i guess more money.

ughghghgh~!!! stupid work i hate you. hopefully i get to work on service today because that is more fun.

g'day.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 9 July :: 11.35am

oh my gawwwd.

i can't wait to move out. why are you talking to me about all this stuff i dont give a crap about. seriously. stop talking.

well i'm glad the money got your attention. what a fricken suprise.

cannnnnnnnnnnnnt wait.

i have one month and 2 days left but really it's more like about 25 days because i'm gonna be so busy w/ stef's wedding that i wont have time to think about the apartment within the last week. yayyyyyyy

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 7 July :: 11.54pm

oh wait, i have to write about one more thing because i am so serious about it.

when we move into the apartment, i'm putting this picture of me and roman on the fridge. It's a picture from when I was in the beginning of my Junior year, and him his senior year. and you can tell such a difference in our weight. we were so skinny.

i swear i'm getting back down to like 105. swear. as soon as i can buy my own food, when i buy the healthy stuff, that's all i'll have for the week and no exceptions. seriously in my moms house they never buy anything healthy EVER. like fruits and veggies dont even exist in this house. well, canned ones but that doesn't really count. i cna't wait until i can buy what i should eat and then be forced to eat it because i can't waste my money. hahaha. and then also i wont over eat because then i will be broke!!!!

i just seriously can't wait to get skinny again. and i know roman can't either. my baby wants his big ol guns and tight ass back. lol. i'm buying him weights for christmas too. shhh.

so yeah that's my plan and i SERIOUSLY am sticking to it! no freshman 15 for me. it's freshman negative 15 for me. yeah i'm so serious about this i even bought a scale for us today. haha. right now i will continue to pig out though...yeah.... i'm horrible oh well!

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 7 July :: 11.33pm

Right now there is a lot going on.

I'll be moving in a month, that's probably... no definetely the most important and biggest thing going on in my life. But Stef's wedding is also something on my mind a lot and something I'm looking forward to as well.

I've only been to like one wedding, and definetely never been in a wedding like I will be in Stef's, a bridesmaid, so I'm excited for it. I think it will be fun and really pretty. I mean, it's at Fredrick Meijer Gardens. You can't get much more pretty than nature's beauty like that.

I'm so ready to move in with Roman. I've been 2 hours away from him since January and I can't take it anymore. I feel like it has definetely strengthened our relationship , our trust, our commitment... but it's so hard. I thought him being at Ferris was hard but him being in Jackson was definetely more trying. I dont know where I'm going with this... just , I am really excited for the move. ahahahsdl;fkjasfl;aksjfaksjfa;skdfas;lkfjsdf

so ready for it.

Almost everything is packed. almost everything. yay

and i'm done typing in this thing cuz it's dumb and i have to work 9 to 7:30 tomororrow
so night.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 7 July :: 11.23pm

ugh it makes me mad because i lost a good friend but it's like i dont even want to mend things because you're so fake now anyway.

hmph.

so i guess i just wish i had the old you back but nothing else.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 7 July :: 6.59pm

JACKIE. how do you like my pic? yeah i'm pretty sure it's really really hot.

hit me back jack.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 6 July :: 11.41pm

So I'm moving out in just over a month. I'm so excited for this.

I've done the budget multiple times figuring in different things and problems and things. It all seems to be fine. I've lived 2 hours away from Roman for 7 months now, and I am more than ready for that to end.

I'm ready for school to begin, I feel like my schedule is pretty good. It looks like i'll have plenty of room to keep working. Hopefully my classes will be pretty easy.

All that's left really is to have the apartment painted the colors we picked out and to see the finished product. And of course to pay for everything.

I'd like to still get a comforter for our (less than one year old!!! queen size!!) bed, but we'll use other blankets until we find one we really love that isn't too expensive.., and other than that, we need a trash can, paper towel holder and some other very random and not completely nessacary things. so yay. My car is loaded completely with things for the apartment and I can't wait to unload and unpack them. and use them!!

anyway i'll finish this later

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 6 July :: 11.17pm

yay thank you gunnie so much for totally fixing my laptop. he is seriously a great friend!

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bleedingsun

:: 2006 6 July :: 10.35pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: ATDI

Crepitating as I type

I made 65 dollars today.

My whole body is sore, especially my hands. I was standing in a hollow, empty church, hammering the wall for seven hours. Dust was thick in the air as chunks of plaster flew by me, into my mouth and hair.

I'm going to bed now.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 5 July :: 7.43pm

Again, fuck you people.

not all of you but a lot.

i think all i'm gonna focus on is working and moving into the apartment. i am trying to pick up a lot of hours. i picked up 8 for tomrorow which brings me to 42.5 hours for this week and i picked up like 14 next week because i was scheduled for less than 30... i ended up with 42 hours next week too.

so hellooo overtime and hello money..

anyway fourth of july was fun. went to grand haven. took 3 hours to get home because of traffic. holy shit. didn't get home until 2. had to work at EIGHT this morning until 4:30 then drive straight to davenport and took a test and passed and now i dont have to take the beginning english and i already have those 3 credits SCORE.

so yay. yup. but my laptop isn't working or something.

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shannonw55

:: 2006 5 July :: 12.12am
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: Steven Lynch - Vanila Ice Cream

That was definetly the best 4th o' July EVER!

hehehe yayyy! :)

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 4 July :: 11.07am

OH MY GOD.

YOU ARE KIDDING ME.

whatever whatever whatever. lie and then totally be hypocrites. i dont fucking care. i never liked you anyway!

fuck you people.

and also. this is the third fucking year in a row that i am doing absolutely nothing on the fourth of july. i had wonderful plans but now they are ruined and i am so fucking mad.

i'm so fucking mad.

nevermind. and kevin thanks for the invite, sorry i was in the shower. but actually the original plans i had are back so thank you though. :0)

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shannonw55

:: 2006 3 July :: 6.54pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Alanis Morissette - You Oughta Know / The Format - On Your Porch

Corn is my therapy.

hahaha It's not so bad.

BTW: Kevin, Cherie, and Bill, I'm sorry. And thank you. <3

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shannonw55

:: 2006 28 June :: 12.05pm

Roguing tomorrow!

Who else is involved?

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 27 June :: 1.26am
:: Music: tennessee -from pearlharbor

I wish that on Wednesday at 6 until 9 I had pit practice and we were playing the Kansas show and Dacia and Danielle were there again.

and I wish that Justine would play Tennessee on the piano.

And then I wish Thursday everything would be back to normal again.

But not until Wednesday we did 10 run throughs with the whole drumline of the Kansas show and I hit every note right that effing xylophone that everyone hates anyway because it's so loud but that is why I secretly love it. And on Dust in the Wind the vibraphone is so beautiful and we get the beginning right and at the end I make the Vibes do the little vibratey reverberation thing.

So beautiful.

Not Thursday until I can appreciate that one more time. God I miss feeling it. Don't make it Thursday until I can watch Justine play the show with us and think how she is really better than I am and be jealous but secretly be a lot more happy than jealous ... it always made me proud or something that she was the best out of all of us. Danielle and I both knew it. It was like she scared us when she was a freshman. She was so good. And so diligent.

God... and those drums so fucking loud. Rocking your brain and playing the same thing over and over and over. I miss it.

I wish I could have one more day.

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