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:: 2006 16 March :: 2.18pm

aw poor you!!

cry me a fricken river!

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:: 2006 16 March :: 12.12pm

nevermind... im not going.

you are UNbelievable.

:: 2006 16 March :: 8.56am

aww.. we went to the circus last night. it was really cool. i havent been to the circus since i was like 7, and every time it comes to town we always miss it. :) smiles..... what a wonderful night.

tonight's a rampage game. to bad im going by myself.... ahh well.

:: 2006 15 March :: 11.07pm

Have you ever felt like everything you've worked for your entire life was for nothing? Have you? It's really disapointing.

I had a lot more to say, but Roman just called me and suddenly, it's like I can't complain anymore.

And to YOU: the one i talk about ALL the time I swear. because your HORRIBLE UNAPPRECIATION just burns my soul everytime i hear about it: You think you've got it so bad it just kills me. I wish just ONCE you could be like us. You could be like me. You could know what it's like. UGALSDGJ God I can't even say what I want to. You bug me so much. Someday you'll see. And who SAYS I can't feel that way or say those things or do those things? YOU? is it WRONG and unethical and impractical and impossible because your DUMBASS says it is?!?!? Is that what you want me to believe. Gosh you amaze me in the worst way possible. I dont know how I can even "stand" you. Oh, but sigh... I only wish I could be as GREAT as you.

:: 2006 15 March :: 1.42pm

It's so fricken easy to say yeah I'm gonna be so great and everything's going to be so great and I'm going to graduate college and become this great thing and earn this great money and blah blah blah but now I realize nothing is ever going to happen.

great.

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:: 2006 15 March :: 9.21am

im going on a date tonight, where... im not sure. its a suprise. i was just told to get dressed up and to be ready by six. i love how that "feeling" never dies with us. how happy i am when i see you, how proud i am to call you mine, how you simply make me smile even when you're not around. we're going on 16 months now. and im just as giddy and excited to spend time with you as i was when we first started dating. and im not going to be all cheezy and melodramatic and say that you complete me, because you dont. and nobody should feel that way about somebody else. but we complement eachother so perfectly.

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:: 2006 14 March :: 9.25pm

Thank you, God.

Roman got a car. It has honestly been since like July that he hasn't had a car. Do you know how hard that has been for us?

He got a 2003 Taurus only 40 thousand miles on it!! I am so excited it looks so nice and new and pretty and yay I'm so excited.

YAY! We never imagined he would get this good of a deal or this nice of a car. I'm so happy.

Finally one thing good has happened.!

i'm gonna be jealous he has a better car than I do now lol@!!! Pimpin in his sweet ride!

:: 2006 14 March :: 3.08pm

I don't even know what this means, and don't ask me to explain in depth what a "slowdown" even is. But I just like this and it's making me want to cry.

I must look just like a fool
Here in the middle of the road
Standin' there in your rearview
Gettin' soaked to the bone
This land as flat as it is mean
A man can see for a hundred miles
So I'm still prayin' I might see
The glow of the brake light

But your wheels just turn, down the road ahead
If it hurts at all, you ain't showed it yet
I keep lookin' for the slightest sign
That you might miss, what you left behind
I know there's nothin' stoppin you now
But I'd settle for a slowdown

I held on longer than I should
Believin' you might change your mind
And those bright lights of Hollywood
Would fade in time

But your wheels just turn, down the road ahead
If it hurts at all, you ain't showed it yet
You're just a tiny dot, on that horizon line
Come on tap those brakes, baby just one time
I know there's nothin' stoppin' you now
I'm not asking you to turn back around
I'd settle for a slowdown
Come on just slowdown
I'd settle for a slowdown

I guess you wouldn't understand....

:: 2006 14 March :: 2.53pm

I'm just too far, from where you are, I wanna come home.
UGGHGHHGGHg

i dont even know what i'm doing anymore. my grades are getting so bad and this college class i'm taking is/was a ridiculous idea and i have another test today and i dont feel like going because i know im' going to fail it. there's no doubt so why even waste my time i wish i could just drop out of it.

there's no point especially because im not even going to college. just cosmetology school but then again i could always go college later in life so i dont want to fuck everything up but it will be anyway because i'm going to fail all the tests. i passed the last one but that was only because i duno... it was just better.

and yeah i guess the only good thing going on is roman is probably finally getting a car. this rowe city auto place in jackson has all their cars 40 thou and less miles and all 2000 or newer. how good is that? i know i feel like there must be a catch but we've both each called them twice and verified that that is really true and everything and he is actually there right now so hopefully everything works out.

please...

and i am just sick of pretty much everything. i want an apartment and i want to be done with school and my counter disapeered on my woohu page so now i lost track of how many days are left and it's upsetting me.

I wanna go home but oh wait I already am.

Yeah does that make any sense.

Hey would anyone do me a big favor and just comment to me and say something even just hi but not anything mean.

I want to cry and i have no drive.

my 6-8 page essay is due in 6 days and ta-daa i haven't even started it at all.

in fact, my works cited isn't even turned in. i just want to leave school. i wish i could and still graduate. but.

yeah. congratulations: a loser. So how do you like me now?

And seriously, how would you fill in these blanks? It's ridiculous... Just seriously even TRY

Always keep ________ your ________ on your phaser.

That doesn't even gramatically make any sense. Fuck!

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:: 2006 13 March :: 7.37pm

soooooooooooooo.

yeah.

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:: 2006 12 March :: 8.27pm

i love listening to chicago.. so i'm writing my paper and bob marley is great but i've listened to his cd twice.. and i jus tpopped in chicago.. and i'm revied!!! lol i'm a dork!! but i love it....... and all that jazz....

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:: 2006 12 March :: 12.05pm

so roman's birthday and our 2 year anniversary was yesterday.

it was fun and now i probably... more like definetely wont see him until march 31st.

yeah so great.

and in other news i dont know

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:: 2006 12 March :: 10.08am

today will be wonderful. i dont have to work, keegan doesnt have to work. its just an "us" day. i got to see him for like 3 hours last night after he got out of work before he had to go home.... and 2 1/2 of those hours we were sleeping. lol.

i started my brit lit paper last night. anybody else reading this will feel my pain. im doing mine on jack the ripper.... i almost had a break down last night about how there's no way im going to get it done in time. i mean... this week i have to write a 6-8 page research paper, a 5 minute speech, arrange everything for the talent show, work, i wont beable to get anything done on my paper on saturday because we're going to Ann Arbor for a BBoy battle. (hopefully i can use the schools camera) stupid mysterious murderer stressin me all out.

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:: 2006 10 March :: 10.51pm

I'm so invisible all the time.

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