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2009 25 December :: 12.00am
Merry Christmas Bitches!
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2009 21 December :: 4.16am
I'm Drunk... at jenny's house.. and you all fail..
Mine!
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skife
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2009 17 December :: 11.30pm
Dear santa clause, Go fuck yourself.
I'm depressed because;
My wallet is empty
My paycheck is spent (can't even cash it until tomorrow)
I can't buy anybody christmas presents this year.
I know how "Tennessee" Earnie Ford felt when he is singing "sixteen tons"
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2009 16 December :: 10.31am
woke up scared to death at 5am or so.
had this weird dream, i was hanging out in this housing development with kelli and jordan, and then i remember jordan's mom called, so i got into an old ford bronco and went to pick her up or something and then this henry guy called and he called all night, telling me things about myself freaking me out, then he said he'd be there in 20 minutes. i really didn't want to stick around to see who this guy was because i thought he was going to kill me, then while i was driving my truck got sucked backwards and kind of spun twards a tree and my door flew open and i flew out and face first right twards a tree. i remember the tree vividly.
the next thing i remember is seeing a bunch of white letters on a black background in a weird font. i was speaking gibberish and then i woke up.
about an hour later jordan woke me up saying i was talking gibberish while sleeping.
i hate dieing in dreams, it freaks me out.
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joslyn_julia
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2009 13 December :: 1.12pm
it would figure... i quit smoking and now my lungs are ablaze with sickness. I feel like i am dying... and finals are this week. ugh.
dont
want to
be
awake.
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2009 13 December :: 1.47pm
cameras ezwatch - TCP 5150
99.148.141.102
TCP 5160
99.148.141.102
TCP 80
99.148.141.102
TCP 8000
99.148.141.102
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2009 10 December :: 7.51pm
I haven't updated in awhile..
Don't really have a good reason as to why.
I don't really have anything exciting going on in my life right now, but things are going great.
I am happy and all that.
Trying to get through this semester of school..
Working on trying to get a new job..
I am so sick of all the talk of them firing me.. They won't do it, and it pisses me off.
I wish they'd just get it over with..
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joslyn_julia
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2009 10 December :: 5.18pm
:: Music: Autolux- Turnstile Blues
I want to blow things up.
I am stuck in a fit of rage.
I want my husband to be home.
I want my parents to fuck off and die
I want to not have a presentation for Finals tomorrow
and
I want to find peace, so i won't feel the need to yell at people.
and concentration.
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2009 10 December :: 4.09pm
anyone remember anything else i've owned?
1994 pontiac grand am
1989 ford probe
1992 ford probe
1978 pontiac grand prix
1980 oldsmobile cutlass
1992 toyota p/u 4x4
1993 dodge dakota 4x2
1984 pontiac 6000
1991 jeep cherokee 4x4
1984 ford mustang coupe
1992 ford tempo GLS
1989 merkur xr4ti
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joslyn_julia
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2009 10 December :: 1.12am
:: Music: Ida Maria- Nothing Sweet about Me
Ft. McCoy today... well yesterday.
I hate leaving him up there, i wanted to stuff him in the trunk and run away. I know i was the one to push for him to stay, and be paid for having his knee stuff done, but now i am fearful that I won't have him for christmas, and it will just be another empty holiday, on my own.
I miss him, i love him, and i feel empty without him.
I just want him home now. In my bed... *sigh* Hopefully in time for christmas... hopefully he will get surgery before then if he needs it and he will be home. hopefully i get through finals without doing anything stupid, or reckless, or whatever. I just need some comfort... and possibly some eternal sunshine.
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2009 9 December :: 12.16pm
some days i feel alone even when i'm not.
been neglecting woohu lately, didn't mean to.
christmas is coming; yay?
college needs to be paid for today, need to go setup a checking account.
the jeep is rusting.
hate using woohu to just complain about my life; there is much to complain about
there is so much good to; lots of good
scool starts in january
jeep still runs
i have work; although its not the best
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miss my friends
don't see lizzy or rache enough
wish i had more weekends off to hang out with them.
havn't hung out with anyone but box and justin in awhile :(
0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0
still hungry; for food, for adventure, to live on my own.
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2009 8 December :: 11.42am
I wanted snow, and now it is in the way of going to visit mike. the irony these days just gets stronger and stronger.
Day trip to Navy pier after i get out of math... well, actually leave math early to catch the train ect, ect. but i will be doing a wonderful photo project on the smith collection of stained glass, and see how well we can rush about chicago, so then i won't have to worry about getting back to kenosha at like midnight. sigh....
somedays it's just fuck it all, and i want to run run run.
and i should re-do my layout on here... the damn snow patrol bit is just so old now.
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2009 7 December :: 4.50am
a whole lotta messed up
so, i saw my man today... drove across the state when i should have been doing an essay that is due in 3 hours. It was good, at first. Then less so, and now worse. I am married and i still feel like a rag doll, that just makes me feel all sorts of fucked up. I try to be happy, and yet i still feel down... I wish i could explain it all to mike, but at this point i am not convinced it will ever matter.
just throw on a mental bandage once again, and hope that i forget... although that hasn't been working so well as of late... seeing as past bandaids are falling off and i can't help but be overwhelmed by the past. ugh.
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2009 4 December :: 11.52pm
Scratch recent posts. We're probably not going to have anyone over tomorrow. We're just going to go out for dinner and then relax with Brody instead. Sorry guys. Maybe New Years Eve though...?
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2009 2 December :: 1.04pm
i think we should get some people together again at AJ and chelsea's house this weekend.
what do you think chelsea?
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