'How can I stand here with you, and not be moved by you.'

:: 2003 11 December :: 12.16pm

It is funny how whenever I have to decide between sleep, or studying, i always choose sleep....

:: 2003 9 December :: 2.11pm

isn't a martyr someone who dies for their cause? so wouldnt "a wounded martyr" be a really ridiculous and redundant phrase?

3 FeyBebop | Edward

:: 2003 9 December :: 12.51am

now my eyes are still itching and burning
but i know that pretty soon i won't feel anything at all.
just have to wait it out.

but where are my friends when i need them?

:: 2003 9 December :: 12.43am

"smile, someone loves you."
who is that someone?

:: 2003 9 December :: 12.12am

when i'm upset, all i want is for you to hold me....
i guess i cant have that anymore.

:: 2003 9 December :: 12.01am

couldnt you just let me sleep

Frost

:: 2003 5 December :: 7.03pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Nickelback - Never Again

the wheels will stop and the entire kinetic energy of the system will be used to accelerate my head toward the ground

^quote from^
(http://maddox.xmission.com/c.cgi?u=segway_more_complicated_than_it_needs_to_be)

:: 2003 4 December :: 11.52pm

and i still haven't found...what i'm looking for...

:: 2003 3 December :: 11.26pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Everclear- Hating You for XMas

thanks for the christmas card
So I'm standing around waiting to have my picture taken for the last meeting of the Great Sex cast. I move my arm and I hear this "pop" noise...and now I cannot fully extend my elbow.... add this on top to the fact that I already suspect I might have a stress fracture in my right foot, and its time for that super fun yearly doctors appt...and I have the 6-month dentists coming up mid-month....

guess what i'm doing for break?
DOCTORS APPOINTMENTS!

big fun.

I just finished my last homework assignment for the semester...boy is that a good feeling. very different from the feeling that is reverberating thru my elbow.

i wonder sometimes if my "library" is a psychological attempt to add something to my relationship that i am not finding fulfillment in. liek maybe if certain elements of the relationship improve, that i wont worry about the deficient areas.

my arms and back hurt a lot too. i think i need a new job. but i do wonder what they would do if i had a broekn arm or foot.

its also very hard to make the bed when one arm feels liek its falling off. too bad i'm all alone.

"i dont want to hear about you new job now
i dont want to hear about your new girlfriend
i don't wanna hear about it all working out for you.
no, i dont want to hear it now.
i dont want to hear about your swinging new place
i dont want to hear how everyone thinks its great
i just want to sit in my apartment and hate you
i will be hating you for christmas."

:: 2003 29 November :: 2.03pm
:: Music: Mates of State- Fluke

I saw you walking on the sidewalk
(I can't say, who do I believe?)
Your head was taller than the trees
(Chance would have it that way)
The reconstruction had just started
(I can't say, who do I believe?)
And I knew we'd view it piece by piece
(I'll follow it at the same pace)

What do you think you see?

The horses their collision courses
(I can't say, who do I believe?)
I know exactly what you mean
(Chance would have it that way)
'Cause I'm obsessed with what would happen
(I can't say, who do I believe?)
If we'd had never changed a thing
(I'll follow it at the same pace)

Frost

:: 2003 26 November :: 1.35am
:: Mood: passive agressive wood elf : )
:: Music: Linkin Park - Numb

removed due to confusion

:: 2003 23 November :: 9.28pm

1. Give me a new nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. If there were a movie about my life, who would play me?
21. Who would play you in the movie about my life?
22. Who is my hero?
23. Are you going to put this on your Woohu and see what I say about you?

1 Fey | Edward

:: 2003 21 November :: 12.32pm

I'm stupidly happy
Everything's fine
I'm stupidly happy
My heart pumping wine
I'm stupidly happy
With idiot grin
I'm stupidly happy
You won't catch me in

All the birds of the air call your name as they land on my kitchen roof
All the fish in the sea do the same if you need extra proof

I'm stupidly happy
My vision is skewed
I'm stupidly happy
I'm coming unscrewed

And if the Devil walks up dressed in any disguise
I take him by the collars look him in the eye
I'm stupidly happy
Now you're my defense
I'm stupidly happy
It's all making sense

I'm stupidly happy
I roll like a train
I'm stupidly happy
With you in my brain

All the lights of the cars in the town form the strings of a big guitar
I'm a giant to play you a tune for wherever you are
I'm stupidly happy
Are the words to that song
I'm stupidly happy
And nothing is wrong
And should the Devil walk up with his business card out
I'll tear it to confetti with a grin and shout,
"I'm stupidly happy"
All of the time
I'm stupidly happy
Now you're mine

:: 2003 20 November :: 12.16pm

i should be homeworking.

:: 2003 17 November :: 4.41pm

once again i'm fading away.